To Me, Who Doesn’t Love You

“I can’t do that.”Suhan muttered to himself, almost unconsciously, as his hand moved faster along the length he was gripping. His fully erect member regained its firmness in Suhan’s hand, and soon, clear fluid began to drip from the tip. Whether this quick reaction was Suhan’s natural response or because Suhan was aiding the process, it wasn’t clear. But as the fluid served as a lubricant, spreading across the glans, Yeonseo, who was bracing himself against the wall, clenched his fist tightly. Suhan pressed his body closer, pushing Yeonseo against the door, and then, with his free hand, he grabbed Yeonseo’s wrist, pulling it up and placing it on his own waist.“Ah… mm…”As Suhan teasingly touched the area from the base of the shaft to the scrotum with his fingertips, the shadows of the veins standing out beneath the surface became more pronounced. Suhan, recalling the sensation of rugged ridges scraping against his palm, unconsciously tensed his lower abdomen. Unfortunately, there was no attached bathroom in the guest room, and Suhan knew things could get complicated if they really went through with it here. Yet, as he saw Yeonseo blushing and avoiding eye contact, Suhan found it impossible to resist the impulse.“Jo Yeonseo.”When Suhan called out Yeonseo’s name in a breathy, rough voice, Yeonseo trembled, his eyelashes fluttering as he looked at Suhan. Standing with his back to the light, Suhan cast shadows over Yeonseo’s eyes, causing even the lashes to tremble. Unconsciously, Suhan swallowed the dry saliva that had pooled in his mouth and crossed his arms over Yeonseo’s shoulders, as if surrendering.“Do whatever you want to me.”Without giving Yeonseo time to respond to the provocative invitation, Suhan’s lips were swallowed by Yeonseo’s. The first time is always the hardest, but once that barrier is broken, everything comes rushing out like a dam bursting. It had been well over a dozen times that they had mixed bodies whenever their eyes met, and yet Yeonseo’s kisses always carried a hint of impatience, as if this was the last chance. Suhan didn’t mind; he accepted Yeonseo’s desperate advances, gently holding him while their tongues intertwined.“Haa…”Hot breaths escaped between their parted lips, and Yeonseo hastily stripped Suhan’s clothes. Lifting the top over his head, Suhan revealed his firm chest, the pale skin stark against the faintly pink nipples. Their color and size had changed noticeably since the first time Yeonseo had shyly played with them with his fingers. As Yeonseo’s fingers grazed the protruding crimson buds, the swollen areolas were gently pressed under his touch.‘They’ve grown, haven’t they…’Yeonseo, seemingly entranced, took the left bud into his mouth, while Suhan, now with his pants pulled down to his knees, tightly gripped Yeonseo’s shoulders. As Yeonseo sucked the nipple into his mouth, swirling his tongue around it, a strange sweet taste spread throughout his mouth.“Hngh…!”By now, Suhan’s fully exposed shaft was leaking clear fluid, which trickled down in thin lines. As Yeonseo cautiously inserted his middle finger between Suhan’s tightly closed entrance, Suhan could no longer hold back, and his body trembled as he pleaded.“Hurry up and just put it in.”But, as always, Yeonseo was persistent. He shook his head, unwilling to allow even the slightest possibility that Suhan might experience pain.“No.”Perhaps it was the sense of guilt from doing something forbidden in a strange place, something that shouldn’t be done. Even as Yeonseo’s busy fingers spread and opened Suhan’s folds, the entrance kept contracting, refusing to relax.“I… I told you it’s fine.”Suhan repeatedly tried to rush Yeonseo, teasing the small of his back in an attempt to hurry him along, but Yeonseo remained firm. As if to prove that Suhan would have already made a mistake long before he lost his memory if he couldn’t even endure this much. Just like Suhan had once joked, his lower half was now soaked, as if a faucet had been turned on, with slick fluid flowing out, carrying a strong pheromone scent. Yeonseo was at his limit, but what he craved more than insertion was something else entirely.