I Have a Crush I Want to Talk to You

: Chapter 3 Evil Fate, Like A Shadow

“There are only less than two years left, don’t think about falling in love all day long, you have to fight for tomorrow. Love, wait until college to talk about it. But now, your only goal is how to rush into the person who can fall in love. Let’s talk about university.” When school was about to end, the head teacher was on stage again carrying out his “love education”.

I stared anxiously at the blackboard, shaking my left leg, hoping to get out of school soon.

At this moment, the phone in the pocket vibrated. One piece of fifty cents, three orders and five applications: It is forbidden to bring mobile phones, IPADs and any electronic products to the school. Once found, they will be confiscated. Therefore, peeking at a mobile phone is the same as peeking at novels and comics in class.

I glanced at the piece of 50 cents in front of me that was “Education of Love”. When he turned his back, I quickly took out my phone and hid it in the table to take a peek. It turned out that Wang Jiayao secretly used his phone to post it in the group A message: “Jingjing, I just heard that Gao Zhan, Xiong Shuai and Dapeng made an appointment to visit the Pioneer Bookstore after school. Shall we go to ‘Encounter’ together?”

Before I could reply, Lu Xiaobai interjected: “What kind of encounter? I didn’t hear a piece of Wumao say that ‘encounter’ means that two people who don’t know each other meet each other. Can Carmen and Gao Zhan be called an encounter? At most, it’s a chance encounter.”

Almost forgot, the class teacher was fondly called “a piece of fifty cents” by the students because of the Mediterranean hairstyle.

Wang Jiayao: “As far as you are knowledgeable, I am illiterate. If you meet by chance, just ask Jingjing if you want to go?”

Lu Xiaobai: “She was so embarrassing at the last basketball game, does she still have the face to meet by chance?”

Wang Jiayao: “Yes, the first few

Tian also called “Carmen” in front of the whole class. It’s funny just thinking about ‘Carmen’, hahahaha-”

Wang Jiayao made a series of mocking expressions recklessly. After the whole class covered their lips and snickered in the past few days, the two people’s blunt ridicule could not cause any lethality to me. I replied with a very calm expression: “Do you two know what is the advantage of my mother-in-law who praises me every day?”

Wang Jiayao and Lu Xiaobai made a curious inquiring expression at the same time: “What?”

“It’s just that the skin is thicker than the corner of the city wall!”

“puff!”

“Auntie is really a sharp mother! I admire it!” A series of clasped fist expressions.

Finally a piece of concluding remarks came in: “I know that you are all about to make a move, so I won’t say anything more, but that’s the same sentence. Today is Friday, go home early after school, and don’t linger arbitrarily outside. Listen to all. do you understand?”

“Listen – clear – white – ah!” The students dragged their long tails, and one by one, they were ready to go, waiting for the order of a piece of fifty cents, and rushed out of the classroom at any time.

“get out of class!”

The classroom burst into thunderous cheers. A piece of fifty cents packed up the books and walked out of the classroom with a straight and steady pace.

Lu Xiaobai, Wang Jiayao and I packed up our schoolbags and happily followed Gao Zhan’s group secretly to the Pioneer Bookstore.

Along the way, the three of us didn’t dare to get too close, for fear that Gao Zhan and the others would find us following us obscenely. Watching Gao Zhan and the others get on the bus, we could only wait for the next one.

Wang Jiayao suddenly said, “Jingjing, have you really never thought about confessing to Gao Zhan?”

I just drank into the mouth city

The milk tea spewed out at once, and he quickly shook his head.

Lu Xiaobai said, “Come on, you have already been rejected without a confession. If she confessed, it would be even more embarrassing than her titled ‘Carmen Jingjing’, although this guy has never stopped embarrassing.”

“Where am I?” I protested.

Lu Xiaobai gave me a blank look and continued, “How long has it been since then, have you forgotten about the mooncake love letter incident?”

When it comes to love letters, I suddenly fall into memories.

A few days ago, during the Mooncake Festival, a primary school girl in the first grade gave Gao Zhan a love letter in a moon cake, but Gao Zhan didn’t eat it, and threw the moon cake to Xiong Shuai. Xiong Shuai ate and ate a love letter. So after reading the love letter, Gao Zhan threw the moon cake into the trash can on the spot. I express to this senior high school girl that she is completely in love. It is simply the love version of Zhu Yuanzhang’s moon cake uprising. At that time, this moon cake love letter caused quite a stir in our class, so that other girls intentionally gave moon cakes to Gao Zhan to eat, but they silently swallowed them without taking out their hands. But I don’t know who is not afraid of death, and stuffed a love letter directly into Gao Zhan’s drawer the next day, which happened to be discovered by Xiong Shuai again. Do you think Xiong Shuai is simply a love letter automatic excavator? So the guy read the love letter on the spot.

The content of the love letter is Tagore’s verse written in English:

Themostdistantwayintheworld

is not the way from birth to the end.

