Xian Xian

Chapter 76: Wake up

Pei Ji’an was not in his mind all day today. Since I saw Li Chaoge and Gu Ming Ke yesterday, his condition has been very wrong.

After returning, he dreamed of the past lives of him and Li Chaoge.

When he was nineteen years old in his previous life, Pei Ji’an met Li Chaoge at a banquet, and was messed up by her from then on. The childhood sweetheart’s marriage contract was inexplicably yellow, and the empress had an ambiguous attitude. Not long after, he was forced to marry Li Chaoge.

All this is just because the princess has a crush on him.

Although Pei Ji’an is gentle and elegant, he is a family prince, and he is also arrogant in his heart. No one man is willing to accept this kind of shameful shame, not to mention that on the wedding night, Li Chaoge is still hot and cold, and even when she meets Pei Ji’an’s hand while drinking Heyu, she frowns.

Pei Ji’an originally hated Li Chaoge for forcing him to do so, but when he saw this, he and Li Chaoge went to bed at night, and nothing happened all night. On the second day, he moved to another yard with excuses, and the husband and wife split the room as soon as they got married.

Pei Ji’an wanted to express his attitude. Li Chaoge is lawless and has no consciousness of being a wife. It’s time to chill her. As a result, Li Chaoge did not feel that sleeping in separate rooms was a punishment for her husband. She looked so happy, what should she do every day, and when she remembered, she went to his yard to see? Look at him?, I can’t remember, that ten. No one can be seen for half a month.

Pei Ji’an felt more and more humiliated. He is like a plaything, a face, a canary, locked in a gorgeous cage for the owner to entertain when he is bored. When the owner is busy, it is absolutely forbidden to disturb him.

This marriage has been in the cold war from the beginning. Fortunately, Pei Ji’an is the son of a family, and he has good self-cultivation. Li Chaoge also really likes Pei Ji’an’s face. The first two years? Although the husband and wife were cold, they at least lived well in front of outsiders.

In the east, there are couples who seem to be in harmony with each other, and Pei Ji’an originally thought that they would be the same.

Everything began when the grandson’s family was convicted of conspiracy, and it turned sharply.

Pei Ji’an remembered that it was a rainy night, thunder roared, heaven and earth? Haotang, rain covered all sounds. Pei Ji’an held an umbrella and walked to the main courtyard. Li Chaoge sat in front of the window, calmly looking at him, and said, “I tried my best.”

On the second day, news came that Changsun Yu and Changsun Huan were sentenced to beheads, and that other men from the Changsun family were exiled.

Mrs. Pei was the daughter of the grandson’s family. Hearing this news, Mrs. Pei fainted immediately. Pei Ji’an took Li Chaoge to attend the illness, but was turned away by his mother.

Li Chaoge didn’t say a word softly, turned his head and left.

Pei’s family and Li Chaoge collapsed and made a violent disturbance. After that, it seemed as if the heavens could not see them, and the situation happened one after the other. Li Chaoge cut the eldest Sun’s family, and Pei Ji’an’s cousin Pei Jihong impeached Li Chaoge and was exiled by Li Chaoge. The cousin died of illness on the road to exile, and his father resigned in grief and angrily, resolutely drawing a clear line with Li Chaoge. In the second year, his grandmother died of illness, and Li Chaoge fell out with his father in the mourning hall.

Pei Ji’an and Li Chaoge’s few husband and wife relationship was completely exhausted. One month after the death of his grandmother, Pei Ji’an moved out of the princess mansion and lived in Beppu. Then, Li Changle died, Pei Chuyue died, the prince Li Huai died, and the queen died. In the end, Pei Ji’an and Li Chaoge also died.

Everyone was dead, blood washed long steps, and finally landed on a white ground? Really clean.

The previous life Pei Ji’an has always stood on the stand of the Pei family. Undoubtedly, Li Chaoge is simply a heinous demon, dismantling his marriage, destroying his family, and humiliating his self-esteem. But after rebirth in this life, Pei Ji’an thought about these things from the beginning? And found that Li Chaoge had done nothing wrong if he changed the angle.

When the female emperor was in power, the eldest grandson family had been strongly opposed to it, and even used her influence to run through the Li family, wanting to gather forces to support the abolished emperor Li Huai. Pei Ji’an put aside his stance, and in all fairness, no one in power would tolerate such a situation, and it was the empress who really wanted to kill the eldest grandson’s family.

Li Chaoge said that she did her best that day, maybe she really did her best.

