LIGHTNOVELONLINE Chapter 70: How I Felt Back Then
It was Monday, two days after Shiho’s cooking training at Tojoin’s house.
I left home and walked down the street to school.
It was my usual route to school, the weather was normal but it was a little hot in my blazer.
I stopped when I was about halfway there.
I took a deep breath.
“Fuu…”
It has been almost a month since I started dating Tsukasa Hisamura.
Every Monday ever since we started dating, we would meet at the road and go to school together.
We’ve been to school together a few times now, so I’ve gotten a bit used to it, but I still feel nervous nonetheless.
Besides, this is the first time I’m meeting Tsukasa since Saturday…
My face burns when I remember the events of that day.
I was on the verge of kissing Tsukasa that time.
If I hadn’t heard a noise in the hallway, I probably would… I would have touched lips with him.
When I thought about it even further, my face began to burn more and I could tell that my face was beginning to turn red.
(Damn, calm down… I’m going to meet Tsukasa now, I can’t be like this before I meet him…)
I meditate for a bit and take a deep breath.
The reason why I’m so bothered by what happened was because I called Shiho yesterday about it.
The phone call with Shiho was also sudden, and when I picked up the phone, Shiho’s first words were,
“You kissed Hisamura-kun?!”
Or so she said.
When I heard that, I couldn’t help but shout “Oi!”.
Apparently when Tsukasa and I went to the preparation room, Shiho was having these kinds of conversations with Tojoin and Rinke.
Moreover, when the three of them came to the preparation room, they seemed to have decided that we must have kissed because we were in a very awkward mood.
There was a surveillance camera in the room so I knew they could have seen it, but I couldn’t see it from that angle so I just asked directly.
“Wait a minute, there was a security camera in that room?”
“It’s Tojoin-san’s house.”
It’s amazing how those words instantly managed to convince me.
It was good that I didn’t kiss him there.
That’s what I was thinking about right then.
“Good morning Sei-chan.”
“Uwaa!?”
I suddenly heard a voice speak to me from behind and my body reacted with a jolt.
I looked next to me and saw the person I was picturing in my mind earlier, Tsukasa Hisamura.
“You good?”
“No, I’m fine. Good morning, Tsukasa.”
Something embarrassing leaked out of my mouth, I immediately started to speak quickly to cover it up.
“You’re here early today. And what happened to Rinke? You don’t seem to have your bike today.”
“Rinke forgot she was on duty today, so she couldn’t wait for me and took the bike and went ahead of me.”
“I-Is that so, it seems that Rinke is surprisingly klutzy, huh?”
“It’s easy to forget things like that after a weekend.”
Tsukasa’s sister, Rinke, is not here, so it seems that it’s decided that it’s gonna be just the two of us going to school today.
Today, I really wanted to go to school alongside Rinke, and not be alone with Tsukasa.
It’s not that I don’t want to be alone with him, of course, but because I remember what had… happened, I’m not sure if I can even speak to him properly.
For a moment, an uncomfortable silence was present between us.
“Well, we’d better get going. Otherwise we’ll be late for school too.”
“Yeah.”
When Tsukasa replied to me in a normal manner, I was a little miffed.
(It seems like I’m the only one who’s… you know, aware of this…)
I thought so in my mind, but I couldn’t dare voice it out.
The two of us started walking along the usual, but slightly different, route to school.
Even though we were walking for about five minutes, we rarely saw any other students on the path.
That’s why when Rinke is not around, we usually always hold hands for these five minutes on the way to school
But, we haven’t held hands today.
“What’s today’s P.E. class?”
“If I remember correctly, the boys are playing basketball, while the girls play tennis.”
“Oh, that’s right. If it’s basketball, it’s probably Yuuichi’s game anyway.”
The conversation itself was the same as usual, but I felt a little uncomfortable.
I feel like Tsukasa is talking to me more than he usually does.
We didn’t hold hands, and Tsukasa kept talking more and more.
(Could it be that Tsukasa is also slightly bothered by what had happened the other day?)
Or perhaps I should say, it would be strange to not be slightly bothered by it.
After the incident the other day, I haven’t been active on RINE either.
Neither of us had mentioned the attempted kiss the entire time.
While talking with Tsukasa, I glanced at his hand, which was very close to mine.
This is the first time we’re not holding hands when we were alone on the way to school.
Whenever we hold hands, Tsukasa always takes the initiative and holds it first.
I’m waiting for Tsukasa to do it again today, but we’re almost about to reach the point where there’d be more students appearing on the way.
(I’ve never done it myself before.)
While repeating these thoughts in my mind, I held his hand.
“..! Eh?”
“Fufu, what’s wrong?”
“N-No, I was just surprised.”
“I-Is it weird, t-that I wanted to hold your hand?”
“No, it’s not weird, I’m just really happy. If I had six more hands, I’d use every single one of them to hold onto you.”
