LIGHTNOVELONLINE Chapter 32: What Have I Done…
(Karlena’s POV)
As I saw Tesslia crying her eyes out, I felt like my world was falling apart. Using my full speed, I quickly released Tesslia from her restraints, giving her yet another pill.
Karlena: “I’m sorry… the pill must have worn off without me realizing it.” I say with a remorseful tone.
Licking her wound, it had quickly healed up, which calmed me down a lot. The whip marks would all go away on their own, as I didn’t hit her hard at all. That is, besides that last one…
Tesslia: “…”
Tesslia didn’t respond, and just hugged me, crying once more. As she cried into my chest, I felt like the most horrible person in the entire universe.
Mother told me that, from her testing, Tesslia has a major aversion to pain. In fact, it would be better to say that she has a pure phobia of it.
She warned me to never cause Tesslia pain, or I would end up losing her love for me. My heart was pounding like crazy, and I felt so very, very nervous.
Would she hate me for this? Due to the petty need to fulfill a long wanted desire, did I ruin my love with Tesslia? She cried and cried, stinging my heart more and more.
Karlena: “I’m sorry, I’m sorry, please forgive me, this will never happen again, I’m sorry.” I kept repeating.
There was no acting on her part. In reality, Tesslia has always been truthful. Right now, she really was immensely sad, and the pain that I inflicted on her had a major negative effect on her mood.
Regardless of how many times I apologized, it never felt like it was good enough. Tesslia continued to cry, even though I was hugging her dearly.
Startled and absolutely terrified, I picked Tesslia up and carried her out of the room. Thankfully, I ran into Risa, who was most likely wondering where she was.
Risa: “What did you do?” She asked with a stern tone after seeing the still weeping Tesslia.
Karlena: “She agreed to let me whip her, but I accidentally let the pain pill wear off…” I admit.
Risa: “…Is she still in pain?” She replied.
Karlena: “I gave her another pill, so she shouldn’t be in any pain right now.” I answer.
Risa: “The pain is gone, but the mental damage from you hurting her must be still painful. Tesslia had built up a lot of trust with you, and this incident hurt her in more ways than one.” She explained.
Karlena: “…What do I do?” I say with a sad tone.
Risa: “Take her to bed, then hold and comfort her until Tesslia falls asleep. After that… you just have to hope that she’ll forgive you.” She suggested.
Mother was very well versed mental health, and as Tesslia was very similar to our kind, Risa’s words should be accurate. Doing as she suggested, I quickly made my way to her room.
I dressed Tesslia up in a nightgown and lingerie. Though she was still crying, it wasn’t a hard task to deal with. Even when so unbearably sad, Tesslia still fully followed my instructions… Once she was dressed, I got in bed with her.
Karlena: “Shh… it’s okay, Tesslia. No more pain… I will protect you forever. I am so, so sorry that I did this.” I say with a caring tone, softly rubbing her head and back.
She didn’t reply, still choosing to weep into my embrace. This level of mental pain from just a small wound… It would seem that Tesslia wasn’t as mentally stable as we assumed she was.
My words made me sick to my stomach. Instead of a caring woman, I just sounded like a horrible abuser, who was begging for forgiveness that they didn’t even slightly deserve…
Hours of Crying Later.
Eventually, Tesslia had cried her heart out, falling asleep while I was holding her. My heart didn’t settle down, though. I was so angry with myself. For pleasure, I hurt her, by not caring fully for her, I let her medicine lapse.
I haven’t even done this with a pet before. Those pills always work the exact same, regardless of which human consumes them. This wasn’t an accident. The pill she took had lasted the exact normal length, as it always does.
My hubris and lust had prevented me from carefully keeping track of how much longer the pill would last. Even then… it was my unending desire to hurt her more. If I was just satisfied with what she had already given me, Tesslia wouldn’t have been hurt like this…