Became an Academy Spearman

882. [Western Front] – Erosion of Eustea (157)

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Time passed and night fell.

Tuk. Tuk… .

Anastasia, who returned to her living room after finishing her day’s work, was unbuttoning her officer’s uniform.

Tuk.

Then, Anastasia’s hand, which was undoing the button, suddenly stopped. And the corners of her pretty eyes frowned slightly.

Between her dark blue hair, her eyes were reminiscent of a time in her life, not a boudoir.

A completely unexpected contact.

However, it was a moment when I was able to react enough to react.

That subtly disturbed my mind.

Her red lips softly softened.

“why… … .”

Did I allow it?

Even I didn’t understand myself.

Originally, I would not have allowed such contact, but I unconsciously allowed it. That’s more incomprehensible than anything else.

Han Tiansheng suddenly leaned towards me. Considering the situation, it could have been so.

He must have been extremely physically overworked, and his mind must have been in a state of confusion.

If you let go of tension, it could be difficult to control your body. Therefore, Han Tiansheng’s unexpected behavior itself could be considered extenuating circumstances.

However, I wasn’t.

Why did I accept it and why did I not avoid Han Tiansheng? Or maybe he refused or tried to push that body away.

It was that he didn’t understand himself.

Tuk.

As he unbuttoned the last button and took off his officer’s uniform, removing everything that covered his body, a faint breath continued to flow from the corner of his mouth.

Sarah.

Immediately after, I went into the washroom and naturally activated the magic stone.

Shoot… … !

As I surrendered myself to the pouring hot water, I felt my cold body immediately fill with warmth.

In the meantime, I blinked my eyes blankly and thought endlessly.

To stop thinking half-heartedly.

Not making a proper judgment about what doubts remain.

I couldn’t have something like that, so I had to put a proper end to it, even if it meant thinking about it more.

As I was soaking in the hot water, I kept thinking about that moment.

Han Tiansheng suddenly… … The moment we kissed.

The moment Han Tian-seong’s body unnaturally tilted towards me, I became aware of it.

There’s no way my senses wouldn’t understand something that happened so close to me.

But the moment when he gently tilted his head towards me.

I just stared blankly and couldn’t do anything.

When those lips that kept exhaling hot breath from their overworked body touched my cheek.

And when those lips touched and I stayed still for about a few seconds.

… … Why couldn’t I do anything?

“I didn’t mean to… … ?”

In my dizzy mind, those words slipped out inadvertently.

Han Tiansheng urgently apologized to me immediately after that.

It was as if he was genuinely embarrassed, and his eyes were as big as bells as he looked at me, and there wasn’t even a trace of falsehood visible.

So I found out.

That moment when you kissed me wasn’t intentional.

Han Tiansheng is probably like an accidental accident that happened while he was momentarily relaxed.

“however… … “Could such an accident happen?”

I mumbled and had doubts without realizing it.

I had doubts about myself, but I didn’t have many doubts about Han Cheon-seong.

That action, that situation, that thought at that moment.

Because I thought Han Tiansheng did not intend it. But looking back now, it was very strange.

It’s not an accident… … .

Because such absurd accidents rarely occur.

Is it even possible for him to tilt his head and kiss me, who was by his side like an accident, in the first place?

Absolutely.

Then I shook my head inadvertently.

“no.”

I once again deny the possibility of strange selfishness that I had denied.

Han Tiansheng does not have feelings for me. Since the last time I drew the line.

And during my training yesterday and today, Han Tiansheng never showed me the kind of eyes that men with selfish intentions often have.

So, what happened today after strenuous training was just an accident.

It was nothing more, nothing less.

Then I returned to the problem I was worrying about.

“Then I… … .”

Why on earth did I do that?

Even if Han Tiansheng did not intend to do that, I also knew that his head was tilted as he approached me.

Why did I allow him to kiss my cheek, even though I could have reacted well even if I was surprised at the time?

Yeah, that was the biggest problem now.

Even if Han Tiansheng acted out of selfish interest towards me, I should have reacted.

It was shocking to me that I couldn’t react.

Fighting. Tuk!

With the water rushing against my body, I could hardly get my mind straight.

Sreuk.

As I gently grasped my hand, which was shiny with water, the only thing that caught my eye was the stream of water scattering between Asrai’s fingers.

“… … .”

In a daze, I looked at my reflection in the mirror in the bathroom.

