LIGHTNOVELONLINE Chapter 43 - 43.
Lying on the incomparably soft bed, Qin Yichuan instantly became blank.
Yan Beiqi was still holding her hands, breathing around her neck, and before she knew it, Qin Yipuan felt that her body became as soft as mud.
His heart was beating rapidly, and Qin Yi’s throat gradually became dry.
“I’m… uncomfortable…” Qin Yichuan opened his lips slightly, his voice soft and soft.
At this moment, she only felt as if something was stirring in her body.
After Yan Beiqi listened to it, he recovered from his trance.
“Sorry.” After Yan Beiqi apologized, he immediately released Qin Yipuan’s hand and prepared to stand up.
The “uncomfortable” she understood was because she thought she was putting Qin Yichuan in pain.
Afterwards, Yan Beiqi turned over and lay down on his side.
Qin Yipuan’s collar was slightly open, she closed it with her hands, and turned her head slightly to look at Yan Beiqi.
The small flames in the body finally slowly extinguished, and then they became inexplicably empty.
“Just now…” Yan Beiqi said after thinking for a long time, “I’m very sorry, I didn’t mean it.”
“Yeah.” Qin Yichuan rubbed his wrist and answered very briefly.
“Does it hurt? Sorry.” Yan Beiqi apologized again.
“It’s all right.” Qin Yichuan shook his head, then turned around and lay on his side with his back to Yan Beiqi.
Yan Beiqi stopped talking.
She just stared at the ceiling in a trance.
Perhaps, he really should not allow himself to continue so morbidly.
Perhaps, it is because the work is not busy enough during this time, so there are such distracting thoughts.
After a while, Qin Yipun could hear the sound of breathing in a deep sleep. Shallow, very quiet.
Yan Beiqi put one hand behind his head and turned to look at her.
After a while, she said softly, “Good night.”
After that, Yan Beiqi rolled over and got out of bed, walked out of the room gently, closed the door, and went to the guest room.
When he heard the sound of the door closing, Qin Yichuan opened his eyes.
Everything was quiet at night, so quiet that Qin Yichuan felt as if he was a non-existent person, illusory and ethereal.
Inexplicably, Qin Yipuan felt a little uncomfortable.
I don’t know if it was because Yan Beiqi left the room, or because of something else. Who knows, people are so neurotic at certain times that they can switch between crying and laughing at will.
After Yan Beiqi left his bedroom, he went to the living room to pick up a glass of water and poured it down his throat.
After that, she looked at the transparent quilt a little lost.
Putting down the water glass and walking to the guest room, Yan Beiqi went to the bed and lay down.
When sleeping on the side, a crystal ornament on the bedside table appeared in front of me.
Inside is a photo of her parents when they were young.
In the group photo, they still look very sweet, but now they have become very ironic.
Looking at it, Yan Beiqi suddenly stretched out his hand, turned the crystal ornament, and then turned off the light silently.
the next day.
After Qin Yipuan got up, he just walked into the living room when he saw Yan Beiqi bringing a plate of food and a glass of milk to the dining table.
On the plate was a sandwich, half a hard-boiled egg and two sausages.
She still wears simple clothes, and the outlines of the clothes are simple and generous, but she looks a little softer in this way.
For a moment, Qin Yipuan even had the illusion that he was facing his boss.
“Want to go to work later?” Qin Yichuan asked while leaning on the dining chair.
After Yan Beiqi heard it, he looked at her and nodded.
“Breakfast is already here. Mr. Qin, go wash up and have some breakfast before you leave. I’ll go to work first.” Yan Beiqi said, turning around and walking out while tidying up his cuffs.
“Okay, let’s go.” Qin Yichuan nodded.
“Then I’ll go first, goodbye.” After tidying up, Yan Beiqi walked to the entrance and looked back at her lightly.
“Well, pay attention to safety.” Qin Yichuan nodded.
With the sound of the door opening and closing, Qin Yi poured his palm on the chair and did not move for a long time.
It seems that nothing is wrong, but it seems that nothing is wrong.
I don’t know if I think too much, but I always feel that Yan Beiqi seems to have changed back to the polite but alienated feeling before.
Although Yan Beiqi’s foot injury is not complete, at least it is not particularly painful.
Today is still the same as usual.
After a busy morning, Yan Beiqi and Yan Xia went out to eat together at noon.
The two had just finished ordering, and then Yan Beiqi received a call from his father.
It probably means that he reserved a venue for her to celebrate her birthday, and at the same time invited a lot of people, hoping that she will pack herself up to be present at that time.
Yan Beiqi looked at the WeChat message and had no desire to reply.
