LIGHTNOVELONLINE Chapter 486: Their moment
When the warmth of the sun washed away the coldness of the night, Senja still hugged herself so she wouldn't fall apart.
It was a long time after the sunrise before finally Doctor Lin came out from the tent.
She looked spent and downhearted, her jet black hair disheveled, coming out from her hair band while her clothes wrinkled and tainted with blood.
Xiao Tianyao's blood.
Only when Doctor Lin sat down beside her, Senja has courage to lift her head, greeted with the blazing sun on her face.
She raised her hand and opened her palm to cover the blinding light.
It was a sunny day, an amazing day to start something new. Ironically, it wasn't in the same line with what Senja felt now.
She felt deserted and empty. Event the bright of the sun couldn't illuminate the black void of her heart
When her eyes started to adjust with the light, Senja tilted her head and looked over at Doctor Lin who was sitting beside her with the same position.
Doctor Lin cuddled her legs while propping her chin on her knees. She looked far away ahead of her, contemplating something before she spoke softly.
"It's a beautiful day…" She mumbled.
Even though that wasn't the word that Senja wanted to hear, she still nodded in agreement, today was indeed a bright day.
Senja didn't know if she wanted to hear whatever Doctor Lin was going to say. However, somehow, she knew what it was… her gestured and the way her hopeless eyes staring at the capital city direction, gave away her answer.
The sound from war last night had died down without Senja realized it. It was quiet now, so peaceful. She didn't know whose win the battle, but if she thought about it again, it didn't matter anymore for her.
She wouldn't be here to enjoy their victory or suffered from their loss…
There was nothing matter now…
All she wanted to know was the certain someone inside the tent, but in contrary, she didn't want to know. She was afraid Doctor Lin would solidify her fear…
"War has ended, I think…" Doctor Lin mumbled again and Senja replied the same.
Both of women were looking at the same direction and sitting in the same position with different thought in mind.
"I have tried my best." Doctor Lin said.
She felt her heart was squeezed by a painful sorrow.
"He has tried his best."
"I know…" Senja whispered. There was a thick silence before she talked again. "Can I see him?"
Doctor Lin looked at Senja and nodded, "He asked for you…"
With that, Senja slowly stood up as she felt her blood dropped and all she saw was darkness, she closed her eyes and waited for awhile before she regain her sight back.
When she finally took a step toward the tent, she could feel how weak her feet, they were shaking. She wasn't feel like walking, she felt like dragging her body instead.
The curtain that covered Xiao Tianyao's bed was so heavy. She needed both her hands to open it.
She fought to open her eyes to see the man in front of her and it took the remnant of her energy to do it.
Xiao Tianyao was lying on his stomach with his bandaged back facing her. His breath very shallow and his face very pale, Senja had never seen him in this weak state or she had ever thought to see him like this.
He stirred awake when she felt her gaze on him.
"Come here…" Xiao Tianyao said with voice that barely a whispered.
Senja complied as she sat on the edge of the bed.
"I want to hug you… but apparently… I hurt my back… pretty bad… it's cold… can you, hug me… instead?" His eyes shut closed and his eyebrows furrowed as he tried hard to talk and halted many time along his sentences.
Senja carefully covered his back with white blanket and lay down beside him. Due to his injury she didn't wrap her arms on his back, but held his hand instead. She curled up with her nose nudged his shoulder.
"It has ended…" Xiao Tianyao stated.
"Yes…" Senja was at the point where she wanted to agree with everything he said.
There was a silence between them as they savored the warmth of each other.
"What you will do after this?" Senja lifted her head to see him, the ray of sunlight blanched his face.
There was a faint smile graced his lips while he talked with eyes closed as if he was daydreaming. "I want to spend… my time with you… having a family with you…"
Senja could feel her heart warm up when she imagined to having her own family. Everything seemed so right…
"I want to… have a real… marriage with you…" Xiao Tianyao halted as his furrowed deepened. "… having a child with you…"
Tears trickled down from her eyes, rolling down on her cheeks to his shoulder.
"You said we have to wait until I turn eighteen…"
"I regret it now…"
His comment earning a soft chuckled from Senja. "You have to get well first…"
"Hmm." Xiao Tianyao hummed. "This is a long time… this war is tiring… I have fought almost all my life… I want to take a rest… for a while…"
Senja nodded. "You need to rest."
Once again, Xiao Tianyao hummed in agreement.
At that time, Senja opened her eyes and saw the white blanket had drenched with his blood.
"Senja…" Xiao Tianyao called her softly, aware of what she was seeing. "You found Yun…"
"Hmm."
"I think… you have to go with him… I can't accompany you now…"
"I want be with you." Senja whimpered.
Xiao Tianyao squeezed her hands before he brought them to his lips. "I will be here… when you comeback…"
That's a lie…
Both of them knew that's a lie…
"Please go…" Xiao Tianyao pleaded.
As the bloodstained on the blanket widened, his voice weakened.