Chapter 958: 15.177
Bai Shijue tied his sash and covered his body again. He stood awkwardly, waiting for this evil god to say anything.
After he sensed that his wife had been fully covered, Han Ye finally turned around. He pointed at the pavilion's edge and said, "We can sit there and talk."
"… okay," Bai Yunyu said.
He sat at the pavilion's edge, with his feet dipped into the water, following the order of this evil god who did the same.
They became really awkward like this because their first meeting in this world was about sex. Not a talk like what they were doing currently, not that it was a bad thing...
Meanwhile, Han Ye didn't even say anything. He just closed his eyes in a trance and reminisced about the good old days when his wife still accepted his presence.
They often sit here, in this exact position, and their feet dipped into the water. They'd talk about random things, mostly laughing at their inside jokes.
He thought that Bai Yunyu had already accepted him, and they'd lead a beautiful life together.
'But everything is fake. He doesn't see me as his husband. He saw me as a monster, and everything is just a plan to ruin me… to ruin our marriage,' Han Ye said in his heart. Whenever he remembered what treachery Yunyu did to him and their marriage, he couldn't help but explode.
He wanted to hurt Bai Yunyu as much as he wanted to treasure his beloved.
'Why did you do this to us, Yunyu? Why can't you accept me?' Han Ye asked himself.
Bai Yunyu was also sitting in a daze when he felt his hand was wrapped in a cold hand. He looked down and realized that the evil god was holding his hand right now.
He frowned and looked at the evil god suspiciously, "Why are you holding my hand?"
…
Han Ye did not answer Yunyu's question. He opened his eyes and stared at the vast lake that he created because his wife said he wanted to have a tranquil place.
So he did it.
He did everything his wife told him to do, including creating his own jail.
"Do you know… I created this one realm specifically for my wife," Han Ye started speaking, mentioning his wife. She was apparently in a deep slumber. "He's beautiful and pure, like white jade. He is righteous as well. He'd put others' needs before him, but he despises evil so much. So much that he never actually loves me…."
Bai Yunyu listened attentively, feeling a little pity when he heard the story of this evil god.
"What do you mean he never loves you?"
"He showed fake love to me, tricking me into thinking that we're a happy family. But everything is just a one-way feeling between us," Han Ye said.
"He… tricked you into what?"
"Into destroying myself, our family, and everything that we have. He wants me to suffer," Han Ye said. He wrapped his wife's hand tighter. "He said that I'm not worthy to be loved, and the only way for me to repent for what I did was to suffer forever, following this painful cycle over and over and getting hurt by him."
"It's been like this since… I don't even remember how long the cycle has repeated," Han Ye said.
Bai Yunyu stared at the evil god with Han Ye Gege's face, who seemed to bear such deep grief, which also made Yunyu feel sad.
Though, perhaps most of his sympathy came from the face. Because this evil god was using Han Ye Gege's face when Yunyu saw Han Ye Gege looking sad and almost cried, he inexplicably would feel the same as well.
He knew it wasn't his place to say this because he wasn't related to this evil god.
But at the same time, maybe his words would give this man a little peace in his heart.
"How long have you been together with him before… things happened?" Bai Yunyu asked.
"I can't remember," Han Ye said. "But every time we restarted the cycle, he'd decide to chain me first before erasing everyone's memory, acting as if nothing ever happened while he punished himself in that world he created."
"I just want us to be together. I want us to be happy…." Han Ye said. He finally turned his head to the left and stared at Bai Yunyu— his wife, who had been staring at him with such a pitiful gaze for a while.
'You're staring at me with a such pitiful gaze as if you're truly sympathizing with my— our condition. But when you remember everything, the only thing you want to do is kill me,' Han Ye said in his heart. 'What's the point of making me hope if you want to keep playing this painful game, my wife….'
"Did you… have a child with him?"
"Yes, one son," Han Ye said. "I have one son with him. I was happy with a son because I thought that meant our love had come to fruition. But he… he despised our son as well…."
"What the—" Bai Yunyu never thought there'd be a parent that didn't like their child. But then again, he remembered that his parents in his world never actually treated him well.
His mom has always been in this dramatic state of either being sick, lazy, or just plain crazy.
While his dad was absent from home most of the time, and when he came home, he'd come with a woman of his choice.
It was a toxic relationship, so he imagined that it must've been really difficult for this evil god.
'Though, this evil God of Nothingness seems to genuinely love his wife. While my father never once showed any kind of love to me or my mother.'
[Pupa: Don't you think the identity of his wife is quite similar to you?]
[Huh, similar to me?]
[Pupa: Yeah, male wife with a son, and also sound very petty.]