LIGHTNOVELONLINE Chapter 323: I hate...
"It's been a while.... isn't it? Asher... Eli?"
"....."
"Hmm? What's wrong?"
"...."
"You still not accepting yourself, ah?... Well, whatever."
Those Abyssal and guttural voices echoed in the silent ice mountain.
Asher Eli blankly stared at the reddish-black humanoid figure that scrutinized the white sphere, a mysterious sphere hanging in the ethereal space.
The silence persisted for an unknown minute until, that figure said,
"You know when my mother named me Asher... She said it held meaning called blessing... as if I was a blessing to her..."
"..." Eli blankly stared at that thing, the weight of his past etched into the lines of his expression.
The reddish-black figure continued, "Not knowing I was just a curse that place--"
"STOP IT!!!"
The reddish-black figure gazed at Eli, whose eyes shone with a reddish-black hue, and then it shrugged its shoulders, as if unfazed by the interruption, and continued,
"Okay... Then When Ava, Our Dear love, called us Eli.... She said it meant... 'My God', Right?"
"..." Eli didn't answer, but visible anger started to show in his eyes, a storm of emotions raging within him.
Ignoring Eli's reaction, the figure continued,
"In the end, We couldn't even save her ashes.....Heh... 'My God' The fuck was that, ah?"
Eli lowered his head while clenching his teeth, the helplessness still vivid in his mind, yet the figure persisted...
"In the end....." The reddish-black figure paused, looking at the white sphere before standing near Asher Eli. Ethereal fingers reached out and gently clasped his chin, the touch both comforting and unsettling, and it asked,
"What am I?"
"..." Eli barely looked at the figure, his ruby-red eyes returning to their usual colour.
"You've been searching everywhere to find out what I am. Did you find a single clue?"
"...."
"Am I really human?"
".... I... am," Eli answered with an indifferent face, a hint of uncertainty lingering in his gaze.
"Are you sure about that?"
"...." Eli stayed silent, grappling with the uncertainties that haunted his very existence.
"Hmm.... Why don't I just ask Lilith myself? I mean, she lived a long life, so she might have some idea to know, right?"
"....I-I will not--"
"Because you....no, I am scared to tell the truth?"
"...."
"Asher Eli!"
"...." Asher Eli looked at the figure, a complex mix of emotions playing on his features, his internal struggle laid bare.
"I am Asher, the name given to a monster that leeched off his mother's life and killed her, and....
The memories of her.... still, haunt me...
To escape from this endless Pain....
I was born again, to seal those emotions.. to seal the true... me (90%)...
A Human called Eli (10%).... wished to live a normal life.....
Yet, She died before me.....
Because I refused to embrace my true self and only When Ava is gone...
When I saw her how her happy smile was taken away by mere humans.....
I Finally broke, I freed myself..... and I killed every being....
So tell me now, what am I truly scared of?"
".... Me" Eli answered.
".... Yes, still, the fear haunts me for not knowing what amount of emotions I will push through....
Even so, My dear sister found everything, didn't she?"
"...." Eli merely nodded.
"Hahah...to think she still accepted me even after seeing me.... She is really a lost case...hehe..."
It chuckled.
Eli let out a soft smile.
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"And again, I didn't show her my true self, did I?"
"....No, not entirely" Eli shook his head.
"Hehe... if she knew, I am pretty sure she would beat me!"
"But I cannot..."
"Yes, I cannot since I know....
My leeching power increased drastically...
Within an hour, she might lose 1000s of years of life essence"
It said in a sarcastic tone and.... a little sad?
It continued,
"I am just a leech that lives on by depending on people...."
"...." Eli sighed, ignoring those words, and looked at the reddish-black figure with an annoyed tone, asking, "So, how long am I supposed to stay here?"
"Hmm? How do I know? I am you"
The figure shrugged its shoulders, and Eli's lips twitched in mild irritation.
