Chapter 63
Chapter 62 Geiju extra
In He Yunhan’s memory, there is very little about the warmth of home.
At that time, my father’s career had not yet started, and he was running around every day, and his mother took care of her and sister at home.
The family’s financial situation is a bit tight.
One dish, one soup, mostly vegetarian dishes, every day when father comes home, mother will take the briefcase in his hand as soon as possible, and they don’t shy away from hugging father.
She and her sister would laugh secretly on one side, and sometimes she would cover her sister’s eyes with her hands.
The tea is light and the rice is light, but everyone is happy.
With the ups and downs of my father’s work, my mother couldn’t bear his pressure too much, so she also found a job near her home. It was only a night shift, which was convenient for taking care of her and her sister, and subsidized the family.
Although she is close, in many cases, the burden of taking care of her younger sister falls on He Yunhan.
My mother told Yun Han that no matter who knocked on the door, don’t open the door when she was away, otherwise someone would **** her sister away.
The little He Yunhan was frightened and frightened. Whenever she left, she would hold her sister tightly and hold her in her arms.
Occasionally, when it rained and thundered, Yun Yang trembled with fright. She was also scared, but she felt sorry for her sister even more, “Don’t be afraid of your sister protecting you.”
Yun Yang’s soft body leaned helplessly in her arms. From then on, He Yunhan told herself that she must be strong.
Because she is a sister.
Days pass by.
In the middle of the day, my father returned home, happily hugged her and Yun Yang in his arms, and kissed hard.
On that day, he was very happy, and babblingly told He Ma that he met a noble person in the business field and entered a company called Shenghuang.
This is a turning point in Dad’s life.
They are all happy for him.
But she never thought that it would also be a turning point for this family.
The conditions at home are getting better day by day. She and her sister no longer stand by watching other children eat snacks, and no longer wear old clothes.
Whenever they want, their parents will respond.
Later, she transferred to the noble school.
She was very uncomfortable when she first entered.
Although they are all the same age, they all have that kind of arrogance and inaccessible…excellence on their faces.
She was not good at talking when she was a child.
Therefore, she has never had any friends.
Occasionally, I will be bullied by my classmates.
Yun Han knows how difficult it is for parents to have today, so she can’t cause them trouble again.
Sometimes, when she was injured and went home, she went to the bathroom by herself, looked in the mirror, and wiped the wound little by little.
At first, she shed tears in pain, and sometimes the sand was rubbed into the flesh, which was especially difficult to clean up.
She dared not let her parents see, and was even more afraid of scaring her sister.
Later, a little bit, it seemed to be numb.
When one goes to school and one goes out of school, everything becomes accustomed.
The happiest time was when the driver’s uncle brought her sister to pick her up.
She will never forget.
In winter, Yun Yang, wearing a white bulging down jacket, stood at the gate of the school, like a little snowman, waiting for her with a smile.
Her eyes were dark, Yun Han walked out of the school gate, she would stretch out her hand to hug Yun Han for the first time, and said sweetly: “Sister.”
Yun Han hugged her in her arms and kissed her soft cheek, heart, soft and happy.
But someone said.
The most fickle thing in this world is the human heart.
Parents began to quarrel.
Later, the quarrel escalated and turned into throwing things, and finally, even to the point of hands-on.
Every time, they fight.
Yun Han would hold Yunyang and could only hide in the closet.
Everything in the house was smashed. There were glass shards all over the floor. She was scared and worried that her sister would be stabbed to her feet.
Yun Yang looked at Yun Han in horror. Yun Han was also afraid, but she could only hug her: “Don’t be afraid, don’t be afraid, there is a sister.”
She didn’t know how to describe that gray time.
Once, she also resented her parents.
I hate why they can’t give her and sister a complete and warm home.
Later, gradually, she also adapted.
Human adaptability is really terrifyingly powerful.
It seemed that no matter what kind of pain, He Yunhan could swallow it with the washing of time.
Mom started drinking and smoking, and went out with her poker friends all night.
And Dad didn’t return with a hangover, and occasionally returned home, the strong smell of perfume on his body was the cause of quarrels.
Repeatedly, endless fights and quarrels.
Yun Han just loves her sister.
I used everything she had to protect her, but…she was still too weak at that time.
Yun Yang grew up in such an environment full of quarrels and hurting each other.
She is rebellious, she is stubborn.
When she was fourteen, she tattooed a wing on her foot.
She told Yun Han, “Sister, do you know? How much I want to take you away from this house.”
She dreamed of taking her sister to fly out and escape from all this terrible.
At that time, Yun Han vaguely felt that she was wrong.
Yun Han was afraid of worry, but powerless, so she could only make herself stronger as soon as possible.