ItiswhenIstandinfronto

fyou

butyoudon’tunderstandIloveyou.

This classic “The Farthest Distance in the World”, as any literary youth knows, is nothing special to express as a love letter. What is special is that the signature of this love letter is: Xujingjing.

Many students in the class knew that I liked Tagore’s poems, and there was a notebook in my schoolbag, which was full of Tagore’s poems in English, so the hat for writing this love letter was naturally buckled on my head. The truth is that this love letter was not written by me, I know someone is behind the scenes deliberately prank.

Wang Jiayao pulled me and said, “By the way, wasn’t that love letter really written by you?”

“Miss, you’ve already interrogated a thousand times. I’ve said it many times, but I really didn’t write that love letter. I don’t know which Li Gui is so immoral and insisted on signing ‘Xujingjing’. No doubt it is Xu Jingjing? The pinyin of the three characters Xu Jingjing is also ‘Xujingjing’.”

“But they are bright and upright, they don’t look like people who do this kind of thing.” Wang Jiayao spread his hands.

Open and aboveboard? ! I almost didn’t spit out a mouthful of old blood on Jia Yao’s face. The so-called uprightness means that when everyone identified me as the person who wrote the love letter, I strongly denied it, and when I questioned Xu Jingjing, Xu Jingjing said publicly: “Before I could write a love letter to express my confession, I was taken first. If you can give me a chance to do it again, I will definitely write this love letter carefully. If I have to sign three words on this love letter, one

It must be ‘Xu Jingjing’ instead of ‘Xujingjing’. Alright, please don’t ask Xu Jingjing any more, just pretend this love letter was written by me. ”

She thinks she is the supreme treasure. Bystanders felt that she was helping me out, but the fact is that her public statement made me feel that I was the one who wrote the love letter. Even if I jumped into the Yellow River, I couldn’t wash it out. Everyone believed that the love letter was written by me. Since that day, it seems that I can’t look at Gao Zhan more, and I will be ridiculed by my classmates about the love letter incident. As soon as the final exam was over, Gao Zhan saw me as if he saw a flood and beasts. Fortunately, I am a very thick-skinned person, and I was not affected by this incident, and I still secretly fell in love with Gao Zhan like a nympho. Even sometimes, I can’t help but wonder if I wrote that love letter in a dream, but the next day sleepwalking stuffed the love letter into Gao Zhan’s drawer. Voila! My good friends still doubt me.

Lu Xiaobai said, “Actually, I don’t think that love letter was written by Jingjing.”

“Xiaobai knows me best.” I gave Lu Xiaobai a thumbs up, then looked at Jiayao with contempt, “You learn more from Xiaobai.”

I just complimented Xiaobai, but she went on to say: “With her dog’s stomach that can’t hold four taels of oil, if she writes a love letter, she doesn’t say it immediately, for fear that others won’t know. She just doesn’t write a love letter to express herself, yes Personally, you should be able to tell that she likes Gao Zhan.”

“Have you said that as a good base friend?” I knew that I couldn’t overestimate this person, I rolled my eyes, “Actually, whether Gao Zhan likes me or not, I don’t care at all, I

I just like the feeling of being in love. So I will not confess. ”

Wang Jiayao said: “No, you two misunderstood me. What I mean is, if Jingjing fails to confess, won’t you give up? Then after the three of us, we will no longer have to be like a middle-aged and second-sick teenager. , did you do this stupid thing of stalking boys after school?”

Faced with such a bad friend, I rolled my eyes helplessly, “Wang Jiayao, can we still be friendly friends? Today, you proposed to follow Gao Zhan, okay?”

Wang Jiayao said, “I know, because I’m really going to the bookstore to buy teaching aids today. Did I just hear you mention you by the way?”

Lu Xiaobai gave Wang Jiayao a thumbs up.

“I really thank you for your suggestion. When you are old, remember slowly. You have to thank me in turn. It was I who gave you the opportunity to be young and frivolous to run after the boy’s ass. Now, the boat of friendship Turned over!”

Lu Xiaobai gave me another thumbs up in agreement.

The corners of Wang Jiayao’s mouth twitched, and he said, “You won! Then continue to be as frivolous as a second-year junior. The boat of friendship is overturned.”

I have always believed that in fact, to like a person does not necessarily mean that he also likes you. Secret love, the pursuit is only the hazy beauty in the heart. Meeting someone at the beginning of love is a beautiful thing that only you know how beautiful it is. When you look back on this hazy beauty at the age of beauty, you will understand how gorgeous the young and frivolous years are incomparably gorgeous. , instead of no memory, tastes like chewing wax.

So, if you are not frivolous when you are young, why do you talk about the cool autumn when you are old?

just go first

People in Feng Bookstore will be attracted by its literary and fresh atmosphere and fall in love with its uniqueness.