Political struggle is the success of the king and the defeat of the bandit. Blood flows in a river. When the Changsun family and the Pei family are fighting for power, they have never been merciless in order to defeat the other family. Why did Li Chaoge scold her for unscrupulous, demon girl? What about ruining politics? Just because she is a woman?

Li Chaoge was pushed to the forefront because of the supervision and execution. The courtiers and the public were staring at her, and Pei Jihong jumped out at this juncture to impeach Li Chaoge, who was still Li Chaoge’s younger uncle. Everyone is waiting to see? What should Li Chaoge do? Li Chaoge is not tough this time, all forces will rush to tear Li Chaoge to pieces. In order to establish his prestige, Li Chaoge had the best, but only one, to severely send Pei Jihong down and demote him into exile.

No one knew that Pei Jihong would die on the road because of this. After that, the Pei family hated Li Chaoge, and Li Chaoge was repeatedly injured by the Pei family. Li Chaoge took the initiative to go to the door of Pei’s house several times. It was because of Pei Ji’an’s face that he wanted to get along well with his husband’s family. But Pei Silian made it public? He scolded Li Chaoge and didn’t allow Li Chaoge to come to the door. With Li Chaoge’s spirit, can he turn his head again?

Let alone Li Chaoge, if you replace it with a proud and self-respectful woman who is scolded by her in-laws pointing her nose, she will never come here for the second time.

Pei Ji’an had to admit that Li Chaoge was cruel, but she always tolerated Pei Ji’an’s family. The case of the Changsun family’s rebellion was so implicated, but the Pei family, who was a relative in-laws, retired, and no one was involved. If it wasn’t for Pei Jihong to jump out to impeach Li Chaoge, there will be no casualties in Pei’s family.

The subsequent series of deaths of Li Changle and Pei Chuyue were actually tossed out by Pei Ji’an. Pei Ji’an had a relationship with Li Changle, and Li Chaoge went crazy and killed Li Changle directly. Pei Chuyue was so innocent and proud that she was spoiled by the family. She couldn’t stand the anger and wanted to go to the palace to report Li Chaoge. The situation at that time was either you died or I died. Pei Ji’an could not forgive Li Chaoge, but standing in the position of Li Chaoge, he would kill Pei Chuyue who intended to report him.

Political struggle is a tragedy of iron and blood. No one is right or wrong, only whoever loses wins. Those who walked to the back had no clean hands.

Pei Ji’an dreamed of his previous life last night, and was restless all night. Until dawn, he finally settled down. He dreamed that when he was just married, Li Chaoge was practicing swords under the flowers, and when he turned his wrist, he was ten miles of flying flowers. She didn’t know how to write memorials, and stared at the paper all night in a daze, stupefied to ask for help. Later, Pei Ji’an found out, how to teach her? Write the beginning of the memorial? At the end, she finally handed the countermeasure book to the queen.

That is the rare time that Li Chaoge took the initiative to visit him, and asked him if he was able to use those greetings. Pei Ji’an wrote several kinds of common words for her. Li Chaoge copied it down and used it as a template for free splicing. It’s not good, but at least I can see it.

And Li Chaoge’s words… At the very beginning, her words are really ugly and domineering. Pei Ji’an said later that Li Chaoge didn’t care about it on the surface, and practiced vigorously in private, but he could write without success.

Pei Ji’an woke up with this mood. After waking up, he stared at the elegant four-season bamboo tent, and felt peaceful after a long absence.

In fact, he didn’t live in the princess mansion for many years, and he didn’t have to spend four years in full. But many details are deeply imprinted in his mind. When he opened his eyes just now, he subconsciously felt that the bed net should be bright and warm, instead of something that he used for longer and was more in line with his aesthetics. blue.

This dream seemed to be a catharsis, which made Pei Ji’an want to understand that a lot of things were in vain. The love and hatred between him and Li Chaoge is a conflict between family and country, but it is not about individuals. They are all trapped in political struggles and eventually inevitably lead to a break, but it does not mean that they are both wrong.

Li Chaoge’s past life is very shallow and shallow. He has liked him. He admires this girl, admires this girl, and maybe… also likes this girl.

His feelings for Li Changle are similar to those of his brother to his sister, because he is right, because he is used to it, because everyone thinks that they are made in heaven, so Pei Ji’an also thinks that he should marry Li Changle as his wife.

But he? Met Li Chaoge. Since seeing her, all his love, hatred and pain, all his unwillingness and anger were given by Li Chaoge. Gradually, Li Changle’s image became blurred in Pei Ji’an’s eyes. What he heard, saw, thought, and thought were all Li Chaoge. Even after being reborn, he made up his mind to break with Li Chaoge, but when he saw her, he couldn’t help being attracted by her.

