The Resetting Lady

[204]

It was the day when the sunset fell on the wall of the collapsed palace.

Raymond kneeled down in front of Karen. It was not to confess one’s fault. It was because I was really tired, and I couldn’t stand it anymore.

Raymond knelt down and hugged Karen. Karen stood and stroked him. Sympathize. Sympathize Raymond. Sympathize himself.

“Carran, I got it now.”

Raymond’s voice was locked.

“I felt I didn’t need it. I thought it would be okay if I had you forever. I thought this would be enough, because I lived longer than you at some point, and I felt I was right. Satisfied life…I know the answer….”

He continued with Karen in his arms even more.

“But I’m wrong. I thought you were enough, but I knew it was my arrogance.”

His voice was changing almost as if he were sobbing. The hand holding Karen was desperate. I was suffocated.

“You were right. You knew me better than I did. I found out that there is not enough to give your life with just me. It wasn’t until this moment that I realized.”

Raymond sobbed on the collapsed wall. He was grieved to see the results of Karen’s work. No matter how hard I tried, it was painful that all this eventually went back to square one.

We could never give up our lives.

That was their conclusion.

***

Duran looked up at Raymond. It was Raymond who tortured him, but he looked more distressed. That was not understood by Duran at all.

Is it because of Karen’s death? But it’s been years since she died this time. And Raymond can be more certain of Karen’s eternal life than anyone else. More than Duran himself. He asked with a gulp of blood.

“Why are you so sad? Why are you so tired? What makes her so sad when she lives forever?”

Raymond confessed.

“It’s because I also live forever like her. So I understand her, and I know it’s not very good.”

Oh, my.

Duran kicked his tongue. My tooth was broken and I couldn’t pronounce it properly.

Lord Raymond. You shouldn’t…I even used my own child for you.’

***

“Carran, I was really fine. It was okay to wander around forever like you. And I had hope that one day I could find the right way. The Dulan priest… Besides the way I wrote it. I thought I could use a really good method.”

Raymond collapsed in front of Karen.

“Until then, I was confident to hold out. I don’t need anything but that when I’m with you. I really thought so. But I don’t think so. I have no choice but to admit my own weakness.”

Karen picked up Raymond. It’s been sustained. Raymond’s face was horribly distorted. Even in the first encounter of eternal life, he did not cry like this. It was the thrill of reunion and the moment of birth.

But Raymond was in agony now in his endless despair.

I wanted to comfort him, but I couldn’t. Because he knew he was in the same position. So Karen just hugged Raymond. It was not long before Raymond managed to tell Karen.

“Do you know how I could remember you?”

“No.”

Karen recalled the question she had buried beyond her memory. One day she was curious about it. However, he did not immediately recall it. Because I thought I shouldn’t take it out.

“I didn’t know. I didn’t know last time. When you fell from the tower, I was forced to live and die to escape the confusion and fear of that time. But the last time I met you, you died, you lived with the Dulan priest for decades.”

Raymond was silent for a moment and then went on.

“You have no idea what I did to him. What I did to get all the information out of him…I… and finally found out.”

***

Raymond approached Karen, who had fallen from the tower.

Then he grabbed her drooping body. He’s not dead yet. He hasn’t died yet. His body trembled, his eyes flipped over, his blood flowed and his limbs were bent, but he was not dead yet. Raymond grabbed Karen and whispered.

“… Karen, it’s okay. It’s all right….”

I wasn’t sure if Karen was listening, but there was only one thing I could say. Raymond thought what he was saying to Karen was like talking to himself, but he only repeated the hope that it was okay. Then a new building approached him.

“…Lord Raymond.”

There’s only one thing you can do for her. Please make her feel at ease by holding her breath.

Raymond denied. I begged. I couldn’t just threaten. Because there was only one doctor in front of him right now and all the soldiers around him were pointing guns at Raymond and Karen. So Raymond denied and begged.

“Please, Father, please.”

Raymond saw Duran finally step on Karen’s hand.

Nevertheless, all he could do right now was beg him. Even though he knew it wouldn’t work for him, he had no choice but to ask Duran. Help me, please.

But there was only one answer.

“What you can do for her….”

Karen in Raymond’s arms began to twitch. He was on the verge of death, struggling with pain. I couldn’t help but notice. Raymond has seen Karen’s appearance dozens of times on the battlefield. And I had to admit that there was really only one thing I could do.

with a click

Raymond loaded his gun.

