Chapter 89 But the world is not so gentle to her (Part 2)
"It's the same as last time when my brother-in-law held me."
Hayasaka Ai still let him control her hand, and the sensations coming from all over her body showed that this was reality, not her dream last night.
"I can feel his breathing"
"It's spitting warmly on my neck."
“Itchy but not annoying”
“Very reassuring.”
Hayasaka Ai raised her head slightly and looked at him close at hand, her expression slightly distressed.
"Brother Jun should be nearly 1.8 meters tall. He's really tall."
Alas, she had to look up to see his profile. But I think I heard people on the Internet say that the height difference between 1.6 meters and 1.8 meters is the cutest.
Hayasaka Ai's smile returned to her face
She chose this little bear just because the little guy's smile looked like his brother's evil smile. At first glance, it seems very annoying, but if you look closely, you will find that it is very cute.
From the corner of her eye, Hayasaka Ai saw that the mechanical arm had firmly grasped the bear, and in a few seconds it should fall from the access port and become hers.
"Sorry, little bear."
"It's not that I don't want to witness this moment."
"It's just that I can't take my eyes away from this side of my face now."
The last time she was in the room, she didn't get a good look at her younger brother Jun from this angle. The light from the game arcade shone on his face.
Sparkling, very dazzling
Brother Jun's eyes were as deep as the black ocean, and the smile on the corner of his mouth made her unable to look away. For Hayasaka Ai, perhaps this scene before her eyes was her biggest gain today.
There were stars in his eyes, a light she couldn't touch.
Hayasaka Ai cherishes it so much that she cannot take her eyes away. She must record it with her own eyes, and then store it firmly in her mind.
After all, I don’t know if I will have this opportunity next time.
"Damn it, the sound of my heart is so noisy."
"I can't even hear him breathing"
"If only it could always be like this."
"My light"
"this boy.."
Hayasaka Ai thinks so sincerely
"well"
But the happy time is so short
His hand left, and the embrace was lost for a moment. Hayasaka Ai suddenly felt as if her heart was empty, as if a piece was missing.
“A bit lonely”
But, really only a little bit.
Ishigami let go of his senior's hand, bent down and took out the bear from the access port.
I wanted to hand it to my senior, but I saw her head lowered.
"Senior?"
Hayasaka Ai didn't answer when she heard his voice, she just stepped forward and hugged him gently.
Suddenly being hugged by the girl, Ishigami's hand holding the little bear had no place to place it.
“Just for a while”
"Okay..."
"Let me hold you for a moment."
Hearing the words of the girl in his arms, Ishigami sighed and just gently stroked her soft hair with his other hand.
"OK."
"As you like, senior."
Hearing his promise, Hayasaka Ai responded softly, hugging him harder with both hands, breathing greedily.
"Thanks."
She didn't know why she made this bold move. Maybe it was a sudden impulse.
But she just couldn't explain it. It was a dead end of contradiction. The sudden emptiness in her heart just now almost overwhelmed her.
Confusing thoughts rolled around, and he subconsciously followed his own heart. I just want to hold him and feel his warmth.
I'm sorry, brother-kun.
Hayasaka Ai sees her resentment clearly
I am a sinful woman.
Greedily craving for everything about you.
After a while, Hayasaka Ai felt better and took one last breath of his scent.
"That's it."
Her little head rubbed a little and she opened her eyes, but her hand that wanted to let go suddenly froze.
Because Hayasaka Ai's eyes met a pair of curious round eyes next to her.
It was a little girl wearing a floral skirt who looked to be 7 or 8 years old at most.
She was staring at Hayasaka Ai and Ishigami with great interest and curiosity.
There was a lollipop in his mouth.
Only then did Hayasaka Ai remember
This is a public place
Was she so brave?
At this time, a young mother suddenly ran over. She first saw joy on the little girl's face, and then saw the young couple hugging next to her.
The joy on her face instantly turned to embarrassment
It's true, Nannan, the young couple is having a sweet time, why did you go over and join in the fun?
"Sorry, sorry"
"My child is causing trouble for you"
She apologized several times, and then directly pulled the little girl to leave.
