LIGHTNOVELONLINE Book 6: Side Story
I Want To Become Heroine
「────, go over there quickly!」
The little girl was given order by the person who seemed to be her “mother”. The girl didn’t remember her own name. She was unable to find any special meaning in the given name that was nothing more than a “code” used by the woman who seemed to be her mother only to give her order.
This woman so to speak was a person doing “night work”.
She was a pretty person even in the eye of the girl who was still little. She was dressed with flashy getup and lived flashily……this person was suitable for that way of living.
It seemed that she had great confidence in her own look. The woman acted haughtily even toward the other women who were her coworkers which made them hated her.
Even so the mother and daughter weren’t the same person. Even if the woman who seemed to be her mother was hated, even those other women would feel sympathy when they looked at the little girl who was treated cruelly by her mother, even then they naturally distanced themselves from her and treated her like she didn’t exist.
Their personality and attitude were different but, she was avoided even more than her mother who was easy to understand in a sense. She was seen like she was a foreign object that couldn’t be comprehended.
The girl wasn’t good with “woman”. That was because since she was born and until she gained awareness of her surrounding, she always got tyrannized by “woman” in the form of her mother. The other women also didn’t help the little girl inside the room. Only the “men” who were all her mother’s guest would give the girl food or treat her affectionately.
Inside the girl “man” was someone who gave her protection. “Woman” was someone who tormented her. That kind of simple outline was created in her mind.
The male guests were doting on the girl perhaps because the girl’s look was very similar with the woman who seemed to be her mother.
She was a little girl with well-ordered features, sleepy looking eyes, and often looked up to male with an adoring gaze. Few men would spurn a little girl like that.
And then today too she was chased out of the room by the woman who was bringing in a man, just like usual. The girl didn’t feel like relying on other woman and wandered through the night on her own. By consoling the pitiful man who didn’t manage to get the woman who seemed to be her mother to keep him company, she obtained a place to sleep and food for that day.
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The girl was aware that she had an excellent look.
But, she also noticed the stark difference between herself and the woman who seemed to be her mother.
The woman acted haughtily toward other females in order to bask in a sense of superiority. She only fished for good looking male customer was also because of the same reason.
But the girl was different. The girl who grew up not knowing her father or even the love of her mother simply sought to be loved.
She hated woman. That was why she sought love only from man who treated her affectionately.
She didn’t care about their look or anything. Their birth or status also didn’t matter. Anyone would be fine as long as they would love the girl as their number one.
The girl simply wanted to get a lot of love.
But, the thing that the woman who was a mother sought and the thing that the girl who was a daughter sought were different.
With the increase of male who would dote on her like she was their own daughter, the girl felt that the woman who liked to pick only the male who suited her preference was becoming a “tumor” for herself. She grew to think of the woman who seemed to be her mother as unpleasant.
「I don’t need that thing anymore.」
That was why, she abandoned her.
It began from a coincidence. A stampede attacked the territory of Baron Horace that was adjacent to monster habitat. The stampede’s scale wasn’t big, but the town was attacked and more than a thousand people became victim.
The woman who brought a man into her room was late in escaping. The girl who was aware of the monsters approaching put something in front of the woman’s door and ran away.
The woman who was like a tumor for the girl was gone. But the little girl’s scheme didn’t go well. Many of the males who were doting on the girl also died. Even those who survived had their house destroyed and lost their job, so they left the town.
But, a lot of orphanages were opened because of the many people who died. There the girl schemed to enter an orphanage and blended among the orphans.
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The girl was lucky that the orphanage that she slipped into had an environment that could be called as the worst.
The orphanage’s budget was slashed until the very bare minimum. There the old hag who managed the place accepted a lot of orphans with just small amount of donation. The reason she could do that was because she was using powerless children as labor and exploited them dry.
The manual labor was harsh and the food was scarce, but the girl managed to get by without much problem by cajoling older boys and influenced them. She became hated by other female orphans because of that and they bullied her, but she perceived that as the girls being jealous of her and used that to act as victim and ask the boys to protect her.
But, she learned that the money that could be earned from making orphans worked didn’t amount to much. The old woman was making children working so she could have it easy, while the reason she was making a lot of money was because she sent out the good looking orphans not to be adopted, but to be sold to rich people.
Even though the other orphans didn’t realize it, the girl could find out because of her life before this. But the girl didn’t try to tell anyone about it or feel anything was wrong about it. Because she wanted to be loved by a man as a woman rather than getting adopted as a child.
