Chapter 25 - Mouth two five
I always remember that in a university lecture on women ’s knowledge, the brick house said that the best cosmetics for women are hormones.
In the past few days following Gu Xingzhi’s love, several hot-eyed girls in the company can roughly guess that her sister has fallen in love. At lunch at the company, Sister Lin used to tell cold jokes in the crowd, and I laughed for a long time alone. I did n’t even know that I was having a happy yarn. Others were rolling their eyes. Sister Lin stared at me Almost crying.
As for Gu Xingzhi, he seems to have been busy recently, and I have not seen him for several days in a row.
Tan Suqing has been able to get on and off work on time in recent days, and the work completion efficiency is still the same as before. At the meeting, she still had a graceful and delicate face as before, and said that she wanted people to rush forward to pump her harsh words.
At the end of the meeting, she called me to write something on the paper with a pen, and from time to time she looked up and asked me:
“Supervisor Xue, don’t you plan to see your dear grandpa?”
I replied briefly: “Am I not an outsider?”
She stopped her pen and laughed very vividly: “I am not Gu Xingzhi, you don’t need to use this kind of complaint now, everyone is also a woman, and it certainly has no effect on me. Isn’t my words exciting? Did your fighting spirit extinguish your war? The heart is so fragile that you have lived in vain for thirty years. “
Her words struck me at once, and I couldn’t bear it anymore, and the discomfort accumulated in these days suddenly broke out:
“Director Tan, you may not understand me very well. I am different from you. You were rich and wealthy when you were born, and at most I am a well-off family. Your family status can bring you a lot even if you do n’t have one There are countless suitors around you with beautiful faces. Let’s calculate, you are fifty years old, and you have an excellent son like Gu Xingzhi in your twenties.
And for me, it’s already thirty. Your son’s appearance is my life-saving straw. My mother wants to hold you desperately and still drags me into the abyss. The words outsider may be two simple and ordinary pronunciations for you, but they are two needles inserted into my heart. But you do n’t even give me the right to hurt the basic human emotions like me? I had a man I liked when I was young, but he didn’t care. When I reflected, I was already twenty-five, and twenty-five was a watershed. After that, only men picked me. After that, I felt wondering why I became like this. What am I doing today? What am I doing when I ran over again and again under pressure from a family and met a stranger who did n’t want to know at all? Dine and watch movies with spooky superb pretend smiles, and spend a lot of time, just to screen out a true love in the vast crowd, what is it? Director Tan, you are not me, you know how fart! “
After I finished speaking, I felt a sense of collapse and weakness, and my eyes suddenly turned red.
Tan Suqing looked at me deeply for a long time and put aside his pen: “If the words in the hospital that day really hurt you, then, sorry.”
I said, “It doesn’t matter.”
“Go and see Grandpa Gu Xingzhi.” She said that behind me before I went out.
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The next day happened to be Saturday. I bought some nutritional products and fruit baskets and went to the hospital there. Before that, I called Gu Xingzhi. He said that he was also there and let me pass.
After arriving at the ward, I finally saw the legendary owner of the facial paralysis family.
It was completely different from what I had imagined. He was still in a coma. Under the transparent oxygen mask was a kind face that was comparable to Colonel KFC.
His eyes closed, motionless, reminded me of Tang Jian’s sister, who is still the same now.
Gu Xingzhi was sitting at the small table on the other side, playing chess with the woman named Tan Nanqing who picked us up from Japan that day.
When I came in, he carried the chess piece and didn’t let go, but just kept looking at me, and my ears were a little bit hot by him.
Tan Nanqing murmured in a low voice: “I haven’t seen you in a few days, I have almost seen through others.”
Gu Xingzhi ignored her, frowned, and called me over, and then said to Tan Nanqing, “When I saw Xue Jin, I remembered an old thing.”
I wondered and asked, “What is the old thing?”
He didn’t speak, so he fell into trouble.
Tan Nan please continue, with a strange smile on his face: “I also remembered an old thing. I remember when your mother was sick at that time. That little cloud, I have seen it many times.”
