Love from the Male Protagonist’s Harem

Chapter 52: Your faith【Memories Kill】

The stars are shining, and the night is as dark as an abyss.

Memories were numerous and vague, but the girl’s smile slowly faded, faded, and finally, disappeared.

That day, from autumn to winter, with the fluttering snow, the famine in Nanming Village, which had no harvest, became more and more severe.

There is only the Zhu family at the entrance of the village who has surplus food, but the Zhu family are domineering and not philanthropists.

Xia Ge still remembered that at that time the two of them secretly squatted in the wood shed behind the same house, their eyes turned black when they were hungry, but they couldn’t even find a leaf that could be eaten.

That was the first time she felt that she was so close to death, so close.

Doudou is more hungry than a beggar who is a monk. Doudou can still move when she is too hungry to move.

“Doudo… Am I going to die?” Xia Ge’s voice was low, Doudou held her hand, and the girl’s palm was cold but gentle.

she thinks.

People are always going to die. Lord Sima once said that people are inherently dead, or heavier than Mount Tai, or lighter than a feather. She is just a lonely and helpless little beggar in this world. Apart from begging for food, she seems to live nothing else. Worth it.

Xia Ge’s eyes were dark, and he knew that he was going to die, but he didn’t feel desperate, just a little regretful.

There is no chance to come up to open a shop like other arrogant traversers, restructure, get currency circulation, and accomplish a great event vigorously. He came up as a six-year-old beggar who was about to starve to death and knew nothing. It’s really, um, a bit regrettable.

But even if there is a chance, whether she has this ability is another question.

After all, she has a few catties and a few taels, and she is still clear about it. Being able to dig out the water chestnuts from the swamp with Doudou is already a blessing from the God of Fortune.

So thinking about it this way, I really don’t have the last regret.

Maybe it’s because I don’t have any sense of belonging here, and Xia Ge doesn’t have any sense of loneliness in a foreign land, but rather looks quite open.

Maybe it’s dead… I’m going back.

Maybe she hasn’t crossed, all this is just an absurd dream that she made in reality, died here, and will come back to life there.

It sounds…very good.

It’s just a pity that Doudou is a girl.

Shuangshuang… This body must be Doudou’s very important friend.

I’m sorry… Shuangshuang, I borrowed the body and couldn’t take good care of her friend. She was too useless. In the end, the only thing I can recall is the water chestnuts.

After she said the phrase “Am I going to die?” Doudou did not speak, but held her hand tightly, frosty, and Doudou’s hand was also cold. She looked at her and pressed her lips. not talking.

“Peas.” Xia Ge heard her hoarse voice, and she even laughed, “If I accidentally die, you will develop in the future, remember to burn two water chestnuts for me.”

Doudou’s lips tightened, and she clenched her hand hard, as if thinking that this would give her more temperature.

However, it is cold.

No matter how tight it is, it is cold.

Xia Ge thought about the vicissitudes of life, hungry and cold, and used the words that I only read in the book to live on him. What a fuck. No wonder Shaolingye would squat in front of the small hut and sigh that Andeguang Xia tens of thousands of times, sheltering the world’s cold people with joy from the ages.

It’s a pity that she doesn’t have this state, and now she can only sigh, ah, I seem to be starving to death.

When he was about to faint, Xia Ge finally heard the low voice of the girl who had been silent for a long time, determined and desperate.

“You won’t die.”

She slowly loosened her hand and squeezed her hand in a low and soft voice, “Shuangshuang, you have to be obedient, and wait for me to come back.”

——What do you want to do?

Xia Ge subconsciously grabbed the corner of her clothes, but her body was too weak, and she was quickly torn off by Doudou.

–where are you going?

——Don’t go… come back!

Xia Ge still fainted. The last sight she saw was the young girl named Doudou, dressed in thin linen clothes and naked red feet, pushing open the back of Zaimen.

——It is very windy and very cold.

I don’t know the personnel in the next second.

But maybe it was too hungry, or maybe it was too bad. After returning to the light and fainting for a while, Xia Ge woke up from the violent stomach twitching caused by hunger. She relieved for a while, and the first thing was to find Doudou. .

