Chapter 91
Chapter 95: You Invite Me Affectionately Or I Am Affectionate Guest (23)
After a big dream, when he woke up again, he was leaning on the bed in Linhua Palace, next to him was the drowsy Chao Ci.
After drinking the medicine, Chao Ci’s complexion was no longer so pale, and his cheeks were still a little rosy. He eased his eyebrows and seemed to be dreaming something that made him happy.
Is it the same dream as him?
dream about yourself.
As soon as the dream started, Lou Yue seemed to understand everything.
Chaoci may have had this dream a long time ago – at least before their big wedding. Maybe he wasn’t even dreaming, because everything about that dream was terrifying, it wasn’t like a precognitive dream, it was something that had already happened. Chao Ci may not be a dream, but he used to be the Chao Ci in the dream.
When the court speech and “Louyue” in the dream met for the first time, they were alienated and defensive. But he finally fell in love with “Louyue”, and after a hundred years, he became his own court speech, so there was no reason, but gentle and penetrating court speech.
Lou Yue thought about it, and was a little stunned and startled.
They turned out to have the best start.
But now… how could it be like this?
His eyes were bloodshot, and they were so red that they almost bleed.
A few tears fell on Chao Ci’s cheeks.
Chao Ci’s eyelashes trembled, and the next moment he opened his eyes. He touched his cheek and found that it was wet. He looked up to see Lou Yue’s hideous and mourning appearance, and was startled.
“Why are you crying suddenly?” Chao Ci couldn’t help getting up and wiped away the tears from the corner of Lou Yue’s eyes with his cool fingers, feeling very distressed.
Lou Yue looked at the young man in front of him greedily, and felt that the young man was like that dream, and the next moment would be like a cloud of smoke and a water mirror, and he would never be found again.
Mingming’s heart was in pain, but he still forced a smile on his face: “I had a nightmare last night, dreaming that you were leaving.”
After hearing this reason, Chao Ci was stunned for a moment, and then he couldn’t help laughing.
“Where can I go?” He smiled and kissed Lou Yue’s lips lightly, and comforted, “Okay, don’t be afraid. Dreams are all fake and come from the opposite.”
“You dreamed that I was leaving, but you actually wanted to tell you that I would never leave.”
Lou Yue looked up at him and slammed him into his arms.
Only when hugging, can you feel the warm body temperature of this person, and can give some faint comfort to his troubled soul.
Only when he can’t see his own face can he repent and mourn unbridled.
Chao Ci, the dream is not the opposite, you are really… going to leave.
How can I atone for those sins, how can I leave you behind.
Powerlessness and panic filled his heart. He has never been so powerless. Even when he was still a pitiful bully, he dared to seek the most honorable position in the world. Even if he died on the battlefield and fell in a pool of blood, he was never afraid. , never admit fate.
But now what?
Only then did he know that there are some things that no amount of power can do.
He got up and kissed one after another on Chao Ci’s brow.
How can I keep you?
…
The Imperial Physician Hall has been searching for a dream-like solution day and night, and Lou Yue is constantly looking for people who are proficient in medicine in the folk and abroad, and even people from the barbarian side have found a lot.
But still little progress.
And the situation is getting worse.
Since taking the medicine, Chao Ci has been awake every day for about four hours. Every time he wakes up, he only has the memory of Chao Ci he saw in Lou Yue’s dream. What’s even more shocking is that the memory of Chao Ci is going back quickly.
When he woke up for the first time, he said that it was Ju’er’s three-year-old birthday, so it was only about twenty-six in the past. When he woke up the next day, Chao Ci mentioned to him that Bi Fei was twenty-five and it was time to go out of the palace to marry someone. Bi Fei was one year younger than Chao Ci, so the memory of Chao Ci at that time was when he was twenty-seven years old.
On the third day, Chao Ci said that he was going to pray for the child in his womb and to the Putuo Temple outside the palace to ask for a peace amulet. When Chao Ci was pregnant with the twins, Jue’er was five years old, so Chao Ci was twenty-eight years old.
In this way, Chao Ci woke up day by day, and his memory was pushed back year by year. Even on the sixth day, Lou Yue noticed some fine lines in the corner of Chao Ci’s eyes.
It is very small and does not affect the appearance of Chao Ci at all, but… this should not appear on Chao Ci’s body.
He asked the imperial physician to diagnose, and the imperial physician told him that the queen’s body was indeed aging with the delay of memory. At this time, his bone age was already thirty years old.
Lou Yue’s body was cold, and there was a coldness in his spine.
