Chapter 35 - But she gave you her love
The sky seemed to have torn open, pouring rain down like it was trying to wash away all the blood beneath the girl.
Gu Xianting sat in the car, and the world seemed eerily quiet at that moment.
The strange force that had been driving him, trying to control him, seemed to have vanished.
He turned his head, and the driver remained with a look of terror, frozen in place.
Just like the car that had suddenly stopped.
In this world, it seemed that only the rain continued to flow.
Oh, that’s not entirely accurate, because his thoughts were still moving.
His mind felt like it had been opened, and a flood of information rushed in.
He then “saw” what would have happened if he had not resisted, under the influence of that strange force.
He saw his car grazing the girl named Su Mengyao, feeling pity for her, completely forgetting that ZhaoZhao was still waiting for him at school. They had agreed to have French cuisine together, and he had been looking forward to it all day.
He, like a fool, began to shower Su Mengyao with affection, lying to Wen Zhao, and repeatedly embarrassing her for Su Mengyao.
Oh, there’s a term for this, it’s called “slapping the face.”
Then he saw himself running away with Su Mengyao during his wedding with Wen Zhao, not even looking back at Wen Zhao who was left behind, her eyes filled with despair, sadness, anger, and pain.
In the final scene, he saw himself coldly instructing someone to throw her into the sea, while she struggled desperately in the water, and he was making promises full of pity for Su Mengyao.
How ridiculous!
It’s impossible!
He would never do such a thing to Wen Zhao. He clearly knew who he loved and wanted to spend his life with her, so anyone who could destroy this possibility should die!
He couldn’t move, but his eyes were fixed on Su Mengyao lying in the rain.
The next moment, he saw an even more shocking scene.
The sky really did crack open, and he heard a frantic voice—
【What’s going on! What is this male protagonist doing? How could he run over his own female protagonist!!!】
【Damn it, where did it go wrong?】
【What? Why does the male protagonist have such high regard for the malicious female supporting role!】
【Forget it, forget it, it doesn’t matter. Rewind, rewind……】
Then he saw the world before him being swallowed entirely by darkness.
When he regained consciousness, he found himself back in his office, with the sky outside darkening. Summer thunderstorms often come suddenly.
He picked up his phone but suddenly couldn’t remember what he had been planning to do.
“Mr. Gu, it’s time,” the secretary knocked on the door and reminded him.
He frowned instinctively. Time?
What time?
Was there something he needed to do next?
“What’s the next arrangement?” he asked directly.
The secretary was surprised, “Aren’t you supposed to pick up Miss Wen from school?”
At that moment, a loud thunderclap echoed outside, and a jagged lightning bolt almost split the sky in half, making him realize what he had forgotten.
He needed to call Wen Zhao and tell her to stay in the classroom and not come out until he arrived to pick her up.
Why had he forgotten something like this?
He rubbed his forehead. Was he suffering from memory loss?
Why did it seem like he had forgotten some things?
“Yes, thank you for the reminder.” he gave a gentle smile to the secretary. He stood up, grabbed his phone, and took a few steps toward the door, then paused again.
He returned to his desk, opened the drawer, which contained a hair tie, some lipsticks, and a bottle of perfume—all things Wen Zhao had left behind.
He reached into the drawer, took out an item, and put it in his pocket.
The driver slowly pulled up to the Gu Corporation’s entrance, and Gu Xianting got in. “To Qing University.”
The driver drove out.
Halfway through, Gu Xianting noticed that the driver had taken a wrong turn. His brows furrowed tightly. “Wrong route.”
But the driver seemed not to hear and continued driving, the speed decreasing.
Was he looking for a place to turn around?
He initially thought so.
Unfortunately, the driver didn’t seem to have any such intention. Gu Xianting, who usually had a good temper and was very stable, not wanting to make things difficult for anyone, said, “Stop the car ahead.”
He was not willing to continue with this clearly problematic driver. He began to consider several scenarios: Was this driver bribed by an opponent, intending to harm him or extort him……
The driver still didn’t listen. The car slowed to a crawl, and at that moment, a drenched girl in a white dress, standing by the roadside, was grazed by the car and fell clumsily to the ground.
Gu Xianting felt his heart race unusually, as if he was meant to encounter this person tonight on this road.
“Oh, sorry, Mr. Gu, I hit someone. I’ll get out and deal with it right now!” The driver exclaimed in panic, reaching for the car door.
“No need.” he heard himself say, then he opened the car door and stepped into the rain.
In front of the car, the girl in the white dress was struggling to sit up from the ground. Her white dress was stained, looking pitiful and helpless, making him feel sympathy, wanting to see her smile without worries.
He lowered his gaze to hide his emotions and crouched down, looking at the girl. “Are you alright?”
The girl’s plain face had strikingly beautiful eyes. When she looked at him, it was like a frightened little deer. “I’m fine… I’m sorry, I didn’t see your car.”