Eli shifted on the Ice Throne, his eyes narrowing slightly as he regarded the figure, "You're me, but you're not me. I am a part of you, the remaining part.
You tried to suppress yourself, and yet, here you are...."
"...."
"...."
"I don't know....I cannot get out of here...
No, I don't want to get out of here....
I just want to remind you....
Don't make the same mistake.... Now, this was just a stranger child, but we cannot be sure who they will target next....
It could be our little sister who is not strong enough to protect herself....
Asher Eli doesn't make the same mistake.
Strength respects Strength and Power respects Power.... That's What we learned!!
If anything happens to anyone, It doesn't matter who it is...
I.WILL.CAUSE.THE.RAMPAGE...AGAIN
And this time, I am far more powerful than before...."
Eli's expression hardened.
"You... just a human part of me... but deep down, We are something else...."
Eli's fists clenched,
"I am Asher Eli. I've chosen to live as Human..... I... We don't want to hurt others... We are Asher Eli... I am Asher Eli"
Eli and that figure stared at each other for an unknown time.
But then suddenly, the figure changed the topic,
"Once again, memories of a child forced into my mind..... What kind of curse am I having?"
"..."
But there was no reply since he and it were both the same.... They were born as cursed objects.
"You know, Both Mother and Ava starting to.... fluctuate. The soul energy needed to keep them is not enough"
As soon as those words came out,
As soon as those words reverberated through the icy expanse, Eli's form flickered into a reddish-black hue, merging seamlessly with the reddish-black humanoid figure that had vanished moments ago.
"I have to Kill more Living Beings!!!"
The chaotic voice, a blend of Eli's and the figure's resonated through the ice mountain, sending shivers of apprehension through its very core. A silent terror seemed to grip the icy environment.
In an ephemeral unity, they became one, a convergence of tumultuous emotions and conflicting identities. The force they represented surged, rattling the foundations of the soul world, only to separate again in a turbulent dance.
"....-ha-ha- N-No, I-I will not...-ha-ha- Not again!.... I will search for something else," Eli gasped, his breath heavy with the aftermath of his internal struggle.
The reddish-black figure nonchalantly shrugged its shoulders, its gaze fixated on the flickering white sphere.....
"It's time to let this boy go..."
"Can't we just capture his soul and save hi--"
"Do 'I' really think that?"
"...." Eli shut his mouth as if an invisible spear hit the truth. 'Do I really want to save a stranger?... Nope,' he thought.
Even though he was responsible for this mess.
However, a real problem was different so that's why Eli couldn't save the child's soul,
"As I know, he is not awakened, so capturing his soul is nearly impossible....."
".... I see" Eli nodded in understanding.
"ssshhhhhhnngggg!!"
And soon, that white sphere dispersed into particles as it flowed towards the boundless sky.
Eli and the reddish-black figure stood in tandem, their gazes fixed upon the expanse of the sky.
Eli hesitated for a moment before asking, "C-Can I see them--"
"No!!"
The figure's interruption was firm and resolute, " Once You see them, The memories will trigger and.... You, no I will go rampage....
Do I really want that now?"
"...tsk," Eli clicked his tongue in frustration. He continued, "So what do I think about those memories of that child?"
"Do I really need to ask?...."
The figure's voice carried a deadly, pale intensity as it expressed without even saying any more words.
Eli nodded with a blank expression.
"What about that child's memories?"
It asked.
Eli responded with a sinister grin, "We found a clue that will help us move forward to find what We...no, I am..." as he contemplated the child's memories forcibly etched into his mind.
Those memories held a clue to finding something that Eli had been searching.... and
Simultaneously, Eli and the reddish figure muttered in unison,
"I. HATE. IT!!"
The echoes of their shared hatred resonated through the icy silence of the mountain.
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[A/N: Those who didn't understand, please like this comment. I created this chapter to ensure that not everyone understands at the same time do.... But if you truly comprehend everything.... Damn, readers, you guys are smart asses!
But if you don't then no need to worry, just ignore it now!]