At the age of eighteen, He Yunhan officially entered the Holy Emperor.
There, although they are all beautiful sisters, handsome brothers, and very kind old president Xiao.
But she was still young after all, and sitting in such a position would inevitably be discussed by others.
Yun Han is not a person who can talk. In such an environment where there are elites everywhere, she also learned to shut up early.
Don’t stand in line.
No discussion.
Don’t lie.
In the days and nights that others can’t see, she tried her best. Occasionally, when she was exhausted, Yun Han would stand at the door of Yunyang and take a look, vaguely, as if she could still see the childhood The little meat ball that was about to be hugged in her arms, her heart, was so at ease.
At that time, Mr. Xiao noticed that there was a fierce energy in the child. She once saw Yun Han being squeezed so that her eyes were red, but she still just nodded, said nothing, and didn’t let the tears flow down.
Old Xiao always thought for a while and asked someone to take He Yunhan over to raise him with his ineffective granddaughter Xiao You.
I want my granddaughter to see what is powerful and contrast.
With the help of Mr. Xiao, gradually.
Yun Han’s work has improved.
Not only in her career, she has also made new achievements in acting.
Many people praised He Yunhan as a genius for deduction, what natural words he said, and his young age can try to make sad characters so vivid.
He Yunhan said nothing.
But he smiled softly in his heart.
Tragic person? try? Is it really…try it?
Gradually, during the exercise, she seemed to have found her true self.
She feels everything in the world.
Sometimes, when a play is over, she can’t come out yet.
Days and nights are sinking, and the bright moon is heading, she will sit on the cold floor all night, Yun Yang saw it, hugged her sister in distress, and said nothing.
In recent years, their sisters have long been used to relying on each other, licking each other’s wounds.
Later, even the dad who had always been disdainful of her looked at her with admiration, saying that the blood of the He family was in her bones.
Ha ha.
Yup.
He Yunhan looked at herself in the mirror, she stared blankly, not knowing if she was herself.
slowly.
The seventeen-year-old sister has grown up, and she told Yun Han: “Sister, I want to move out, I finally… can finally escape from here.”
Yun Han was silent, with a trace of sadness.
Knowing that she can’t control her thoughts, she can only do her best to help her choose a good place.
Yun Yang is different from Yun Han. She likes music and rock.
What she wanted, Yun Han naturally supported her.
Money or something, for Yun Han, was not important for a long time.
In this life, Yun Han hopes to use her everything to make her sister happy.
Mom and Dad, gave her a broken home, and she will try to fill in some warmth.
Later, Yunyang met Adi.
Yun Han remained silent about her relationship.
It’s not that I don’t like Adi.
He is a sunny, cheerful and enthusiastic young man, his smile is different from that of their sisters.
And He Yunhan always feels that they are not a spatial person.
Yun Yang once asked Yunhan coquettishly: “Sister, don’t you like Wendy?”
Yun Han shook his head lightly.
Yun Yang pouted, “Then why don’t you laugh? Could it be… jealous?”
Yun Han looked at Yun Yang’s smile, her heart softened.
Well, as long as she likes it, she can do anything.
They were very affectionate, and the smile on Yun Yang’s face increased day by day, and she looked very pleased.
Yun Han doesn’t ask for Adi’s status in life experience.
As long as he treats Yunyang well, she can give him all this.
But one day.
Adi found it. His eyes were red and his voice was hoarse: “Sister…do you know? Yunyang has depression.”
Yun Han was startled and looked at him.
She knew that they were living together.
Adi lowered her head, “She couldn’t sleep all night and all night… Sometimes, she finally fell asleep, and suddenly woke up at four or five o’clock, she was sweating, we found many psychologists and took medicine. , Can’t be cured…”
Yun Han went to find Yun Yang.
Yun Yang seemed to have known her sister came to her for a long time.
She looked at her sister and smiled lightly, but her eyes were rubbed with tears, “Sister, you say…what happened to me? I am fine…I have no worries about food and clothing, I have you, and Adi, why do I… …Why do you always feel like you are walking in a corner, why can’t you always get out?”
She felt that she did not deserve happiness.
The people of their family is a disaster for the lover.
Dad is like this, aunt is like this, so is her.
She and Adi had reached the point of discussing marriage. She saw Adi’s mother. The old lady had sharp eyes, as if it could pierce her heart at once, leaving her nowhere to hide.
For this reason, Adi and his family broke up.
Adi’s mother has a very headache, “Son, I don’t care what you look for. You have been independent since childhood. Your father and I have never cared about you. But look at her, is she normal??? She is gloomy in her bones. , Let go, you are still young and can’t bear the pain at all, let go, while you are still young, it’s still too late.”
