Stigma (Yi Cong Yin)

Chapter 71: remorse

Jun Jingxing said: “Are you going to die?”

Sui Yan looked at him with the look of beasts, and said, “I won’t do anything out of the ordinary. Where did you want to go? Dirty!”

Jun Jingxing almost vomited with a mouthful of blood: “I’m nasty? I just said that if you don’t take a medicated bath today, it’s dying. If you want to sleep, I don’t care if you want to die!”

Sui Yan: “…”

After Jun Jingxing finished speaking, he suddenly realized that he had made a mistake, rubbed his eyebrows, and felt a headache.

Sui Yan watched Jun Jingxing for a long time before he whispered: “You are nasty…” Jun Jingxing: “…”

Jun Jingxing didn’t want to discuss the issue of nastyness with him, so he sullen his face as much as possible, and said coldly: “The poison on your body is still breaking out. You don’t need to press it down with a medicated bath. You may feel crazy and painful in the middle of the night. You want to do it. Merry ghost or a good night’s sleep?”

Sui Yan’s embarrassed appearance, Ming Chong had seen it almost, he really didn’t want to be embarrassed anymore, so he had to say: “Come on, you can do it.”

Jun Jingxing sneered and poured the herbs next to the bath tub again, thinking that he was decocting the medicine if he didn’t know it.

Sui Yan pinched his nose and soaked in the tub for a long time before rinsing it off, and put on his clothes and went back to the room.

Duan Mingchong returned to Sui Yan’s courtyard after the same year’s greetings.

As soon as he opened the door, he saw Sui Yanzheng holding the quilt onto the bed.

Duan Ming Chong said: “Ayan?” Sui Yan turned around in his busy schedule and said, “His Royal Highness is back.”

Duan Mingchong smiled and said, “What are you doing?”

Sui Yan rolled the two quilts separately on the couch, and said honestly: “Put the quilts for your Royal Highness.”

Duan Ming Chong was taken aback: “Am I… sleeping here?”

Sui Yan nodded and said: “There are very few people in the Hou Mansion staying overnight. I don’t know how long the guest room has not been cleaned up. Your Royal Highness can make do with me.”

When he heard this, he was talking nonsense. Duan Mingchong looked at him helplessly. It was not easy to pierce him, so he nodded.

Sui Yan and Duan Mingchong spent some food in the outer room, and they dragged Duan Mingchong off their robe and went to bed when they had nothing to do in their free time.

Sui Yan wanted to clean up the guest room for Duan Mingchong because of the medicinal smell on her body, but after thinking about it, she finally left the people behind. If she didn’t sleep together, it seemed too bad, so she had to compromise, one bed and two quilts. .

Sui Yan wrapped her body tightly and said, “His Royal Highness, when do you usually go to bed in the palace?”

Duan Mingchong was sitting on the edge of the bed, raising his hand to take out the hair crown. He turned his head to think about it, and said, “Hai Shi.”

In the winter, Sui Yan can’t wait to grow up in bed, unable to understand Duan Mingchong’s habit of resting in the sea and having to get up before dawn in the morning.

Sui Yan sat up and helped Duan Mingchong to remove the hair crown, and Xu Xu pushed Duan Mingchong to lie on the bed, helping him to pull the quilt up, very diligent.

Duan Mingchong smiled helplessly: “Just take care of yourself, don’t care about me.”

Sui Yan said: “His Royal Highness is a guest, he should be!”

As he said, he leaned forward and blew out the candle.

On weekdays, Sui Yan usually goes to bed after eating and reading for a while, and the hour will never exceed Xu Shi.

And now, Duan Mingchong was lying beside him, and Sui Yan couldn’t help but feel a little moved by the faintly coming of Qingyou sandalwood.

He rolled over, half-opened his eyes to look at Duan Mingchong.

Duan Mingchong has always been speechless, and would never take the initiative to speak to him on the couch.

Sui Yan watched for a while, feeling that Duan Mingchong’s breathing became much smoother, and whispered: “His Royal Highness, are you asleep?”

Duan Ming Chongyu moved his eyelashes lightly, opened his eyes, and smiled at him: “Not yet.” Sui Yan: “…”

Sui Yan said dryly: “Oh, your Highness will go to bed, and I will get up early tomorrow.”

Duan Mingchong said “Yes”: “So are you.” He closed his eyes again.

Sui Yan waited patiently for another half an hour before lowering his voice and said, “His Royal Highness?”

He only called out this time, because he suspected that his voice was a little louder the previous time, and that he was awakening Duan Mingchong.

Duan Mingchong, who looked like he was asleep, moved and opened his eyes a little amused: “Ayan, I haven’t fallen asleep yet, just tell me if you have anything, or am I squeezing you?”

Sui Yan: “…”

Sui Yan shook his head hard to say: “His Royal Highness, go to sleep.”

