Chapter 175
Chapter 144: Xu Qingzhu’S Perspective
Xu Qingzhu applied lipstick in the car before going back.
Complemented with Liang Shi.
The makeup of both of them was thoroughly done.
Xu Qingzhu was particularly serious. Although she used waterproof eyeliner and mascara, she was still smudged black by tears.
It was quite serious, she simply took the makeup remover wipes to remove the makeup, and then randomly applied a makeup cream and lipstick.
Break out.
Liang Shi didn’t say anything, she really didn’t quite understand this kind of question.
When she said, “Isn’t there many kinds of likes?”, Xu Qingzhu no longer had hope for her.
Xu Qingzhu also realized later that he was too sensitive.
To be precise, she is very sensitive during this time.
Especially the last two days.
There will always be some random thoughts.
Today is just tentatively expressing my own thoughts, and the result is not satisfactory.
As expected.
Liang Shi hugged her and said, “Xu Qingzhu, only you.”
When she was still awake, she said in a very sweet tone: “I like you very much.”
This sentence alone is better than the others.
Xu Qingzhu almost cried again.
Fortunately, I packed myself in the car. When I got off the car, I happened to meet the staff of the design department. The group came back after eating outside, and they smiled and followed her with a mighty smile. greet.
Xu Qingzhu waved to them.
After Liang Shi left, Xu Qingzhu stood on the spot and adjusted his clothes, his pants were a little wrinkled, and he couldn’t tell if he didn’t look closely.
Then walked towards the office building.
I was thinking about the past when I went back to the office.
Xu Qingzhu was a little evasive about Liang Shi’s affairs.
I want to understand everything and don’t want to let go of any details.
But recently, she has always been struggling with Liang Shi’s affairs.
I don’t want to get myself into the details.
The habit she has developed makes her feel more miserable.
I have also tried to use work to paralyze myself, but found that this kind of thing always ran out inadvertently, and even saw a couple on the road and thought: “Are they really in love? What is it? Are you sure?”
Just some wild ideas.
Today’s answer only reassured her for a moment.
Maybe she is also lying to her for what she says she has to do.
It may also be to perfunctory her unreasonable emotions.
Too many possibilities.
So when she entered the office, she was not in a high mood, and her thoughts were wandering, and as soon as she entered the door, she ran into a wall of people.
Xu Qingzhu took a half step back, but the back of his head hit the door again.
“Bang.”
Lin Luoxi was also frightened, and immediately stepped forward to rub her head, and said while rubbing: “Honey, what are you thinking? Be careful.”
“Sorry.” Xu Qingzhu said coldly, the constant pain from the back of her head made her frown.
Lin Luoxi was surprised: “What did you say sorry, you’re stupid.”
Xu Qingzhu: “…”
After a long time, Xu Qingzhu finally calmed down. She removed Lin Luoxi’s hand, rubbed her head a few times with one hand, endured the pain and said, “It’s alright.”
After he finished speaking, he walked to the office chair, “What’s the matter with you?”
“What can I do?” Lin Luoxi turned back to the desk, “I just want to see if you have eaten.”
Xu Qingzhu: “…eat.”
“I know.” Lin Luoxi put his arms in front of the desk, “The colleagues in the design department saw it, but I want to ask you, what’s the matter with you recently? I’ll give it to you No message back.”
Xu Qingzhu took out his mobile phone from his pocket, pressed it and found that there were indeed many unread messages.
She pursed her lips, turned off the phone’s silent mode, and apologized to Lin Luoxi again: “I’m sorry.”
“It’s alright.” Lin Luoxi stared straight at her.
After a while, Lin Luoxi asked seriously, “Bamboo, is there something wrong with you?”
“No.” Xu Qingzhu opened the document at hand, and turned a black signature pen twice between his fingers, saying that he was not sure.
“If you don’t have one, why don’t you bring one?” Lin Luoxi gave the answer with certainty: “Bamboo, something is wrong with you.”
Xu Qingzhu pursed her lips and lowered her eyebrows, “I don’t know either.”
“Have you quarreled with Liang Shi?” Lin Luoxi asked.
Xu Qingzhu shook his head, “No.”
“Is that work?”
“Neither.”
“A quarrel with your parents?”
“No.”
Lin Luoxi asked several times, but Xu Qingzhu denied them all.
In the end, Lin Luoxi couldn’t help but say, “Why?”
“Xixi, why do you like Sally?” Xu Qingzhu asked seriously.
Lin Luoxi was startled, and after a while: “I don’t know.”
Xu Qingzhu: “…”
“It’s weird?” Lin Luoxi smiled after saying that, “Just her, she’s not gentle and considerate, and she doesn’t know how to talk. We are arguing all day long, but we still like it. . In my mate selection criteria, she does not meet one of the criteria, but she is considered to be her.”
