LIGHTNOVELONLINE Chapter 43: Pei Siyuan (1): It turned out that she was his sun.
- Pei Siyuan (1): It turned out that she was his sun.
Pei Siyuan had always felt that the world he lived in was illusory.
This kind of illusion was reflected in almost every aspect of his life. He went to school every day like a routine, and his grades were always among the best, which was enviable, but he felt nothing. Sometimes, when he saw the questions he had just finished, he would suddenly be in a trance, feeling that the questions were done by him, but again it seemed not, he felt that he couldn’t remember even a little detail of doing the questions.
It was as if he was forced to be excellent, forced to become what others call “that family’s child”.
This false sense was even more obvious when facing Jiang Yao –
Jiang Yao was his neighbor’s daughter, and he has known her since childhood. In other people’s words, he and she should be regarded as childhood sweethearts.
He liked Jiang Yao – this seems to be the right thing to do. Jiang Yao was an excellent girl, she was warm and kind. Like the sun, she would always send warmth to the people around her. Anyone who has spent time with her wouldl find it difficult to hate her.
He liked Jiang Yao – there seemed to be no doubt, all people who knew him could come to this conclusion.
He liked Jiang Yao – even he himself thought so, he must like Jiang Yao, otherwise, why was he so patient and so different to her alone?
But, did he really like Jiang Yao?
If that feeling was really ‘like’ then, why couldn’t he feel any fluctuation in his heart?
When walking with Jiang Yao, he often felt that his spirit and body were separated. He smiled at her and spoke patiently with her, but his real self was watching blankly from the sidelines – he couldn’t fit in and didn’t want to fit into the world of those two people.
He sometimes felt that he really liked Jiang Yao, as if she was his whole world, and sometimes he felt that Jiang Yao was nothing to him at all, no different from the strangers he met on the road.
This sense of inconsistency almost drove him crazy, and he did not know why he was like this, and sometimes he thought – maybe it’s not that the world was false, but that he was living too hypocritically?
In the days to come, he would never forget that day.
It was a Sunday afternoon, and that day was as calm as any Sunday. He also stayed at home to read and study as usual, which was the norm for him who was in his high school senior year.
The phone on the side vibrated, he picked it up and took a look, it was a message sent by his close brother Xie Yingzhou: [Pei Siyuan, do you want to come to the library to do homework together this afternoon?]
“I’ve finished it.”
He typed these words, and when he was about to send them, he deleted them all.
He didn’t want to go – of course, he had good self-control, and studying in the library was no different from studying at home, so there was no need to go out for such a trip.
But he suddenly wanted to go again – this seemed to be the real thought in his heart.
That strange feeling has come again. This was not the first time he had this kind of situation of “wanting to go but not wanting to go”. In fact, this kind of feeling had appeared countless times in the past ten years or so, sometimes in shopping malls, sometimes in the breakfast shop, sometimes in the supermarket…
Various strange locations, at various strange points in time, he seemed to be under some ban, and he couldn’t get close to it.
In the past, he was too lazy to resist, but today he has a different idea, why don’t he change it from today?
Maybe there wouldl be some discoveries which he couldn’t precisely know.
After thinking about it, Pei Siyuan gave a positive reply: [Okay. ]
There were definitely phenomena in this world that science could not explain – he made this judgment when he was in the library.
He felt that invisible sense of obstruction several times, when he went to borrow a book, when he was thirsty and was about to go to the water dispenser to get water — all such moments when he could walk around, he somehow felt that there was some power secretly stopping him, like not letting him go somewhere.
What exactly was going on?
Pei Siyuan was puzzled by this, but he knew that the restraint of that force on him had reached its peak at this exact moment, because he suddenly found that his body seemed to be glued to this chair, unable to move even a little.
What exactly was going on? !
Pei Siyuan was so frustrated that he couldn’t even read the book. He clenched his fists, gritted his teeth, and fought against the invisible force that held him firmly on this chair—
Finally, he broke through the invisible barrier around him and suddenly stood up from the chair, because his movement was too sudden, the chair fell to the ground and the sound was especially harsh in the quiet library.
Xie Yingzhou was also startled. He glanced at Pei Siyuan and saw that his face was uneasy, he had doubts, but he was worried about the surrounding environment and lowered his voice: “What are you doing? What happened? What’s wrong?”
“It’s nothing, I don’t have time to explain to you now, I have something to do and I want to go out.”
With these words, Pei Siyuan ignored his doubtful eyes, turned and walked out hurriedly.
Absolutely needed to go…
He had a hunch that if he didn’t go out, it would really be too late.
The library was naturally packed on a Sunday afternoon, and quite many people came here to read and study, but among this crowd, he only saw the figure of that girl –
She looked petite, she should be a young girl. At this time, she was laughing and talking with the girl next to her.
Pei Siyuan didn’t understand why there was such a lovely and charming girl in the world. Her eyes were as beautiful as the stars in the sky, and like a magnet, she firmly drew his attention, he couldn’t take his eyes off her at all.
When she smiled, her eyes bent, and at this moment, everything around her was instantly eclipsed, becoming a colorless background, and only she was shining .
Who was she?
Pei Siyuan felt that his heart had never beat so fast, no, he felt that he had truly come alive at this moment, and this illusory world had become real because of her appearance.
Who was she?
“Excuse me, let me pass.”
Not caring whether his actions were polite or not, Pei Siyuan almost anxiously walked through the crowd in the library hall towards the girl, but there were too many people in this hall, and the distance between him and her seemed to be getting farther and farther. When he finally walked out of the library, the girl was no longer at the door.
She left.
This girl was as beautiful as a fairy who had fallen into the mortal world, so beautiful that she looked unreal. She appeared in his life for a brief moment and then disappeared as if she had never come ……
Will he have a chance to see her again in the future?
Surely there will be, right?
Pei Siyuan suddenly realized why he was always unable to go to certain places. It turned out that there was some power in the shadows that was preventing him from meeting her?
Why?
It was such a short first meeting and Pei Siyuan even suspected that the moment of meeting was only a few seconds but he felt that his soul had been hooked away by her, and when he returned to the library, he felt extremely drained….
After seeing Pei Siyuan come back, Xie Yingzhou sighed in amazement: “Who have you met in these few minutes? Your face looks as if spring has arrived.” [T/N: in love/ lovesick]
“… don’t speak if you can’t speak.”
Love?
Impossible, right?
Pei Siyuan didn’t want to admit it, but when he looked up, he saw his face reflected in the glass window of the library –
His complexion was still calm as usual, but his eyes were bright as if there was a smile flowing under his eyes. This was a genuinely happy moment he had never had in the past.
Why……
Was it because of her…
Pei Siyuan placed his hand on his chest and once again felt the violent pounding of his always calm heart.
So it was really because of her.
It turned out that she was his sun.
T/N: Pei Siyuan experiencing love at first sight >.<