I Unknowingly Rejected My Favorite

“When did I ever say that?!”

Surprised, I shouted at Oppa.

“You told me to have dirty thoughts about you earlier today!”

“No, I didn’t! I never said anything like that!”

It was 6 pm and we were near the college, so there were students still coming and going.

Worried that someone might have overheard us, I quickly looked around.

Thankfully, the passersby didn’t seem to be paying attention to us.

“...Really?”

His clouded eyes stared down at me intently.

I didn’t expect him to ask that question, to the point that I suspected he might have mistook me for someone else.

“Then I really can’t?”

Ugh, seriously! Why was he doing this to me?!

With a tearful face and unable to answer, I grabbed Oppa’s arm and dragged him forward.

I swear, he was like a large dog.

It felt like I was dragging a large dog up a hill.

“Hey, Kim Doah. I can walk by myself! Ya hear me? I said I can walk!”

I could hear him mumbling nonsense behind me, but I completely ignored him as if I had pressed the deafen button on him.

Our walk back home felt especially long today.

“Let’s go in.”

After I managed to drag him to the front of his house, I wiped my damp forehead with my sleeve.

Seeing that I was sweating even in winter, I must have really struggled.

“...What about you?”

He asked me, holding the doorknob after punching in the password and opening the door.

“My stream starts soon. I only drank a little because of that, don’t you remember?”

“...No, don’t go…”

He grabbed my wrist and forcefully pulled me towards him.

Maybe it was due to the alcohol, but I didn’t expect him to use that much strength. With that pull, I was dragged right into his house.

I heard the sound of the door locking behind me.

“...Oppa, I really need to go.”

I wasn’t joking, I was being serious!

Well, it wasn’t like I had no time at all, but I wanted to wash up and change into more comfortable clothes first, you know?

“I know you still have some time.”

“Only two hours.”

“Two hours are plenty!”

At his childish whining, I let out a sigh. You know what? I’d just get him to sleep and leave. It’d be faster that way rather than arguing here.

“Alright, I’ll stay for half an hour.”

“An hour.”

“Half an hour. No more than that.”

When I firmly declared that this wasn’t negotiable, he took off his shoes and went inside.

After turning on the lamp, he threw his clothes off one by one onto the chair.

The scarf he was wearing must have been uncomfortable, because my boyfriend was busy taking off his clothes without a care in the world as they fell on the floor.

He sat on the bed, wearing just his slacks and his shirt. After taking off his socks, he pulled me, who had been standing still, towards him.

“Doah.”

He used both his hands to grab my wrists.

Then, I could feel the texture of his hair.

Like a sinner begging for salvation, he lowered his head in front of me and started to self-diagnose.

“I think I’m drunk.”

“You just realized that?”

I laughed in disbelief.

Seriously, everyone who had eyes could tell that, he was the only one who couldn’t!

“Whatever, better late than never. Come on, lie down quickly.”

I wanted to tell him to change into more comfy clothes and sleep…

But, I didn’t want another mishap to happen again, so I just pulled the blanket instead.

“Come here.”

Oppa got up and went inside, fumbling.

I thought that would be the last of his antics, but…

“...What are you doing?”

Lying close to the wall, he gave me a blank stare while asking me that.

“...What?”

“Why aren’t you coming in?”

His tone made it as if it was something obvious to do. I even second guessed that I probably had messed up somehow.

“No no, why would I come in there?”

Coming to my senses, I snapped back in disbelief.

Seriously, I was just going to watch you sleep then leave!

“Well...”

When he realized that I had no intention of coming in, he crawled over on his knees.

“Because you said you wanted it.”

Ugh, that look in his eyes was too dangerous!

His smile possessed a different quality from the one he usually showed me.

It stimulated my lewd desires. If I had a word to describe it, it would be arousing.

I instinctively sensed danger and took a step back. He didn’t stay idle and took a step forward, as if saying that I wasn’t allowed to run away.

“...Oppa. You’re only doing this because you’re drunk right now. Just go back to sleep quickly and wake up tomorrow morning…”

“No.”

