Chapter 32 Pity
"Chapter 2...can you make her see me?"
[Sure, in some moments you'll be able to interact with Aurora]
"Chapter 2, Aurora she...do you know why she's doing it this way?" I'm unsure about Aurora's method, if she gave me immortality why can't she do the same for others.
[She's trying to grant immortality to a living being the only way she's discovered is possible]
'This doesn't seem right...I have nothing of Aurora's essence, she didn't know how to grant immortality in the past...so she must have discovered some way?' I'm sitting in an uncomfortable position because of the anal plug, but there's not much I can do since it's sealed there with magic.
"Who are you? And how did you invade my castle..." It seems I can interact now, I look at Aurora and she's looking at me with that same indifferent gaze she gives to others.
"I'm Ayla...I wouldn't say I've invaded your castle, if I had you would've noticed, right?"
"...I guess so...what have you come here to do then?"
"I think I just want to talk to you a little bit.." I say to her with a smile.
"Of course...about what" her voice is so monotonous and lifeless, it's quite strange.
"You don't like Leviathan?" When I mention Leviathan, her expression changes to a strange mix of anger and disappointment.
"That has nothing to do with you"
"Don't you feel pity for Leviathan? You used to take such good care of him, and now you've just treated him like a failure" I never imagined I'd be defending Leviathan.
"I already said that has nothing to do with you"
Although I may be a bit bold, I know there's not much she can do, in the end this place is just a book, the moment I stop reading this world will dissolve.
"Why treat him so badly? You seemed so happy together with him, why make him cry like that?"
'I can't get the image of Aurora and Leviathan together out of my mind, her smile was so joyful'
"Shut up" She now says with barely contained rage.
"Why are you so afraid of creating something important? Even if one day it ends, the important thing is to still keep the memories of what was important"
"SHUT UP, YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING" She screams at me as she stands up.
"A little arrogant of you to say that when you also don't know anything about me" I'll go through the same thing she has, I know very well that I'll end up alone, but I won't give up on creating important things.
I would never speak to Aetheris that way.
"Get out of my castle" She says as she walks towards the door.
"Are you going to run away...you are so pitiful"
"..." When I say that, she stops.
"What did you say..." She speaks, I know she understood me very well.
"I said you are pitiful, you are so obsessed with creating something that won't die, that you ended up creating monsters, and hurting the one who just wanted to make you happy" If Aurora had continued to take care of Leviathan, maybe he wouldn't have become a sadistic monster.
"YOU... YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT THAT FAILURE, HE DEVOURED HIS OWN MOTHER'S CORPSE, I TOOK HIM FROM THE JAWS OF DEATH, I SAVED HIM AND I CAN THROW HIM AWAY WHENEVER I WANT" Her voice is full of rage, but I notice sadness and pain in her voice.
"Are you going to throw him away...just because one day he'll die?"
"You are so afraid of being alone, but you don't want to have anything important to remember...and that's why you are pitiful"
"SHUT UP, SHUT UP, GET OUT OF MY SIGHT" She says, throwing some kind of magic at me.
The magic just passes through me and continues to go through several walls.
[The reader cannot and should not be harmed] Chapter 2 says with a mechanical voice, Aurora seems unable to see Chapter 2.
Seeing that she can't hurt me fills me with confidence, I would never have the courage to say these things to the real Aurora.
"YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE TO BE ALONE FOREVER, YOU DON'T KNOW THE FEELING OF KNOWING THAT ONE DAY EVERYTHING WILL JUST TURN TO DUST" She vents her anger with words as she sees that her magic didn't hit me.
"YOU DON'T KNOW HOW IT FEELS TO WAKE UP EVERY DAY AND KNOW THAT ANYTHING YOU DO IS COMPLETELY USELESS, NO ONE WILL REMEMBER ANYTHING YOU'VE DONE IN A FEW MILLENNIA"
"EVERYONE WILL SIMPLY HAVE TURNED TO DUST, WHILE I'M FORCED TO CONTINUE IN THIS WORLD, IN THIS UNIVERSE UNTIL IT BECOMES COMPLETELY EMPTY AND EVEN AFTER THAT"
"NEVER WOULD YOU KNOW HOW BAD IT IS NOT TO BE ABLE TO KEEP ANYTHING IN THE END, YOU DON'T KNOW HOW IT HURTS TO KNOW THAT IN THE END, LONELINESS IS THE ONLY THING THAT REMAINS"
I listen calmly to what she said.