Sui Yan wanted to take advantage of Duan Mingchong’s sleep to shrink his arms for a while to take advantage. Who knew Duan Mingchong seemed to play a card according to common sense, and he hadn’t fallen asleep for so long.

For the third time, Sui Yan waited patiently for more than an hour, during which his eyelids had been fighting, and finally reached the moment of Hai, he yawned, gently leaned in front of Duan Mingchong, and said: “Your Highness?”

This time, Duan Mingchong was probably really asleep, and his eyelashes were not trembling.

Sui Yan was frightened by him, so he didn’t dare to dig into his quilt. He wiped away the tears from the corner of his eyes, and gently leaned on Duan Ming Chong’s pillow, staring at Duan Ming Chong’s beautiful sleeping face without blinking. .

Tianhuang nobleman seemed to be born with an aura of extravagance. Even if he fell asleep, Sui Yan didn’t dare to do something unruly.

After Sui Yan watched for a long time, he finally made up his mind.

He lowered his eyes slightly, his eyelashes kept trembling, and then Sui Yan made a move that even he felt daring–he leaned forward and gently kissed the corner of Duan Mingchong’s lips.

This may not be a kiss at all, it’s a slight touch.

Sui Yan quickly retracted his quilt with only one touch, and pulled the quilt to the top of his head, not daring to come out again.

Sui Yan went to sleep in a daze when he was in the middle of her life.

Early the next morning, Jun Jingxing knocked on his door.

Sui Yan rubbed his eyes and sat up sleepily: “Come in.”

Jun Jingxing came in with hot water and asked casually, “Did you sleep well yesterday?”

Sui Yan was stunned for a moment, then glanced at the neatly folded quilt-Duan Mingchong did not know when he had left.

Suddenly, Sui Yan recalled the unruly kiss last night, and immediately hugged his head and fell on the pillow.

Jun Jingxing warmed Sui Yan’s clothes by the charcoal basin, threw them at him, and said, “Don’t be a quail, get up quickly.”

Sui Yan beat the pillow, and said in pain: “I’m really rebellious and insulting to be gentle…”

Jun Jingxing frowned: “Isn’t it just getting up? Why did you insult gentleman?”

Sui Yan beat the pillow for a while, then got up with a disheveled dress and said, “When did His Royal Highness leave?”

Jun Jingxing said: “When the sky is still dark, enter the palace with your brother.” Sui Yan looked sad: “Oh.”

Jun Jingxing saw him not waking up, and he hesitated: “You and the prince last night…”

Before he could finish his words, Sui Yan suddenly aroused his spirit and looked at him in amazement: “I am not, I don’t!”

Jun Jingxing: “…”

Jun Jingxing looked at him faintly: “Nothing? I haven’t said anything yet, what are you eager to deny?”

Sui Yan hurriedly covered her mouth, but the roots of her ears were a little red.

Jun Jing said: “Oh, I understand, you…”

Sui Yan said, “You don’t understand!”

Jun Jingxing looked at him teasingly.

Sui Yan put down his hands, looked down at the ends of his hair, and said softly, “I’m a little scared.”

Jun Jingxing was stunned. He always felt that Sui Yan was not afraid of being a man. With such a temperament that even the crown prince dared to covet, how could he be afraid of anything.

But when he uttered the emotional “I’m afraid” sentence, Jun Jingxing suddenly couldn’t figure out what he was thinking.

Sui Yan arbitrarily adjusted his hair, turned his head to look at himself in the mirror, and murmured for a long time: “I just…touched him, and I was so scared to death…”

But what is he afraid of?

Sui Yan didn’t even know what he was afraid of?

Are they afraid that they will be dissuaded and cursed by others because of their ethical incompetence? No, Sui Yan didn’t care about it at all.

That’s because I’m afraid that Duan Mingchong treats himself… there is no so-called affection at all, all this is just his wishful thinking.

Sui Yan stretched out his hand and leaned toward the bronze mirror, touching his slightly fuzzy face with his fingertips in the mirror, and whispered softly: “If his feelings for me are not like that kind of admiration at all, then the ambiguous things I did In his opinion, will his actions and words be a joke?”

If one day, Duan Mingchong knew what he thought of him, would he think he was disgusting, and would alienate him and hate him from then on?

As long as Sui Yan thinks about this, his whole body gets cold.

Jun Jingxing grabbed his hand on the bronze mirror and said, “You have liked him for so many years, have you regretted it now?”

Sui Yan looked up at him and shook his head slightly: “I never regret it.”

He will choose to forget the things that make him regretful; he will never interact with those who resent. No one can make him regret it.

Jun Jingxing stretched out his hand and rubbed his head, and said helplessly: “Then what do you want to do now? Give him up?”

Sui Yan handed him the hair crown and asked Jun Jingxing to tie his hair: “I don’t know yet.”