He cut off my words.

“I just...”

My boyfriend raised the corners of his mouth.

“...want to be with you.”

…That was just unfair!

He never said something like this normally!

Instead, he always looked at Luka while giggling to himself!

Well, I knew that he wasn’t very good at expressing his affection.

He did say that this was his first relationship.

That was why, even when he didn’t say cheesy things…

I endured it, even when at times, I became doubtful that he really loved me.

But now that he was intoxicated by alcohol, he kept on whispering sweet nothings to me!

“Doah.”

His low whispers… I couldn’t resist them anymore…

It was getting hard for me to hold back.

He wasn’t the only one who drank some alcohol.

Unsure of what to feel, I relaxed my body as his two hands cupped my cheeks as if it was the most natural thing to do.

“I love you.”

His face was getting closer and closer.

What would happen from this point forward, was an uncharted territory. I had never experienced it before.

As I slowly closed my eyes, I felt the warm and soft sensation of his lips.

Maybe because it was winter, his lips felt a little rough, but that feeling only lasted for a moment.

His tongue brushed over my lips.

The unfamiliar sensation made me widen my eyes, but he pulled my neck even harder, as if he wasn’t allowing me to be surprised.

His tongue slipped between my parted lips.

It was an aggressive move and hot at the same time.

I didn’t know when I would get to breathe.

Unable to do this or that, I also wrapped my arms around the back of his neck, just like what he was doing.

Our tongues intertwined with each other.

And our lips were glossed over by saliva as if they were never dry in the first place, and when our lips parted, I heard his panting.

“Haa...haa...”

That was my first kiss.

When I was younger, I had always imagined what my first kiss would be.

I thought it would be an innocent kiss in a really romantic place somewhere.

But, reality was different from fantasy.

No, it wasn’t unpleasant or uncomfortable.

It was just…

…Much hotter than I imagined.

“...This is your first time, right?”

Ironically, the first words that came out of my mouth were words of doubt rather than my feelings on this situation.

Then again, it was hard not to be suspicious!

Using my standards… He felt too skillful.

Like, how his tongue was… Violently…

Ugh, I didn’t know how to say it!

“Yeah... It’s my first.”

His answer that was accompanied with his panting sounded so sexy. It made me want to feel the previous sensation all over again.

“But, how are you so good at it?”

“I’m an expert at theory.”

A chuckle escaped.

“What the hell? Just how much have you seen? Really.”

“Too much. Probably a lot more than you think.”

“In 2D?”

When I asked jokingly, Oppa explored my lips again instead of answering.

He had been dominating me until now, but this time it was different.

Because I also wanted to take a lead, even if it was just a little.

I nibbled and caressed his lower lip, playfully slipping my tongue in and out.

“Euk!”

His greedy tongue seemed to want to get inside my mouth somehow, but when I rejected him, Oppa made a strange sound with a sulky face.

Unable to tell me what he wanted to do with words, he only sent intense signals with his eyes.

Ahh…

Happiness…

The feeling of being connected to each other, being able to confirm each other’s feelings, felt really nice. But, a realization made me feel sad all of a sudden.

Because the drunk Oppa would forget things easily.

It was like that when he left me with kiss marks.

Even though he tormented me so strongly to leave out those marks on my body…

Yet he said he couldn’t remember anything when he woke up in the morning! Even after some time had passed, I still got pissed whenever I thought about it!

I gently push his shoulders back.

The thought that all of this might become just my memory alone made me feel like I couldn’t continue with the same mood as before.

“...Why?”

My boyfriend asked me the reason for my action.

I didn’t even consider hiding it from him.

“Because I’m worried you’ll forget everything again, Oppa.”

I was afraid all these feelings and emotions would be treated as an accident.

But his answer was more than enough to make my heart flutter.

“...That won’t happen.”

My face was reflected in his dark eyes.

“I will…”

His finger wiped the saliva from the corner of my lips.

“...remember what happened today, no matter what.”

And once again.

He placed his lips on top of mine.

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