The torment of family and love.
Adi lost weight in a short period of time.
He Yunyang proposed to break up, but he did not agree to death.
In this way, the two entangled for three years.
Yun Han took a lot of time to accompany her sister, taking care of her carefully, fearing that she might not think about it.
As the Spring Festival approached, Yun Yang said that he would go back to his alma mater to hand over some things. He Yunhan wanted to accompany her, but she refused.
During the quarrel, Yun Yang lost his temper, “I’m not the canary you raised in captivity. Why did you keep me locked up since childhood???”
At that moment of distress, He Yunhan swallowed again.
Before leaving.
Adi came to Yun Yang again, he was holding her hand, no matter how he refused to let it go.
Yun Yang was in tears, and she kissed Adi: “Let’s go, remember my most beautiful appearance, I don’t want our love to be exhausted like this.”
Seeing that the New Year is about to come.
Yun Yang hasn’t come back yet.
He Yunhan called her time and time again, and even booked a plane ticket, ready to find her.
at night.
She suddenly received a call from her sister.
He Yunhan didn’t know how, Yun Yang at that time was sitting on the eighteen-story rooftop.
He Yunhan didn’t want to recall those painful experiences.
But before my sister left, those words were like black vines, entwining her heart, leaving no space for her to suffocate.
——Sister, I love you, I’m sorry.
Sister, I’m so tired, I want to take a break, I’m sorry, you helped me take care of my parents… Also, tell Adi, I’m… sorry for her.
Cold rain, cold cemetery.
Yun Yang’s departure destroyed this precarious home.
And He Yunhan’s beliefs that he has adhered to since childhood is also completely shattered.
Parents broke completely.
He Yunhan is already numb.
The departure of her sister took away her last spiritual support.
For a time, the world was vast, and she didn’t know why she existed.
People, live, what is it for?
Suffer?
Gradually, she felt that a **** hand was holding her and torturing her forever.
He Yunhan finally, in her own body, felt the day and night torture her sister said.
It turned out that it hurts so much.
She feels very sorry for Yun Yang.
She has lived for more than 20 years, always for Yunyang, and it seems that she has not found herself.
after that.
Adi also came to Yun Han once, and he wanted a picture of Yun Yang.
After the two broke up, Yun Yang burned everything down.
He Yunhan stared into his eyes, “Adi, what are you doing?”
After going through all kinds of things, she is so sensitive.
Adi lowered his head and his eyes were red: “Sister, I miss her, so I think about it.”
Really Want……
Who isn’t it?
That day, Adi left and never returned.
He Yunhan thought for a long time, and called Adi’s parents, but the response was swearing.
——You all are demons, demons! My son is ruined! ! Do you still have the face to call? ? ? ?
After He Yunhan knew the cause of Adi’s death, she fainted in the office.
It was the hospital Xiao You sent her to.
Gaoyi looked nervous, “Mr. Xiao, she’s afraid it’s not great…”
Not great…
All of this doesn’t matter to He Yunhan.
The worst, isn’t it just to leave?
Sometimes, death is also a kind of relief.
With numb life and numb work, He Yunhan savors the world in one scene after another.
Occasionally, it would bring back a trace of memory in my heart. In the dead of night, she held a glass of red wine and watched Mingyue’s concentration for a long time.
Mom and Dad are still arguing day and night.
The broken feelings finally broke.
He Ma asked her to cry, that pain, that sadness, she has no way to comfort her.
However, for the sake of property, being calculated by his biological father still added a touch of coldness in He Yunhan’s heart.
She changed.
Become numb, become cold, even a bit cruel.
Even Mr. Xiao didn’t dare to offend people, she should take care of the things she didn’t dare to do.
She also took all those entertainments.
Even if it exceeds the body’s tolerance, she also bears it.
Spit up to stomach bleeding.
After entering the hospital, He Yunhan looked at the drip and felt the warm liquid flow into her body. She actually felt comfortable.
She knew that she might be one step closer to death.
She is not afraid.
Between heaven and earth, she has no home anymore, no one she loves, right?
Living a day is a day.
If one day, she dies, she hopes someone can scatter her ashes into the sea and let her drift around.
In the next life, she doesn’t want to be a human again.
too bitter.
The life repeated day by day is like a mechanically rotating watch.
That’s it for this life.
Until, she saw the child.
Her smile, so bright, her eyes, so clear.
in the sun.
She stretched out her hand, her long hair fluttering, and said softly: “Come, Yun Han, I will take you home.”
Salvation.
He Yunhan thought that her heart was already cold and dead.
But when Feng Yu approaches, it will jump violently again.
——Yuan Bao, thank you, you let me know that this world is so beautiful.
It turns out that I want to live too.