"You're right, I don't know how some of these things are, but I know I'll also go through them, I know I'll be alone in this universe, I know I'll never die either" She is silent, understanding the implications of what I said.
"But unlike you, I know that everything I do won't be useless, even if no one else remembers, I'll remember, even if everyone has gone, I'll still know they existed and I'll keep all those memories in my heart"
"I'll always remember everything I've lived, and that's something even time can't take away from me"
"If my destiny is to live even after the end of everything...then I'll create as many happy memories as I can, and in the end I'll be remembering the happy moments I had with everyone for eternity"
I won't sink into sadness and give up on everyone just because I know they'll die, all humans know they'll die someday, but they don't end their lives because of it, they continue to live to the fullest even knowing they'll die.
They create things, friends and family, in the end they still live with everything even though their life ends, I know I won't die but it's not much different, I just need to build as many memories as I can while I have time.
"..." She doesn't speak.
"Tell me honestly...if Leviathan died now...wouldn't you be sad? Wouldn't you cry for losing him, when you thought he wouldn't die you were so happy, your smile was beautiful"
"But as soon as you found out Leviathan would die, you...simply trampled on his feelings, he never gave up on cheering you up, even after you stepped on his feelings, he did nothing"
"It's not just you who has feelings, imagine how lonely and how much pain Leviathan felt when you called him a failure, you were all Leviathan had"
"You'll never die, but even if Leviathan dies, he'll never forget you, he'll never stop liking you, and even in the end of him, I'm sure he would still want to be with you"
"I'm sure that if Leviathan was in your place...he would never speak words as cruel as yours...the words of those we love can be much more painful than any wound" Leviathan's cry doesn't leave my mind, when I remember that I imagine Aetheris, just thinking about Aetheris crying like that makes me want to cry.
Me and Aurora, I see almost a parallel between me and her, we are so...similar...but so different, she who was born knowing she would be alone, and me who was born normal and only later discovered that I would be alone.
If I had been born in Aurora's place, would I be like her? If Aurora had been born in my place, would she be like me? This is something I'll never know.
Me and her will never die, in the end of everything, in the complete void, only me and her will exist...
"I-I'll go, I have no reason to listen to this..." Aurora hesitates, this is the first time I've seen her hesitate to speak. She starts walking quickly towards the door, as if fleeing from what I said, she tries to ignore what I said.
"In the end, it will just be me and you, Aurora...if you fear being alone, know that I'll be with you, in the end we'll only have each other's company..." I see my body starting to dissolve, showing that my time here is over.
"If you really don't hate me...I hope that maybe we can reduce each other's loneliness" My body has almost completely dissolved, in one last moment Aurora looks at me.
I see tears in her eyes, her gaze is full of pain but I note a slight hope, unfortunately this is just a book, Aurora will never hear these words from me, I wouldn't have the slightest courage to speak to her like this.
"See you in the next chapter, Aurora" I say as I completely disappear.
I wake up again, the book is on my lap, the tail is uncomfortable in the position it's on the floor.
"That was...sad" Aurora is more sad than I expected, with each chapter I feel more pity for her. In a way, this book reminds me of...
"A diary..." The Aurora from Chapter 1 said that the true Aurora wrote this book...and if this book is a diary...it would make total sense, otherwise it doesn't make sense how the Auroras in the book show the feelings of the true Aurora.
The only type of book that shows someone's feelings like this are diaries.
I store the book in the inventory.
"I need to get out of here..." I don't know how much time has passed, but I've decided not to wait for Beelzebub, if I find another demon lord I can ask him to remove the things Beelzebub put in me.
'I wonder what that pill he put in my pussy is...' I don't know what that was, I can only hope it's nothing serious.