Chapter 258: I’m So Sorry… But I Can’t
[HAWI]
Malika knew Mbali had questions but she wasn't in the mood for questions. Maybe it was because she had been alone for years and years, or maybe because she had other important things to worry about than a bond with her sister, right?
Even then, was it really true that they were siblings, or was Atticus going to be the one who decided what happened between the two women?
"What does he mean? Am I your little sister? What the fuck does that even mean?" Mbali asked.
Malika glared at her, her face cold and daring as if to tell Mbali that this wasn't the time for all that. They were both here because they had a mission to get to and the sooner they worked it out, the sooner they would be en route.
"Keep your focus on the mission, Mbali. Unless that is going to be a problem for you, then you can take your Lycans and head back home. Is that clear?" Malika said, her voice filled with warning for the confused warrior.
She had never imagined that this day would come, and maybe that was also why Malika had never bothered to prepare herself mentally for it.
Mbali was already living a good life and there was no point in changing that.
"What?" Mbali asked but Malika ignored her and turned to Rukiya who was staring in silence.
She looked confused like she wasn't sure what the fuck had happened. It was like the world was going round and round and she wasn't a part of it. She hated thinking that Adolf was dead, but then it was the truth.
She had lost her best friend and he was never coming back to life, but what if?
"The breath of life… Hawi has it, right?" Rukiya asked suddenly and Mbali stared at the Greyson alpha like she had gone bonkers. Using the breath of life was not something that had zero consequences.
That was one of the most dangerous things ever, especially given the uncertainties that came with that.
Bringing someone back to life didn't mean that would be the same. If anything, there was a chance that the soul that came back to life wouldn't belong to the original owner of the body.
They were risks, and Rukiya Greyson knew that too.
She knew it so well but she wanted her best friend back. She needed Adolf back. She doesn't know what life would be like without Adolf and that was breaking her heart even more.
How the fuck was she supposed to live?
"Rukiya—" Malika began, her voice softening for the woman of her mistress. She owns the desperation she had and it is understandable, but the odds were not in their favor regardless. There wasn't a thing they could do about it.
"She can bring Adolf back to life right? She—" Rukiya began and Hawi was done staying on the sidelines. It didn't matter that Atticus was still targeting her, what mattered was that she was there for her mate.
The pain Ruru was feeling was too much, and Hawi was way too familiar with it. She knew how pain ruined everything and loss fucked thing up. She had experienced it with her mother and her entire family. So, she knew, a little too well.
"I'm here, baby," Hawi said as she kneeled on the ground and hugged her mate. She could see the dried tears on Rukiya's face, the anger in them, and the helplessness in the eyes that once held love.
She could see a type of pain that no one would ever match, and it wasn't fair to Rukiya. Hawi was casting, she could always handle herself, but Rukiya? She couldn't handle this, maybe that's why Hawi wanted to be there for her.
"You… you promised you'd do anything for me… you promised. Please bring him back. Bring Adolf back, Hawi, please. I don't know how to live without him… he doesn't deserve this, I can't lose him, Hawi, I just can't," Rukiya said, letting her guard down.
She had been holding on for so long since the chaos had begun. She had been trying her very best to keep herself sane, but losing Adolf had put a damper on it all. She just didn't know what else she could do.
Everyone that had trusted her was dead and she was blaming herself for that. At least with Adolf, she would be able to face their people.
Adolf always knew what to say and how to deal with the chaos. He always knew what to do regardless of the situation. Adolf was the older brother she never knew she needed and now, he was just… gone.
"Ruru… I'm sorry, love," Hawi said as she held on to Rukiya, soothing her even though she knew that there wasn't a thing in the world she could do to make her heal from this, at least not when there was a war.
"I can't bring him back, but I can eliminate everyone who's in this shit. Everyone who planned this… I will get them all. I will kill them all, baby. Trust me on that," Hawi said, not letting go.
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She knew that her words may have been consoling but at the same time, she knew that there was a kind of pain that only Ruru would feel for a long while.
It was the guilt of not being able to save her best friend, the guilt of not being able to fight well, and the guilt of living when her best friend had died. It was all so expected, and Hawi could only hope that at the end of the day, they would be fine.
Pain was slowly becoming a part of them, but then they were also doing a good job tracking the sculptors. Eventually, they would have them all and mercy would just be an illusion.
"Hawi… the trade demands a life for a life, right? We can trade Atticus for Adolf. Will the goddess accept that?" Mbali suggested and Malika looked at the woman like she was insane.
Maybe she was.
Maybe finding out she had a sister after seven hundred years of being alone was driving her nuts and maybe, just maybe she wanted to get this over and done with so she could be out of her sister's hair.
Mbali wasn't sure why Atticus would try to pitcher Malika but one thing was sure. They were at war and everyone was ready to use their owner's experiences to gain leverage on the enemy.
That's probably the only reason Atticus blurted it out. But was that supposed to be encouraging for Mbali and Malika or was it supposed to be scary? There Was no knowing yet and that was the hardest part of this all.
"We can't do that, Mbali. We wouldn't know what soul comes along with Adolf's. I'd rather we let the man rest and fight whatever battle is left. We can't go back to Greyson to get an army, but the four of us can bring them all down," Malika said.
The team looked at her, and they knew she was right, but that didn't make it all any easier. They were at a crossroads on so many fronts and the only chance at a normal for them was winning the battles that were coming up.
"Four? Aren't we eleven?"
"Hudhayfah and the six Lycans must return to Greyson and keep the pack safe," Maloika said, leaving no room for questions.