The Resetting Lady

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Blood is flowing from my eyes and I can’t see well.

Blood flows from the nose, from the mouth, all over. Duran knew that memories he didn’t know were coming up. What memory is this? Is it a fantasy? Am I crazy?

I can hear a voice. From a distance, but right next to him.

Death was running.

The years are beginning to pass. Memories begin to come to mind.

One day Duran saw Karen’s obituary. It was a short article from a local newspaper. He was killed after drinking alcohol alone on the wedding day, and police are doing their best to investigate the case. Duran and Karen were contacted later than the newspaper article because they had no relationship but distant relatives.

Duran led the funeral but could not say much. The poisoned face had turned purple like the eyes of a lifetime. I held a coin in my hand. It’ll be less scary next time.

One day someone posted Karen’s obituary.

Lady Karen was run over and killed. A few days later, I got a call to take charge of the funeral. Upon hearing her son’s death, Young-ju passed out and died on that road. Duran had to dig two graves.

When the body was examined, a coin came out of Karen’s body. Investigators did not know what it meant, but Duran did. It must have been intense this time. Duran smiled secretly and held the coin in Karen’s hand.

One day Karen died of a political problem.

I was pushed down the stairs and broke my neck. Duran laughed dumb as he turned his neck back. Coins came out of his arms. Dulan advised that it would be better to find something more interesting than an affair. Of course the body is silent. Duran threw soil at the tomb.

One day something impossible happened.

Duran was disgusted by Karen’s face that she would marry him. Because I know Karen had a coin engraved with the number 77. How did she come to herself in 77 lives? Either way, he succeeded.

And it will be successful again this time. Looking at the monument inscribed with Karen Lloyd’s name, Duran wanted to dig out the name. It’s not my wife. I didn’t do it. He didn’t do it himself.

Death approaches him.

Karen is stamping her feet.

Duran pushes the back hard. Then Karen rises high into the sky and climbs to a place she can’t reach.

What I wanted was.

***

Raymond closed his eyes.

I can’t see the answer. It’s endless darkness. I thought so.

I spent a long time with Duran.

At last, I had to use the new building I had caught properly. His time was much longer than Karen, but he never felt this long.

Raymond learned how he came to find his memories by torturing Duran and using his accumulated knowledge. And I even found out that Duran had already destroyed Karen’s body properly.

Duran used his child to bring Raymond back his memory. Duran has been linked to Karen in the past, but it did not destroy his faith.

“Why did you do that?”

“I was afraid that I would be weak. In the future, I, I… Will my mind be weakened? I was afraid of it.”

“I don’t understand.”

“I don’t want you to understand.”

Duran said so until his death.

He doesn’t need Raymond’s understanding. His fanaticism was not an area to ask for recognition. He didn’t even want his understanding. Duran was more afraid than anything that he would weaken.

When Karen gives birth, eternity ends. So Duran has already made Karen unable to give birth.

“What should I do if my mind gets weak?” Lord Raymond, you were mistaken. I don’t want it to happen that way with her.”

“…why did you make me carry my memory? Why was it me?”

“What can I do if you ask me now?”

Duran mumbled as he looked down at his tattered nails.

“I kind of resent myself at that time… That’s so sweet. Why would I choose you, of course.

Do you bother yourself?

It was a conversation that drove Raymond to the end.

And Duran died before long. He eventually succeeded in suicide while Raymond was away. Raymond sighed against the wall as he saw him kill himself by hitting his head against a stone wall with his remaining arm.

“I’ll see you in my next life. Father Duran. Maybe in the end, and then in the end.”

No matter how hard Karen and herself try, no matter how hard she tries, she will not be able to have children. The result of his efforts this time is despair. It won’t end. Raymond placed his most frequently used hammer on Dulan’s chest instead of his holy object.

For many years both the torturer and the tortured are tired. The two became equal. In the next life, in the next, in the next, and in the future, Raymond suffers. Duran won’t even remember the pain he’s in.

“But I think I can do better in the next life.”

The only consolation was in the same vein as despair. There is eternal time. In the end, you will find the answer. If Duran turned the string of time upside down, they have time as well.

Raymond felt relieved that he could see Karen once again. Let’s meet Karen again, think again, live together and find the end someday.