‘The scent… it’s so sweet…’Suhan’s pheromones didn’t usually carry the stereotypical omega scent of sweet flowers or fruits. Instead, they had a heavier, woody scent that penetrated deep into the lungs.It wasn’t that there was no sweetness at all. It wasn’t an instant rush like sugar; rather, it was a slow, creeping sweetness that you could only notice after breathing it in for a long time, filling your senses with Suhan’s scent. Yeonseo liked that. He liked that it felt like only he could detect the rare sweetness hidden in Suhan’s carefully concealed pheromones. But today, for some reason, that sweetness was overpowering.Would the fluid dripping from Suhan’s body taste as sweet as his scent? The question slipped into Yeonseo’s mind, and without thinking, he lowered himself to his knees in front of Suhan.“……?”Suhan felt confused and tilted his head for a moment. Yeonseo, without hesitation, brought his lips to Suhan’s pubic area. While Suhan had previously given Yeonseo oral sex, this was the first time it had happened the other way around. Yeonseo had always been too shy and embarrassed to even handle penetration comfortably, so Suhan had never asked him for such a thing, nor had Yeonseo ever volunteered.“Wait, you really don’t need to… Ah…!”Before Suhan could grab Yeonseo’s shoulders in surprise, Yeonseo opened his mouth wide and sucked in the tender flesh of the perineum. For some reason, the fluid was just as sweet as Suhan’s heated pheromones. After thoroughly licking the inside of Suhan’s thighs and soft flesh until not a drop of the thick, pheromone-laden fluid was left, Yeonseo realized that he had just drained all of the natural lubricant he would need to enter Suhan.Suhan looked down at him, his eyes slightly narrowed with a mix of dizzying pleasure and frustration, as if he was impatient and unsatisfied. The sight of Suhan’s dilated pupils and that expression of wanting more without being fully satisfied only ignited Yeonseo’s impulses.“Stop playing around, ngh… I told you to just do it.”Despite Suhan’s urging, Yeonseo rubbed his cheek against Suhan’s thigh like a pet showing affection to its owner. He flicked his tongue at Suhan’s fully erect member and spoke softly.“…I want to do it.”Technically speaking, Yeonseo hadn’t even asked for permission. But he never wanted to force Suhan into something he didn’t like, so he blinked up at him, as if pleading for approval. Should Suhan consider this cheeky or a sign that Yeonseo had been well-trained? Suhan let out a short, incredulous laugh, making Yeonseo mutter quietly.“Yes? Suhan hyung…”When I asked you to call me that before, you never even responded, Suhan thought. Now, watching Yeonseo call him “hyung” and beg just to soothe him made Suhan smirk. Not that he minded, of course.With one hand, Suhan cupped Yeonseo’s cheek as he knelt in front of him, and gently pried open his small lips. He slowly pushed his glans into Yeonseo’s mouth, the soft, red lips struggling to take him in as they stretched around his member. As much as Suhan wanted to thrust into that warm mouth, just like when Yeonseo took him inside, the fear of hurting Yeonseo held him back.When Suhan gripped Yeonseo’s shoulder, trying to suppress his urge, Yeonseo started bobbing his head, slowly taking in and releasing Suhan’s member. He couldn’t even swallow half of it, lacking any real technique, and seemed focused solely on sucking out the pheromone-laced fluid gathering at the tip. His clumsy, desire-filled movements were proof that Yeonseo had never done anything like this with anyone but Suhan. The thought that the awkward yet eager person in front of him was Jo Yeonseo filled Suhan with such excitement that his insides tingled.But excitement alone wasn’t enough to push Suhan over the edge. It wasn’t that Yeonseo was too inexperienced—there was something else Suhan wanted. Something more… In the end, unable to endure the teasing pleasure, Suhan pushed Yeonseo away, forcing him to release his member. Then, without giving Yeonseo a chance to react, Suhan dragged him to the bed and pushed him down onto it.“You told me to do whatever I wanted…”Yeonseo muttered with a flushed, disappointed face. Suhan chuckled, shaking his head in disbelief, as he climbed on top of Yeonseo, who had collapsed onto the sheets.“Let me finish first, okay?”As Suhan hastily reached down, feeling along Yeonseo’s abdomen and lower, he noticed that, despite the flush of blood heating his face, Yeonseo was shamelessly standing stiff and erect below.