-Doudou, where will Doudou go?

——Could it be… the Zhu family!

Xia Ge panicked, dragging her weak body, staggering out of the small wood house, passing through the wind and frost, and rushing towards the richest family in Nanming Village without hesitation.

-Doudou, don’t do stupid things!

“Kill your little hoof!”

“Kill her!”

“I actually came to our Zhu’s house to steal food! I want to die!

The sound of the whip falling on the flesh came from the closed vermilion door. Xia Ge heard the familiar muffled hum. For a moment, her entire brain was blank, and she slammed the door desperately with a hoarse voice. Open the door! Open the door!”

The falling snow on the door was icy, but Xia Ge felt that nothing was colder than his current heart.

She has a hoarse voice and has no strength, no one pays attention to her. Xia Ge stubbornly picked the copper buckle on the Zhumen, feeling the cold wind, listening to the howling of wild dogs in the distance, suddenly there was a kind of loss of human knowledge.

Who is she… Why is she here?

Who was the one who was lashed for her inside…

“Snapped–”

“Snapped……”

“…”

One whip, two whips, many whips…

“Tsk tsk, it’s not good to be killed, really bad luck, throw it out!”

The door opened, and Xia Ge fell into it unexpectedly, but was kicked out again, “Where’s the beggar! What’s the name? Let’s just squat at the door and hell! I’m upset just looking at it! !”

Being kicked in the stomach, the empty stomach is even more painful, but Xia Ge can’t take care of it anymore.

The only thing in her eyes was the little girl who was thrown out with the door opened, covered in blood on the thick snow.

Bai Xue was cold, Xia Ge clutched his stomach, and staggered up to Doudou, “Doudou, Doudou… Doudou——”

The girl covered in blood was confused and reacted for a while. Suddenly, a violent spirit pushed Xia Ge away, then got up and walked towards the small broken wood house. However, she fell to the ground after not taking a few steps. The bleeding wound was torn and the blood flow continued. Xia Ge ran to her and just wanted to help her up, but heard her hiss, “Who are you, go, don’t touch me, I’m going back… ”

It seems that I did not see her, Doudou’s always soft and sweet voice became hoarse, as if it hurt his vocal cords, but also brought on a fierceness that Xia Ge had never seen before, like a little beast in despair, desperately maintaining Looking at one last bit of light.

Xia Ge was afraid of touching her wounds, and also afraid that she would struggle more, enduring the stomachache, her voice became hoarse and deformed, “——You can’t move, you don’t move! I’m going, I’m going—”

Xia Ge didn’t dare to touch her, so she could only step back and step back a few steps, perhaps because she felt the other’s withdrawal, Doudou pursed her lips, and the blood slowly slipped from her forehead, but she didn’t care, she slowly got up , The red feet stepped on the snow and staggered forward, “I…want to go back…”

The snow was wet and slippery, Doudou staggered and fell to the ground after walking a few steps. Xia Ge’s heart jerked and wanted to help, but Doudou slammed her hand away, “Don’t, don’t touch me… …”

She had a hoarse voice and a vaguely crying voice, “Shuangshuang is going to die…Shuangshuang can’t die.”

“Both…”

She was walking forward on her knees, one **** step by step.

She is saying her name.

Painful and tender.

Like a bucket of cold water, pouring it from beginning to end, Xia Ge stiffened in place.

—— Xia Ge has always felt that death is no big deal. She walked through the ghost gate, and when she woke up from the fatal car accident, she wanted to live a good life with her brother. But she came here inexplicably and became a little beggar, hungry and cold, hopeless to go home, and unaccompanied.

She thought, it’s better to die than to live, to live if you can, and to die if you can’t live, anyway, she has no relatives here, she can’t see the hope of going home at all, and she can’t find the way forward— No one here really cares about the life and death of a little beggar, no one cares whether she is alive or dead-and if she is dead, she might be lucky enough to go home.

She thought, instead of living hopelessly, it’s better to die coolly.

But now, Xia Ge watched this man kneeling on the icy snow, covered in blood, calling her name here, saying, “I can’t die.”