But it wasn’t the girl who got chosen. The girl who had no interest to those of the same gender didn’t know much about the girl who got chosen, but looking closer, it was the pink haired girl who often got more works pushed on her because she was always working without complaining.
The girl thought. How could she attract the man’s interest so she could replace that girl…….
However, the pink haired girl vanished the next day and the old woman who managed the orphanage was murdered. Because of that the person who should come to buy children didn’t appear and the management of the orphanage was entrusted to a servant of Baron Horace……then the girl obtained a “magic stone” that hid knowledge of the future inside it.
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It was a guide to reach the side of males who felt like they were living above the cloud……existences who were completely beyond her reach until now.
A path to become the “main character(heroine)”.
Something like a will was dwelling inside the magic stone. It tried to swallow the girl’s mind from the blood that trickled from her fingertip that got nicked on the magic stone’s jagged edge. But perhaps it had no compelling force because it wasn’t in the heart where the blood flows gathered, or perhaps because of the strength of the girl’s feeling, so the stone was reduced into a mere supplier of necessary knowledge for the girl.
The girl’s wish was only one……to be loved by a lot of males.
The kid who never received love from her mother and didn’t even know who her father was might just be searching for fatherhood from unknown males.
Since that day the girl started to use the name [Alicia]. She narrated that in her early life she was [the daughter who was given birth by a noble lady who eloped] to replace the existence called Alicia.
It could be called as an obsession. The girl who lived until now just to be loved repainted all her memories with the woman who was her mother who she didn’t even love from the start with “the game’s heroine”. She even perfectly traced the mannerism, speech, expression, and a part of the heroine’s way of thinking.
Alicia, the original heroine. The otome game’s image that served to display her even more attractively.
The male orphans were enticed by the “figure that showed the loveliest image” based on those. They believed what the girl said as truth and spread it around, which finally lured in a noble house that had blood relationship with the original heroine.
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The girl became an adopted daughter of a viscount house. She became Alicia Mercis.
By officially getting on the heroine route, she would be able to seduce nobly boys from here on.
The girl had the “knowledge” that she obtained from the magic stone. All the capture targets harbored darkness whether big or small inside their heart. At present they all had status, but they weren’t demonstrating any proportionate true worth to it.
The game’s heroine would confront the darkness of the respective capture target, worried together, got hurt together, and with that they would grow together where in the end the capture target would display their true worth and fell in love with the heroine.
The “woman” inside the magic stone was recommending to the girl to conquer the [crown prince] who had the highest status but relatively low difficulty level. But from the start the girl didn’t have any intention to conquer just one person.
She wanted all love. Even if she would choose the crown prince at the end, she couldn’t give up anything else than that from the start.
The “woman” in the magic stone insisted.
It was impossible to simultaneously conquer more than one capture targets──she said.
Human’s heart wouldn’t be moved unless you wholly faced them as a human, one at a time.
But, the girl didn’t confront the darkness and wound in the heart of the capture targets, Instead she affirmed their whole being, the good and the bad and spoiled them.
The “woman” in the magic stone insisted.
Nobody would be able to become happy like that──she said.
But. The girl’s wish was to be loved by as many males as possible. Everything else after that didn’t matter to her.
Even if, the capture targets got crushed under their own darkness and fell into self-destruction.
Even if, their self-destruction dragged her down too with them and resulted in her head getting separated from her body.
「If they give their love to me, then I’ll hold them tight until their last moment……」
Her wish wasn’t to be happy or for her self-destruction. She simply wanted to love and be loved.
The crown prince……the royal brother……the head priest’s grandson, she wanted them to offer her their greatest love even if they had to throw away everything that was surrounding them.
That was the only thing that would satisfy the girl’s unending “hunger”.
But……there was someone who was in the way of that.
The first princess Elena who was gradually becoming the crown prince’s political enemy.
The loose cannon who was a fiancée of the crown prince, count’s daughter Carla.
The princess’s bodyguard who was feared in the underworld, the pink haired girl Aria.
That was why──.
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「Say, everyone. I think that we all need [Gift].」
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Around a table inside the sorcery academy were the crown prince Ervan, the royal brother Amor, the head priest’s grandson Nathanital. In front of them the girl──”Saintess Licia” was smiling adorably like a child who was begging for a flower.