“Whew…”Suhan took a deep breath, worrying if Yeonseo might be in pain from being so aroused. He carefully took the hard length into his mouth, starting with the tip, and Yeonseo bit his lip, clenching his teeth. Suhan gently kissed Yeonseo, slipping his tongue into the gap between his lips, worried that he might injure him. Their awkwardly entwined tongues reacted as Suhan slowly lowered himself, taking in more of Yeonseo’s length each time.“Mmgh…”The trembling of Yeonseo’s lower abdomen, spasming as if in a convulsion, was transmitted clearly through their bare skin. Suhan couldn’t help but let out a soft laugh, though his body shivered from the overwhelming tightness and sensation as he pushed into the narrow space.“Ha… Ugh…”Even though this wasn’t the first or second time they had done this, why did it always feel so tight? Before thrusting in all the way to the base, Suhan pulled back slightly, trying to loosen the tight space a little more. The walls clung to him so tightly that even as he withdrew, the sensation of the soft inner walls scraping against him made Suhan’s toes curl involuntarily.“Ah…!”Each ridge of Yeonseo’s inner walls clung tightly to Suhan’s throbbing veins, causing his legs to weaken. Suhan struggled to maintain his balance as his knees threatened to give way under the weight pressing into the bed.The exquisite pleasure from the slow, repetitive in-and-out motion pushed both of their patience to the limit. Yeonseo, too, was nearing his breaking point, and the hand he had placed on Suhan’s hips clenched tightly. Though Suhan’s skin wasn’t particularly sensitive, the clear handprints left on his smooth pelvis made Yeonseo’s face flush even more.“It’s so big… Ngh, all this trouble just to get it all in…”Suhan chuckled lightly, murmuring the words as if joking, and Yeonseo’s abdomen twitched again. It wasn’t as if they had overexerted themselves recently, yet everything felt unusually tight and swollen. Maybe Yeonseo was still slightly swollen from their previous session, or perhaps the soft, tight inner walls were simply different this time. Suhan’s mind drifted to how good it would feel to push all the way in until his pelvis brushed against Yeonseo’s pubic hair. Just as that unconscious desire took hold, a creak from the wooden floor beyond the door broke the silence.“……!”He’s still here? Though they knew the person beyond the door, it only made the situation more embarrassing. Realizing that someone could hear what they were doing with only the old wooden door separating them, Yeonseo felt the tightness below grow even more. This wasn’t a fetish of his, but as he locked eyes with Suhan, who was slowly rotating his hips, Suhan teasingly whispered.“What’s wrong? Do you think he hasn’t left yet?”Suhan hadn’t stopped paying attention to the sounds from beyond the door for even a moment. After all, he was doing it on purpose. Whether Junho was still outside, listening in, or getting excited on his own from overhearing, Suhan didn’t care anymore. Watching Yeonseo become so embarrassed yet remain fully aroused, knowing someone might be listening, was utterly delightful for Suhan.“…Yes, ngh…”Suhan pressed his hips down harder, forcing Yeonseo to take him all the way in until the base, making a soft moan escape from Yeonseo’s lips. Yeonseo had no choice but to grip Suhan’s hips more tightly. The obscene sight of his member slipping out of Yeonseo’s tight entrance only to be sucked back in with a wet sound was impossible to miss. Each time the thick tip grazed Yeonseo’s sensitive insides, Suhan’s expression shifted from a slight grimace to one of deep, sensual pleasure.“Haa… Ugh…”All Yeonseo could do, pinned beneath Suhan’s weight, was gasp for breath and look up at him with hazy, unfocused eyes.“Make more noise. Ngh… That way, he’ll know exactly what we’re doing.”“Hah…”Suhan let out a soft sigh and lifted his hand from the floor to grasp Yeonseo’s neck. As Suhan’s torso bent forward, Yeonseo’s swollen belly, bulging from taking Suhan so deeply, became even more prominent.“Hngh… Ugh…”Suhan’s body trembled as a different kind of pleasure surged through him, causing him to raise his hips high. Then, with a swift motion, he pulled out almost completely, only to plunge back in with full force. His entire body shuddered with pleasure, from his erect nipples down to his toes, as a clear, thick fluid spurted from the tip of his fully stiffened member.