-Both can’t die.

“Why?” Xia Ge looked at the crawling back, and finally couldn’t help it. She dragged her weak body, and finally knelt in front of Doudou, pressing her shoulders, tears streaming down her face— —An inexplicable anger came to my heart, and Xia Ge roared hoarsely, “She’s not worth it!”

She is so bad, she lives casually when she is doing summer songs, and she is garbage when she is doing Shuangshuang-how can such a person be worth your hard work? !

“It’s worth…” Doudou was like an irritated little beast. She opened her dark eyes angrily, slapped her fiercely, and said, “Who are you?! Why are you? Ask me, I tell you, as long as it’s both-it’s worth it!”

——If it’s both, it’s worth it.

This slap doesn’t hurt because the other party has no strength.

For Xia Ge, it is like waking up from a dream. She suddenly remembered something very important.

She is not Xia Ge now, she is Shuang Shuang.

She can decide the life and death of “Xia Ge” at will, but she has no right to end the life of “Shuang Shuang”.

Whether it is hopeless or promising. She has an obligation to use her body, carrying everything on her back to live.

She has no right to end anyone’s life, and since she used both bodies, she is no longer Xia Ge.

She is not Xia Ge, not rubbish, not ants, but Doudou’s only friend, Shuangshuang.

——So, she wants to live.

“I am Shuangshuang… Doudou, I am Shuangshuang.”

Doudou reacted for a while before realizing it, her dark eyes were clearly reflected in her face, but there was nothing but a blank inside, “Shuangshuang? Shuangshuang here? You are Shuangshuang? Why are it so dark… Why can’t I see… …Did I just… hit you?”

“Does it hurt? Does it hurt? Sorry Shuangshuang, I didn’t mean it!”

Doudou cried, “I didn’t mean it. I couldn’t see it. I thought it was a ghost. I thought it was a ghost. I thought it was going to catch me. I heard a lot of strange sounds. I’m sorry, sorry… ”

“It doesn’t matter, it doesn’t matter, it doesn’t hurt, it doesn’t hurt at all, Doudou’s hands are very soft…”

Xia Ge was talking, shaking her hands, and slowly touching Doudou’s head, it turned out to be warm with one hand.

Withdrawing his hand, the palm is bright red and dazzling.

It was the whip that got to the back of his head… Doudou, it seemed…blind.

Doudou wiped her tears, tried to reach out her hand, wanted to touch her face, wanted to determine if she was a pair of pairs, blood smeared Xia Ge’s face, the smell of rust was pungent, her dark eyes widened, but Seeing nothing, “Shuangshuang, are you crying?”

Xia Ge held her wrist and tried not to let the tears flow on her hand, her voice hoarse, “I didn’t cry, I didn’t cry, I’m very powerful, it’s snowflakes on her face.”

Doudou felt the outline of Xia Ge with his hands little by little. He was sad, but his voice was soft, “Both deceptive…the snowflakes melt and it is cold, but your tears are very hot.”

“Maybe it’s because I’m… born to sparkle… got hot by the way?”

Xia Ge wanted to smile, but the corners of her mouth couldn’t be pulled out after a long time. Her abdomen was painful because of hunger. In front of her was the blind girl’s wide black pupils, and her face rolled down with warm tears.

No way, how can this be done.

You can’t stop laughing in front of her because Doudou can’t see it anymore.

“Shuangshuang doesn’t cry, Shuangshuang looks good with a smile.” Doudou smiled silly after speaking, “Shuangshuang eat something, you won’t cry if you eat.”

Xia Ge saw that she carefully took out half of a bun from her arms, her smiley face was as bright as the clouds in the sky, “Shuangshuang, I’m so smart, I’m hiding, they didn’t find it, Shuangshuang, hurry up and eat.”

Xia Ge was stiff in place, motionless, Doudou wondered why she didn’t speak, she reached out her hand and fumbled for a long time, slowly descending from Xia Ge’s face, and finally touched Xia Ge’s cold hand, and took the cold half. Put the bun in her palm.

Because the whole body was wounded, the bun was also stained with blood.