Xu Qingzhu heard the words and thought deeply, “Then you will say I love you?”
“She talks all day long.” Lin Luoxi thought for a while, “I didn’t say it.”
Lin Luoxi will only cut off all her hypocritical strings when Sally is hypocritical.
So when Sally said: “Baby I love you, I love you so much that I can’t help myself”, Lin Luoxi’s answer is usually only one word: go.
“Maybe it has something to do with our culture?” Lin Luoxi said: “It seems that we are not very good at expressing love in our upbringing environment.”
Speaking of this, Lin Luoxi suddenly changed her style and said, “Have you seen Sally make a video for her parents?”
Xu Qingzhu was startled and shook his head: “No.”
“When they were on the phone, Sally’s coquettish words came right away.” Lin Luoxi moved a chair and sat opposite Xu Qingzhu, picked up a pen from the table and twirled it between his fingers, ” I followed it one day after listening to it…and my mom said I was sick.”
Xu Qingzhu: “…”
“I don’t know if your family is like this.” Lin Luoxi shook his head: “I guess Mr. Xu is similar to my father, too straight. So I heard Sally say that, and I felt Goosebumps all over the place.”
“What about when you first fell in love?” Xu Qingzhu and a freshman asked Lin Luoxi about everything.
“It was fine then.” Lin Luoxi said, “I had a girlfriend before her, you know?”
“Well, I’ve seen it before.” Xu Qingzhu pulled out such a person from memory.
The girl is from the medical school. She was so busy when she fell in love with Lin Luoxi that she even squeezed out time to eat with Lin Luoxi. The meal was waiting for her there, and she didn’t come until the meal was cold.
This scene has been encountered by Xu Qingzhu many times.
And that girl is so straight, even Lin Luoxi, who is not too pretentious in relationships, can’t accept it.
Then it was divided.
Xu Qingzhu still remembered that rainy day, she returned from the library to the dormitory with an umbrella, and happened to see Lin Luoxi and her girlfriend on the playground, hesitating whether to say hello, when she heard the girl guiltily greet Lin Roche said, “I shouldn’t have delayed you.”
Lin Luoxi responded coldly: “Oh.”
Without much dialogue, Lin Luoxi stopped Xu Qingzhu, “Little Bamboo, give me a ride.”
She and Lin Luoxi lived in a dormitory at that time.
But not on the same floor.
When I came back, I happened to be downstairs and saw Sally standing in the rain with an umbrella and a bunch of roses in her hand.
Blonde girl expresses her emotions warmly and sincerely.
Sally said to Lin Luoxi at the time, “I know you have a girlfriend, and I don’t want to break up with you, but today is your birthday, so let me, my admirer, give you a gift. Happy birthday, flower.”
She is not fluent in Chinese and speaks in a mixture of Chinese and English.
The tone is very happy.
No one laughed.
Sally said: “How can a girl as beautiful as you have no flowers for her birthday.”
Of course Lin Luoxi accepted it, and entered the dormitory with Xu Qingzhu expressionlessly.
But while waiting for the elevator, Lin Luoxi hurried out again.
Sally was still standing at the door, wondering what she was thinking.
Lin Luoxi called her: “Hello.”
Sally was stunned: “Call me?”
Lin Luoxi nodded: “Yes, just you.”
Sally: “…what’s the matter?”
“Are you going to climb the mountain tomorrow?” Lin Luoxi said, “I broke up.”
Sally is a person who knows how to seize opportunities, so she did not hesitate to accept the olive branch handed by Lin Luoxi.
Then they fell in love until graduation.
Until graduation, Sally concealed her plans to return to China, and a quarrel broke out with Lin Luoxi, and the two separated.
Xu Qingzhu remembered that she asked Lin Luoxi at that time: “Do you really like her? Aren’t you worried that she is a sea king?”
Linlohit told her dashingly: “Youth is only a few years old, so it’s not a loss to talk a few more times.”
Xu Qingzhu: “…”
Even Xu Qingzhu accompanied Lin Luoxi to climb the mountain on the second day, and Bai Weiwei went together.
Bai Weiwei didn’t like Sally at the time, she always felt that Sally was a network of Turin Luo Xi family.
It turned out that she was not wrong.
The only thing wrong is Bai Weiwei.
At that time, Lin Luoxi also matched her with another girl from the mountaineering club. She looks very beautiful and has a very heroic appearance. She always likes to wear white shirts and black pants with a pair of Little white shoes, people are computer literate, I heard that the conditions at home are also good.