It’s okay. We can meet again.’

‘It’s okay. I’m alive again.’

But there was a resignation in the back of my mind.

The hope that human beings can get away from eternity is eternity in the hope is eternal.

There is no such irony.

“What are you so scared of?”

“I don’t know, Karen.”

Raymond murmured.

Fantasy. It’s been years. Where do you feel confident now? But what’s important about that? There is only one important thing in the endless loop of life.

“I just need you.”

He will meet again, love again, and die again.

This love never ends.

That will do.

Open your eyes again.

Raymond’s new beginning is always a battlefield.

Sometimes you hurt your eyes when you start.

“Sir Raymond! I’m sorry… I’m so sorry.”

“That’s enough. Never mind.”

He made a mistake in living again several times. Raymond sees another young article decades ago with one eye. immerse oneself in emotion. That young man is always a young man, Lewis is always a boy, and Karen is always a newly-adult girl.

If you live again this time, that’s all.

What should I do first? Raymond thought about it and eventually chose the same method. Find Isela, then Karen. Then let’s explain slowly. But it was hard to go to see Karen right away. But when I found out that it was meaningless to meet them quickly, I lost my energy. Karen will be in the mansion, where she is safe until the day.

“I’d like that necklace, please.”

But when Raymond saw Karen appearing in an impossible distance and in an impossible place, he first wondered if she was dreaming. Why isn’t she waiting in the mansion?

“I want to live a different life. I thought I’d go ask Mr. Verdick Evans to reduce his debt.”

speak lightly of hope

“I can’t help it, but I’m thinking of taking my father’s burden away.”

Why is it important to you?

Karen speaks of the future. Say hope. It refers to a wider world. So Raymond couldn’t stop talking. I didn’t want to tell you the truth.

He gave up everything but Karen. And Raymond no longer wanted to do anything more than love Karen.

“I want to be friends with Isella.”

I don’t need it.

Karen, our child can’t be born. We cannot face death. There was, there would be, there would be, there would be no one else in the world but us.

You don’t need anything. Memory will not overlap, relationships will be broken, and the world will collapse. No children are born. Don’t do anything wrong. Don’t try. There’s no point in trying. But in the end.

Long live King Louis!

The future of Louis becoming king has been decided. It was a miracle, never in more than 7,000 years. It wasn’t just Raymond’s own power. Many people’s choices and efforts coincided with coincidence. A future has sprung up that Raymond doesn’t know about.

Oh, the world was so unknown. The uncertain, numerous possibilities and boundless future lay before Raymond.

Raymond had no choice but to confess.

I said I only need you, but I want to live in the world with you.

You can’t give up your life, our lives, our future.

And you can do anything for it.

Really anything.

Even with my own child.

“Will Duran give up looking for memories?”

Karen asked.

“Dulan, you know, ran away because he didn’t even want to remember. But Dulan is the one who laughs at death if he’s sure. Will he give up if he finds a memory?”

Raymond told Karen.

“He’s giving up. I’m sure I’m getting to know Father Duran better now. Because he gave me the memory.”

Duran gave Raymond the power to overcome himself. Raymond understood Duran. I could see his mind, his behavior, and his choice.

And when Duran couldn’t kill the king in the end, Raymond was sure.

I knew the weak part of Duran. He may call himself moral. But Raymond finally found out one of Duran’s weaknesses. Maybe I’ve known it a little while ago. He covered his own eyes due to a lack of resolution.

But now Raymond can do anything for the next day. And he chose.

“Dulan has never lived a long life in more than a hundred lives.”

He was always a young man.

***

Memories begin to appear before Duran’s eyes.

Hundreds of memories, Karen’s death, begin to come to mind. But it’s okay. I’m sure of myself. Karen will live again. She got eternal life.

And he cannot see it himself.

***

Bride, you know what? You’ve always killed yourself before Karen died. I know. Now I’m sure. You can’t stand it.

I ended up being her perfect mate. It’s not because of my appearance, it’s not because of my conduct, much more not because of my wealth.

When I have to kill, it’s because I’m a killer.

Even Karen.

…you were right after all.

What I can give her as a gift is death.

You should know your sins.

Do you remember now?

***

Bang!

And Duran was the only one left.