How could this be? !
Nobody knows the answer. Perhaps Chao Ci was completely immersed in that dream, and his body obeyed his will and grew old naturally.
On the tenth day, Lou Yue saw several white hairs in the black hair of Chao Ci.
It is not uncommon for ordinary people to occasionally grow a few gray hairs in their teens. But Chao Ci’s hair was as black as silk, and he never saw white hair.
Lou Yue couldn’t tell how he felt when he pulled out the dazzling white hair in his hair bit by bit before Chao Ci had woken up.
It’s utter panic, and self-deception.
Chao Ci didn’t care about his own aging at all. The hurrying time in the eyes of the world was long and full in his eyes. In the years, he grew old calmly, without fear or looking back.
Every day, Lou Yue is desperate and embarrassed. He couldn’t let Chao Ci find out what was wrong. Chao Ci often wanted to see Lou Jue and his twin daughters, but how could he find these three children? When Chao Ci mentioned them, he could only keep looking for various reasons to fool the past.
Not only should he be happy or sad, no matter what he said the day before, when he wakes up the next day, Chao Ci will not remember everything that happened yesterday. In his memory, the corresponding day had been replaced by the memory in his dream.
No matter what Lou Yue did, it was impossible for him to leave any traces in Chao Ci’s life.
Even if Chao Ci woke up, the Lou Yue he saw was not Lou Yue, but the Lou Yue who accompanied him all his life.
Lou Yue sometimes thinks in a trance, maybe from the beginning to the end, in the eyes of Chao Ci, he is regarded as that person.
So in those two years, he was so good to him.
But Lou Yue himself knew that he was not alone with the Lou Yue he dreamed of.
So it was just a dream for him, and he couldn’t see it as the life he once had.
His court speech has always regarded him as another person. His love and his kindness are not for himself, but for that Lou Yue.
Until he used Chao Ci to lure Lou Chen out, let him be slandered by Chaohua, and even became an accomplice, without giving Chao Ci any chance to defend himself, and imprisoned him in Qionghua Palace. He clearly knew that the Chao family was innocent, and even he had enough evidence in his hands, but he still chose to put the Chao family in a big prison, and let Chao Ci kowtow in front of the Qinzheng Hall overnight.
After that, there was no more starlight in the eyes of Chao Ci looking at him, but like a burnt out coal fire, gradually extinguished.
Perhaps at that time, Chao Ci found out that he and Lou Yue who Chao Ci thought were not the same person. That person is absolutely beautiful in the view of Chao Ci. He has never hurt Chao Ci at all, but he not only hurt him to the bone, but also hurt his blood relatives.
But even if you want to understand these things, what can Lou Yue do? Even if it is jealousy, it can’t be taken care of at this moment, even if it is regret, what’s the use? He blushed, struggling and roaring like a trapped beast, but there was no way out.
It is easy to pull out the white hair, but it is more difficult to block the years than to ascend to the sky. After another day, Huafa was born in the hair room of Chao Ci.
Lou Yue bent his fingertips unnaturally, and finally stopped doing that self-deception.
When Chao Ci woke up, he talked to him as usual as he had done in the past few days. Chaoci’s life is regular and simple. He rarely goes out of Linhua Palace. He likes to take care of his herbs and worry about his three children. Except for Lou Yue, this is almost the whole of his life.
Today, for some reason, he kept staring at Lou Yue. After having breakfast, he couldn’t help but said, “Is it my illusion? Why do I feel that His Majesty has become much younger all of a sudden.”
Lou Yue’s heart suddenly froze.
Fortunately, Lou Yue is actually not old. At this time, according to Chao Ci’s memory, he should be around thirty-five years old. But Lou Yue had seen the “self” in his dream when he was thirty-five years old, and it was not much different from himself at this time.
Therefore, he casually made up a reason to prevaricate the past, and Chao Ci did not pursue it any further.
But this matter was kept in Lou Yue’s mind. Thirty-five-year-old “Lou Yue” can still be fooled like this, but what about forty years old? Fifty years old? …
No matter how he didn’t want to think about it, the court speech was pushed back year by year, and he should always make plans as he grew old.
Therefore, Lou Yue could only let Lin Cheng disguise himself for him and accompany Chao Ci to grow old together.
Lin Cheng looked at the emperor who had become haggard and embarrassed in just a few days, and felt inexplicable and sad for him.
This is a loneliness and despair that only belongs to Lou Yue.
No matter how painful his heart is, no one else can share it for him. No matter how much he regrets in his heart, the time of court speech will not stop for him.