“Ah! Ugh… Ngh…”The low, sobbing moans that escaped from deep within Suhan’s throat made Yeonseo feel as if something inside him had snapped. Desperately flipping Suhan onto the bed, Yeonseo pressed his body tightly against Suhan’s as his hips bucked upwards. Suhan’s member, still dripping with the remnants of his climax, bobbed against his stomach. Yeonseo braced himself with one hand on the floor and gripped Suhan’s shaft with the other, using the fluid Suhan had just released as lubrication. He began thrusting harder.“Ah! Wait, not there…!”Suhan’s body stiffened, and he instinctively squeezed Yeonseo’s waist with his legs. Though Suhan seemed startled and tightened around him, Yeonseo merely soothed him with a brief kiss on the face, all while continuing his relentless movements. The rough thrusts and the overwhelming sensation made Suhan cling to Yeonseo and beg.“Wait, ah…! Yes, there, ngh… it’s too…!”But Yeonseo didn’t stop. Suhan didn’t say it hurt or that he wanted to stop, so he took that as a sign to continue. Maybe Suhan had provoked this, wanting things to go this way. With a short exhale, Yeonseo straightened up, grabbing one of Suhan’s ankles and lifting it onto his shoulder. Then, putting all his strength into it, he thrust deeply into the soft inner flesh. Clear fluid squirted out from the tight space, and transparent liquid dripped from the tip of Suhan’s member as well.“Hah… You’re enjoying this so much, huh? Cumming so much…”“Ah, ugh… Don’t say that…”Suhan’s body tightened, the walls inside clenching so hard that Yeonseo could feel it. It wasn’t from discomfort or fear, but from sheer excitement.“You’re the one who taught me all this, hyung, ngh….”Of course, it was true. As Yeonseo’s thrusts became rougher, Suhan found it increasingly difficult to stay composed, overwhelmed by the sharp pleasure coursing through his body.“Ha… Ugh… So good, yeah…”Even the moans spilling from Suhan’s thin lips were something Yeonseo wanted to devour entirely.“Does it feel good? Huff… It feels so good for me too…”The warmth of Suhan’s body, the legs wrapped tightly around him, the way his cock was greedily sucked in and clenched—all of it was perfect. The sheer loveliness of Lee Suhan as a person made Yeonseo blind to anything else; nothing else mattered.“Mmh… Ha… Ugh…”From the moment Suhan had climaxed in Yeonseo’s hands earlier, he hadn’t had a chance to calm down. His urethra kept leaking fluids, and when his hole clenched tightly and his body trembled again, Yeonseo instinctively pushed deeper between Suhan’s spread legs and released himself inside. Yeonseo had already cum inside him dozens of times, yet the insatiable thirst remained, as if no amount would ever be enough.“Ha…”As Yeonseo deliberately pulled his cock out with a slow motion, the cum he’d just released began to seep out, spreading between Suhan’s tight folds. The mixture of Suhan’s sweet fluids and Yeonseo’s creamy white semen dripped down, falling beneath Suhan’s ass. The sight of it made Yeonseo hard again, almost painfully so. Lost in the obscene view, Yeonseo watched Suhan gaze up at him, eyes glazed with pleasure, and heard him plead.“Hurry…”With a mischievous grin, Suhan spread his fingers and opened himself up, and the remnants of what Yeonseo had left inside him gushed out.Finally, the sound of creaking floorboards echoed again as the person standing at the door moved away. Suhan let that faint noise slip by with satisfaction, turning to kiss Yeonseo. Even after several releases, his overheated body showed no sign of cooling down, as if only Yeonseo could be his cure. It wasn’t until Suhan came a few more times, with his insides throbbing painfully as though he couldn’t take any more, that their long session finally came to an end.Perhaps, Suhan thought, if the version of himself from before he lost his memory had experienced the taste of this cock even once, he wouldn’t have been able to ask for a divorce just because of compatibility issues. With that foolish thought lingering, Suhan passed out in Yeonseo’s arms, as if in a deep sleep.When Suhan opened his eyes in the dim early morning, it was still