The Curse of Desire

Late at night.

Shen Qingyue lay awake in bed. The girl in his arms had fallen asleep rather quickly. He heard her regular breathing not long after she lay down.

Shen Qingyue looked at the outline of her face in the darkness. It was his first time sleeping in the same bed with someone, and he was not used to it.

He couldn’t sleep simply because his sleep quality had never been good, and it had gotten worse in the past two years. Sometimes he couldn’t even fall asleep normally without taking sleeping aids.

Shen Qingyue didn’t like the feeling of being controlled by drugs. Sometimes he would compete with himself. Maybe if he didn’t take drugs, he would be able to sleep.

But he always lost the battle.

Slowly, he became more and more irritated, and soon after that, also unable to control himself. He clearly knew it was wrong to cut his body, but he couldn’t help it.

The blood will make him feel excited, the pain will make him feel better, and he will even feel a sick sense of satisfaction in his heart.

Every time he hurt himself, these sick emotions would last short or lengthy time. But every time without a fail… as time went on, he will become extremely depressed and unable to control himself.

Sometimes he was very tired and chose to take the medicine.

Still, every time he woke up after taking the medicine, he would be in a particularly depressed mood. After a while, he would become irritable unconsciously, and then repeat the vicious cycle of hurting himself.

Shen Qingyue was really annoyed at his situation. He was also worried that his abnormal side will be seen by others. Even when he saw a psychiatrist, he would not meet with the person, but only consult on problems and keep in touch through messages.

Shen Qingyue turned on the bedside lamp and kept staring at Bai Qiuyi, from her eyebrows to her eyes, to her nose, to her lips, over and over again.

She didn’t look exactly pretty, but she looked very cute. Her face had a little baby fat, her eyelashes were long and thick, and when she opened her eyes, they were round and shiny, like cat pupils.

Shen Qingyue reached out and touched half of her fair and rosy face. It was smooth and tender. When excited, the girl’s face would become even redder than it was now.

His eyes lingered on her lips, and finally he took one of her hands into his palm and played with it.

Normally at this time, he would be irritable when he couldn’t sleep, but surprisingly he didn’t feel that way today.

Shen Qingyue seemed to have found a satisfying toy, playing with her hand endlessly, and finally even put her hand in his mouth to chew on it.

She slept so well, but he couldn’t even fall asleep.

He spit out her index finger and bit her middle finger instead.

He really wanted to wake her up.

Shen Qingyue felt unbalanced in her heart. Why could she sleep but he couldn’t?

Then he felt that his thoughts and actions were a bit childish, and the girl was too innocent.

Why can’t she sleep if he can’t sleep?

Shen Qingyue couldn’t help but sigh and close his eyes. After a while, he opened his eyes again and stared at Bai Qiuyi.

It’s better to wake her up.

Of course, he didn’t wake Bai Qiuyi up in the end. Instead, he fell asleep unknowingly because he kept struggling with this problem.

Woken up by Shen Qingyue, Bai Qiuyi opened her eyes in a daze and saw the man’s handsome face. She reached out and hugged him without thinking.

Although her consciousness was still a little confused, she said softly, “Good morning, teacher.”

“Good morning.” Although Shen Qingyue didn’t fall asleep for a long-time last night, he didn’t feel irritated. And this morning he felt very energetic and was in a good mood.

He looked at the girl in front of him with soft eyes and lowered his head. At this time, Bai Qiuyi was completely awake. Seeing that he wanted to kiss her, she turned her head to the side with lightning speed, “Teacher, I haven’t brush my teeth!”

“It’s okay, I don’t mind.” Shen Qingyue turned her face close to him, and Bai Qiuyi was so frightened that she quickly stopped hugging him and pushed him away.

“No, no, I mind it.”

Shen Qingyue’s face was blocked by her, but a smile appeared in his eyes. “I want to kiss.”

Bai Qiuyi turned her head away and refused firmly, “No.”

Shen Qingyue insisted, “Just one kiss.”

Bai Qiuyi, “No.”

“Pretty please.”

“No.”

…

“Say yes.”

“Yes.”

“You said yes.” Shen Qingyue removed her dainty hands from his face.

Bai Qiuyi quickly put her face into the pillow and accused him in a whisper, “You’re cheating!”

“Where did I cheat?” Shen Qingyue asked shamelessly.

Bai Qiuyi paused for a beat. “I don’t know where, but I know you’re cheating.”

Just to kiss her…

Thinking about it, Bai Qiuyi felt a little happy.

Did the teacher like her? Although the two were already dating and had done everything they should do, Bai Qiuyi felt that Shen Qingyue just had a good impression of her.

Now it seemed he didn’t dislike her but instead liked her.

He was just like her. Because she likes the teacher, she can kiss the teacher even if he doesn’t brush his teeth, and she may even feel secretly happy when taking advantage of the teacher.