He can’t deny the harm that Li Chaoge brought to him in his previous life, nor can he deny his feelings for her. In the late previous life, he had already realized this, but at that time the grandfather’s family was ruined, and the Pei family and Li Chaoge had a quarrel, and Pei Jian could not accept that he fell in love with his enemy in this situation. So he exercised restraint and tried his best to be nice to Li Changle in order to convince himself that he didn’t love her.

He? Just can’t get rid of her.

He killed Li Chaoge, and after he was reborn, he became seriously ill and could not get out of his previous life for a long time. He repeatedly paralyzed himself and allowed himself to take a completely different path from his previous life, thinking that he could conceal his feelings in this way. But for more than half a year, his self-deception has not had any effect. He has always been trapped in the love network woven by Li Chaoge, but he has watched the instigator walk out, start a new life, and even start a new life. Begin to chase new men.

Pei Ji’an was greatly stimulated by the sight seen in the Tongming Hall yesterday. After a nightmare, Pei Ji’an calmed down instead. He? admitted that he? loved her, and at the same time realized that she didn’t love him that much?.

Perhaps it is unknown whether that kind of feeling is love or not.

The voice of the maid’s inquiry came from outside, Pei Ji’an calmly responded, got up calmly, and entered the palace calmly on duty.

But Pei Ji’an’s peaceful mentality disappeared after hearing the comments of his colleagues.

Over the night, the imperial city was spread, and Gu Ming Ke of Dali Temple was promoted to the Fourth Grade Shaoqing by the leapfrog. Everyone also said that Gu Ming Ke was promoted so quickly because he wanted to be a steward.

Seeing that Li Chaoge is just seventeen for the New Year, he has reached the age when he must be married. The emperor wanted the eldest daughter to marry a good-looking son, so he naturally spared no effort to promote the prospective son-in-law.

Because of these rumors, Pei Ji’an was messed up all morning, and the record was written incorrectly several times. He could not help but ask him if he was unwell. Pei Ji’an also felt that he needed to sort out his emotions, so Pei Ji’an went out of the palace to find Gu Ming Ke on the pretense of being unwell.

Ziwei Palace was not only the place where the empress and queen lived, but also a collection of court offices. The center is Miyagi, the place where the emperor goes to court, discusses politics, and lives? Surrounded by the imperial city, there are six provinces, six ministries, nine temples and five prisons. Outside the imperial city are the common people. Dali Temple and Town Demon Si are next to each other, located in the east of the imperial city.

Pei Ji’an, as a supplement to the emperor’s side and recording the emperor’s words and deeds, usually has his office in Miyagi. He needed to talk with Gu Ming Ke, then took a leave and walked to Dali Temple.

Pei Ji’an was thinking along the way, what did he say to Gu Ming? Pei Ji’an actually doesn’t understand him? Why did he come to Gu Ming Ke, but he was in a mess. If he didn’t see Gu Ming Ke in person, he thought he would go crazy.

But Pei Ji’an did not expect that when he pushed the door and entered, he would see such a picture.

Gu Ming Ke circled Li Chaoge, the two of them were writing something. Pei Ji’an? The first thought that came up was why Li Chaoge was here. The second thought was, why didn’t Li Chaoge hide?

How much is Li Chaoge? He doesn’t like to have physical contact with others, Pei Ji’an can’t be more clear. Her repulsive psychology can be called sickness. On the wedding night, Pei Ji’an accidentally touched Li Chaoge’s hand while drinking the wine. Li Chaoge obviously avoided it, and afterwards all the rituals were patient. Pei Ji’an was not expecting something to happen, but according to common sense?, Li Chaoge worked hard to **** Pei Ji’an and finally got married. Li Chaoge didn’t want to round the house, but acted more like a person who was robbed than Pei Ji’an. Is something wrong?

The mouth can lie, the expression can act, but the body language will not deceive. Pei Ji’an’s man’s dignity was provoked, and he was angry for several days. Later, he found out that Li Chaoge was not repelling him. She couldn’t accept any contact with her, not even the queen, but she slowly calmed down.

But now, Pei Ji’an’s cognition is being challenged again. Gu Ming Ke was so obvious and conspicuously that he circled Li Chaoge in his arms and held her hand to write. Li Chaoge did not hide at all, and there was no resistance on his expression. Is this the Li Chaoge that Pei Ji’an knows?

The words in Pei Ji’an suddenly got stuck, Gu Ming Ke did not look up, and after finishing writing with Li Chaoge’s pen, he withdrew his hand and asked indifferently: “What’s the matter?”