Holding the blood-stained bun, Xia Ge was stunned for a long time.

For the first time, she felt that when people were hungry to death, there would still be things they didn’t want to eat.

The howling of wild dogs is fierce, and the wind and frost are also extremely cold.

“Shuangshuang, eat quickly. After you are full, you have to do me a favor.”

Xia Ge slowly clenched the girl’s hand, her voice hoarse, “Doudou, what do you want me to do for you?”

“Shuangshuang, go to a village in the east. There is a girl I like. She likes to stay at the entrance of the village to watch the stars in the middle of the night. At that time, there are stars in her eyes. …Just say, Doudou has secretly liked her for a long time, a long time.”

Doudou’s voice was gentle, she opened her godless eyes, “Her eyes are black, very black, very black, and they look good. Doudou likes her… Double, you eat Doudou’s buns, you Help Doudou to see her, OK?”

Is there a village in the east? Xia Ge was in a daze. She thought that there was only a small village called Nanming in a radius of several hundred miles.

“…Okay.” Xia Ge heard her own difficult voice, “I’m carrying you, let’s go together.”

“But I just want to go both.” Doudou said softly, “I’m too ugly now, I will scare her, and I can’t see her, I will be sad when I go.”

“…”

“Please, both.”

Finally, Xia Ge settled Doudou in the wood house, holding the half of the bun, and leaving the wood house.

When she opened the door, Xia Ge turned her head and looked at the girl leaning against the corner. Although her eyes were blind, they were still open, dark and bright, as if she could be seen turning back.

Xia Ge felt a warm liquid slipping down her face, but she touched it with blood and tears on the other hand.

Xia Ge heard her choking voice, “Doudou, that girl, is she pretty?”

Doudou paused, then smiled, “It’s pretty.”

Xia Ge made herself laugh, “If you have a good-looking girl, don’t want me, you are such a little liar.”

Doudou pursed his lips and smiled, “That’s different, you are my faith.”

She said, “Shuangshuang must be alive all the time to give me strength and bless me.”

Xia Ge grabbed the cold bun in his hand, “…Hmm.”

“Swear both.” Doudou smiled, ‘swear to live well, so that I can feel at ease.”

Tears slid down his chin and landed on the thin skirt. Xia Ge heard her hoarse voice, “Well, I swear, no matter what, Shuang Shuang will live on.”

“That’s wrong, just live well.” Doudou softly corrected.

Xia Ge finally couldn’t help it anymore, and she cried out in her voice, “Well, stay alive!”

“Go, go late, I won’t see the girl I like.” Doudou’s lips pulled up a gentle smile, as if the March peach blossoms were in full bloom in his eyes, he said, “That way I will be sad. ”

After Xia Ge left, she thought, Doudou is so beautiful.

She hadn’t found it before, but now she feels that she may be the most beautiful girl she has ever seen.

The wild dog hissed fiercely, Xia Ge walked all night, listening to the howling of the wild dog slowly from stern to barely audible, Xia Ge went to the village in the east and went from house to house to find the best girl. .

Of course she didn’t find the best girl.

Because she thinks no girl looks better than Doudou.

But this won’t work.

So, she would stop every girl she met in the east village, and then told her very seriously that there was a girl named Doudou who might like her-she looks good, and after washing her face in the stream, she deliberately When I made myself laugh, it was so sweet that the girl in the village was simple and honest. Every time she stopped a person, after she said that, she would be cheeky to eat.

There was also a famine in the east village, so few people were really willing to give her food, but Xia Ge still begged some with a smile on her face. She hugged the food and had to go back in a hurry.

Xia Ge didn’t believe that there would be pretty girls who would run out to see the stars in the middle of the night regardless of the curfew. The original purpose of coming to this village was just to ask for more food, and then go back quickly to change the medicine and treat Doudou.

“Ah, the little girl with the face.” A little beggar in Mai saw her direction wrong and grabbed her, “Where are you going?”

“I want to go back to Nanming Village.” Xia Ge was anxious, night and day passed, and the food was found. She would use the food to ask the doctor in Nanming Village to help Doudou look at her injury——

“What are you going to do in Nanming Village?” The little beggar widened his eyes. “A porter who went there came back this morning and said that Nanming Village was hit by a wave of evil spirits last night-ah, did you come from Nanming Village?”

