I Want to Be a VTuber

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In her past life, Seo-yeon was someone who couldn’t properly recognize emotions. Joy, sadness, and various complex feelings.

Naturally, among those elements, there were also sexual aspects.

‘Is this really 15 years old?’

Seo-yeon was in a state of almost culture shock. Regarding something sexual, she had been woefully ignorant from her past life.

No, she knew—she knew everything.

But still, she had never truly seen anything explicit herself.

Even if she did, it was just a viewing experience; she couldn’t feel anything from it.

At first, she tried to be interested in sexual elements like the other men around her, but that too ended in failure.

After that, she completely lost interest.

Even after being reborn, she had really kept it out of her mind entirely.

“The Gyeongseong Young Lady doesn’t have such high-level scenes, but…”

Seo-yeon swallowed hard while watching a film filled with skin tones.

In her mind, the script of “Gyeongseong Young Lady” came to mind before the movie’s content did.

Fortunately, the role she played, Kasugayama Yuina, had very few scenes like that.

Maybe just one or two?

And even those were not particularly remarkable scenes, as she vaguely remembered.

It was just holding hands, touching shoulders, or something like that…

‘Huh?’

While it was available for all ages, wasn’t there something quite strange about it depending on the performance?

Seo-yeon thought about that as she watched the movie.

‘I understand now why Jo Seo-hee suggested this film.’

It was a movie where the emotion of love was laid bare.

Even if Seo-yeon didn’t understand that emotion, the film made it obvious, even for a fool.

It felt a bit embarrassing, and strangely, her heart was fluttering.

Her fingertips and toes couldn’t help but fidget, unable to stay still.

Yet, amusingly, Seo-yeon was watching the film with rapt attention from a certain moment onward.

*

“What did you think?”

Jo Seo-hee, emerging from the movie theater, glanced at Seo-yeon and asked.

It felt like she spoke with confidence, but in reality, she was quite attentive to Seo-yeon’s reaction.

After all, she had made a mistake last time, and there is a preference in every movie, no matter how good it is.

Based on her observations, Seo-yeon’s preference leaned heavily towards action movies.

Ironically, the films and dramas she appeared in were mostly emotional types.

It was indeed an ironic point.

“……”

Seo-yeon was silent.

She tossed the remaining popcorn into the trash.

Walking quietly beside Seo-hee.

‘W- Was it not that good?’

The corners of Jo Seo-hee’s mouth trembled.

She had thought it was the perfect movie for Seo-yeon, who struggled with romantic acting.

The first time she watched it, she had cried while moistening her handkerchief.

Today was the second time, but even now, tears had welled in her eyes.

The feeling of watching someone you love connect with another.

No, rather, the girl she was supposed to help.

Was there another film so fitting?

‘In action movies, romance is just an accessory.’

It wasn’t good for studying emotion lines, she thought…

‘But what if I said I didn’t enjoy it?’

Seo-hee glared at the posters displayed in the theater as they left.

By chance, there was a Japanese animated film being released—should they catch that instead?

Moreover, the outfit was similar to what Seo-yeon wore in Japan.

Sure, she could hurry and…

“It was good.”

“Huh?”

“The, the movie was good.”

Seo-yeon answered somewhat awkwardly, as if saying something good was embarrassing.

‘Eh, what’s this? So cute.’

Seo-hee thought.

Typically, Seo-yeon had many cool aspects.

When filming variety shows, she’d become a lively pup, but in daily life, she was a cold, expressionless beauty.

But now, what could Seo-yeon say?

She showed an emotion that was quite complicated.

‘I wish she’d drop the formality, though.’

Such thoughts crossed her mind, but since Seo-yeon said she enjoyed it, that was good enough.

Jo Seo-hee straightened her hunched posture and smiled confidently.

“Of course! Did you think I would recommend a bad movie?”

“But honestly, there were parts I didn’t quite understand.”

Saying she enjoyed a movie wasn’t an empty compliment.

Seo-yeon usually enjoyed most films.

In the past, she had even watched less entertaining films as part of her emotional acting.

It wasn’t much different now, but the important thing was that her own feelings had increased.

‘I should watch the movie alone again later.’

It wasn’t that she was particularly concerned about the dramatic scenes.

Really.

“I know you like the male lead, but I honestly don’t understand why the protagonist made that choice.”

Then, Seo-yeon began discussing her thoughts on the movie.

What parts bothered her.

