Chapter 59: fifty nine
• Lexus
Mistakes are a part of life, made by everyone, yet if you can admit your wrongs and try to do better things, your whole world can shine a bit brighter.
In my life, I know the things I did wrong and the wrongs that were done to me but now it's all in the past.
Things have changed and I want them to get better, even though life will always give you hardships, and there is no such thing as a perfect life, the perfect moment does exist.
Such as this one.
Where I stand on the stage and my bride walks the aisle looking a stunning beauty in her white wedding dress, her red hair styled in a bun and her arm around Alios as he walked the aisle with her. Summer walking in front of them, in her white flower girl dress, a bouquet in her hands.
My two best men, Arius and Eli standing to my right at a distance.
Mom sitting there on her chair in the front row, next to Raina, smiling at me, I returned her smile.
As my bride reached the stage, I extended my hand and helped her up.
The priest began the formalities.
It took a lot of effort, many hurdles and hell a lot of wait to get here. A year and a half back, just when I bought her, I never would have thought about this, but what's life, if it's not going to surprise you?
I looked at my beautiful bride who was smiling back at me.
The time we spend together, the changes you planted in me, the person you awoke in me, the love and happiness you gave me.
I want to return it all, for the rest of our lives.
"Do you take Rosalie Yuki as your lawfully wedded wife?"
"I do."
"And you Miss Rosalie take Lexus Xander as your lawfully wedded husband?"
"I do."
"You may now kiss the bride."
I gently placed my hand on her cheek and went in for a soft kiss. She closed her eyes as she did the same.
It was the very first time in my life, well the very first I remember and most like the last time, we all took a proper family picture. A picture that symbolized how time can change things, it was a photograph of happiness.
***
"I can't believe you, are you really not telling me where we will be living now?" Rosalie asked as I drove us both to our new house after the wedding.
"You'll find out. We're almost there."
She sighed and slumped back on her seat but as a certain house came into her view she slowly rose back up.
"No way." She looked at me, "Are you serious?"
I parked the car, "Yes. I had the whole thing renovated. Part of the reason why our marriage was postponed until today."
She looked back at the house, "T-this is grandma's house."
"It is."
"Yet it looks so new."
"It's our house now. And it's under your name."
"What? My name!!?"
I grinned and then got out of the car, walked to the other side and opened the door for her, "Let's go." She took my hand, "We have a new life ahead of us."
"Yes." She smiled and gave me a peck.
I stared down at her, "You expect me to be satisfied with that?"
She turned her head and walked towards the house like she heard nothing, "I love this house. It's perfect for a family."
I jogged to her and picked her up in my arms, "Damn right and I'm gonna make sure we have a big family."
She looked at me wide eyed
"B-big family?"
I smirked and walked in, "Very big."
***
Time continues to flow, some things get better, some don't change yet some get worse with no way of making them better.
With the flowing of time, mom's health began to decline and there came a time when she couldn't even eat.
Some things you know will happen, no matter what, yet you can never prepare yourself for it, no matter how many times you think about it, no matter how much you try to make it better.
It's bound to happen and it's painful.
Yet, at her final moments she was in her room, on her bed, surrounded by her family. Her sons, her beloved and their wives, who stayed by her and tried their best to make things easier for her.
She smiled as she closed her eyes and whispered the words.
"I'm happy."
People leave but their memories remain, and even though I do not share a lot of them with my mother, I'm happy that the last of them were there and were full of glee. I'm glad we made up and I'm glad I could spend time with her, feel her love, her touch, and her warmth.
Death, especially of a person so important to you isn't easy. The memories you spend with them always linger around and even though time makes things better, there are some voids that can not be filled.
Yet, life will give you something that will fill you with love all over again.
****
I paced around the hospital corridor nervously, somehow I couldn't bring myself to calm down. My anxiety just kept getting worse, the wait was killing me and none of the nurses or the doctor had come out of the operation theater Rosalie was in.
Sighing and deep breathing, again and again, I paced in the white corridor.
The sound of crying made me halt in my stance.
Oh God...
The nurse came out, her white gown filled with stains of blood, each step she took towards me was nerve-wracking.
"Mr.Xander, congratulations, you're the father of a beautiful little girl now."
I felt a strange sensation in me. Was I happy? Excited or nervous? Maybe all of it.
A father... of a daughter?
Without realizing it I had started smiling.
"H-how's my wife?"
"She's fine. She's just resting."
"Can I see her?"
"Not now. Let her rest for a while. You'll be able to see her soon enough."
"Okay..."
After a little wait that felt like an eternity, I walked into her room. I was nervous, each step I took was slower than the last. As she came into view, her arms cradling our daughter, I paused.
She noticed me and smiled.
"Lex, won't you hold her?"
"I-..." I don't even know why I'm so confused?
"Come here." She said and I walked to her. "You wanted a daughter so bad and you finally got your wish."
I stared at her, her tiny tiny hands and feet, her red hair, her beautiful face.
My daughter.
"Here." Rosalie gave her to me, carefully, I cradled her in my arms.
My daughter.
Just the word made me so happy, it made my heart jump with excitement.
"What do you want to name her?" Rosalie asked.
Her name... I thought about it. Just like Rosalie, she was small, a tiny little flower that brought me joy.
"Lily." I looked at Rosalie, "I want to name her Lily."
She smiled, "You sure love flowers."
I sat down on the edge of the bed next to her.
"After all, you both are the magnificent flowers of my life."
She took a deep breath and laid her head on me.
"Rosalie?"
"Yes?"
"Thank you for coming into my life."
She raised her head and looked at me, "No Lexus, thank you. For bringing me in." Her eyes shone without doubt, "I love you."
I kissed her forehead, "I love you too and I'll love you forever."
The end