before dawn. He had hoped that a bit of sleep would ease the discomfort, but the dull ache in his lower abdomen persisted. It wasn’t painful enough to need medication, but it was bothersome, leaving an irritating feeling that he couldn’t shake off.Suhan felt the warmth of the body holding him tightly from behind and closed his eyes again. Now that he thought about it, after nearly ten years of suppressing his pheromones, it was no wonder his body might be under strain. Although modern drugs had minimized side effects, it was still unnatural to block a system that should function naturally, so it was no surprise if there were issues. Suhan started to wonder if this might be a side effect of suddenly stopping the medication he’d been taking for so long.“Or maybe…”He considered another possibility and let out a small laugh, finding his own thoughts amusing. Either way, it might be a good idea to go to the hospital for a check-up. The business card he’d received as a joke, from the hospital where his mother had been admitted, with the note that the doctor had been promoted, flashed briefly in his mind.“Not now, later.”Since it was still his day off, he decided to call the hospital on Monday when it opened. With that thought in mind, Suhan drifted back into a deep sleep. The faint sound of breathing in his ear acted like a lullaby, pulling him back into unconsciousness, and when he woke up again, it was time to have breakfast and start heading home.* * *“Well then, we’ll be off. Thank you for having us.”Suhan said his polite goodbye with a formal smile, but his aunt’s face still showed a sense of discomfort as she waved them off.“It was nice to see you after so long. You should come by more often. We need to stay in touch.”Though her words said otherwise, it was clear she had no real desire for that. Suhan nodded slightly in response and opened the passenger side door of the car that Yeonseo had pulled out of the garage ahead of time. Whether it was because the family found them uncomfortable, or because of the events that had transpired in the guest room the previous night, it was hard to say. Either way, Suhan had no desire to linger. Staying any longer wouldn’t do any good.Perhaps because of the way they had shamelessly engaged in intimacy with only a simple wooden door between them, Juno, who hadn’t even come out for breakfast, was nowhere to be seen by the time Yeonseo’s car left the estate.“Maybe we went too far.”But at least they hadn’t left too much of a mess. Despite their inappropriate behavior in someone else’s house, at least they hadn’t treated the place like a motel. The bedding would be washed now that the guest had left, so it wasn’t too bad. With that brief worry brushed aside, Suhan closed the passenger door and was about to fasten his seatbelt when someone hurried toward the car from the front door.“…?”Yeonseo, who had been about to shift gears and back the car out, paused and lowered the window when he saw the woman who’d been handling the meals and household chores during their stay approach them, clearly out of breath.“Is something wrong?”Had they left something behind? But they hadn’t brought much to begin with, so there wasn’t really anything they could have forgotten. As Suhan and Yeonseo both looked up at the woman, she nervously fumbled in her uniform pocket for something.“Well… I’m going to be transferring to a new location starting next month.”What does that have to do with us? Suhan wondered, but he kept his mouth shut, sensing that her expression was more urgent than usual, and simply nodded.“Thank you for yesterday. I’m leaving soon, but if a complaint were filed with the company, it would affect my chances of a promotion, and I’ve been really worried since I’m so close to it.”Suhan had wondered why a household worker had a uniform, but now it made sense—she was a dispatched worker from an agency. Suhan had worried that they had overstepped, but it seemed his help had actually been appreciated.“That’s good to hear. Based on the meals you prepared, it seems like you’re quite skilled. I hope you can work in an even better environment.”After exchanging formal pleasantries, it seemed like it was time to leave. However, the woman still didn’t step aside from in front of the car, causing Suhan to glance at Yeonseo’s face. Was there something more going on between her and Yeonseo that he didn’t know about? Before he could figure it out, the woman closed her eyes tightly and handed something to Yeonseo.