He looked at the girl before him. He reached out, placing a hand on her shoulder, his expression gentle. He suddenly said, “Should I ask if you’re injured and take you to the hospital?”
The girl was stunned for a moment, her expression stiffening. “How could it be, I……”
The girl’s eyes widened in disbelief as she looked at him.
One of his hands was still on her shoulder, while the other hand held a knife that he thrust directly into the girl’s abdomen.
He pulled out the knife, and blood splattered out, some hitting his porcelain-like face.
In an instant, the previously refined and elegant man seemed to transform into a demonic figure from hell. Yet, he was still smiling. “So deliberate, your appearance is truly too deliberate……”
“You… why…” The girl was in excruciating pain, not understanding why. She just wanted to stage a minor accident to get some money for her mother’s medical expenses in the intensive care unit.
“Who do you think you are deceiving me to take you to the hospital?”
With a thrust, the knife was driven in again. “You think I’m on this road just to meet you?”
How audacious!
He had sensed something was wrong when this girl appeared so coincidentally and was hit by such a slow-moving car.
Earlier in the office, the secretary had reminded him to pick up Wen Zhao. Instinctively, he knew she was his beloved, but once in the car, things started to feel off.
If he was going to pick up his beloved, why was he so indifferent about the driver’s mistakes and inaction, and why hadn’t he thought to contact Wen Zhao and tell her not to worry?
He began to think back, trying to recall what had gone wrong.
In doing so, he realized his memory seemed to be missing some parts.
It was like someone had suddenly pressed the delete button, leaving his memories with Wen Zhao stuck at the summer after high school graduation, and everything beyond that was blank!
A surge of anger rose in his chest.
What had silently stolen such precious memories from him!
He seemed to vent all his anger on this strange woman.
Just as he was about to strike again, the world was once more paused.
【Ahhhhhh what is happening!】
An unknown voice sounded frustrated.
【I clearly deleted part of the memory! Why does the male protagonist still love the female supporting role!】
【And why is there a knife with him? When did he carry it!】
Of course, it was from the drawer. This knife was bought by ZhaoZhao. Last time she was in his office, she needed an apple, bought the knife, and watched him peel it.
【How frustrating, what is all this! Can’t we just follow the plot?】
The plot.
The male protagonist.
The malicious female supporting role.
Gu Xianting’s chest burned with a fiery rage.
What does this mean?
Their existence was just pre-set characters?
He, as the so-called male protagonist, and his ZhaoZhao, ended up with the plot meant for the malicious female supporting role.
It is well known that the malicious female supporting role usually ends up in a miserable fate.
As soon as he thought of this, he saw the so-called original plot of this world once again.
He, Gu Xianting, nominally the male protagonist, was essentially just a tool.
What kind of audacious thing dares to manipulate other people’s lives so recklessly!
What’s more, the so-called female protagonist doesn’t deserve to make him lose himself and become a tool!
His existence’s meaning was so laughable?
He absolutely refuses to accept it!
【Delete a bit more, huh, why can’t it be deleted…… I don’t believe it, delete a few more times!】
【Alright, do it again.】
The world restarted once more.
Gu Xianting sat in the luxurious yet understatedly decorated office on the top floor, feeling a sense of weightlessness.
He felt like he had forgotten something.
What did he forget?
He closed his eyes and tried hard to recall, but he couldn’t remember anything.
He felt a surge of frustration. This state made it impossible to work, so he decided to go home early.
The rain came abruptly. The driver drove slowly.
The car hit a girl in a white dress who suddenly appeared from the sidewalk.
“Ah, sorry Mr. Gu, I hit someone. I’ll get out and deal with it right now!” The driver panicked, reaching for the car door.
Gu Xianting had already opened the car door and stepped into the rain.
He stood beside the girl, looking down at her with an almost scrutinizing gaze.
The girl saw that someone was standing in front of her but waited in vain for him to speak. She looked up and met the man’s eyes.
“Sorry, sorry, sorry…” The girl looked extremely pitiful.
Gu Xianting’s body moved, as if something else had taken control of him, and he even forced a faint smile on his face.
“It’s okay, are you alright? I’ll take you to the hospital,” he heard himself say.
He bent down and picked up the girl from the ground.
【Phew… Finally succeeded. It took three resets and used up a lot of my energy, really…】
He heard a voice.
Three times.
Used up energy.
He suddenly smiled, and once again—
【Ahhhhhh, why! What’s happening, why does the male lead still stab the female lead to death!】
His hand with the knife drove it straight into the girl’s heart.
The girl looked at him with panic and disbelief.
This expression was just like the previous times.
Until this moment, the world consciousness had not realized that he could hear its voice and that he had retained his memories from before the second reset.