I just don’t know how to talk. It’s easy to be cold when I eat with Xu Qingzhu, but the other party is very obedient and hard-working. At that time, Xu Qingzhu’s roommate’s computer broke down in the middle of the night, and he needed to urgently deal with documents. Xu Qingzhu had no choice but to Ask for help.
The other party ran a kilometer from the east of the school to the downstairs of their dormitory and repaired a computer for her roommate.
It’s just that Xu Qingzhu didn’t spark with others.
Listening to Lin Luoxi, the other party likes her quite a bit, but she has no reaction at all.
People who do not get a response cool down naturally.
The girl got married last year and posted a circle of friends.
Xu Qingzhu gave her a follower.
This is the closest she has come to love in her lackluster school days.
Meet Liang Shi later, when she said she was going to get married, everyone was shocked.
Lin Luoxi was quite surprised, “In addition to being a little richer than Xiao Wu, how else can he compare to Xiao Wu?”
Xiao Wu is the girl that Lin Luoxi introduced to her.
Xu Qingzhu smiled: “You have to get along before you can judge, right? I like her.”
It was just based on childhood friendship, and it was said to not make everyone worry.
But later in daily life, Xu Qingzhu silently agreed with Lin Luoxi’s words countless times.
That person is indeed nowhere near as good as Xiao Wu.
But Xu Qingzhu was dead at that time.
How to describe her mood at that time?
When I meet Liang Shi again, I am probably dying.
So she was too cautious.
I used to think that I was strategizing, but after experiencing those things, my heart can no longer be like when I reunited with Liang Shi.
I didn’t expect…that’s just the beginning.
Later, step by step, it fell, step by step.
But she felt that Liang Shi was a castle in the sky, as beautiful as a dream.
She can’t catch it.
I was just recalling the emotional problems in Lin Luoxi University, but I accidentally thought of Liang Shi.
Xu Qingzhu’s heart is like a lime, sour and astringent.
The expression is not good.
Lin Luoxi kept staring at her, and could naturally perceive her subtle changes. When she was in a trance, she stretched out her hand and shook it in front of her, “What are you thinking?”
Xu Qingzhu then pulled back the wandering thoughts, “No…”
“Because I experienced the kind of person who can’t speak very well.” Lin Luoxi said: “Sally’s kind is rare. She didn’t tell me about it except when she graduated, other… Pretty good.”
“Very good?” Xu Qingzhu wondered.
“Yeah.” Lin Luoxi said, “Why not? Do you think it’s very good?”
Xu Qingzhu: “…”
“I’m not looking for a perfect lover.” Lin Luoxi shrugged: “She can only give 70 points, but because I like her, she is a perfect score. There is, but subjectively, I can be blind.”
Unconsciously, Xu Qingzhu was fed another mouthful of dog food.
But…
“Then how did you make sure she likes you?” Xu Qingzhu asked: “It’s not just saying it, or… You obviously think she treats you well, but you think she will leave , she doesn’t really like you that much, and everything she does is just based on responsibility… Just like when you got back with Sally, how do you know if she really likes you, or if she just sleeps with you or finds you to relieve loneliness …”
Xu Qingzhu paused, pursed his lips, and said a little annoyed: “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to offend.”
“I know.” Lin Luoxi looked at her, “Bamboo, you are so sensitive lately.”
Xu Qingzhu was stunned: “Ah? Is there any?”
“Yes.” Lin Luoxi nodded, “Is it because of Liang Shi’s coma? Do you always think she doesn’t love you?”
Xu Qingzhu nodded and shook his head again.
After a while, she sighed helplessly, and said with low eyebrows: “I don’t know either.”
Sometimes she felt that Liang Shi loved her very much, and sometimes she felt that Liang Shi was just for the task.
This is probably the sadness of detail control.
The evidence that Liang Shi loves her can be found in the details, and the evidence that Liang Shi does not love her can also be found in the details.
So she doesn’t know.
“Then answer your previous question first.” Lin Luoxie rationalized his thoughts, “First of all, I know Sally very well, we have passed the stage of determining whether we love each other or not. What’s certain is how much she loves me? Can it be more than her career or anyone else? But I don’t think it makes any sense.”
Lin Luoxi said: “Everyone’s life cannot be only love, just like when I was in Sally’s position, I will choose to go back without hesitation, because I have responsibilities that must be fulfilled , I just said whether I should discuss it with my lover. Sally’s personality is still a little bad, she likes to run away. She wanted to tell me many times at the beginning, but she was afraid that I would get angry, so she kept delaying…”
Drag to break up.
The pen between Xu Qingzhu’s fingers kept turning.