Between her pure white naked body, a stream of water flows down the curves of her body. Wet hair, wet face, and even transparent eyes staring at you.

I was dazed even as I looked at myself.

There was only one correct answer.

No matter how much you think and think, the answer comes down to one.

Even if I try hard to deny it and not think about it. If you think about common sense, there was only one answer.

“Because I didn’t like it… … .”

In other words, I did not feel any objection to Han Tiansheng acting like that towards me.

Normally, I would keep my distance from the opposite s*x, and I would cut off men who approached me with a single stroke of interest.

Now I have inadvertently allowed it.

Grumbling.

Even as I swept away my wet hair, my eyes continued to blur.

“… … “Why is that like that?”

I didn’t think I liked Han Tiansheng or felt like I was in love with him.

But it definitely felt ‘different’.

There is something fundamentally different about how I treat Han Cheon-seong than when I treat other men.

The reason was easy to guess.

Is it because he is the lover of his beloved younger sister, Glesia?

Is it because of the sense of kinship with me that I was released from the seal of the nine apostles?

Or was it because he was thought to be the person who would become the main axis of the next empire?

Either that or… … .

There were really countless reasons.

Because Han Tiansheng is that special.

Aside from the fact that he was of the opposite s*x, there was a part of me that recognized him as a human being, to the point where I felt that Han Tian-seong was the first person in the current empire with talent comparable to mine.

And now.

It all overlapped in a complex way.

I wasn’t this troubled for one clear reason.

Like a complicated tangled skein of thread, numerous causes and reasons overlap to confuse and confuse my mind.

Tuk.

While I was absent-mindedly caressing my cheek, I ended up chewing my lips.

Although I don’t want to remember.

It was so clear.

The moment when Han Cheon-seong’s lips touched my cheek.

… … Even now, even though I try to erase the traces of my body with hot water, I can’t quite forget the heat.

“It’s not good.”

So even more so. I thought this situation was not good.

By establishing a relationship with each other, a clear line is drawn, and each side is fully aware of that line. Then you should be more careful.

however… … .

Why does it feel even more strange?

“I’ll have to say it again tomorrow.”

First of all, the problem is that Han Cheon-seong acted like that, but I thought I should correct myself more.

Rumors should be rumors.

A smoke screen must be a smoke screen.

For me, and for Glesia… … .

Tight.

I bit my lip and tried to straighten out my dizzy mind.

***

Day 42 of the Western Front.

After midnight, I saw dawn coming.

Dusky light illuminates the window and colors the interior with its own color. So, the darkness that had been in place all night gradually moved out of the way.

“… … .”

In the end, I spent the night with my eyes open.

Today’s schedule is that I have a mission in the afternoon, and I need to stay alert considering the training with Anastasia in the morning.

It wasn’t easy at all.

Two scenes appeared in my eyes as if they were intersecting.

The first thing that came to mind was the sight of a city engulfed in flames, without even knowing why. And vivid screams and various terrible horrors.

Secondly, the scene I saw for a moment disappears and the outrageous act I committed against Anastasia. And the deep blue eyes that stared at me from even closer.

Those two things seemed to bother me endlessly.

“… … “What should I do with Anastasia right now?”

Even as I roughly tousled my hair, I felt frustrated.

At that time, I quickly pulled my head away and apologized, but I saw that Anastasia’s eyes had sunken infinitely.

So much so that the training session, which had originally ended well, became insignificant. Anastasia, who was looking at me with emotionless eyes, was scary.

As I was ruffling my hair, thoughts crossed my mind again.

When I asked what the scene of tragedy I had unconsciously recalled was, there was only one answer.

“Could this be ‘erosion’?”

I thought that way without realizing it.

It was absolutely not my experience.

It was a city I had never seen before.

However, it came to mind so clearly, and in that split second, I was so shocked that I couldn’t even control myself.

The terrible sight of the city reflected in my eyes. The people screaming and dying seemed real.

Yes, it felt real to me for a moment.

Even though being with Anastasia in the training room was real, what I encountered at that moment was something I mistaken for reality.

And this is it… … .

The danger that Anastasia told me about.

I thought it might be ‘Erosion of Eustea’.

Erosion is what confuses me as it covers the many characteristic moments he experienced in the past.

“… … .”

My confused mind was repeatedly covered by another confusion.

And yet I.

I had to get ready to start another new day.