During the second reset, in order to prevent the male lead from rejecting the plot due to his feelings for the malicious female character, the world consciousness deleted part of his memory.
Indeed, he didn’t remember his feelings for Wen Zhao, but he retained the world’s plot from the first reset.
He refused to be a tool.
He didn’t want his life to be the existence of a tool behind a woman.
Thus, there was the third reset.
Fourth.
Fifth.
One thousand and first.
Gu Xianting knew that as long as he did not cooperate, the day would not pass.
But what did that matter?
He looked at the knife in his hand, expressionless, and drove it into the girl’s heart.
One thousand and second time.
He was now so skilled that he could stab without getting blood sprayed on his face.
One thousand and third time.
【Sizzling…】
The thing finally started to operate sluggishly, like a device running low on power.
“Why isn’t it resetting yet? What else are you going to delete from my memory this time?” He spoke softly, as if chatting with someone.
World Consciousness:???
World Consciousness:!!!!
【H-h-how do you know?】
The World Consciousness was going insane!
Originally, it could control the entire world, changing and controlling everything at will.
But after so many resets, it had very little energy left. The world could not be reset indefinitely!
Gu Xianting showed a smile, looking up and letting the rain drench his face, “Finally, do you see me now?”
【When did you find out?】
There had never been such a slip-up before!
The World Consciousness, once captured and tamed by higher civilizations and the system under the Quick Transmigration Bureau, had carried out tasks many times before.
Occasionally, higher civilization beings would enter small worlds through the Quick Transmigration Bureau to experience different lives.
For the high-ups in the Quick Transmigration Bureau, the act of sneaking down was known to be against the rules, but what could be done? For this world, it might be all-powerful, but in the Quick Transmigration Bureau, there were countless systems like it, and if it disobeyed, it could be destroyed at any time.
When the higher-up handed over the revised plot, which was “Gu Shao’s Secret Lover,” it had no choice but to accept and cooperate actively.
At first, when Gu Xianting hit Su Mengyao to death, it thought it was just a sudden control failure caused by the higher-up temporarily replacing him.
The second time, to prevent accidents, it deleted part of the original host’s memory so that when the higher-up entered the world and became Gu Xianting, they would not have a resistance towards the female protagonist due to the original host’s excessive love for Wen Zhao.
But it didn’t work!
So it began to reset repeatedly, deleting over and over.
The result!
It was all!!
Useless!!
Gu Xianting’s expression didn’t change at all; there was no sign of fluctuation on his face. “Of course, it’s since the first reset.”
If the World Consciousness were a person, it would probably have its hair standing on end by now!!
What is this person? How is he able to stay clear-headed, watching it reset over a thousand times, and nonchalantly kill the female protagonist over a thousand times without a hint of emotion?
Is this person really okay?
Has he not gone insane?
【Why are you doing this? Do you even know what you’re doing?】
The system thought that it was already at the brink of collapse, but the following findings made it want to throw the table and destroy the world.
That is, the person in front of it was actually the original host, and not replaced by the higher-up!!
The higher-up’s consciousness had been suppressed completely and could not take control of the body at all!
No wonder he kept killing the female protagonist, no wonder no matter how it deleted his memories, it couldn’t change his determination to kill her.
It turned out that the higher-up who was supposed to come for Su Mengyao was never real!
“What are you?” The system asked as it was still trying to wake the higher-up’s consciousness from within Gu Xianting’s body.
【I am the system that maintains the world’s plot.】
Gu Xianting’s face showed no surprise, “As expected.”
This thing would reset every time he killed the so-called female protagonist, rolling back time by several hours.
【You are the male lead. Why are you resisting the plot?】 The system was confused. It had just confirmed that he no longer remembered his feelings for Wen Zhao; all of it had been deleted!
The current Gu Xianting should have no love for Wen Zhao and might even have aversion under the plot’s control.
【When you repeatedly kill the girl, don’t you feel any inner turmoil when you see her? I clearly detected that every time you saw her, you had a heartbeat!】
【She is your female lead; you will love her deeply in the future, and you will have a fulfilling life together. You will have everything!】
“Is that so?” he showed a mocking expression, “Are you sure it’s not about making me help your female lead have everything? Making me compete with other men for her, satisfying all her vanity, and becoming a tool she grudgingly accepts?”
【But she gave you her love!】
He couldn’t help but sneer, “Is that so? The love she gave was really a lot…”
“Unfortunately, I’m not very interested.” His face showed blatant disdain, “Can the so-called plot be canceled?”
【It’s impossible. Give up. Everything is already set; your life has long been written. You can only follow the established path.】
“Otherwise, it will keep resetting like this, right?” he asked.
【Yes, it will keep going like this.】
He showed no sign of nervousness, “Well, that’s fine. Killing is quite fun. Next time, I might try a different method to make her die.”
【!!!】
What the hell are these ruthless words!