What parts she liked.

It was a rather conventional movie review.

Thanks to that, Seo-hee felt pleased.

Yes, this is it.

Watching a movie and exchanging impressions with each other is another pleasure.

“How could Shi-young act as if she’s not chosen when she knows she wasn’t? I couldn’t quite understand.”

Shi-young was the heroine who secretly loved the protagonist in the story.

She was the girl who confessed to the protagonist first in a love triangle.

However, the protagonist was already infatuated with another woman at that point, causing him to reject her.

“Isn’t it common sense to give up at the point of rejection? It felt overly persistent…”

“Don’t say that in front of Yeo-hee, got it?”

Reality surpasses fiction.

In the story, Yoon Shi-young chased after the protagonist for four years.

Four years might seem long, but…

‘Yeo-hee has been in it for 20 years.’

If Yeo-hee had watched, she might scoff and think, “You’re being unreasonable about only four years.”

However, in Seo-hee’s view, four years felt just right, while twenty years felt excessive.

Honestly, wouldn’t it be a bit scary if you were the one receiving such unrequited love?

“But if they truly liked them that much, right? The character you’re playing, Kasugayama Yuina, isn’t much different.”

“Yuina leaves, even while she can remain, right?”

“The feelings stay. Only the body leaves.”

Kasugayama Yuina is the villain in the story.

Naturally, she’s the one blocking the love between the protagonist, Yeon Seon-ye, and Amanabi Michiko.

At the same time, she’s a romantic rival.

In the ending, Yeon Seon-ye and Amanabi Michiko move to Japan to live together.

Yuina returns to her homeland but doesn’t join them.

Even in the end, when Yeon Seon-ye reaches out her hand…

“She must have had her pride. She stepped back for Yeon Seon-ye’s true happiness.”

In some ways, that’s similar to Yeo-hee.

Yeo-hee had gone up to Seoul right after breaking up with Seo-yeon’s father, Young-bin.

Though her heart may have soared, thinking of a new start, Yeo-hee still couldn’t let go of her feelings from that time.

She had been living, with time stuck in her most shining youth.

‘Well, I guess Yuina is the same.’

Thinking of the drama and Yeo-hee’s past, Seo-yeon fell into thought.

Love seems more complicated and certainly not just a good thing.

Most people view love as something beautiful, shining like a star.

But the forms of love are many, and some accompany sticky, thick pain.

Yuina was probably one of those cases.

‘I think I might starting to understand a bit.’

Maybe I’ll find out more when I meet Yeo-hee again later.

Of course, whether I could manage well myself was something to discover through experience.

Though I get the general idea of emotion lines, executing them myself is a different matter.

“Thanks for showing me the movie today; it was very helpful.”

“Huh? What? Are we parting ways here?”

“Huh?”

“It’s not like we’re just going to watch the movie and wrap it up!”

Seo-yeon stared blankly at Seo-hee.

What else was there to do here?

“Hmph, remember how you wanted to go shopping with Lee Ji-yeon?”

“That was true, but…”

That was suggesting a group outing with Lee Ji-yeon, not just the two of them.

They’re more like friends now.

No, it feels like there’s some hierarchy above friends for Seo-hee now.

Honestly, even though she considers her a friend, saying that aloud feels a bit off.

Of course, being the big-hearted Seo-yeon, it’s not like she would hold a grudge against Seo-hee for the time she called her a ‘parachute’ as a child.

Or that there were ambiguous actions that seemed like betrayal that made her question if they were intentional.

“I bought too many outfits in Japan.”

“Ah.”

Considering it, Seo-yeon had recently returned from Japan.

She had done a lot of shopping back then.

If she bought that much, she certainly wouldn’t have anything left to buy right now.

“S-So…”

Seo-hee hurriedly averted her gaze.

Fortunately, the place was bustling with numerous options nearby.

‘A cosmetics store… seems meaningless. The same goes for clothes…’

Seo-yeon’s interests mostly aligned with what guys liked.

Lee Ji-yeon had said that if she took her to a cosmetics store, she wouldn’t know what to buy.

‘How can her skin be that perfect when she manages it so little?’

The world can be so unfair.

Though Seo-hee’s appearance is also quite remarkable, that’s the result of her desperate efforts!

But Seo-yeon, it was said that lotion and skin care were the extent of her makeup…

‘Since filming the Éclat Étoile advertisement, I’ve only used that one brand.’