To put it bluntly, don’t you just want to highlight how much you love this family and how much you care about her?
“By the way, I haven’t asked, Queenie, how are you negotiating?” Yan Xia looked at Yan Beiqi.
“Let’s put it aside for now. She is preparing for the new book now, and she is quite busy.” Yan Beiqi stirred the soup cup in front of him, and did not say the fact that Queenie couldn’t write much now.
“Does this mean that you have contacted and communicated?” Yan Xia asked again.
Yan Beiqi nodded when he heard the words.
“By the way, Bei Qi, do you still have no one you like?” Yan Xia asked.
Yan Beiqi shook his head: “I don’t want to think about those.”
“I don’t know if we elders didn’t set a good example for you, so I let you…”
“It’s none of your business. It’s just that human nature is like this. It’s annoying and boring, so after two people are together, they can’t stand each other because of this and that, and it’s hard to stay together for a long time.” Bei Qi stared at the bowl in front of him.
And, in fact, anything like this can happen to any emotion.
Even friendship, sometimes it’s not like that.
She used to have a very good friend, whom she met in junior high school, called Chen Danlin.
She and Chen Danlin spent a pretty good time together. They are the kind of good friends who go to the bathroom together, go to the grocery store together, and skip class together.
But later, I don’t know when it started, all kinds of small conflicts emerged in the life of the two, in fact, it is not a big deal, but after a long time, they will be magnified, trivial and complicated .
Then, the two started a cold war inexplicably, ignoring each other.
Maybe people sometimes have this kind of virtue. When the relationship is normal, they are very friendly. When the relationship is good, they start to act against each other.
Then, both of them have a new circle, and when they look back at each other, they seem to feel that they are no longer as important as before, and they can be replaced.
Even if the two settle their quarrels later at the graduation party, they can no longer get along as they used to.
“Keep in touch after graduation.” This is what Chen Danlin said to Yan Beiqi with a smile at the graduation meeting.
But that’s all that was said. Later, the two basically lost contact.
After that, Yan Beiqi didn’t get to know people very much. Most of the time, it’s the end of the day. She has many friends, but her good friends may only have one Qiu Yu.
Moreover, although Qiu Yu talked to her about everything, she rarely said anything about herself.
And love, something that is closer than friendship, will probably die faster.
“Bei Qi. I respect your opinion. But I still want to say, don’t think I’m long-winded.” Yan Xia paused after saying this.
“I’m not trying to urge you, but I just think that if you decide to live alone because you haven’t met someone who is destined for you, then I don’t have any idea, and I feel normal. But ah, I don’t want you to deliberately contradict those things, I don’t want you to deliberately lock yourself up for some reason and push your fate away. If one day you meet a boy who is more favorable to you, you can try to get along with him, do you understand what I mean?” Yan Xia put it down Chopsticks, arms on the table, looking at Yan Beiqi.
Yan Beiqi didn’t want to continue this topic, so he said, “Let’s talk about it later, I’m full, how about you?”
Yan Xia’s eyes flickered, then sighed and nodded: “I’m full, then let’s go.”
Seeing that Yan Beiqi’s birthday was approaching, Qin Yichuan began to think about what kind of gift he should prepare for her.
Gifts can be quite a headache at times.
I don’t want to have nothing new, but isn’t this world a world with nothing new.
While browsing the Moments, Qin Yipuan saw that Gu Jia had posted a photo full of cute little biscuits.
“I was bored on weekends, so I made some creative cookies by myself. Are they good?”
By the way, I can make some of these things for her myself, right?
Thinking like this, Qin Yipoon said nothing, searched for several tutorials on dessert making, and then copied the tools and materials needed in them and saved them in the memo, and went to the supermarket.
When she used to go to the supermarket to buy these things, she was numb and didn’t feel anything.
But now, Qin Yipuan is very excited.
Even when she was waiting in line to check out, she stared at the things she bought and felt that she had seen a very beautiful and perfect finished product.
After returning home, Qin Yipuan started to make desserts according to the online tutorial.
But after doing it, Qin Yichuan realized how difficult it was.
It’s not easy to make, some are too soft, and some are baked. All in all, nothing is satisfactory.
Over and over again, I don’t know how many times I have made it and how much food I have wasted.
Qin Yipian was about to doubt his life.
Finally, Qin Yipuan clearly realized that if she just relied on the tutorial, she might not be able to learn it for the rest of her life.
So Qin Yipun called Gu Jia over there.
“Have you done this before?” Gu Jia asked.
“I haven’t done it yet. After I bought the oven, I used it to bake two sweet potatoes. I’m really lazy.” Qin Yichuan couldn’t help laughing at himself.
