Chapter 51
[I'm gonna do it once here and go]
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When everyone said Yu Hye’s team would win, there was one fool betting on Kayak’s team.
Instead of betting 3 to 2 like a loser, he bet on 3 to 0.
And the result? I was the only one who won the event.
The only man who got a burger from the jobless bro, ㅇㅇ.
– How did you guess that? LOL
– It was a tough test, for real.
– A lot of people thought Kayak’s team would win, but nobody bet on a 3 to 0 victory.
– Heart of a beast, whoa.
– You just enjoy that burger.
– Honestly, it’s a bit cringy how you link your own posts like that ㅇㅇ…
N: Not a manly man, just a loser.
N: Real talk, the desire for validation is legendary.
[Honestly, I have to admit it ㅇㅇ]
Kayak is indeed the leader of the Abyss gallery.
I realized it yesterday after seeing the game, even though the kids made me dislike her.
Kayak deserves to be the leader.
– Superstars drive everyone crazy; Kayak is born with superstar qualities.
– Who does this guy think he is, acting like he’s the leader? LOL, he knows nothing.
N: You judge successful people while ruining your own life.
N: For real, LOL.
N: Jobless bro is the real deal, LOL.
[Does Kayak-nim have a separate Vtuber channel?]
I saw you play Lennok yesterday and thought it was cool. I want to see ranked match videos or something, but I can’t find them at all ㅠㅠ.
– Jobless bro… even if there was a Vtuber channel, the Lennok videos you’re looking for probably wouldn’t exist.
– I get madder the more I think about why there’s no Lennok with the cool sword romance.
– But Kayak… I like the beautiful character Camilla the most.
– The girls like Lennok because he’s handsome, but why doesn’t Kayak?
– Maybe it’s just a preference…?
N: Oh my…
N: Until the ice in the Arctic melts…
N: Just saying, girls usually like beautiful characters.
– There might only be replays on Twitch? I keep mentioning to make a Vtuber channel, but this person is so busy, it seems like they aren’t interested.
– There’s a fan channel that’s pretty famous, LOL; it’s mostly Camilla anyway.
N: They edit well there.
N: Hand shadow mad movies?? What’s that?
N: That exists…
N: It’s a rare reaction, so watch it with gratitude!
N: It’s because of the tournament influx, LOL, cute huh?
[This woman is asked to give her victory speech, but suddenly starts reading a declaration, LOL]
Look at the commentator’s stunned face, what the hell, LOL.
– Working hard for the human rights advancement of Camilla…
– Is there anyone who prefers Camilla over Kayak?
– The president of the national Camilla association is Kayak, whoa.
– The commentator’s face screams, “What is this woman doing?”
– Why am I so embarrassed?
[After-party drinking broadcast, whoa]
The leader must be having a drink too, right?
– I saw last time that they couldn’t drink.
I couldn’t drink.
– You got pretty drunk though, didn’t you? You trained Nicang while drinking.
– I wish you’d at least turn on the handcam while drinking.
…
[What was that? What was that? What was that?]
What did I just see??? Did I just see that alone?? Is my vision messed up??
– From now on, Kayak and I will become one, and any attacks on Kayak will be considered an attack on me.
– Kayak was a woman. A man. A girl. A child. An animal. Abraksas. It blurred into a spot and then became large and clear again. At the end, I felt in my heart-.
– So, it really was the gallery lord, wow….
– What’s with that?
– Got drunk and made a mistake, haha, an all-time great broadcast accident.
– Isn’t that deliberate at this point? It was shown outright!
– Some girls show it on purpose for attention, you never know.
– Nah, Kayak already has a lot of viewers, there’s no need for that, haha.
– Seriously, they’re on a winning streak now.
– It feels like they’re taking advantage of the moment.
– With that size, they could paddle while riding a boat, yeah.
– You get out of here.
– Wow, isn’t there anyone who clipped that? It’s a legend for real.
– Did the gallery lord do a cam show? I missed it, how was it?
– Cam show sounds a bit… off.
– Make sure to watch before it gets cut off, yeah (link).
– Thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you.
– From today, I’m a Kayak fan too.
– You’re a big sister….
– I can’t help but call you big sister, haha.
– Size, damn, is it really Korean?
– Saying it was just Camilla, but it’s actually Camilla-level.
– Let’s tone down the sexual harassment; Kayak will probably come and see this too.
– I love you, big sister!
…
[Hmm, is that the case? ]
I watched it live, but I didn’t think it was something that would surprise me this much, isn’t it just something you see often on the internet?
– That’s common…?
– Go outside and meet some women; do you really think that size is common? Damn, haha.
– How can the loser meet women…
– Losers don’t know about that stuff.
– The shock of 2D becoming 3D…
– Loving Camilla so much, they really became Camilla…
*
“Haah….”
The next morning, I woke up with a clearer mind than usual and let out a deep sigh.
Honestly, I wasn’t fully okay. My head hurt, and my stomach was uneasy. But this unnecessarily healthy body recovered from those injuries quickly after just a bit of time awake.
