LIGHTNOVELONLINE <3
Hunter lay in bed and wished Mel was present. She was just, like, extremely cute. Very good to cuddle with. Frankly, it was very homophobic of the universe and geography and time that she wasn’t currently present in their bed.
They pulled up a picture of her and looked at it. Yes, confirmed. She was in fact very cute. Too cute, maybe? Cute to the extent that Hunter had an urge to attack her. But just, like, a light attack. Maybe a small amount of crushing via hugs. Just a little bit of earlobe nibbling.
Unfortunately, she was busy today. Hunter still wasn’t really clear on what she did to make money, except that she seemed to work from home and it involved the internet somehow. They had a sneaking suspicion that she had an OnlyFans or something, but that was kind of none of their business and they didn’t want to be nosey.
Unexpectedly, their phone buzzed. It was a Discord message, from the very girl they were pining for!
melsalvia: hey qt i made u a youtube channel and uploaded to it
melsalvia: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dQw4w9WgXcQ
BigGoron5: Oh! Thank you!
BigGoron5: V productive manager
melsalvia: <3
melsalvia: can u plug it on your twitter
BigGoron5: Sure! What’s it about
melsalvia: i edited down ur omegle vod
melsalvia: spiderman: into the omegleverse
melsalvia: wait for the joke to work do u know what omegaverse is lol
BigGoron5: Cursed
BigGoron5: yeah i watched a video essay about it
melsalvia: lmao
melsalvia: NERD
melsalvia: <3
melsalvia: imagine having an attention span longer than 5 minutes
melsalvia: couldnt be me
BigGoron5: Lol
BigGoron5: Oh sorry let me post on Twitter before I get distracted again
melsalvia: love 2 distract u
melsalvia: gotta be one of my top ten hobbies
Before getting dragged back into a conversation with a cutie, Hunter switched over to Twitter and posted a link to the video.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dQw4w9WgXcQ I have a YouTube channel now! Thanks to my (very cute) manager Mel (@schrodingers_chastity_cage) for putting this together!
Glancing at their Twitter page, Hunter cringed a bit. The profile pic was still a photo of them making a dumb face, with short hair and no makeup.
Seeing the old photo made them feel a bit uncomfortable and unhappy, but did they want to change it? Maybe they could just, like, tune it out. But this brought them to a larger issue, which they decided to discuss with Mel.
BigGoron5: hey so seeing my Twitter kind of reminded me
BigGoron5: I’m not that happy with my current online presence. Feels like it doesn’t fit me any more
BigGoron5: But I’m conflicted about changing it. Might confuse people or lose brand recognition
BigGoron5: …No, that’s not the real thing I’m worried about
BigGoron5: I don’t want to have to explain myself to people. I don’t want weirdos coming out of the woodwork to get mad at me for existing and being probably not a cis man
BigGoron5: I don’t want a repeat of that donation message about my channel becoming too “political”
BigGoron5: I’m trying to gain viewers, not lose them
BigGoron5: Should I just not talk about gender or my personal life? It’s arguably none of my audience’s business
BigGoron5: But on the other hand maybe that’s the coward’s way out? And there’s so many people who seem to believe horrifying things about trans people and the media they consume only feeds into that
BigGoron5: Maybe as a very minor celebrity/public figure, I have a moral obligation to be openly trans
BigGoron5: If I even am trans
BigGoron5: All I really know is that I don’t want to be a guy any more
BigGoron5: God, this is all just so tiring
They didn’t get an immediate response, so they returned to limply lying face down on their bed, feeling vaguely self-pitying. Hugging a pillow was almost an acceptable substitute for cuddling with Mel. Almost.
After what felt like hours, they heard their phone vibrate. Slowly, they shifted from their comfortable grave and glanced at the messages.
melsalvia: o no! cutie!
melsalvia: im sorry i was busy with work/errand stuff
melsalvia: do u want to talk about it?
melsalvia: obviously in the end the decision is up to u! but maybe i can help give suggestions
melsalvia: personally i would be happier to see you feel comfortable fully being yourself online and on twitch
melsalvia: i can’t deny it, some people will probably be real shitty about that
melsalvia: but also those people suck and fuck them and if anything that’s more of a reason to do it
melsalvia: if you’re upsetting transphobes ur probably doing something right lol
melsalvia: do u want to talk or anything? Im free now, could hop on a voice call
melsalvia: or if u want to just not think about it for now i understand
melsalvia: and if that’s the case maybe i could help distract u
BigGoron5: Well u are a very good distraction <3
BigGoron5: sure we can call
BigGoron5 started a video chat
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