“It’s okay, then, if it’s convenient for you, I’ll come over now, what do you think?” Gu Jia’s voice sounded like a host, and her pronunciation was very clear.
“Okay, that’s really thank you.” Qin Yichuan hurriedly thanked him.
“It’s fine, just treat me to a big meal. Then I’ll come over, see you later.”
“Okay, I’ll wait for you.” Qin Yichuan nodded as he said.
After hanging up the phone, Qin Yipun turned his head to look at the pile of molds and materials on the water table, and the corners of his lips raised slightly: “Let’s see, someone will teach me the correct way to clean up you guys later.”
After exiting the kitchen, Qin Yipun went to the sofa to rest.
After picking up the phone and unlocking it, the first thing Qin Yipun did was to inexplicably open Yan Beiqi’s WeChat chat box.
She didn’t even know that this was the first time she checked the conversations between the two. It was obviously just nonsense, but when she was watching, she couldn’t help laughing all the time.
It’s just that these days, the two haven’t talked much.
The frequency of Yan Beiqi’s messages has become lower. Occasionally, when he sends messages, he also asks some questions about novels.
However, Qin Yipuan didn’t want to talk to her only about that.
She wants to talk about other things in life, she wants to talk about life.
But since that night, Yan Beiqi can forcibly switch to writing any words now.
Suddenly, Qin Yipuan remembered what Bai Shuya said.
Yan Beiqi is a stubborn rock. For a moment, Qin Yipuan was also a little lost.
Now she, maybe Yan Beiqi can be ecstatic as long as she gives a little response.
Suddenly, it was snowing outside. This is very common in the north. But for southerners, it is a rare and special landscape.
Qin Yipian looked out the window, only to feel that the whole world seemed to be wrapped in fine and soft catkins. Below are two little girls with schoolbags holding umbrellas in one hand and reaching out with the other, as if trying to hold the snow.
When Gu Jia arrived, there were a few snowflakes in her hair.
She was still in professional attire, with light makeup and her hair in a braid. The combination of the tough clothing lines and her soft face had a unique charm.
“I’m sorry, but I have to trouble you for a trip in this weather.” Qin Yipour poured a cup of hot water for her.
“It doesn’t matter, you will treat me to a big meal, right? That’s it.” Gu Jia smiled generously and looked very kind.
“Okay, I’ll take whatever you want.” Qin Yipun nodded.
“By the way, why did you suddenly want to do this?” After walking to the kitchen, Gu Jia looked at the materials and turned to ask Qin Yipian.
“There’s an idiot… she’s about to die. I don’t know what to give her, so I thought, let’s make something myself.” Qin Yipun took out the mold and the like.
“The person you like?” Gu Jia heard the words and turned to ask.
Qin Yipuan stopped, then nodded.
“It’s good, I have someone I like so soon.” Gu Jia was slightly surprised, and then nodded with a smile.
Qin Yipian looked at her and thought for a moment: “Gu Jia, tell me, what does she think about me? Sometimes I think she might have feelings for me, but sometimes she doesn’t seem to know anything about me at all. It’s just that I’m just an ordinary friend, but I’m too narcissistic to think she likes me.”
Gu Jia tore open the butter and turned to look at Qin Yipun quietly.
After a while, she said, “With all due respect, this will happen. Generally speaking, there are two possibilities.”
“Which two?” Qin Yi asked.
“The first, she doesn’t like you, so the things you feel are just your delusions.” After adding egg liquid to the butter, Gu Jia stirred with chopsticks, “The second, she has feelings for you. You are interesting, but it may only be interesting, not to the point of liking you much, let alone loving you. Because if her feelings for you are really deep enough, she will not care about anything, I just want to be with you. Love is something that turns adults back into children.”
After Qin Yi listened, he basked in the flour and starch without saying a word.
“So, if it’s the second type, if I try harder, maybe there’s still a chance, right?” Qin Yi asked after a while.
“Well.” Gu Jia nodded, “However, if it is the first type, it will be very painful.”
She remembered the woman she liked back then. That woman treats her very well, so that people around her even have illusions, and she always jokes: “I think you two might as well be together, save more trouble.”
She even had the illusion that the other party liked her.
As a result, the other party did not like her.
“I’m sorry, I just treat you as a friend.” This is the answer Gu Jia got after he confessed on the spur of the moment.
“If that’s the case, then why are you being so nice to me?” Gu Jia asked at the time.
Then, the other party’s reply was: “Because I consider you my best friend.”
Thinking of these things, Gu Jia lowered her head and pursed her lips. She didn’t know why this happened, but this matter really made her unable to get out until now.
