Chapter 32
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His Highness stopped by the Lordship’s Palace the next morning, as he had said yesterday.
I can’t feel the frustration yesterday at all, and now I look forced to smile one way or the other.
And the air between us is not everywhere either. Your Highness and I face each other, but we don’t gaze at each other.
Both remained silent as they seemed to devise what to say.
But it was His Highness who broke the silence.
“Rachel, I’m sorry I got emotional yesterday”
“No, I apologize for making Your Highness uncomfortable.”
It was certainly the first time His Highness had shown such frustration.
It’s incredible to remember now, such as His Royal Highness shouting out loud, always calm and constantly smiling at any time.
But the cause must have been on me, too.
Something will shake your feelings until His Highness does so.
Yesterday, I’ve been thinking about it ever since.
Recently His Highness feels the glance that seeps sweetly into his love when he looks at me.
Perhaps His Highness thinks less of me.
Isn’t it more natural to think so, if you did it yesterday for some reason and care about the clergy?
It may be a little bit over-competitive to think so.
But suppose that’s the truth.
What about me?
I have tried not to think about my future with Your Highness for me once I have lost my heart.
But lately, His Highness has often shaken my heart.
Still, I still don’t have the courage to open the lid of sealed love.
Anyway, there’s also the Virgin.
I can’t give it back to His Highness, who is walking over to me, because I’m not sure I can now.
Also, can you not be jealous to see that Your Highness and the Virgin get along?
Unlike last time, I have a self who is not confident that I will be okay because His Highness is beginning to feel his own charm.
“No, it’s all because I’m impudent. I have to sort out my emotions a little bit.
If you don’t mind… can we stop by again on the way home from Donacian territory? ”
I smiled and nodded to His Highness staring at me worryingly.
“Yes, of course.”
“Good.”
“Um, Your Highness.
It’s good if I’m wrong, but I thought there might be some misunderstandings.
I wrote to you yesterday after rethinking things I couldn’t say. ”
“To me?
“Yes, I’m glad you read it even when you’re free”
“Oh, let’s definitely read it”
His Highness looked me straight in the eye and nodded firmly and received the letter looking important.
Then, as he wrapped the letter in his chest pocket, he rode a hairy black horse and left with Cyril and his escort in a refreshing manner.
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“What’s wrong?
“Huh?”
“I’ve been bawling for a while now. Sigh and many times.”
“Ah… excuse me”
Three days have passed since His Highness left for Donacian territory. But I haven’t heard anything from His Highness so far.
What will His Highness be doing?
Would you have read the letter?
No, maybe I wrote about a misunderstanding.
I feel like I’m thinking of His Highness when I realize this place.
They were still thinking about it again and stopping their hands while organizing the picture books they were reading to the kids earlier in the church.
Suddenly there is a voice from behind and I am hacked.
Who are the only children who have been surrounding me until earlier, and there are only me and the clergy who have now spoken up in this room.
When were the children gone?
What the hell am I doing not realizing at all?
The cleric looked worried at me in a depressing manner.
“If you don’t mind, let’s talk about what happened.”
“Thank you. But this is what I have to face.”
“After all, Lady Rachel is a straight man”
When the clergyman narrowed his eyes to my answer, he deepened his grin with a glaring gaze somewhere.
“No…”
“When I’m with you, I feel like I can be strong enough.”
“The clergyman is always very nice to think of someone.”
When I’m done cleaning up all the picture books, I get up from the way I was crouching in and stretch my back straight.
When the clergyman saw how I was doing, he advised me to sit in a chair nearby, “Would you like to talk a little?”
Without thinking, sitting on the chair as recommended, the clergyman also sits in a nearby chair.
After a brief silence, the cleric slowly opens his mouth.
“Can I tell you one dream that won’t come true?
“Dream…?
“Yes.
I’ve been a bad kid ever since I was a kid. The brothers are expected to be strong in magic and clerics, and I think they will be working for the Great Church in the future.
But I’m not. Despite being born into the cleric lineage, there is no great deal of magic. It is only at a level where the Spirit is hard to see.
So I did everything my parents and my brother told me when I was young. The same goes for choosing the path of the cleric I told you about before. I’ve never actually chosen something myself. ”
The look on the face of the cleric, who looks serene but speaks pale, has a self-derisive grin somewhere similar to giving up.
The other day, I did say that all my family members were clerics.
However, it is easy to think that an environment surrounded by good people would be very difficult to live in.
“Turn the country church upside down and live in detail because the future is unlikely to come out. If your brothers ask you to help them, do anything.
‘Cause that’s the only stupid thing you can do. ”
“Eh…”
“It’s a cliché of parents.
Our parents expect two excellent brothers. I don’t care if they don’t even bother my brother. ”
“Oh no…”
I thought he was surrounded by a very warm and kind family because he was such a gentle and gentle person.
That’s… the family the priest talks about doesn’t make you feel cold and warm at all.
Besides, I can’t believe I can keep saying these cold words to my parents. When I think of a young cleric, my chest becomes painful so that it is tightened.
“But I still thought it was good.
When I actually came to the local church as a cleric, I had a much more serene day ahead of me than I thought.
I can’t even hear the annoying voices here, and I can’t stop laughing every day I spend with my kids ”
“Yep.”
“It’s not bad to spend the rest of your life like this.
That’s what I thought… That’s when you showed up ”
“I?”
The clergyman gazed at my eyes zippily.
Unlike the usual serenity, the eyes were very powerful and I couldn’t move by accident.
“With you… I wish this future would last forever.
That’s the first time I’ve thought of it.
Of course, I know you say you’re the fiancé of His Royal Highness Prince Wang.
But for the first time, I didn’t want to ruin these days. ”
“Um…”
“… Actually, I know.
Your engagement with His Royal Highness Prince Wang is as difficult as it is now. ”
“Why?”
“My house is also at the core within the church.
So I understand your situation for what it is.
And the black cat… ”
The black cat, the clo thing… No way!
Unexpectedly, I open my eyes to the word of the priest.
“It’s okay. I don’t get my hands on spirits.
So if only you could think of a future with me. ”
The gripping hand shivers.
What is the priest saying?
How do you know about Crowe?
Your face will be pale.
How long have you known? How far do you know?
I can’t stop trembling just thinking.
How far is what the cleric tells you true and what do you want?
There are many questions.
But right now, I can’t snort at the words of the cleric earlier.
“I’m sorry. I certainly don’t know what will happen to this engagement.
But as fiancée of His Royal Highness Prince Wang, I cannot accept it now. ”
“Really? I’m sorry.”
The clergyman did not seem sorry behind words as if he had anticipated the answer.
On the contrary, he had an even more gentle grin.
“Then we have no choice.
Shall we rush down now? ”
Eh…
I wonder what the cleric is saying.
When I tried to think, I gradually felt my head shaking with grass.
That’s when the sweet scent plunders my nose.
Before you realize it, is something burning?
I try to utter words, but my mouth doesn’t move like it’s paralyzed.
What…
Unexpectedly glaring at the cleric, the cleric smiled troubled.
“It’s okay. It’s just a sleeping incense.
Don’t worry, I’ll protect you. ”
My consciousness was interrupted as I stared at the cleric laughing gently and calmly as usual.