“…?”“What’s this?”Yeonseo instinctively took the item—an extremely small USB stick, the kind that held very little storage.“I’m not sure if it will be of help to you, but I think it’s related to Suhan. Please keep this a secret from everyone else, okay? Please…!”The seriousness of her expression didn’t seem to match the seemingly insignificant item she handed over, but Suhan nodded in response to her urgent request. Asking her directly about the USB probably wouldn’t get them any clearer answers. They would just have to check it themselves.“Alright, we understand. But we really should be going now…”“Oh, yes. Thank you again for everything!”As the woman hurriedly ran back toward the house, Suhan watched her go with an unsettled feeling. Soon, the large house shrank to the size of a thumbnail in the distance, and once it disappeared behind a hill, the uncomfortable sensation of their visit started to lift slightly.“What on earth is this?”Suhan stared at the USB in his hand as if he were appraising a jewel. Was it some kind of document smuggled from the house or evidence related to a scandal? His mind began to race with possibilities, but then he quickly realized that the situation might be too good to be true.“Could this be bait planted by the family?”Connecting the USB to his laptop wouldn’t result in a hacking attack, or have the existing files on his PC stolen, right? Suhan wasn’t imagining himself in a spy movie scenario, but given that they were dealing with people they were in a business rivalry with, it was hard not to be suspicious. For now, since the presentation was just around the corner, he decided to postpone checking the files.However, like a bird drawn to a mill, Suhan couldn’t resist his curiosity. He’d been digging everywhere for information about himself like a detective, so it was no surprise that he eventually caved. Wearing a cap pulled low over his head, he went to a nearby PC room to check the USB contents, only to be thoroughly dumbfounded.“What the heck? It’s all dummy data.”The USB was filled with gigabytes of corrupted video files that couldn’t be played. The videos weren’t even long—just endless clips lasting anywhere from two to ten or fifteen seconds. To figure out what was on the USB, he’d have to get a professional to recover the files. It was too tedious to go through each file without knowing what they even were.Eventually, Suhan spent hours browsing websites and portfolios of professional recovery companies before sending the files to a foreign company that seemed to have the best security. After all, even pearls are useless unless they’re strung together, and holding onto these unusable files wouldn’t help him in any way. He was told it would take about a week to recover the files. While waiting for the recovered data, time kept ticking, and the day of the business plan presentation was rapidly approaching.“Hmm… Honestly, I’m pretty well-prepared.”What he was worried about, of course, were the Q&A session and any unexpected situations. There was no way the family, who didn’t want to see him succeed, would just sit quietly and listen. They would likely try to find some excuse to criticize or sabotage him. They might even bring up things from the past that Suhan couldn’t remember. While they didn’t seem to know about his memory loss yet, it was only a matter of time. Even if he managed to get through this challenge, there was no guarantee he could overcome the next one, so his anxiety lingered.Still, that was something he couldn’t know until he faced it. Even if he ran into a dead end, he could calmly say that he would supplement the answer later and move on. Stifling a yawn that kept coming as he fought off sleep, Suhan checked the message Yeonseo had sent him.[We’re almost there, so hang in there a bit longer.] 1:13 PM[(Emoticon)] 1:13 PMThe emoticon was a cute white rabbit bouncing around, shouting encouragement. Ah… it’s seriously so cute. Suhan sighed, pressing a hand to his forehead, as he sat at the kitchen table with his laptop open, making final adjustments to his presentation. The adorable message had just arrived, lifting his spirits.