LIGHTNOVELONLINE The fire that burns inside
Lucina POV
We’re almost there. This nagging feeling of a bad idea never stopped but fuck that. I don’t care. I know this is a bad idea but fuck you, feelings. Gah, focus on the fire. Fuck this bad feeling that I have.
“What’s wrong? Why do you look like that?”
“Hah!? The hell you mean? My face is normal.”
“You can’t fool your best friend!”
“Just not feeling that great, is all.”
“Are we almost there?”
“We only got a few days left before we arrive. I didn’t think we would encounter a lot just going there.”
“Yeah! It was exciting really! We got attacked by bandits, animals, nature, the weather like so many things.”
“Exciting? More like annoying. When I walked through here the most, I dealt with were bandits. How the hell did we get involved in a stampede of animals? Then, a storm. Then, a landslide. Like, what the fuck is going on?”
“Its like something is stopping us from getting to your house.”
“Maybe.”
“Wait. You believe that?”
“Its just, I had a weird feeling you know.”
“Huh? What are you talking about?”
“Its just, I had a bad feeling this whole time. Like, I am making a bad decision. Like, something’s gonna happen if we do get there.”
“Woah. Is that another power of yours? Ooh, ooh. Can you predict the future?”
“Nothing like that, dumbass. Its more like a feeling.”
“Huh. You have a bad feeling but isn’t that more interesting?”
“Hah?”
“Like, if you’re feeling something then that must mean this must be important! Now I don’t regret following you!”
“You’re seriously so weird.”
“Don’t worry about it. Whatever happens I’m going to be there with you!”
“Thanks.”
Its weird that I feel better now.
“Hey Lucina.”
“Huh?”
“Can you tell me why you wanted to go to your house now?”
“I already told you, didn’t I?”
“Yeah but that’s not all right? I’ve been holding back this whole time, okay? Can you tell me now?”
I sigh. Normally, I ain’t comfortable with sharing but she is helping me with this bad feeling inside me so I guess it won’t be that bad to share.
“I am serious that I want to go home.”
“But didn’t you tell me that there’s no one left home anymore?”
“Yeah. There’s no one there.”
“So, why do you want to go back?”
“When my parents died, I was lost and I didn’t know what to do.
“Wait wait. Let me be comfortable.”
She’s really weird.
“You comfortable?”
“Yeah! Continue.”
“I was picked up by an old lady that lived in a forest. She never gave me a name and worked me to the bone. She always cursed and shouted so I learn most of that from her.”
“She never gave you her name?”
“Yeah. I live with that old woman for years. She trained me in using my magic and fighting. I had a lot of complaints but I was living properly. Then, one day. She just threw me out of the house and I got sent somewhere.”
“Woah. Did you get teleported?”
“Something like that yeah. It took a while but I did get back but everything was gone. The forest was burned down and the house disappeared.”
“Oh. Was it burned down?”
“No. Like, it disappeared. It was like it was never there. Maybe that old woman took the house with her.”
“Cool.”
“Yeah. I guess it is cool. If I could just bring a house anywhere, that would be cool.”
“Yeah!”
“Anyway, after that I was lost again. During that time, I met the principal and they invited me to go to the school.”
“The principal?”
“Yeah. All they told me was that I had a lot of magic and I should try to enter this school if I want to. I didn’t really have anywhere to go so I decided to go. Especially when I knew that nobles would also attend.”
“Oh.”
“I hate nobles. I hate them with a burning passion. All I knew about my parent’s death was that it was the fault of nobles. When I tried to ask the other villagers, they beat me up and threw me out. The old lady also kept complaining about nobles.”
“Is that why you’re going home?”
“Yeah.”
“Is it because of Miss Athena?”
I could not stop my expression from turning sour as she asks that question.
“Yeah. I hate her. I really hate her. I should truly hate her but…”
“It’s just hard, huh?”
“Yeah. She’s condescending, she’s egotistical, she’s selfish. She is a truly a symbol of being a noble but something is different.”
“Yeah. I know. Even I understand.”
“You do?”
“Yeah! Unlike you, I have lived around nobles my whole life. I’ve experienced a lot of malice, disgust, and other things. Most nobles look down on us. They see us as lesser than them but Miss Athena was different.”
“Damnit. Why the hell does she have to be different?”
“Let it all out.”
“She’s been messing with me the whole time. She keeps dumping stuff on me. She keeps saying this weird shit to me. She keeps looking down at me but why can’t I see what I should see? Why can’t I see the disgust, why is there no malice, why is there no hatred? Why is it that when she messes with me, I can see happiness?”
“Yeah. Miss Athena truly enjoys it from her heart. Even I could see that.”
“I know! I know that! Its why I’m having such a hard time hating her! She’s the duke’s daughter! She is second to the royal family. She is as noble as they come! So, why does she need to show me genuine happiness when she does something to me!? I’ve been so used to the negative that I don’t know what to do when they display genuine happiness!”
This is not right.
“I cannot accept this. I must hate the nobles. I must take my vengeance. I must find those responsible and destroy them with my very hands! That is my purpose! That is why I must hate her!
Because if I lose my hatred, what else do I have to live for?