Gu Xingzhi frowned instantly.
I saw that his face was wrong and put the bag aside and asked, “Who is Xiaoyun?”
Tan Nanqing blinked, pretending to be mysterious: “It’s an old man too, you don’t know.”
Since it’s an old man, I don’t have much trouble.
After that, I watched them play chess on the side, and I also had a game with Gu Xingzhi.
Tan Nan is a very humanistic one among the Tan family I know. She stood by to watch the battle and said with a smile: “Oh, Xue Jin, you are really determined by Gu Xingzhi.”
I glanced at Gu Xingzhi with a light smile on his face.
Staying in the ward, even if the atmosphere was depressed, my heart jumped up.
After spending about an hour or so, I have been watching soap operas on the side. I have a very small voice, so small that I can hardly hear them. I can only tell what the protagonist is saying through my mouth.
However, Gu Xingzhi and his four aunts can still have a very interesting game.
It made me suddenly feel that being rich in the upper class is really sad, even entertainment projects must be so elegantly forced.
When I yawned for the fifth time, a nurse nurse politely knocked on the door and walked in. She whispered something next to Gu Xingzhi, and Gu Xingzhi nodded.
I was far away, and I couldn’t hear what they were talking about. I only saw Tan Nanqing’s complexion.
Immediately afterwards, the nurse nurse went out. At the sixth exit that had not yawned, I saw the door of the ward being pushed open carefully, and one long leg stepped in gently. I looked at the man ’s face. This yawn that had not been beaten almost didn’t choke me on the spot dead.
The person who came in was Tang Jian.
In this way, I sat in a chair, and the TV set was playing dog blood and popular soap operas, and my brain instantly became empty.
Tang Jian also saw me. He had come in with a blank expression, but the moment he hit my eyes–
I could clearly see that something in his eyes shook slightly.
He quickly jumped over my eyes and nodded toward me like a stranger, and then walked inside.
Tan Nanqing stood up immediately, like an angry cat ready to go: “What are you doing here?”
Tang Jian laughed, with a good-looking and confident look in his eyes. The entire ward that was not Liangtang was dizzy with a layer of brightness. He said: “Of course I came to see my grandfather.”
Suddenly, as if I had hit chicken blood, a whole person cooperated with me, and my whole heart was like a loose balloon that was blown up again, and the gossip mode was fully opened.
Lying trough, what is the situation? TVB eight o’clock?
I’m sitting on the edge, I am more interested in the current live version than the silent soap opera on the TV screen!
Tan Nanqing laughed “haha” twice: “We really don’t need you to visit like this.”
“Why am I going to fall into the rock? Your Tan family is not very powerful. If you miss two items, you will be as if you want to kill.” Tang Jian placed the gift he brought, and his smile remained unchanged, looking sideways to sit. On the one hand, Gu Xingzhi said quietly: “My good cousin didn’t swallow two plots here.”
I definitely don’t understand the content of the business warfare in their mouths, but I probably understood it. It turned out that that day, Tan Nan asked what he called the “little nickname surnamed Tang” as Tang Jian.
The world is really small, but me in between is even smaller.
It’s like the most ordinary piece of sand on the beach.
Tan Nanqing’s eyebrows all accumulated twisted anger, and his chest was ups and downs: “Who is your cousin? I tell you, the surname Tang, our family never knew you. Blame we don’t give you a good face. “
Tang Jian glanced at the gray-haired elderly man on the bed: “Tan Nanqing, please accumulate eloquence, don’t think your father is safe and sound, he hasn’t waken up yet.”
“Whether he wakes up or not is your business? Don’t stay here. Who doesn’t know what you are? Shouldn’t the gift be poisoned? Our President Tang?”
Gu Xingzhi finally couldn’t hold back the words: “Four aunts, you say a few words.”
After he finished looking at me, his eyes were dark and cold, like pale snow on the top of a mountain. I quickly retracted my gaze and continued to watch TV intently.
Then, I heard that his voice is not a novel to me: “Xue Jin, if you are bored, you should go first.”