Li Chaoge knew someone was coming, but she didn’t expect it to be Pei Ji’an. Pei Ji’an stood at the door and didn’t see it clearly. In fact, Gu Ming Ke didn’t touch Li Chaoge’s hand just now. He was holding the pen and writing, but it wasn’t like that when it fell into the eyes of outsiders. As for Li Chaoge’s failure to hide, it was because Gu Ming Ke did not have any offensive or offensive intentions in his actions. He just helped her change the words. If you change to another man, Li Chaoge will definitely think that the other party has something else, but if this person is Gu Ming Ke… Li Chaoge really believes that he has no Fengyue thoughts, and all his actions are purely helping.

He? He has a clear conscience, and Li Chaoge has no need to hide. Coupled with such a long period of interaction, Li Chaoge is very familiar with Gu Ming Ke’s breath. When she is inconvenient, she will let Gu Ming Ke help her, and Gu Ming Ke will instruct her to write. It is also normal.

The memorial is roughly finished? Li Chaoge didn’t want to see Pei Ji’an, so he put down his pen and said, “Well, since Shaoqing is a guest, I won’t bother. Your brothers talk slowly, I’ll go first.”

Gu Ming Ke asked: “Will you write the last paragraph of the memorial?”

Li Chaoge doesn’t like to listen to these words? She turned her head, her eyes flowed, Gu Pan was radiant, and she glanced at Gu Ming Ke in displeasedness: “I will!”

She memorized a set of templates, why can’t she write?

Pei Ji’an saw them talking at the door, and they were familiar with each other. Pei Ji’an felt a little uncomfortable. Li Chaoge’s so-called opening? Ending was actually taught by Pei Ji’an. But look? Her performance should be forgotten.

Li Chaoge put away his things, and passed by Pei Ji’an calmly. Her eyes did not fluctuate, nor did she have any expressions on her face, as if she was facing a stranger.

After Li Chaoge left, the room fell into a weird silence. Gu Ming Ke put Li Chaoge’s messed up pens and inks one by one, and asked: “Pei Shiyi went out of the palace specially, why? What’s the matter?”

Gu Ming Ke used the official title. In the imperial city, even relatives should use the official title, but now there are no others, and he doesn’t need to be so alienated.

Pei Ji’an doesn’t know how much he thinks, or is Gu Ming? Ke is like that. Pei Ji’an sat down in the room far away, his tone also could not get close: “I didn’t feel well last night. I slept early and failed to say congratulations to my cousin. Congratulations to my cousin for being promoted to Shaoqing.”

Gu Ming Ke just nodded slightly: “Thanks a lot.”

In the initial stage of Li Chaoge’s practice, his five senses were strengthened and he could hear the movement in the distance, but he hadn’t developed his spiritual consciousness yet, and he couldn’t see the scene outside the house. However, Gu Ming? Ke can, he knew that Pei Ji’an was here early in the morning.

But Gu Ming Ke still held Li Chaoge’s pen and finished writing the book in front of Pei Ji’an. Gu Ming? Ke has a clear conscience. What’s more, who is Pei Ji’an from Li Chaoge, and who is Gu Ming? Who is Ke, Gu Ming? Why should Ke hide?

After Gu Ming Ke responded, no one spoke, and the scene became rigid again. Pei Ji’an smiled, meaning unknown to the land, and said: “Cousin went to Luzhou smoothly this time? After coming back from Luzhou, the cousin and the princess look familiar a lot.”

Gu Ming Ke faintly said, “Are you here just to say these things?”

Gu Ming Ke did not conceal the intention of rushing guests in his tone, Pei Ji’an made a special trip, obviously not for reminiscing the old. Pei Ji’an stopped probing, and simply asked the question: “The cousin has been in the official position for half a year, and he has been promoted from the sixth rank to the fourth rank. Such a rapid promotion rate is unique. The cousin can leapfrog and promote, which shows that the saint favors his cousin. Very, maybe, my cousin is going to be a concierge.”

These words of Pei Ji’an can be said to be undisguised, how can he be? He was gentle and elegant in the past. This can’t be blamed on Pei Ji’an, no matter how gentlemen are, they might not be able to speak well when they meet a rival in love.

Pei Ji’an only hated that it was too late to wake up, and he didn’t realize his feelings until she pulled away and left. In fact, he should have known it for a long time, as soon as he was born again, he was very indulgent to Li Chaoge, Li Chaoge wanted to kill him, and he always let her. It seems that as long as it is Li Chaoge, no matter what he does, he can be forgiven.

Except for liking other people.