For a long time, Lin Luoxi helped her come to a conclusion, “You are in a coma because of Liang Shi, and you are in heat these days, you are tired of being together all day, you are too idle.”
Xu Qingzhu: “…”
“I also have a job.” Xu Qingzhu retorted: “I just can’t help thinking about it.”
Lin Luoxi stared at her, saw her stunned expression with a somewhat dull expression, stretched out her long arms and rubbed her head, couldn’t help laughing: “Girl, you are in love already.”
Xu Qingzhu: “…I’m not in love all the time?”
“No.” Lin Luoxi said, “You are starting to fall in love.”
Xu Qingzhu: “…”
She again humbly asked Lin Luoxi for advice, and Lin Luoxi said that this is probably the only way every couple must go.
There should be a long break-in period.
To run into each other’s speaking habits, living habits, personality, including all the little things.
Half of couples’ love will die in the run-in period.
Because during the run-in period, you will find that this person is not as good as you imagined, and you will continue to doubt the other person’s actions.
“How to solve it?” Xu Qingzhu asked.
Lin Luoxi: “communicate tirelessly, resist the urge to kill her eight hundred times, and tell her how to talk to you, how to take care of your glass heart, and how to give you sense of security.”
Xu Qingzhu: “…”
“But before that, you have to understand what you want? What is your sense of security based on?” Lin Luoxi said: “Emotions are like learning. Someone who gives three may learn one.”
After finishing speaking, Lin Luoxi stared at Xu Qingzhu and smiled helplessly, “Bamboo, you are probably thinking about something just after the estrus period? Wait a while and see, don’t think too much.”
Xu Qingzhu nodded and stopped asking.
Lin Luoxi said, “I found that it is easy for you science students to go into misunderstandings when thinking about emotional issues.”
“Huh?” Xu Qingzhu was puzzled.
“Feelings, especially in love, people’s thinking is constantly jumping, very emotional, just like you are now. But when people with rational thinking think about these things, they always like to take a fixed The amount is compared, as if a measuring cup is placed there, the other party likes you must exceed that amount to be considered love.”
“But a lot of times, love is uncertain. If she doesn’t love you today, she may love you tomorrow, she still loves you today, and she may not love you tomorrow. Now, she may not even understand it herself. When it comes to changing her mind, it doesn’t matter how good the lover is, so everything is based on sensibility.”
“You are too fragile now.” Lin Luoxi saw her cuteness and couldn’t help but patted her head again, just like Cat Rua, “My little bamboo, you I love her so much now.”
Xu Qingzhu stubbornly said: “…Is it okay?”
“Oh.” Lin Luoxi looked at her eyes, “It’s just a make-up for her crying.”
Xu Qingzhu: “…”
After Lin Luoxi left, Xu Qingzhu kept thinking about her words.
—You have to figure out what you want.
Xu Qingzhu thought that what he wanted was Liang Shi’s wholehearted love.
Let her be so greedy.
But she always feels that her current emotions are uncontrollable and not entirely related to the estrus period.
There have been estrus periods in the past, and I have never had this kind of affection.
This emotion continued to spread, giving her the feeling that something in her mind was constantly pulling her.
So that she occasionally has very dangerous thoughts – why don’t she separate from Liang Shi.
There will be better ones in the future.
And after she regained her sanity, she always felt that those thoughts were unreasonable.
As if not what she thought.
The game of emotion and reason in her mind made her physically and mentally exhausted.
Lin Luoxi is right, she is indeed fragile and sensitive now.
Xu Qingzhu always uses strong willpower to resist, but occasionally he is engulfed by this emotion.
She was so sad that she almost suffocated.
One night, because she was overwhelmed by emotions and afraid to wake up the sleeping Liang Shi, she covered herself in the quilt and cried almost breathlessly.
This is a terrible thing.
But Liang Shi didn’t know it at that time.
While she was still thinking, there was a knock on the office door.
The secretary came in and handed her a stack of documents, and reported her tomorrow’s itinerary. After a while, he said, “Mr. Xu, the Qin family will hold a charity dinner next Saturday, do you want to attend? ?”
Xu Qingzhu paused for a while, “Is it the Qin family that does export?”
“Yes.”
Xu Qingzhu thought for a moment: “Go.”
“Are you bringing your family?” the secretary asked.
For a long time, Xu Qingzhu slowly shook his head: “No.”
After he finished speaking, he lowered his eyebrows and his voice was cold, “Is there a request for a companion over there?”
The secretary nodded: “I didn’t say it clearly, but I gave two invitations.”
“I see.” Xu Qingzhu said, “Put the invitation on the table, I will be there.”
The secretary handed it over and Xu Qingzhu opened it.
The gilt invitation letter reads Qin Liushuang.