“Then you are so lucky.” The little beggar sympathized. “Are there any important people in that village?”

The stars flickered, and the food in Xia Singer standing at the entrance of the village fell to the ground.

“……What did you say?”

The tide of evil spirits.

Legend has it that evil spirits will come in the middle of the night and eat everyone silently, leaving no bones.

——Only people who can see ghosts are dying, can they foresee the arrival of evil ghosts.

——”I didn’t mean it. I couldn’t see it. I thought it was a ghost. I thought it was a ghost. I thought it was going to catch me. I heard so many strange sounds. I’m sorry, sorry…

When Xia Ge hurried back to Nanming Village, the morning light was faint, and there was no one living person in Nanming Village.

Nanming Village has become a dead village occupied by evil spirits.

Doudou is gone.

Everyone is gone.

There was only a pool of blood when I went to Zhu’s house at the entrance of the village.

The air is full of ghosts that can’t even be turned away by the sun, and the sky is full of blood.

People who are eaten by evil spirits will not even leave their bodies.

Xia Ge knelt in the wood shed, looking at the pool of blood, confused for a long time.

It turns out… In this world, there are really evil spirits who cannibalize people.

So… I should have thought of it long ago.

Thinking of the howling of wild dogs before leaving.

I thought Doudou hadn’t even been out of Nanming Village. Where did he come from, the east village, the girl he likes?

It hurts, it hurts.

Xia Ge trembled her hands, took out the blood-stained half of the bun she hadn’t eaten from her arms, staggered to the crooked neck tree where they had seen the stars together, buried the bun in it, and then for that Girl, set up a monument without words.

She realized that she had never known Doudou’s name.

I never asked Doudou what girl he liked before, who was in the family, and why he became a beggar.

She didn’t know anything, she didn’t understand anything. When she came to this world, she had been living by herself, unconsciously, without asking about the world, living a senseless and indifferent life.

Her reason is simple. She feels like she is dreaming.

But, why?

So indifferent, she regarded everything as a dream of Nan Ke, how could she let the girl named Doudou say such things?

She knelt for a long time in front of the stele, looking at the blood-stained bun, her tears flowed and her tears broke.

That was the saddest time when Xia Ge came to this world and cried.

For the first time in a daze, she felt that this was actually a real world.

In this world, there is a girl named Doudou. In order to keep her alive, she went to steal the buns to feed her, lied to her, and then she was alone in the corner, facing the raging evil spirits and the pain of the wound. .

Except for her, no one in this world knows that on this lonely and confused road, there was a child named Shuangshuang who was Doudou’s faith.

Xia Ge no longer remembers how she left Nanming Village. She only knew that she was embarrassed and put on Xia Wuyin’s name-like this, she could ignore that she was the girl who was admired by Doudou. She is the Xia Ge who killed Doudou.

It’s just both.

And Shuangshuang, with Doudou’s death long ago, will never sleep in the bottom of my heart.

But her Xia Ge still wants to live in place of Shuangshuang.

She swears.

It’s just that every night, Xia Ge’s dreams are full of evil ghosts eating people. She dreams of Doudou looking at her covered in blood, she is dying brightly, but her eyes are still gentle.

But the gentle girl was just eaten bit by bit by the evil spirit, and there was no bones left.

And she watched in a dream, helpless.

Doudou’s soft voice still rang in her ears.

——Shuangshuang, you have to live well.

At this point, Xia Ge began to hate his own weakness, and began to fear the responsibilities of being strong.

She is powerless to become the faith of others.

No matter how powerful it is, it’s the same.

She can’t save anyone.

She can do nothing.

——That is different, you are my faith.

In order to save her, Doudou was covered in blood, and Xia Ge never wanted to see it in others for the second time in her life.

From now on, she doesn’t want to be so powerful that she can be the faith of others, nor is she so weak that others die because of herself.

Shit belief.

She is the incompetent Xia Wuyin.

That’s it.