LIGHTNOVELONLINE Chapter 26
Crying
“What’s wrong with that?
“… No, you’re serious”
“I admire Master Wilhelm. Nothing to do with Zach.”
As I say, I’m about to cry a little.
I admire you, I have said it many times. Yet Master Wilhelm does not accept my feelings.
You won’t be able to get any closer to Master Wilhelm today, such as me, who was refused like this.
But.
In front of Zach, I want to behave in a temperament.
“No, well… it’s certainly none of my business”
“If so, don’t step in”
“… ha. The guy who’s carrying a basket and his wife is the 62-year-old captain of the regiment… what the hell is this joke?”
I sigh that way as Zach scratches his head.
I wonder what’s wrong with it.
No one can understand that I seriously admire Master Wilhelm.
Already, the mansion is in front of you.
If I can, I want to go back to my room right away and cry alone.
I don’t want you to decide on my heartbreak any more.
“Hey, Carol.”
“What is it”
“I don’t know what’s going on…”
There.
Zach is.
For me, I stepped on an oversized bomb.
“… have you been shaken?
“-!”
Yes, I am.
I would have chosen all those words that didn’t break my heart, such as rejection, unacceptability, or being able to bounce.
Zach’s words, exactly, referred to my current situation.
“Uh… I knew it”
“… you have nothing to do with it, no!
“What’s the captain thinking, too? How dare you say no to such a young wife… Yeah. It’s certainly none of my business. But… I’m a knight who swore allegiance to you, right?
I’m still an apprentice, but, laughing, yes, Zach says.
Nothing, I don’t want Zach’s loyalty.
Because all I want is Master Wilhelm.
I’m not going to stop crying because I recognize the current situation.
I behave in front of Zach, but still, there’s no way to stop the overflowing tears.
Because of this, people with streets will see it with strange eyes.
You don’t have a choice, do you?
From the side, no matter how you look at it, it will be of the affection of men and women.
“The person I swore allegiance to is crying. I don’t care. I don’t have a knight.”
“Then! Already! Leave me alone!
“I don’t like it. You’re gonna cry alone in your room anyway, aren’t you? So you can be saved? You’ve decided to be more serious.”
Ha, and Zach sighed heavily.
“To me, you are the Lord. If you tell me to die, I will die. If that’s what you really are. That’s why I think we should think about things.”
“Hey…!
“I belong to the Knights. So the leader of the Knights is Master Wilhelm. At last, your thoughts are Wilhelm’s.”
“I know that! Enough, go home!
With a strong rejection, I creep through the front door of the mansion.
After that, they just don’t follow. You probably know about what happens when you enter the Duke’s mansion.
But Zach still, he’s been screaming.
“I’m your knight! Take advantage of me!
How can I use it?
I was already rejected by Master Wilhelm.
Apart from despair, this emotion cannot be repainted.
“You must have been shaken by Master Wilhelm! But if it is! You should come to the Knights and attack them more aggressively! If you need a reason to come to the Knights, I’ll be it! I can even get that information on what the captain thinks of Carol! Because I’m a Knights man!
“… Zack”
Without looking back, I move on.
Now I just don’t want to think about this reality.
I just want to rest.
“Lady.”
“Natalia, drive me back!
“Understood.”
With words, Natalia walks behind me.
There, screaming, Zach.
With a blow, an onion, and a noisy noise, I calmed down.
But not if you care about that.
This restless emotion overflows with tears. You’ll already have a face that you can’t go out in public or anything.
But still, I won’t stop.
I don’t even deserve to be alive anymore…
Your vision is blurred, you can’t see anything.
I just saw something red at the entrance to the mansion.
It’s bright red like blood, but I can’t even grasp its contour.
Don, and.
I’m soft. Besides, I bumped into you.
“Welcome home, Carol”
Gently, a warm hand stroking my head.
So finally, that red thing.
Mother, I see.
“… Mother”
“It was late, Carol. I told you to hang out with my mother this afternoon.”
“… Ha, yeah”
Overflowing tears still don’t stop me.
Instead, there’s your mother.
When you think you’re stroking my head with limitless kindness, it overflows more.
“What the hell happened?
“Ha, yeah… I, ha…”
“It’s okay, Carol. My mother is here. Tell me what’s so intrusive about your heart.”
“I… I, am…!
I hug you to my soft mother and cry from the bottom of my heart.
Outside like this, I didn’t mean to cry.
Still, I am.
Like a child, I cried so much.
“I am! Oh, my God, Ville, Helm!
“Yes.”
“I got caught, I got caught. Huh! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!
No shame, no hearsay, cry out.
Mother, still unchanged, strokes me.
I don’t know what look you’re wearing. All I can do is stick around and cry.
I can’t contain this swirling emotion.
Tired of crying, until the tears dry up.
In my mother’s chest, I cried.