LIGHTNOVELONLINE Chapter 72
As a good woman.
Walk home, side by side with Master Wilhelm.
I don’t know what to say since Master Wilhelm told me the stunning fact. Why didn’t you ever tell me something as important as that?
And you know how I feel about that, Master Wilhelm won’t tell me anything either.
Just take Natalia back, you two line up and go home silently.
……
……
What am I right to tell Master Wilhelm?
Don’t go, is it right to sneak around crying?
Until now, I’ve delivered my lunch like every day, and I’ve had lunch with you. But if you are going to the battlefield, then Master Wilhelm will not return.
All this time, we won’t be able to see each other until Master Wilhelm returns.
“… Well”
……
“So long, Carol, it was fun today. Thanks.”
When I realized, I was arriving in front of the mansion.
I can only lay my face down when Master Wilhelm smiles like that.
The day after tomorrow, Master Wilhelm will leave. It’s already been decided.
Where I cried so much, Master Wilhelm would never be left. I know that.
I know, so I can’t say anything.
Even I had fun.
Meals outside, available with Master Wilhelm.
South Park flower gardens, which can be turned alongside Master Wilhelm.
More than ever, it was a time of bliss. It was the most enjoyable day I’ve ever had since I was born.
I just enjoy being with Master Wilhelm, and that’s all I have.
When you think that Master Wilhelm will go far, you won’t stop crying -.
“Dear Ville, Helm…!
“Don’t cry, Carol. Non is just going to war.”
“It is…!
The days I don’t see you are hard. It’s hard to keep waiting for days when you don’t know how long that will last.
Most importantly, there is no guarantee that Master Wilhelm will return alive.
Dear Wilhelm, I will hug you.
When I leave now – I feel like I’ll never see you again.
“… ugh, ugh!
“I’m glad you admire such old bones so much”
“Don’t go, don’t go……! Dear Wilhelm…!
“That’s a consultation I can’t do. Non is the Knights Commander and must fight for his defense if he has to. And for that, you train yourself every day, and you train your soldiers. I don’t know, Carol.”
“Ugh…!
I understand.
Because I can see that, it’s extra hard.
Master Wilhelm is the strongest Knight Commander in the kingdom of Freakista. It also goes by its name outside the country.
I also understand the diplomatic reason that Master Wilhelm must leave in order to maintain relations with the Empire.
But.
But.
Even if you can understand, you can’t be convinced.
“Carol, don’t put me in too much trouble”
“It is…!
“Sure, it’s not zero possibility. Maybe Noon will be scattered on the battlefield too. But at that time, Nan also decided to be ready to scatter on the battlefield as a soldier’s master.”
“… Huh!
I don’t like it.
I can’t think of a future life without Master Wilhelm.
I also know that no matter how selfish I say it, it doesn’t change.
Still, I want to compliment Master Wilhelm on his kindness.
What a weak woman.
I can’t believe my mother told me to be a good woman so many times.
Then what am I supposed to do?
“Do you understand?
……
“… right”
I’ll shake your head.
I don’t want to convince you. I don’t want to leave.
Originally, that’s what I knew. I understood that if there was a war, Mr. Wilhelm would have to go out in battle.
but.
That’s about to rip my heart out already, that Master Wilhelm will be headed to the battlefield.
Just thinking about it, that Master Wilhelm might die, is going to crush my chest.
That’s why I thought over and over again that I didn’t like war.
I still don’t like it. Even resentment springs against an empire that tries to take Master Wilhelm away from me.
“Dear Wilhelm…”
“What’s up?”
“I beg you, Father. The Empire and the Duke of Ambrose, in good faith, are there. Send reinforcements so you can say no…”
“That won’t happen.”
I tremble at the short rejection from Mr. Wilhelm.
I know. This is just my selfishness, too. I don’t think my selfishness alone can move anything to do with defence.
but.
But at all, if it’s possible…
“Carol, I’m glad to hear that feeling. But that’s a bad hand you shouldn’t do.”
“But……!
“If you refuse a reinforcement request from the Empire and your relationship gets worse because of it, it could also be a war with the Empire as a great cause. That could make this country a battlefield. Non doesn’t want this country to be a battlefield. That’s why we’re going out.”
……
Diplomatic relations, I’m not sure.
But I understand what Master Wilhelm says.
Then.
Then what can I do?
“… Dear Wilhelm”
“Uhm.”
“Please… just a moment… give me some time”
“Oh.”
Tears are not going to stop.
But I’ll stop. I will desperately stop.
I cannot drop off Master Wilhelm as a weak woman.
As a strong woman, as a good woman, it would be for you as a wife to drop off Master Wilhelm’s departure.
Stick your face to Master Wilhelm just a little bit, and I’ll hug you.
Though I am very sorry that Master Wilhelm’s clothes get dirty with my tears.
It’s a big, deep breath.
It’s all right.
The tears – I stopped.
“Dear Wilhelm,”
“Uhm.”
I look up at your face.
I’m sure my eyes are bright red, but I’ll take a good look.
I don’t know if it’s funny properly. But I eat my teeth all the time.
My face that Master Wilhelm reminds me of on the battlefield.
Because you have to smile.
“Please, I wish you good luck”
“Oh.”
“Carol is looking forward to your return. I will always, always be waiting for you……!
“Oh…… sure, I’ll be back”
Master Wilhelm said so.
And Master Wilhelm has never broken a promise he made to me.
So this is a promise.
He’ll definitely be back, I believe.
With this promise – I can wait.
“Carol.”
“Yes……”
“One thing I didn’t say”
“What, is it…”
I’m sure I’ll go back to my room and cry.
But in front of Master Wilhelm, you won’t show me any weaker.
But.
But, but.
“I love you”
“… Huh!
“When Non came back from the war… let’s get married”
In a different way.
Not loneliness, not sadness, not despair, not grandeur.
With joy, there’s going to be tears -!