Let There Be Blessing Behind You

Chapter 70: Story 41. Jealous Innocence (3) – Chapter 70

Story 41. Jealous Innocence (3)

Chapter 70

At this point, I didn’t want to know about Eriez’s feelings. What I needed was to satisfy my body, and if the man standing in front of me couldn’t deliver, then I didn’t need him.

Eriez begged me, “Juya… Stop… Snap out of it! Why are you doing this…!?”

“What’s wrong with what I’m doing?”

Eriez pushed me against the wall; his face was so close to mine that I could feel his warm breath. Our bodies were so tightly connected.

Did he want me… or did he not? I needed him to tell me right now, so we can get going.

Eriez continued, “You weren’t like this… Even just a few days ago, you were fine! You protected the prince and saved the Virtuous Priestess and her odalisques! You sent them back to the harem! What you accomplished were all miracles! You carried out the warrior’s orders perfectly… So, where did that Juya go?”

I wondered about the same thing. Inside of me, the old heroic “Juya” still existed, although not as much.

However, that heroic “Juya” was a hypocrite because he never acknowledged this current side of me. This sexual “Juya” always existed. This wasn’t a new development at all.

Where did the old “me” go then? When will he return? Will he ever return?

I doubted it.

“Eri, I’m sorry, but that side of my ear doesn’t work very well. Can you talk louder or talk into the other ear?”

I pushed him away slightly by touching his chest lightly. I wasn’t lying about my ear. I continued, “My ankles were damaged badly, so I can’t run fast anymore. One of my ears doesn’t work well, so I can’t hear when people sneak up on me, which means my reflex as a fighter is gone. I have a huge scar from the recent burn on my back, and my head is always fuzzy because of the harem drug. Every time I see any man, all I can think about is his d*ck and what it can do to me…”

“…”

It was the same with Eriez. Slowly, I moved my hands down his body. It seemed that he didn’t like my touch anymore because he flinched and became rigid.

I continued, “Am I still a soldier? A fighter? Or am I a whoe, like Manar says? Which ‘me’ is the true me? The old Juya or the new one? Eri… All I want from you right now is your dck. If you can’t do it, then get lost.”

When I glared at him, it seemed like he had surrendered on trying to change my mind. He asked, “Here? Right now? Stop being ridiculous. Let’s just go to your room first, and then we can…”

“No. Right now. Here.” I wasn’t kidding. I needed him right now. I explained, “You told me before that you don’t mind doing it in public in front of other people… I want the same thing, Eri… It would feel so much better to do it in front of other people… Please, Eri…?”

I turned around to face the wall. I was ready. All I had to do was drop my pants. I leaned forward, showing off my behind. Eriez probably needed a little more time to get ready. He had two choices now; either leave or get himself hard and satisfy me.

“Ahh… Aaaa… Eri… Eri… Haa…”

Yes! My very first lover was back. My favorite brother…

He was the one who taught me how to love. His familiar shape entered me, and I rejoiced. He was just as big as I remembered, but it didn’t feel as tight anymore. I moved my body hard so he could reach the spot, but unfortunately, it didn’t feel as refreshing and new as before.

“Kkk… Haaa…”

I heard Eriez control his breathing and moan as he moved against me. At some point, I began to forget who was behind me anymore. To make sure I remembered, I kept calling out his name, “Aahhh… Eri… Haa… Eriez… I’m… I’m going to cum… F*ck me… Ahh…”

Eriez didn’t say anything, but it didn’t matter. I moved harder and faster than he did. There was only a small trace of drugs left in me, and I tried to move faster so I could reach my climax as quickly as possible. Faster… Harder… I wanted more…

Eriez moved steadily. He didn’t seem to be in a hurry, and I felt frustrated.

“Eri… Please… Faster…”

“Calm down, Juya…”

He caressed my waist and whispered against my neck, seductively. He kissed my neck with a bite; wanting to see his face, I turned around. I meant to turn only my face, but Eriez turned my whole body around by lifting one of my legs up. I ended up leaning on the wall on my back, and Eriez spread my legs apart wider.

I now faced Eriez, who was looking at me with a flushed face.

I begged, “Ahh… Aa… Too much… Too stretched… Haa… Ahh…”

The leather strap dug into my skin, and when Eriez saw what I meant, he lifted both of my legs and supported me with his body. My feet no longer touched the ground.

What a strong man Eriez was…

I wrapped my arms around his thick neck. In this position, there was nothing I could do other than enjoy his movement. He was in control now.

His speed… His desire…

“Ahh… Haa… Haakkk… Ahaaaa…”

Eriez thrust slower than other men, but he was consistent. It was such a seductive feeling, mainly because I remembered our first time. At the time, I was so tight, and his fullness felt overwhelming.

Eriez has always been there for me. He always looked at me, adoringly. He never did anything to hurt me. He treated me so lovingly.

“Ahh… Eriez… I love you…”

What I felt now… It wasn’t just burning mindless pleasure. I felt… comforted. Warm.

This feeling didn’t originate from the bottom half of my body. In fact, it started from my heart and began to spread to the rest of my body. Slowly but surely, I realized that I didn’t have to suppress myself. I didn’t have to endure it anymore. I didn’t want to think about what we were doing. Suddenly… an irresistible relief engulfed me.

I began to sob.

“Aaaa… Eri…. Eri…”

Like a child, I cried. My voice sounded so tired and resigned.

I didn’t know how much time had passed. When we were done, we were on the ground, and I felt that Eriez was carefully caressing my back. I didn’t even know if I orgasmed or not. I didn’t know if Eriez did either. I was wet inside and out, but that didn’t mean anything.

I felt like crying again, and I didn’t like this feeling. To stop myself from showing any more tears, I tried to kiss Eriez, but he grabbed my chin and stopped me. He looked into my eyes deeply, and I saw that his eyes were filled with tears too.

“Juya. I am in love with you. I don’t care who you are or who you have become. I love you, no matter what. I love you just the way you are.”

“…”

“And that is why I don’t want you to do it with any other men. I don’t want you to tell others that you love them, but even if you do, I will still love you. I think… I will love you forever. It can’t be helped. It’s too late.”

He hugged me tightly, so I couldn’t tell what kind of expression he had on his face. I felt that my shoulder was becoming wet with his tears. He continued to murmur, but I couldn’t hear him.

Perhaps he felt what I felt for Prince Camille.

One-sided love.

An unconditional and hopeless love.

However, it didn’t make sense because, unlike Prince Camille, I didn’t have a seductive scent. In fact, I must have smelled filthy after being f*cked by so many different men.

So why… Why was Eriez telling me this?

“Eriez.” I continued in a harsh voice, “I hope you never become someone who can endure me. You… A truly innocent and pure man… will never be able to survive against me. You will only get hurt.”

“Juya… You can use me in any way you want. I want you to. Ask me about anything. Order me… and we can be together. We can win the war together. We’ve done it before, remember? Juya… My brother…”

“Eri, stop.”

No matter what he said to me, I couldn’t give him what he wanted.

I couldn’t give him “me.”

“What you feel for me is meaningless. Half the brothers in Minurd see me as a who*e, and the other half despises me. The only reason I am still alive here is thanks to the Goddess’ warrior.”

I kissed him deeply and added, “Ahh… Ha… Eri… I love you too. A lot.” I licked his lips gently and continued, “So come to my room whenever you want me. I will teach you all the good things I learned… I think you need to get better…”

I stood up and limped away.

And…

Iztal Eriez didn’t follow me.