From their few conversations, I probably guessed that Tang Jian might be just like Gu Xingzhi, the grandson of the old man on the bed.
But after all, it’s a family matter of privacy. It seems to be quite serious, even though it is involved with my ex-boyfriend and boyfriend.
The turbulence between them is like playing on the same chessboard, and each is an important piece of strategy.
And I, who cannot fully understand, is completely an outsider.
Or a small “pawn” who will soon be shot down.
Tan Suqing ’s approach may not be excessive. In this way, I have never come into contact with Gu Xingzhi at such a time. From spring to summer, I have never fully entered his life. .
Thinking about it, I walked over to take the bag, Gu Xingzhi sat there, and when I handed the bag to me, I squeezed it slightly with one hand, as if to appease my emotions.
Tang Jian stood beside me, touched his chin, and said with a smile, “Oh, this is the new girlfriend who is acting?”
Gu Xingzhi glanced at him and stood up and answered, “Not my girlfriend.”
My heart sank slightly, squeezing my head and squeezing the purse, the air conditioning on all four sides seemed to collapse towards me. But I immediately heard Gu Xingzhi mobilize the fluctuation of one side of the air with a non-salty tone, and the sorrowful mood I was a few seconds ago was mobilized to a very high and cheerful height, like a summer shade There is a subtle breeze floating–
What he said was: “It should be your future brother and sister now.”
Tang Jian didn’t have a strange color, and still maintained that comfortable smile: “Oh, this is the case. Since your family is so reluctant to see me, then I will go now, don’t mind if I just send my brother and sister along the way.”
Gu Xingzhi patted my hair twice: “Of course I don’t mind, go back.”
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I’m not so mean-tempered, and since Gu Xingzhi is so relieved, I am also glad to accept Tang Jian giving me away.
When I walked out of the ward with him, the repressive atmosphere inside just now dissipated, and it made me feel deeply that the man next to me could not give me any pressure at all.
At this time, I am relaxed.
Yu Tangjian, I don’t want to interfere at all in his life now; and for myself, he is completely out of my life.
The two of us walked away without saying a word, but it was not awkward.
Tang Jian is beside me, and he is not too slow. He is also still standing now.
Chen Yun is more masculine than the youthful and clean youth of the past. From time to time in the corridor, nurses pushed patients past, most of them looked admired.
He spoke first: “Are you all right now?”
“Okay.” I replied.
Tang Jian asked again: “How is he doing to you?”
I slid the bangs on my cheeks behind my ears casually: “Did you see it too?”
“That’s it,” his three words are like bounced rubber balls, completely in a relaxed state, and he said again: “It seems that you still have to accompany Gu Xingzhi and their family to abandon me.”
I couldn’t understand what he was saying, and looked up looking puzzled. On the face of Tang Jian, it was a scene that shocked me. He let the Buddha try to complete a careless smile, but the flashing things near his eyes completely and cruelly defeated all his disguise.
I read right, he cried.
****
Any man crying in front of you will surely be in a hurry, I will quickly pull out a tissue from the bag and pass it to him:
“What are you crying for?”
He didn’t take my tissue at all, but pulled me into his arms with the arm I sent him and hugged me tightly.
To release the Buddha is to be deeply embedded in the force like flesh and skin, I can’t break away completely, I can’t even breathe.
I frowned: “Tang Jian, don’t do this.”
He was in my ear, and his voice had begun to choked: “Thirty seconds later, let go of you.”
“Are you going to get nervous again,” I desperately kept my tone at a stable level, and I was afraid that I would slap Tang Jian in the next second: “If you do this again, don’t blame me for hitting you.”
He didn’t mean to let go: “Then hit me.”
“Are you sick of your brain? Don’t **** cheat! Is it so hard to let go? Lying!” I couldn’t help it anymore, and I couldn’t move my arm, so I kicked him hard.
The stiletto shoes I was wearing today, he must be intolerable, and it really hurt me to release me.
When Tang Jian raised his head again, the tears on his face had never existed before the Buddha, and only gave me a frank and clear:
“Come on, it ’s okay, I ’m in a better mood.”