Pei Ji’an couldn’t help thinking, if it wasn’t for Gu Ming Ke, they are not in this situation now. Gu Ming? Ke was the one who came later. Who knew Gu Ming? Did Ke deliberately pretend to be a cold fairy to attract Li Chaoge?

After all, Li Chaoge’s hobby is too stable and obvious.

Gu Ming? Ke felt unreasonable? Yu, if he were in the heavenly court, how could Greedy Wolf dare to talk to him in this tone? Gu Ming Ke condescended to come to the world to help the greedy wolves get through the catastrophe, but in turn is questioned by the subordinates’ subordinates?

But Gu Ming Ke finally restrained his emotions. In public speaking, he is now in public affairs and cannot influence the task because of his personal emotions. Gu Ming? Ke didn’t say anything, just replied: “Aren’t you?”

Gu Ming Ke’s voice was very cold, but Pei Ji’an still caught that Gu Ming Ke was angry. Pei Ji’an asked similar questions more than once in the past. Gu Ming Ke coldly refused every time. It was definitely impossible. But now, Pei Ji’an only tried one sentence. Gu Ming Ke was unhappy, not light. Not heavy? Stabbed back, saying that you are the same.

This change is subtle, and it sounds like there is no difference, but Pei Ji’an feels it is different. Gu Ming Ke was vaguely reminding Pei Ji’an that the saint had already given him a marriage with Li Changle, and Gu Ming Ke said, “Don’t worry about meddling too much.”

This change is very intriguing. Pei Ji’an is smiling on the surface, but the ice thorn in his heart is getting sharper. Pei Ji’an asked: “Cousin is familiar with the scriptures and history, should know more than me?. I have something? I don’t understand, please cousin. If a person misunderstands his feelings, and now the opportunity for correction is in front of him, should he tell the other party?”

Gu Ming looked at him coldly, and looked back at him with a stubborn neck. Gu Ming Ke’s eyes were full of oppression, and Pei Ji’an gradually felt strenuous. Pei Ji’an was very surprised. Gu Ming? Isn’t Ke a sick child? How could he have such a look in his eyes?

Gu Ming Ke’s face was like a cold jade, he watched for a while, his thin lips slightly opened, and he said without a rush: “You are an adult, you can make any decision. But once a decision is made, You have to bear all the consequences.”

Pei Ji’an finally understood his feelings and wanted to tell Li Chaoge. But then?

The emperor has publicly announced the marriage of Pei Ji’an and Li Changle. Although there is no official marriage certificate, the emperor has said nothing about this matter. There is no room for maneuver. Pei Ji’an is about to marry Li Changle, he confessed to his wife and sister, isn’t it a futile trouble?

The most taboo brothers and sisters in the royal family are fighting for one person. This matter? If it spreads out, how about the emperor and the queen? How about? Want Li Chaoge? The prince, the royal family of the Li family, and even the world is so easy to speak, what do you want? How about Li Chaoge? Li Chaoge Ming Ming didn’t do anything, but wanted to bear the infamy to seduce his brother-in-law.

Pei Ji’an thought of giving the marriage will, sinking deep in his heart. Yes, he has already asked to marry him, but he cut off his retreat with Li Chaoge himself. Now that it’s clear? What’s the point if you confess your feelings?

Pei Ji’an closed his eyes and showed pain on his face. He can’t be afraid of death, but he can’t hurt his parents and relatives. Gu Ming? Ke saw him? finally woke up, with a cold tone, and warned for the last time: “I reminded you that once you ask for a marriage, there is no room for maneuver?. People should be responsible for their words and deeds, don’t take them. You hurt others and yourself. Pei Supplements, I still have something to do? Please, please.”

Pei Ji’an didn’t know how he was. Walking out of the Dali Temple, he stood in the east of the imperial city. The sun was shining, the fallen leaves were slender, and Ming Ming was a hearty late autumn scene, but Pei Ji’an felt cold. His heart seemed to be empty, and he kept leaking air in.

He hates himself for being weak, always afraid to admit his feelings, but hates himself even more for being unworthy. Can Li Chaoge come out, he? Can’t he? He? He did like her, but so what? A woman? A human being, how? Comparable to a parent’s family? The Pei family raised Pei Ji’an and grew up. Pei Ji’an should pay for the family. Li Changle is gentle and innocent, and will also be a good wife. In front of him is a bright? Smooth road, in comparison, men and women? What counts as love?

Pei Ji’an convinced herself that this was only a momentary love, and it would naturally dissipate after a long time. He has his own responsibilities and future. From then on, men and women are irrelevant, and there is nothing to regret.