The little girl turned around reluctantly as she walked away. She protested with great dissatisfaction in her innocent tone.
"Mom, you told me this morning."
"I'm such an adult, yet I'm not ashamed to give you a hug."
"But that sister is such an adult and she still lets her brother hold her."
"Aren't you shy too?"
As soon as the little girl's mother heard this, she picked her up and ran away in a hurry.
"Ishigami-kun."
Hayasaka Ai had already let go of the hand holding him when she just heard "That sentence is not shy".
After a child said this, she was so embarrassed that she wanted to die.
This is no longer what Routine can do.
In other words, at this point, it’s a damn thing if you can still remain calm.
Hayasaka Ai covered her face with her hands, her tone trembling.
"How long have you been watching that little girl?"
Ishigami scratched his face with his hand and said embarrassedly
"It's been a while..."
Added another sentence
"perhaps."
The little girl actually ran over happily not long after the senior sister hugged him.
But he was very good and didn't make any noise. It's a pity that if the naughty children start making noises, he can scare the shit out of them with just one look.
Anyway, just looking at it, although it is a bit embarrassing, it does not lose any meat.
"Ah ah ah ah ah!"
"What have I done..."
"Obviously it wasn't like this before."
Hayasaka Ai felt like the gazes of the people around her were like needles. She covered her face tightly with her hands without revealing any gaps. She felt that she had no face to see others.
This was an embarrassment she had never experienced in more than ten years. She would never be able to come to this place again.
Hayasaka Ai whispered
"Ishigami-kun, let's go quickly"
Ishigami looked at the girl who was already ashamed, shook his head helplessly, and handed her the little bear in his hand.
"Senior sister, can you really see the road ahead clearly?"
"Block it a little bit"
So, Ishigami pulled Hayasaka Ai, who was already blushing with a bear to cover her face, and walked out of the game hall amidst the meaningful smiles of the people around her. (Small bag hanging on arm)
Today’s victory or defeat, Hayasaka Ai’s defeat
Hayasaka Ai sat alone on a chair in the park holding her little bear. The blush on her face had dissipated a lot, but the blush was still very obvious on her fair face.
If you get close to her, you can hear the girl whispering
"It's so stupid, it's really stupid."
"Hayasaka is a big fool if he loves you!"
"Please give me a little more attention to the occasion."
Hayasaka Ai is already reflecting on her mistakes. But she just asked herself a question, and suddenly she felt like she was hopeless.
that question is
Do you still dare? Do what you just did again
Hayasaka Ai sighed
Although she hated to admit it, she couldn't deceive herself. This inner struggle made the hands holding the little bear turn white with strength.
Hayasaka Ai's hand suddenly relaxed and she still told herself what she wanted to say.
"well"
"Next time I dare..."
Hayasaka Ai looked up at the sky, seeing many birds spreading their wings and soaring, feeling a little emotional
They all have freedom
But why didn't she?
"Senior, come and drink some milk tea"
Ishigami just went out to buy milk tea, because considering that Hayasaka-senpai had played so many events just now, it would be better to add some sugar.
Hayasaka Ai took the milk tea
"Thank you, Ishigami-kun."
Ishigami sat next to Hayasaka-senpai
Hayasaka Ai picked up the milk tea and took a sip. Although it just tasted of the same industrial syrup, it did soothe her bitter heart a little. She calmed down and said:
"Sorry, Ishigami-kun."
"I'm causing trouble for you."
Ishigami held milk tea in one hand and leaned back slightly on the chair.
"Senior, there's no need to apologize to me."
he smiled
"Speaking of this time spent with my senior, I'm really happy."
"Besides, the time I spent with you, senior sister, really allowed me to see a lot of different sides of you."
"Senior is really a treasure girl."
"Not to mention good-looking, he has excellent motor and reflex nerves."
"He plays the game well, and his coffee skills can be said to be master-level."
"She is a very handsome senior, very charming."
"Senior showed her weak side just now, which only makes me feel that Hayasaka Ai is very real."
"No one in the world is perfect. No matter how strong a person is, his or her heart is soft."
"So, there's no need to apologize to me."
"Senior sister, everyone has emotions that surge uncontrollably and make them do some bold moves."
