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Chapter 94: Jinjiang Literature City exclusively published 72

Chi Chuji had an unstable dream.

In the dream, she seemed to sink into the deep sea, completely submerged by the moist and gloomy water. The feeling of suffocation made her struggle? She rose up and floated to the surface of the sea with the turbulent waves.

Swimming, Chi Chuji only felt something was entangled? Her ankle. She turned her head to look, but saw a huge octopus protruding out of the deep sea? Tentacles were thrown at her severely.

For a time, Chi Chuji only felt that his limbs were imprisoned. She struggled, trying to escape from such a restraint, but in just a few seconds, she was penetrated through her body from top to bottom.

That feeling, like trying to tear her whole person apart, was painful and confused.

Has Chi Chuji been struggling in the dark? It took a while before he opened his blurred eyes unbearably.

In the gloomy late night, Chi Chuji was lying on the bed, heaving his body with the wave, slowly opening his eyes.

The surrounding light gathered? In front of her eyes, she raised her head and looked at the fuzzy figure pressing on top, whispered?: “Teacher…”

That sound? The sound is too soft? The figure kneeling above her was stunned for a moment, and then laughed low? He got up: “Are you awake?”

In the dark night, the voice of the young man sounded like Lingling Mountain Spring, clear and moving.

In this sound, Chi Chuji’s consciousness quickly returned to his body.

She raised her hand and grabbed Le Xi’s arm, dumbly? Yin said, “Who made you mess around.”

Before going to bed properly, after she fell asleep, she began to do evil. I thought she was obedient? A little, it turned out that she was still such a disobedient child.

Le Xi smiled, put her arms around her waist and said affectionately: “Are you sure?”

Is she ready? Is she ready? Chi Chuji is also very enthusiastic. What else can’t she do?

Chi Chuji bit his lips and swallowed his own voice in. She raised her head and exposed her slender neck to the bottom of Le Xi’s eyes. It took her for a while to shake her shoulders slightly.

There was silence around? After a while, Chi Chuji raised his eyelids and glanced coldly at? She gave her a look, put her hand on Lexi’s shoulder, and said vaguely: “Lie down.”

Le Xi paused, then lay down obediently.

Chi Chuji knelt down and sat down on her, with her black hair draped over her snow-white shoulders, and said in awe-inspiring manner: “You are not obedient, my mother must punish you.”

Le Xi was stunned for a moment? She raised her head and stared wide. Her eyes looked at the majestic woman who was as majestic as her mother.

She is… Chi Chuji, this is…

Le Xi’s heartbeat was fierce. She stared at Chi Chuji who was sitting on her body blankly. She only felt that her lifeline was tightly choked by her, so she didn’t dare to move.

Chi Chuji hooked his lips, leaned over in the dark, leaned in front of Le Xi, and looked at her straightly with his eyes hooked. The sound was like the first snow, and there was a loose energy: “You are not good. Child, is it particularly lack of mother’s education?”

Le Xi rolled her throat, only feeling that all her voice was blocked.

She huh? How many times?, after a long time, she was dumb? The sound: “Yes…I’m not good…”

‘so……”

“mom……”

“Mother……”

“Please……”

“Punish me well.”

After saying this sentence, Le Xi suddenly felt a sense of relief.

This kind of feeling, on the night of Gu Yu’s funeral, she had it briefly, and on the day when she was drunk, she had it briefly too…

This is instinct, this is instinct that cannot be resisted…

She once felt disgusted and painful for this, but when everyone accepts their true self, they will go through this process.

From “Why am I such a person” to “I am such a person”, the mental journey to go through is really painful?.

From a long time ago, Le Xi clearly understood, what do those words that Zhao Sisi said on the beach in the sky mean?

She knows that the most feared road in the world is the road to self.

So she was terrified, terrified, and even so terrified that she couldn’t stop vomiting.

But that is her true self, the biological instinct that she can’t get rid of, and her wild aspiration like a beast.

Even if she is depressed, she can only keep that beast in her heart, and she can’t completely obliterate it.

As Hesse said: “Our task as human beings is: in our own unique individual lives, one step forward on the road of getting away from animality and approaching humanity.”

She abides by this belief, but has never solved it? Where does her animality come from.

There is no way to face it, so there is no way to liberate.

But just today, under the guidance of Chi Chuji, she turned her head vaguely and glanced at the past years, seeming to see the self who has been locked in the bottom of her heart.

That? A monster that is only eight years old, with long black hair and different eyes and black claws, has lost his parents’ self.

She was locked in a fence and stretched out her arms to the outside world, crying and shouting: “Mom hug…”

When she went to the hospital and saw her mother’s body…

When she stood in the morgue and saw her mother’s pale face…

When she was pushed into the water by Gu Mingxiu, struggling to climb up…

When she was crying in pain when Gu Yu pinched her neck…

When she was pressed on the bed by a stranger and exposed her body humiliatingly…

When she was lying curled up in the dark, sitting on the sofa waiting for Chi Chuji…

All she thought of was Le Yang.

All she wants is a hug from her mother.