Even, she has changed from an active person to a passive person.
Taking the initiative to pursue other people, unless she really loves her to the core, she may not pursue anyone in her life, after all, she has exhausted her energy.
And this kind of energy, to her, is like a non-renewable resource.
“Ha, people, always look forward, right?” After a moment, Qin Yichuan suddenly laughed at himself.
No matter how depressed she is, she will always find various reasons to force herself to be optimistic.
Emperor Tian paid off, and finally, on December 30, Qin Yi poured a box of cookies that looked good.
Pick up a slice and bite it into your mouth, the taste is crispy, the milky fragrance is full, not bad.
Also, she did it very beautifully.
Bears, mushrooms, five-pointed stars, rabbit heads… Qin Yipour put them piece by piece into a small transparent biscuit bag, and then put them in a small box lined with colored confetti, which looked like they came from a dream Same as in the castle.
At this time, Yan Beiqi was sitting in the birthday party prepared by her father.
As soon as he sat down, Yan Beiqi’s phone vibrated, and a message from Qin Yipian was pushed over.
“Did you get off work? Where are you?”
So Yan Beiqi replied, “I’m having dinner with my parents.”
“Oh, so what time do you go back? I have some writing stuff I want to talk to you about.”
“Maybe more than ten o’clock.” Yan Beiqi replied.
“Okay, then, I’ll go look for you at your place then. See you soon.” Qin Yichuan sent an emoji package of an old man drinking tea.
“Well, see you soon.” Yan Beiqi replied.
In fact, everything is in chaos in her mind now. Especially for Qin Yipian, once the name came to her mind, her thinking became more disordered.
The birthday party was prepared at Yancheng’s house, and there were a lot of familiar faces. Although he had no concept of birthdays, Yan Beiqi still held a glass of wine to chat and laugh with everyone, and gave a big toast.
When he returned to his seat, Yan Beiqi looked at the strange man sitting next to him, thought about it, and raised his glass to him.
The man’s name is Xu Ming. He is thirty years old this year and has a successful career.
It wasn’t until halfway through the meal that Yan Beiqi realized that her father actually wanted to borrow this meal to let Xu Ming get to know her and then get to know her.
Other relatives around were praising Xu Ming, saying how good he was, and the implication was that he hoped Yan Beiqi would think about it.
“Exactly, you two are both single, otherwise, you should think about each other?” There were relatives beside them trying to match.
Xu Ming turned to look at Yan Beiqi, and then smiled shyly: “No hurry, no hurry.”
“I don’t have any plans to get married. Everyone here should know that, right?” Yan Beiqi put down his chopsticks and looked at everyone.
After saying these words, Xu Ming smiled slightly embarrassedly, and the others stopped talking.
Yancheng glanced at her, and although he was still smiling, his eyes were a little cold.
After the meal, after the relatives had all left, Yan Beiqi was also going to find a driver and drive back, but just as she was about to go out, her father stopped her.
“Let’s have a good chat.” Yancheng stood beside her.
“I don’t think we have anything to talk about.” Yan Beiqi looked at the ground.
“You can’t go on like this. Do you know how embarrassing you are when you said that? You are already a big girl. Even if you don’t think about yourself, you should think about us…”
“Considering for you?” After hearing those words, Yan Beiqi suddenly turned to look at him, as if looking at a monster.
With his hands in his coat pockets, Yan Beiqi lowered his head and paced unconsciously, and then suddenly laughed, raised his head with laughter: “Dad, is my life also for you? What do you think? So what? Is it ridiculous or not? You, like a lunatic, just do it yourself, don’t take me with you, okay?!”
Maybe because of drinking a lot of alcohol, Yan Beiqi’s smile revealed some weirdness and madness.
After Yan Cheng saw it, his brows couldn’t help frowning.
At this time, the phone vibrated again, and Qin Yipuan’s message came in again: “Are you ready to go back now?”
“Well, I’ll go back now.” Yan Beiqi staggered and finished replying, and wanted to say something, but unexpectedly, someone slapped the phone to the ground and shattered it instantly.
“What did you say to your relatives just now?! What do you look like now?! I’m talking to you, and you’re still playing with your phone?!” Yan Cheng was furious.
Yan Beiqi clenched his fists by his side and turned to look at Yan Cheng, as if he was looking at a heinous villain.
“Speak!” Yan Cheng stared at Yan Beiqi.
“What?” Because of the alcohol, Yan Beiqi’s head began to ache. The voice was extremely cold, as if it didn’t contain any emotion.
“Apologize to me!” Yancheng pointed at her nose, “for what you just said.”