Jun Jingxing bundled his hair and said casually: “This road is a misguided road. Not everyone is willing to accompany you to the end. Wouldn’t you be ready at the beginning?”

Sui Yan looked at the stranger face in the mirror, and lowered his eyes slightly: “I don’t have one.”

At first, Sui Yan just wanted to rely on Duan Mingchong’s little firelight to chat to comfort him, so that he could find a reason to live in this place sadly.

But before I knew it, the bigger flames added to the fire, and gradually burned into a raging fire.

Sui Yan has experienced the sadness and loneliness in the world, and he can’t resist this kind of warmth even more. Moths fighting the fire are not unreasonable.

After Sui Yan got up, she lay down on the limp and soaked in the sun.

Sui Yan hasn’t gotten sick for a long time. At first glance, Jun Jingxing was a little uncomfortable. He coaxed Sui Yan to drink half a bowl of medicine just in case. After thinking about it for a long time, he asked Haitang to call Suixun. coming.

Suixun was going to go out to find Jiang Ning, but when Haitang said something was wrong with Sui Yan, he frowned and went to the courtyard.

Sui Yan was sleeping with his eyes closed, Suixun stepped forward, and reached out and touched Sui Yan’s forehead.

Sui Yan opened his eyes and saw Suixun propped up and sat up, smiling: “Why didn’t my brother go out today?”

Suixun said, “Are you feeling feverish?”

Sui Yan tried to touch it himself, and shook his head: “It doesn’t seem to be there.”

Suixun was relieved and said, “I will go out again later.”

Sui Yan nodded.

Suixun looked at him hesitantly.

Sui Yan said, “Brother, if you have anything to say directly.”

Sui Xun said: “After the beginning of the spring next year, I will take you to Jiangnan for a while. Sui’s ancestral home is in Jiangnan, and the fragrance of birds and flowers is like spring all year round. It is very suitable for playing and recuperating.”

Sui Yan was taken aback, and said, “Jiangnan?”

Suixun said, “Well, I don’t have to go to the frontier for about three or four years. We can live there for a long time, what do you think?”

Sui Yan’s eyes moved slightly, and his heart sank suddenly. He was a little bit unsure whether Suixun knew something, so he asked him to leave the capital at this juncture.

Sui Yan was silent for a while before saying: “Let’s talk about it during the New Year.”

Suixun said: “Okay, we’re waiting.”

Sui Yan was about to nod, then raised his head as if reacting, and looked at him blankly: “We?”

NS?

Suixun said: “Well, Jiangning said that he wanted to go to Jiangnan to see the landscape. I have already agreed. I will take you there just by the way. If you don’t go, it’s no big deal. You can also watch the house in the Houfu.”

Sui Yan: “…”

Sui Yan lifted the blanket over his head, and said dullly, “Gong send my brother.”

Suixun didn’t know where he had said the wrong thing, but Sui Yan was forcibly sent off by Sui Yan with some doubts.

Sui Yan slept in the rattan rocking chair for a while, and there was a faint sound of footsteps in his ears.

Sui Yan shouted in a daze: “See you on the moon…”

Someone chuckled in his ear: “It’s me.”

Sui Yan froze, and suddenly lifted the blanket, with joy unconsciously appeared on his face: “Your Highness!”

Just now, the dilemma of advancing and retreating was wiped out at the moment Duan Mingchong appeared in front of him.

Sui Yan said in his heart: “Going to his abandonment, I will live a whole life again, not letting myself live like this.”

Sui Yan stared at Duanming Chongjunmei’s face and muttered, “This is mine.”

Duan Mingchong was puzzled: “What?”

Sui Yan dared not to say anything, and shook his head hurriedly.

Duan Mingchong put his sleeves together and looked at him with a smile: “Why are you still asleep? Have you not got enough sleep all day long?”

Sui Yan touched his nose: “There is nothing else to do, so I can only sleep.”

Duan Mingchong smiled and helped him up, and said, “I happen to be going to the Xiangguo Temple outside the city. Do you want to go with me?”

Sui Yan: “Xiangguo Temple?”

Xiangguo Temple is even snowier…

Sui Yan didn’t want to go. Three years ago, he saw the monk who seemed to be familiar with this life and past lives. He was a little uncomfortable, lest the monk would make a bubble of his innocent life.

Sui Yan was a little embarrassed: “I’m not too…”

Duan Ming Chong said: “There is a ceremony to worship the heavens in the twenty-seventh year. I need to eat and copy the scriptures at Xiangguo Temple for three days. I am a little uncomfortable with the food in the temple, so I brought a few cooks from the East Palace to do vegetarian food. …”

Sui Yan said, “Is it necessary to say, I am really boring in the Hou Mansion, it is fun to go to Xiangguo Temple, walk around, I will pack my things.”

Duan Mingchong: “…”