I had to face my past with clear eyes. Unfortunately.
“Kyahhh… Aahhh….”
Thus, I began to roll around in bed.
This was a silent scream. I buried my face in the pillow and let out a powerless wail.
I let out a powerless scream as I brought my face closer.
After flailing my feet on the bed for a while, I got up with a determined face.
Thinking about it, there was really no need to react so sensitively.
Well, I was kind of expecting to do a cam show someday. It’s not much different from getting a vaccination in advance. That’s just how it is.
One day my body will decay and disappear. Just looking at it won’t wear it out, plus I haven’t even seen it in person, right? It was just shown through a low-quality cam on a degraded screen.
The thin outfit I was wearing did reveal its shape somewhat.
But it wasn’t explicit exposure, just enough to let you know that I have a chest.
That’s where it ends, just that much.
There’s nothing to be ashamed of. No reason to worry or feel uncomfortable.
Maybe I’m overreacting. What era are we living in now?
It’s a world where everyone doesn’t really care much about others. While others don’t think much of it, I might just be the one getting all anxious.
Habitually, I entered the gallery.
[Only those who watched the gallery live get a thumbs up ㅋㅋ]
Starting with me first.
“—!”
I buried my face into the pillow again and rolled around on the bed.
It’s so embarrassing. Really, incredibly embarrassing!
Should I call it shame? I was born to be someone who attracts attention, but it seems even that kind of attention is pushing my limits.
Something feels off. While I was getting mentioned in the gallery during competitions and being put on a pedestal, I didn’t feel this way before.
It seems it wasn’t as okay as I thought. No matter if I used to have a male body, being embarrassed is still being embarrassed.
Maybe because I’m a man, I understand men’s feelings even more, which makes it feel more intense.
“Ugh….”
I closed the gallery with a huff. The current gallery was clearly just going to harm my mental state. It was unfortunate that the bold plays I made at the tournament were probably listed in the concept post somewhere.
But eventually, this fire would die down. That’s how everything goes.
Until then, focusing on this problem is less important than diverting my attention elsewhere.
Hmm, what could I do?
Firstly, the fact that I won the tournament. That was truly a commendable achievement.
Checking the broadcast after it ended, I noticed that at one point, there were nearly 20,000 viewers.
Unknowingly, the follower and subscriber count had surged significantly. Seeing the visible growth of the broadcast made me realize, participating in the tournament was worth it.
I also got to say things I wanted to express during my victory speech.
Now, the Camilla users, who had to live quietly until now, could finally stretch their shoulders and proudly enjoy the Abyss.
It was something I could enjoy confidently while spreading my shoulders and embracing the Abyss.
After seeing a post that said if you pick Camilla, the team members dodge with curses, I felt my heart ache.
There was a small accident at the end, but today was definitely a day worth celebrating. I could even have a celebratory drink.
…No, that’s not right. I caused that mess while drinking, so why would I want to drink again? I really am something else. Even with a body that doesn’t handle alcohol well, I still want to keep drinking.
For the time being, it’s sober month. I need to test how much I can drink while keeping my wits about me, so I’ll have to drink a little at a time. It’ll be lonely until then, but I’ll have to drink alone.
And also, I feel like there was something else I needed to do. What was it again?
“Ah.”
I remembered. I remembered, but…
Can I really post this now? Everyone’s really focused on this right now…?
“Still, I have to do what I have to do….”
They say if you think about it too much, you lose. Normally, you should keep things separate.
On the flip side, by writing this, I could appeal that I’m not concerned at all.
Nodding my head like that, I wrote a post in the Abyss gallery.
*
[Hello, I’m Kayak.]
I’m Kayak, a streamer broadcasting on Twich.
It’s been quite a while since I started streaming. It feels like just yesterday when I did my first stream, and now I’ve even won a tournament — it’s quite a trip down memory lane. It’s all thanks to you guys.
Inquiries about VTubing are piling up every day. On the days I stream, I feel like I get asked at least once a day.
So, I’m planning to hire a VTuber editor. That’s why I’m here today.
I haven’t even set up a separate channel yet. It’s a freshly baked channel that hasn’t even been opened.
I can’t guarantee how much I can pay, but I don’t think it’ll be a lot either. I haven’t been streaming for long, and my income is still inconsistent.
So, what’s the benefit of becoming Kayak’s VTuber editor? You might ask for merits or whatever.
There are several advantages, but to put it simply,
You will have the opportunity to co-launch the channel with me. So, you could be a founding member.
You’ll get to taste the experience of growing a channel together. That’s a feeling you can’t really get from a channel that has already finished growing into something huge.
As a business partner, I’ll always be looking for advice and will do my best to grow the channel. I won’t act like a lone wolf just because I’m the channel owner. I listen to others.
Anyway, this turned into a long post, so to summarize for those who don’t read long texts:
I’m hiring a VTuber editor, please apply a lot.