“Oh, don’t say a few words, you should be more serious when a child is drunk?!” At this time, Yan Beiqi’s mother rushed over and held Yancheng.
“Nonsense? I think she’s telling the truth after drinking! If she didn’t think so, would she say such a thing?!” After Yan Cheng shook off his wife’s hand, he continued to stare at Yan Beiqi.
“Ah…yes, it’s the truth.” Yan Beiqi nodded with his arms crossed and approached Yancheng, “Why, you don’t like to listen? Insane, lunatic, yes, it’s you. Just kill each other, don’t want to pull me.”
“You! You!” Yancheng looked at her, so angry that he couldn’t say anything, “Don’t leave first, I want to see how capable you are!”
At this time, Qin Yipuan had already arrived downstairs where Yan Beiqi lived.
However, she found that she couldn’t get through to Yan Beiqi’s phone. Holding an umbrella and biscuits, Qin Yichuan stood downstairs, took the phone off his ear and put it in front of him, staring at the door of the building in front of him in a daze.
what happened? out of battery? Is she back?
Qin Yipeng checked the time, it was more than ten minutes now.
Speaking of which, Yan Beiqi has not replied to her messages since the beginning, why? Did something happen?
Thinking of this, Qin Yipan’s body trembled.
She said to be back at ten o’clock, then, ten o’clock is ten o’clock, ten thirty is ten o’clock, and ten forty-five is ten o’clock.
Well, just wait.
However, it was really cold outside, and Qin Yichuan felt that he was about to freeze. She forgot to wear gloves, so that her fingers were frozen and red, and she could barely hold the umbrella handle.
After a while, Qin Yipun gasped at his hand, then looked at the time and found that it was ten o’clock before he knew it.
She actually waited for dozens of minutes. Although he was wearing fleece and thick leggings, Qin Yipuan felt that his legs had turned into icicles.
Yan Beiqi’s number still can’t get through.
Qin Yipun’s brows gradually wrinkled.
She didn’t want to see her on purpose, did she? Thinking of this, Qin Yichuan shook his head again.
But…waiting like this is not an option.
At this moment, the door suddenly opened, and a stranger wearing a black hat trotted out from inside. Qin Yipian was a little dazed after watching the stranger step out of the door.
Maybe people just don’t want to see themselves. Otherwise, even if the mobile phone is out of power, it can still be charged. If you remember well, Yan Beiqi will carry a charger with him or something.
Thinking of this, Qin Yipuan became more and more irritable, so he turned around and walked away.
On the other side, Yan Beiqi failed to communicate with Yancheng at the end. After a big fight, he used his mother’s mobile phone to find a new chauffeur, and rushed out the door.
On the way back, Yan Beiqi kept clasping his arms, feeling that his mind was so confused that he couldn’t take care of himself.
The words Yancheng said were like swords, and they were very cruel.
The driver was a young girl, and from time to time he turned his head to look at her, as if he was a little worried. Because Yan Beiqi’s situation looks very bad.
After arriving at the residence, Yan Beiqi took out the key, opened the lock in a daze, and walked in. But after entering, she suddenly thought that Qin Yipian had said she was coming, so she turned her head and walked out, and walked around for a while, as if she was looking for her or something else.
nobody……
So Yan Beiqi went in again.
After entering the elevator, Yan Beiqi only felt that his head was about to explode. Her condition had already stabilized, but now, it seems to have gotten worse again.
The elevator stopped halfway and someone came in. At that moment, Yan Beiqi trembled.
The person who came in glanced at Yan Beiqi who was leaning against the corner of the elevator and trembled, then tilted his head and pressed the elevator button.
When he arrived at his own floor, Yan Beiqi hurried out and ran all the way to the house number of his room, then let go of his arms, and fumbled for the keys in his pocket.
“You’re back?”
At this moment, a voice suddenly appeared next to her, and the key in Yan Beiqi’s hand instantly fell to the ground. Then, she turned around and looked at the source of the sound, only to find that Qin Yichuan was squatting on the ground next to her.
“Why is it so late, I’ve been waiting for you for a long time. It’s so cold… But we’ll see you when we say it.” Qin Yichuan stood up slowly while he was talking, leaning against the wall.
Yan Beiqi stared at her, forgetting the words for a while.
“It’s still a minute…” Qin Yipun was carrying something, looked at the time, looked a little sad, and then sneezed again, “Happy birthday!”
“Are you a fool? If I have an accident and never come back, what if you get cold while sitting here?!” Yan Beiqi suddenly grabbed her and put his hand on her forehead.
“Ah… I seem to have been murdered…” Qin Yichuan muttered to himself in a daze.