“You’re gonna turn into a spider at that rate.”
Tsukasa was speaking in his normal fashion, but I could tell that he was a little embarrassed.
If he was so happy to hold hands with me, I feel like doing it again in the future.
(Well… I’m not averse to holding hands either.)
The corners of my mouth turned up as I was fantasising about him.
“Sei-chan, about last Saturday…”
“..! W-What about it?”
I didn’t expect him to suddenly talk about Saturday, so I was a bit startled.
I looked up to him with an embarrassed and reddened face, while Tsukasa wore more of an apologetic face rather than a red face.
“Well, you know, in the prep room, it came out of nowhere, so I’m sorry.”
“Eh?”
“Oh, no, it’s just, it was a bit too abrupt, and I was, trying to do that… without considering your feelings.”
“…..”
It’s true that at that time, the atmosphere suddenly just… became like that, and I was very surprised at that.
It was so comfortable to have my head patted, and I was leaning towards Tsukasa as if I was letting myself go, and when I opened my eyes and looked up, my face was so close to his.
Tsukasa’s face, which I had never seen that closely before, was surprisingly attractive, and I began to feel nervous.
He looked me straight in the eye, and his face slowly closed in on mine.
(…! Don’t remind me of it!)
Immediately, I pictured the scene in my head and my face turned redder.
“So, I’m sorry. Earlier, I thought that maybe Sei-chan didn’t like me after that, so I didn’t hold your hand.”
“I-Is that so…”
“That’s why I was really happy when Sei-chan held my hand.”
When Tsukasa smiled innocently at me, my heart began to race.
I knew that Tsukasa was also aware of what had happened, and that he was worried about me in his own way.
What made him feel uneasy was probably the fact that Sei-chan was too embarrassed to face him after that and left him.
I’m sorry, but I’m a little glad that he’s thinking that much by himself.
“How could I dislike Tsukasa just because of that? I’m going out with Tsukasa because I like that..”
I was hesitant to say such an embarrassing thing so early in the morning, but since I was the one who made Tsukasa feel uneasy, I took responsibility and put my feelings into words.
“Sei-chan… Thank you, I love you Sei-chan.”[TLN: Me too Sei-chan, I love you too!] [EDN: Dead, I don’t think she’ll ever know you exist.]
“A-Ah, thank you.”
I accepted his words with a little embarrassment.
We walked a little further and came to a place where there were many students, so we had to let go of our hands.
“Sei-chan, it’s about time.”
“Yeah, I know.”
Just as he was about to let go of my hand, I had something I wanted to say about the statement he made earlier.
“Tsukasa, when you told me that you weren’t thinking about my feelings…”
“Ehh…?Uh… yeah.”
Tsukasa reacted in a way that vocalized the question ‘Why are we talking about this again?’
There was one thing I wanted to say as a response.
It’s very embarrassing.
So I looked around to make sure nobody nearby was listening in on us.
I went close to Tsukasa’s ear and said in a quiet voice.
“That time, I closed my eyes, so that’s how I felt.”
I immediately moved away and kept some distance away from him.
Tsukasa didn’t seem to understand what was said for a moment, but the moment he understood what it meant, his face began to turn bright red.
“Eh…?, E-EHH?!”
“Okay, you know what I meant! Look, we’re going to be late for school, so let’s get a move on!”
Tsukasa, who was in love with me, had stopped and was about to reach out to hold my hand to hurry me up, but I stopped him because there were other students nearby.
I ran in front of Tsukasa and turned around.
“Come on, let’s go, Tsukasa.”
“Fufu, I can’t compete with you, Sei-chan. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to win against you.”
While muttering these words, Tsukasa stood next to me and began to walk with me.
“One day, I will. And when I do, I’ll make sure your eyes are open.”
“…Got it.”
We stopped for a moment because we were both blushing and then we slowly started to walk down the street to school.
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Author Notes:
I apologize for the delay.
That concludes volume 2.
I’ve just posted a new story, and I hope you’ll take a look at it, The title is below.
“I was free after my engagement was broken off, and I wanted to go on a journey, but the world’s most ruthless knight followed after me.”
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Yeah!
It’s an otherworldly kind of romance, it’s kind of a one-on-one romantic comedy like this one! Please take care of me.
TLN: I thought I finally had a break since the Author stopped for a while after this chapter. But when I finally decided to work and finish it off, he popped by with 3 more chapters, guess Imma cry now. I was supposed to write about how it has been a long way but I guess ill work a little harder. Sei-chan has a light now, Yay! but I’m not sure if I want to translate it. To be honest I have been losing motivation lately and I cannot promise Ill be able to translate as fast as AJ and the rest of them. So I’m contemplating whether to translate it. Maybe I’ll start a poll on whether to translate it or not lol. Huge thanks to Spynine01 for carrying all 70 chapters.