I didn’t come here to do this. I didn’t give up everything to do this. But there was only one thing he could do now. Raymond pulled the trigger.

Bang!

And it was the beginning. It was then that Raymond really started living for Karen.

Starting to walk in hell together.

***

Fortunately, he thought there might be another way, but Raymond held on to Dulan, who had no legs, with a crying face. Again this time, Karen died and continued to torture, save and spend time with Duran, but there was no way.

I expected it to be true love or a softer and warmer way.

Why did he remember her?

***

Karen quietly listened to Raymond’s carefully recited words.

I felt intuitively that it wouldn’t be so good. I thought I should not dig anymore from the first time I was asked.

In Raymond’s 117th life he began to remember, Karen committed murder and slept with Dulan before meeting Raymond, nevertheless attracted him again.

So

The only thing Raymond could remember about all those pasts.

Karen, you were pregnant when you fell off the tower and died.

Yes, you had a child who couldn’t be born then. You didn’t know, I didn’t know…Only one person knew. The Dulan Shrine.

That was the way to share memories with you.

Killing you who are pregnant.

It was to use the child of the Dulan priest to walk with you.

***

Raymond asked Duran.

“Why did you do that to me? Why didn’t you use your own way of remembering?”

Duran replied.

“Why should I do that? Why should I walk that way?”

***

“Ah….”

Karen looked down at Duran’s knife. My hands were shaking. Raymond let go of the hand he was holding forcibly from behind, but Dulan still couldn’t let go of the knife in the shock. Karen murmured at the sight of a knife penetrating her heart.

“…I’ll help you.”

I was still able to speak because I wasn’t stabbed in the lungs. A terrible pain stabbed me in the chest. The blood was escaping like mad. Now he will die. But we need to be more clear.

“…hehehe.”

Karen recalled how familiar this moment of life was. Death was her old friend. I didn’t really want to get close, but I had to get used to it when we met like this.

I also had to agree that the end was better than eternity. It was better to have an end-to-end finite than a repetitive cycle.

Took it. Took it.

Blood flows constantly from the mouth, from the chest. Karen huddled, hoping not too much blood would flow out. But it was clear that life was constantly escaping.

Raymond took his hand off. But Duran was holding hands. Will this work?

I hear a scream.

Bloody. Screaming. Numerous traces close to death. The moments when you are so scared and want to overcome. So he thought he could overcome it if he killed someone.

However, he couldn’t overcome it. Murder didn’t mean fear disappeared. Fear grew day by day and eventually suppressed Raymond.

The beginning was himself.

The next was others.

Killed a person. Many people who got entangled with her died.

He was sorry that he could not kill Raymond. I thought I wouldn’t be afraid to kill more, kill more, kill more.

Karen overlapped her hands with Duran’s. And I gave her strength.

“You…”

Now the tongue starts to harden slowly. His life seemed tougher than I thought.

I wondered who was the last person to kill. Would it be suicide again, or would it eventually succeed in killing Raymond? But now I think I know. You start with yourself, and then others…The last one was a child.

“Dul, Dulan… look at me…My eyes are clearly… Look.”

Karen managed to move her tongue.

It’s this man to see him right before he dies. It was an unexpected end. I tried to laugh, but I couldn’t laugh at all.

“Killing me, that’s… It’s you… you should know that. You, you… you don’t think this is your fault, do you? No, it’s not. You killed him.”

“Oh, no, no…. Karen, Lord Raymond. What the heck.”

Duran was frightened out of his wits. But before I knew it, Raymond was backing away. Duran was thrown into confusion. Since when has Raymond been out of touch? You think you’re killing Karen? It was unknown. The world is now spinning round and round and round.

Karen held Dulan firmly again, shaking her head. I had to hold on to him because I kept losing strength. Raymond shot himself in the head when he crashed. It was for euthanasia, but even that was accepted as murder. Then, now Durand.

You have to say it. You have to say it. Right now… before I can say anything more. Hold on to the dark vision. Open your mouth. Tears resembling blood oozed out of your eyes. Blood begins to ooze out of the mouth. But I have to look at you and tell you.

Duran Lloyd.

My enemy. The beginning of my death. my eternal partner

Sadness, anger, resignation… I declare to you my disgusting hate on my tongue.

“I forgive you.”

Karen could hear Isela’s scream and her father’s cry. I could hear the sound of a festival of cheering citizens in the distance. Lastly, I tried to see Raymond’s face, but I couldn’t see it because it was dark.

This is the end of my life.