LIGHTNOVELONLINE Chapter 18
Girl and the Beastman’s Village 4
“Mmm…”
Open your eyes slowly.
What you see is the ceiling.
Ceilings I know. The pharmacist’s house.
That, me, why were you asleep? My head creaks. When I try to get up, I can’t help myself. I’ve never seen a situation like this before.
I’ve never been sick or anything, so I’m a little surprised.
Why is it such a headache? I did something.
If that’s what you think, the door opened.
“Ah!”
At the same time, I heard Gaius.
“You’re awake! Good……”
“Mm-hmm. Me,… what’s up?
“Remember, don’t you?
“Hmm…, what did you do?”
On my side as I fell asleep, Gaius approached me and was talked to.
I wonder what’s wrong with me, thinking but honestly I’m not sure. My head hurts and I can’t get my thoughts together.
“… Lernda, I’m cured. Injury”
“Did you?
“Yes. I thought I might die. I thought I glowed, and I was healed. So Lernda fell down.”
When I heard that, I remembered.
Yes, the brother of the Beast, who is getting it done well, got hurt badly and thought he didn’t like it. Then —. He said it was healed. Injury, gone? I don’t know.
“… alive, then… oh, shit”
Good. I think so.
Because I thought I didn’t want to be left without someone nice. Good, I thought so.
“Lernda fell, maybe because she was cured.”
“… Me, did something?
Hope, something glowed, I fell. Honestly, I have no idea what was going on either.
Kamiko, so? I don’t know if it really is, but the thought that it might be has gotten stronger again.
“Lernda, he said it was magical. My dads were there.”
“Magic?”
I was just wondering if Shinko might be because I thought he was a great wizard. But I hadn’t even learned, and I didn’t think I could use it.
“So now that all those injuries have healed, he must have fallen out of magic…”
“Yes, it is.”
Out of magic.
Magic.
So, you’re so headless, you can’t help yourself.
Out of magic, this is what happens.
But… I’m glad I didn’t die.
“Lernda, you can’t do much of that, can you?
“… what, so? It helps, it’s good.”
“No, I am… Lernda was a kid, and Dad said there shouldn’t be that much magic. The magic is out, Lernda just falls, but she said sometimes she dies! So you can’t do that if you’re impotent.”
Gaius pissed me off.
Yes, it is. I just need to fall, but sometimes I’m dead. I’m so impotent, my head is ticklish. I don’t even have the power to get up.
But why, I’m angry.
I feel that way.
“… but better than me… everyone, help, good things”
‘Cause they’re all sweet. Gentle, warm. My heart is pounding. I love you all, even for a short time. So I don’t like the people I love dying.
“… and I, maybe…, won’t die”
Maybe, but I don’t think this is the kind of thing that kills me. Even when I wondered what would happen before, I was kind of alive. It’s moving better.
So I thought, maybe, I won’t die, and even if I get a little rough, so, if those people who think you’re warm and you love them can live, that’s fine.
“That’s not what you’re talking about!
I thought so, but Gaius pissed me off again. I’m surprised Gaius is pissed at me like this. Gaius, you can’t be so angry. I wonder why.
“Lernda……, he looks at me like he doesn’t know why he’s mad”
After he yelled, Gaius said in a frightened voice.
I wonder if I’m angry anymore. But why did you get angry?
I have magic, magically cure someone. I may fall a little, but maybe I’m not dead. Then I thought it would be a good thing.
“Mmm…. I don’t know, I don’t”
“Ha… Lernda.”
“Yeah……”
“You like us?
“Mmm.”
“And about this village?
“Mmm.”
“I didn’t want you to die, because I thought magic was activated, and maybe it was.”
“Ya, because it was”
“You know… that’s what we think of Lernda, too, right?
“Hmm?”
Love you all. Warm. Gentle. When I’m with you, I’m happy. That’s why I don’t want to be gone. I didn’t think so. Hope.
That’s the feeling in me. The way I feel.
Is that what everyone thinks of me?
“Lernda said,” I don’t know why, but I’m not sure I’m going to die. “You don’t mean absolutely. The next time Lernda uses that magic, Lernda could die, right?
“… n”
“Even if you don’t die, like you do now, you’re not gonna get up, are you? You may not know it yourself, but you look amazing blue.”
Yes, it is. I have no idea what complexion I am. I’m listening to Gaius.
“When it happens, we don’t like it, you know? We were all worried when Lernda fell, weren’t we? Lernda has such an attitude that we should all heal even if we fall, but take care of ourselves more. More… Be aware that we care about Lernda!
Gaius, I’m angry.
But I’m not afraid.
I’m worried about me.
He says it’s important to me.
“Lernda, why don’t you just keep insisting that I’m okay and come home every time you get hurt about your fathers hunting?
“Yeah……”
“Lernda’s here, okay, ’cause that’s what you’re saying?
I would worry if Gaius did that. I want you to stop. Oh, well. I feel the same way. I feel the same way when I think it’s important. Feel it, he’s giving it to me. That’s why I’m angry.
That I don’t care about myself.
I’ve never been mad at you like that. I’ve never been worried like this. Because it’s important, they say, for the first time.
“What, Lernda, why are you crying!? Sorry, I said too much!? But everyone, because, you know, I’m talking about Lernda, too, and, you know, it’s important, so I hope you’re not being impotent!!
Me, crying. I never wept at all. But it’s not sad or anything like that.
“Chi, ugh. Ugh, I do.”
“Glad?”
“Hmm. Ugh, I do”
I’m glad, me. I’m worried. ‘Cause I was pissed off. Because it’s important, being spoken of. Like this, warm scolding, I’ve never been done before.
Neither my parents, nor the villagers, were this angry. It gets so warm, I didn’t get angry the way I did.
Glad to hear it.
That you showed me that it was important. This is how you get mad at me.
“Gaius, Mine, Things, Important”
“Oh, whoa.”
Gaius, I turned to see if it was illuminating, but my ears are moving when it tingles.
“That,… ugh, I want”
Glad. Glad to hear it. Glad, me, I’m crying.
“Glad. I,… cry”
“Are you happy, crying?
“Mmm. Important, they say… ugh, I do”
So, pompous, tears abound.
I’ve never even been told how to take care of myself. Sometimes it’s because you weren’t in such a dangerous spot, but people like you angry at me like this, around, weren’t there. My grandfather might have been mad at me if he was alive, but my grandfather was gone. I was born and raised in a village where there was no one to worry about me like this. It was natural not to be worried.
“- Gaius… Me, Gaius, Dai, Suki”
“Oh, whoa!?
“Athos, everyone, dashi, ki”
“Oh, yeah, you know what?”
Gaius, things are kind of crazy, but I go on.
“Yes, but thanks.”
Say thank you. Thank you, because I wanted to tell you.
“Gaius, angry things, I know”
“Ooh. That’s good. If you know what I mean, don’t push it, okay?
Gaius, you plucked my tears without my arms up. Gaius, sweet.
“Mm-hmm. No, I don’t.”
When I said that, Gaius laughed at me.
After that, I’m kind of getting a little sleepy. Because I cried, I guess.
“Lernda, sleepy?
“Mmm, hey.”
“Bye, good night”
“Oh… Sumi”
Gaius stroked my head for a good night. I watched Gaius grin and when I realized I was flying into the world of sleep.
– Girl and the Beastman’s Village 4.
(Maybe the divine girl has a conversation with the Beastman boy and is happy and tearful)