No one loves her, no one loves her…because of the occasional tenderness of Chi Chuji, the cake once a year, for the source of all tenderness and love…

She can only grasp that? What a little warmth, hoping that? It’s love, and then, in the thirsty expectation, become a monster that will never grow up.

Le Xi hugged Chi Chuji’s waist, buried her face in her neck, and shed painful tears: “Mom…”

“Mother……”

Miss Chu Ji, hug me, give me love.

Let me tear away the dark hair that I don’t know when, tear up the shell of my beast, and take a step in the direction of humans.

If possible, she is willing to sacrifice all her love and dedicate her life to Chi Chuji.

Le Xi hugged Chi Chuji’s waist tightly, crying silently, and sprinkled her tears and other tears on Chi Chuji’s body.

In the silent night, the young man’s sobbing sound? It sounds so harsh.

Chi Chuji raised his head slightly and swallowed the overflowing sound again, then raised his hand and landed on Le Xi’s head, rubbed her thick black hair, and said dumbly, “Cry into it?” Like this, people who don’t know thought I was bullying you?.”

“Obviously you did something wrong? You deserve to be punished, right?”

Her voice was cold, with a chill.

Chi Chuji remembered her drunk and crying appearance before, frowned slightly, reached out his hand to cup Lexi’s face, and looked down at her seriously: “You didn’t drink today, why did you cry like this?”

Lexi sniffed, looked at Chi Chuji dimly with tears, and then said: “I…I…”

“I do not know either……”

She was just, too happy?, too happy?.

Le Xi raised her hand, wiped her tears, raised her head and kissed Chi Chuji’s lips, and whispered, “Miss Chuji, I love you.”

Chi Chuji opened her lips, caught her kiss, and did not respond to this sentence.

Chi Chuji replied perfunctorily when his lips met? One sentence: Know it? Know it?, which child doesn’t love his mother?

Especially children like Lexi, who will love their mother for the rest of their lives.

As a person ten to six years older than her, Chi Chuji is too much? What will a child like Xie Lexi look like in the future.

If she has no way to realize normal love in adulthood, then she will chase the same phantom on other people for the rest of her life, until she dies, she wants to return to the original place of life.

Chi Chuji understands this very well, and is determined to enjoy the other party to the fullest before he finds another more suitable phantom.

This is what Lexi owes her.

Her mother owes her a teacher, her mother owes her a fiancee, and she… owes her ten years of nurturing, and a dispensable life.

These debts always need people to pay off.

Chi Chuji thought this way, and felt that his wanton play wasn’t that? Is it too much?

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After spending a wonderful birthday with Lexi, Chi Chuji stayed in Star City for a few days, and soon returned to the theater.

In view of the fact that Chi Chuji led the troupe to have a very eye-catching performance in the past six months, during the Spring Festival, she led some members of the troupe to the New Year’s Eve party.

In the party, Chi Chuji quickly became popular on the Internet with his outstanding beauty and amazing dance works.

Since then, her previous dance works, as well as her dazzling achievements, have been widely circulated.

In the second year, the original head of the ballet resigned. Chi Chuji, as the best dancer among young ballet dancers, took over the ballet and became the youngest head of the national ballet.

After taking over the ballet troupe, Chi Chuji’s life has become more and more busy. In addition, her popularity has soared, and it is not convenient to meet Lexi. Over time, Lexi has the illusion that she is an underground lover raised by the other party.

Unable to see Chi Chuji, Lexi devoted all her energy to her studies and career.

Her sensitive artistic nature and superb aesthetic? Let her begin to radiate her own brilliance among these dream weavers.

After two consecutive years of hard work, Lexi got to know many partners and made many excellent short films, becoming one of the outstanding students in the college that has attracted much attention.

In the blink of an eye, it is the golden autumn of September. This year, after Le Xi entered the junior year, as a member of the Student Union, he received reports from the new students near the school gate.

In the busy and noisy environment, Le Xicheng, who has a calm temperament, is for the eyes of the new students.

She sat under the pergola, recording the names of the new students who came and went.

At this moment, a girl wearing a peaked cap and a black mask dragged a silver-gray suitcase to her and said hello: “Gu Lexi…”

Le Xi lifted her eyes, fixedly looking at the coming person, her eyes calm.

She thought to herself, she doesn’t have the last name Gu…

When her eyes met, the girl standing in front of her pulled down her mask, revealing a face very similar to Chi Chuji’s, and she curled her eyebrows and smiled at her: “It’s a coincidence that I will meet you here. .”

Le Xi looked at the soft face of Zhang and Chi Chuji, which was completely different from that of Chi Chuji, blinked, and called out with some uncertainty: “Chi Yunqing?”

Chi Yunqing smiled? He lowered his eyebrows and said shyly: “I thought you would not remember my name…”

“You remember me.”

Le Xi pursed her lips and nodded?

She looked at the delicate smile on the girl’s face, and in the depths of her mind, what? One day? In the mourning hall, she knelt on the ground crying lovingly, and couldn’t help thinking in her heart:

With a face similar to that of Chi Chuji, crying like a weak white flower, she was really unforgettable.