"If you just hold me, senior, it will make you feel better."
"Then my arms will always be open to senior sister."
"Ishigami-kun"
Hearing his words, Hayasaka Ai chuckled and wiped the tears that overflowed from the corners of her eyes.
You are so cunning
This happens every time
With a look of anger on her face, she touched his waist with her elbow and joked:
"Ishigami-kun, you want to die."
"Do you know how embarrassing what you just said is?"
"How can you play without me? Who asked you to tease your senior sister like this?"
"What if I take it seriously?"
"Ah, no..."
She realized that she seemed to have accidentally let something slip, and quickly changed her words.
"nothing"
Hayasaka Ai raised his little fist to demonstrate to him
"Be careful, I'll hit you!"
Ishigami raised his hands in surrender, pretending to be very scared.
"My bad, my bad."
"It's my fault for teasing my senior sister..."
"Senior, don't hit me."
Seeing his funny look and ignoring his plea for mercy, Hayasaka Ai directly hit her younger brother Jun with her little fist, but how could she be willing to hit him hard and just touch him lightly.
After some rough and tumble, both of them were in a much better mood. They looked at each other and couldn't help but smile.
Hayasaka Ai took a sip of milk tea and looked at the hands on the clock tower in the distance.
It seems that Cinderella's magic is almost up to time.
Seemingly finally making up her mind, she stood up and extended an invitation to the people next to her.
"Please accompany me to another place."
"Ishigami-kun."
Ishigami took the inviting hand and stood up.
"I'm extremely happy, senior!"
"Let's go, Ishigami-kun."
A karaoke room, this is just a small box, just right for two people.
This is the place Hayasaka Ai wants to take him to. Some things cannot be expressed in words, but they can be done through singing. This is the power of music.
She wanted to express her feelings through her singing.
Ishigami sat on the sofa, in front of him was Hayasaka Ai standing with a microphone.
"Senior, come on."
Ai Hayasaka stood under the neon lights. She calmed her breathing and picked up the microphone.
A pair of blue eyes looked at his younger brother Jun
“What I want to sing is ‘My Mood’.”
Her red lips parted slightly, and her beautiful and emotional singing filled the room.
"The sadness in my heart is beyond words lululu."
Just the first sentence, Ishigami was deeply affected. He straightened his posture and listened more attentively.
Hayasaka Ai's eyes saw his serious look, the corners of her mouth raised slightly, and she continued to sing
"Why can't I be your only one?"
"How wonderful it would be if I didn't like you"
"I hope you only have one thing to say to me."
“Where should a helpless heart go?”
"I cry like a lost kitten"
"It doesn't matter even if it's a dream"
"Please hug me tight"
"I knew it from the beginning"
This song [Sadnessしくてlulululu] ended quickly, Hayasaka Ai bowed slightly
"Thank you, Ishigami-kun."
As the only audience member, Ishigami naturally knew that this song was sung for him.
The girl's singing had already expressed her feelings, and he could hear from it the love that was already overflowing but could not be poured out.
That was a girl who was hesitant, scared, struggling, and saying things that went against her will.
She has used up all her strength to shout, what she wants to express
"I love you much"
"Love you more than anyone else"
"But I don't deserve to be beside you."
The most vicious curse in the world is to be destined but not destined. The kind of pain that can overwhelm anyone is enough to drive a person crazy. But the girl held it back, it was painful to suppress herself. Secret love is a shell that gets heavier and heavier, and only she knows the bitterness in it.
Ishigami wanted to speak, but his lips were stopped by a finger.
Hayasaka Ai walked off the stage and shook her head with a forced smile and said to him
"Ishigami-kun, don't answer yet."
"Listen to me tell a story"
She pondered for a moment
"emm"
"This is a story about a coward."
During this period, Ishigami was just a quiet listener, but his heart was very depressed.
A little girl had to betray her best friend in order to survive in the cracks of her big family.
every day every day
I'm so overwhelmed by this feeling of guilt that I can't sleep
It's a very sad and helpless story.
When Ishigami heard it at the end, he knew that the Hayasaka-senpai in front of him, who told the story with an indifferent expression, was the prototype of the "coward" in her story.