Not knowing what to buy, she just kept using the Éclat Étoile products that happened to come her way.

Thanks to that, Éclat Étoile’s sales were skyrocketing every day.

Seo-yeon, who had no thought of looking for other cosmetics, was always Éclat Étoile.

She’s practically a walking billboard for Éclat Étoile.

Given the amount spent, it was truly a prime investment.

So, it was no wonder other advertisers were drawn to that.

“W-Wanna play a game? There’s an arcade nearby.”

“An arcade?”

Seo-yeon’s interest was clearly piqued.

At the same time, Seo-hee realized she was paying attention to her.

‘Does she know I don’t like shopping?’

In the past, that would have been true.

The tempestuous Joo Seo-yeon was like, “Why should I care about makeup?”

What was fun about shopping?

She would have preferred working out during that time.

It was something like that.

So, even though Lee Ji-yeon knew it was different now, she didn’t particularly call Seo-yeon for shopping.

“Seo-yeon, you’re good at games, right? I’ve been gaming a bit recently, too. Games help a lot.”

As she thought that, Jo Seo-hee smiled and said so.

Being good at games… wasn’t something that needed to be questioned.

“Yes, I’m good.”

Seo-yeon carried a great pride in her gaming skills.

To what extent? She believed wholeheartedly that she’d win no matter what she did.

It was evident that Jo Seo-hee had never been to an arcade like this.

“Fighting games are perfect for us to play together.”

“That’s true. But I’ve never tried this before, is that okay?”

“Of course. I’ll guide you well.”

Seo-yeon confidently patted her chest.

‘Though, fighting games are about learning and adapting too…’

Seo-yeon sat opposite Seo-hee and inserted her coins.

However, one thing Seo-yeon forgot.

That Seo-hee’s character, the virtual YouTuber ‘Elise’, is a comprehensive game streamer.

And not just that, she recently became known as a skilled gamer.

“S-Seo-yeon.”

“……”

“Shall we go somewhere else?”

“No, the game isn’t over yet.”

As for the match… it had ended long ago…

Jo Seo-hee couldn’t bring herself to say that.

Confident that she’d teach Seo-yeon, Joo Seo-yeon was utterly demolished by Jo Seo-hee in just five rounds.

‘What kind of absurdity is this?’

The first and second rounds had been in Seo-yeon’s favor.

But then it all changed from the third round on.

By the way, fighting games were indeed one of Seo-yeon’s strong suits.

With her reaction speed, she could see and respond to her opponent’s attacks.

However…

It was always Seo-yeon who got beaten up.

“It’s not just about reacting to moves; you have to memorize the frames.”

“?”

“Didn’t you know? Well, it’s not like you need to… but…”

Her reaction speed had been too quick for someone who didn’t know about frames.

Seo-hee thought it was only natural for Seo-yeon to be memorizing them, given her reaction speed.

The foundation of fighting games involves recognizing the opponent’s attack through their animations, calculating the frames, and countering accordingly.

But something was off with Seo-yeon.

It felt like she was just responding instinctively.

‘Could it really be…’

Yet, it felt like if anyone could do it, it would be Seo-yeon.

Honestly, saying she’s good at games wasn’t an exaggeration in the least.

‘If only I had just suggested we go shopping instead.’

Jo Seo-hee felt like crying.

Afterwards, Seo-yeon lost another two rounds.

‘These buttons feel weird.’

In that moment, Seo-yeon almost yanked the joystick out of the machine.

‘I might as well jump in and fight myself.’

It’s how extreme her thoughts had become.

“Let’s have one more game.”

“Are you sure? But didn’t you say that ten games ago?”

“This time, it’s for real.”

It truly was.

Now, she was getting used to Seo-hee’s playstyle.

Of course, she still didn’t know the frames.

‘It can’t be helped. Let’s just focus on quick jabs.’

The fastest attack.

No matter what the opponent does, a quick jab can’t be beaten.

It was a tactic she had avoided using, feeling it might be too cheap.

But she definitely couldn’t afford to lose here.

With that determination, she decided to punch with quick jabs.

“Whoa, what’s this? Isn’t that Jo Seo-hee?”

A strangely familiar male voice rang out.

Wondering what was going on, Seo-yeon peeked out from beside the arcade machine.

‘A kid from a boy group?’

It was Low, the leader of Just X.

He was waving at Jo Seo-hee with a friendly face.