Outside the window behind him, there was already a storm, and the sky was dark.
Today is really a misfortune to go out, first meet the scumbag, and it will rain heavily! I carried the bag on my shoulder and speeded up my pace. I didn’t want to have any intersection with the madman.
Tang Jian has long legs, and soon followed, chattering around me: “Xue Jin, in the past few years, from the time you knew me, and the things that have been on me before, don’t you want to listen to me at all Explanation? “
“It’s all about me, I don’t want to listen to your explanation at all,” I stopped and looked directly at him: “Oh, yes, haven’t you explained it briefly and forcefully with a check?”
He held me by not letting me go again: “That thing was that I was not good. I was mad at that time, and I was faint, did you know? I can’t accept that you are already with another man.”
I was so funny, I tried to give him a slap in the face, and was easily avoided by him: “I can’t find another man, it’s funny. For so many years, I still have to” slow the snail “and wait for the two to get back quickly.” Well, then I am even more powerful than you! Where do you come from? Are you **** Even if you are God, Lao Tzu will not be a believer in Jesus! “
He tightened my wrists, and his tone was already a little uneasy: “Okay, we don’t struggle with this question, do you think Gu Xingzhi really likes you? I am a man, and I can tell that Gu Xingzhi, he is right Is your attitude like you? What do you deceive yourself to do? You will suffer, Xue Jin, he doesn’t love you at all. You can’t feel it at all? You have been deceiving yourself so much? “
“You are still so arrogant, Tang Jian,” I was suddenly poked, and the originally swollen bottom airbrush fell to the bottom: “Gu Xingzhi clearly told you that he didn’t like me at all? Why was he at first? Find me?”
“You are still deceiving yourself, do you say you are stupid?” Seeing me calm down, Tang Jian’s originally agitated expression has subdued: “I am telling you these words now, the purpose is not to make you stay with me again, I It ’s just that I ’m afraid you ’re hurt in Gu Xingzhi, and I ’m watching you cheating for a man who does n’t love you at all. This is where I feel the most uncomfortable. ”
“Oh, you are still good at saying some sounding words.” I smiled dryly, “Do you know what I want to say now? I want to say, go to your Mary next door!”
I argued with Tang Jian all the way, when the corridor entrance on the first floor, there was already heavy rain outside.
Fortunately, today I saw the sun with an umbrella. I pulled out my parasol from my bag and left with my intention. Tang Jian took me again and prevented me from taking another step. In the heavy rain, his voice was blurred in the strong flowing water, a little inaudible–
He said, “Brother and sister, are you going to let your cousin be alone?”
“I don’t care if I die in the rain.” I shook my hand hard to break away from him.
He seemed to be brewing something, and then he took a long sigh of relief. He rushed into the rain, and suddenly grabbed an umbrella in my hand. Like a baby, I hugged one hand in the air, and he opened a With a bright smile, the grey sky behind him whitened his teeth.
“Umbrella is too small to do anything. It can only be so.”
This scene makes me a little ignorant. Some memories are poured down like the rain on the top of my head. Tang Jian’s gray shirt with rain, the halo of the yellow umbrella, and the temperature of his body wrapped me, and I was in a trance I forgot to push Tang Jian away from him.
When I reacted, I broke free and fell to the ground, and the rainwater from the ground instantly transferred to my high heels without a waterproof platform.
Tang Jian frowned and looked at my feet, his eyebrows still rising happily:
“Every time I go out, I don’t pay attention to the weather and wear clothes,”
He seemed to complain to me in a very comfortable state of “I am still your boyfriend”: “Don’t do this next time.”
This person is really cheeky challenging my bottom line. I took a deep breath and raised my face. When I was about to slap Tang Jian, I suddenly hung my hand in midair and couldn’t move.
My heart is too.
Across the transparent rain curtain, Gu Xingzhi exposed half of his people to the window of the third floor ward. Because the rain was too big and too far away, I could not see his face at all, but I faintly felt that he was indeed looking at me.
After a while, he turned away from the window and completely disappeared under my eyes.