Both sides of the **** leading to the bookstore are covered with branches of jasmine flowers. In spring, small yellow flowers are dotted all over the branches, and the branches are alternated with yellow and green, which makes you feel the most authentic atmosphere and color of nature before you enter the bookstore. Go down the **** and enter the gate of the bookstore. There is another long **** down the corridor. The stacks of books on both sides extend to the end of the passage. Turn left, and there is another **** full of books on both sides. Looking back, there is a cross about two meters high hanging on the upper wall, making people feel like they are in a solemn church the moment they enter here. This is indeed a paradise for books.

Lu Xiaobai and Wang Jiayao and I went down the slope, touching all kinds of exquisite books along the way, enjoying the satisfaction brought by the various papers under my fingertips, and forgot about tracking Gao Zhan. back.

On the other side, the aroma of gourmet food and coffee came from time to time in the leisure area. Lu Xiaobai and Wang Jiayao couldn’t resist the temptation. They picked a book or two and rushed to the leisure area, ready to order a cup of coffee to enjoy life. And I walked all the way down the bookshelf.

Tagore’s poems have always fascinated me, the fusion of reality and romance, even if the nerves are big, but they always fantasize about a life as gorgeous as summer flowers and a life of death in the quiet beauty of autumn leaves. Therefore, even if I have already collected a set, whenever I see his poetry collection in the bookstore, I can’t help but open it and look at it. I was about to touch the book “Life Like Summer Flowers”, but my finger suddenly turned and stuck to the collection of “Three Words and Two Beats” beside me…

Well, I looked around the house a while ago

A classical masterpiece on the bookshelf in the middle, it is a strange book, in which the short stories that destroy the three views suddenly opened the door to my new world. The thinking of the ancients is sometimes more unrestrained than our modern people, but when I saw the best part, the book disappeared. Then, one night, I heard my beloved mother-in-law say to my father: In the future, don’t leave little yellow books everywhere. And the book that I have been thinking about for a long time and called “Little Yellow Book” by my mother is the “Three Words and Two Pai” collection. It is obviously the same classical masterpiece as “Liao Zhai”, but our adults always use the secular Looking at it with eyes, this kind of thinking is unacceptable.

Touching “Three Words and Two Beats”, I made up my mind to save money this month and buy a copy to go back and study it carefully. After walking a few steps with the book in hand, I hurriedly backed away. Across the bookshelf, I accidentally saw Gao Zhan standing opposite with a book in his hand.

The incandescent light from the ceiling shone down, just trapping Gao Zhan’s body, forming a faint halo. He was holding the teaching aids seriously, just like a scene that often appears in movies: a gust of wind blows, and the plain-colored curtains keep fluttering, reflecting the quiet and elegant young man sitting on the windowsill. The figure is reading the thick book in his hand, with no distractions, and it is coveted…

For a while, it was hard to hide a surging girl’s heart with pink bubbles. For fear that Gao Zhan would find out that I was peeping, I subconsciously covered half of my face with “Three Words and Two Pai” in my hand. At this moment, a round figure moved from nowhere, just blocking my sight. I will block without hesitation

The boy who made the dough in front of me waved hard to the side, but he didn’t quite swing the book in his hand, just hitting his foot.

“I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I didn’t mean it.” I quickly apologized, bent over and picked up the English-language “AP World History” and was about to return it to the boy. When I saw a familiar face with a gauze bandage on the bridge of my nose, I He couldn’t close his mouth in horror, “Why is it you again?!”

Humpty Dumpty stared at me condescendingly, his eyes firmly believing that he had been standing here before I came. Although Chunky didn’t wrap the gauze around like a mummy, the gauze across the bridge of his nose still made him look funny.

Although I called him short and fat behind the scenes, he was actually a head taller than me, which made me a little stressed. I straightened my chest and raised my head, intending not to be suppressed by his arrogance.

He looked at the book I gave him back, his eyes sank slightly, “I didn’t read “Three Words and Two Pai” just now, it was the one in your left hand.”

I looked at my outstretched right hand, and what I was holding was the book “Three Words and Two Beats” that I was about to buy. With a hot face, I quickly retracted my hand and gave him the book in my left hand, “Here, return it to you.”

I desperately prayed in my heart that he hadn’t watched “Three Words and Two Beats”.

Who knows, when he took the book, he pretended to be casual: “I advise you not to buy this version of “Three Words and Two Beats”, it is an abridged version.”

forehead…

My ears were hot, like a hot potato. I threw “Three Words and Two Beats” to the side of the stack of books, glared at him, and said, “Who told you that I watched this? I want to buy “Life Like Summer Flowers”, take it wrong book

already. ”

I almost believed my own serious nonsense, but the short and fat expression of “clearly wanted to read but said no” made me ashamed and angry, and I forcibly grabbed “Life Like Summer Flowers” from the pile of books on the side, Forgot to stare at him again. How unlucky! You can come across this degenerate everywhere. you are vicious! I change places.

Just as I was about to turn around, who knows, he gently poked my arm again, “Hey, this is a bilingual version, it’s better.”

I turned my head and looked at the bilingual version of “Life Like Summer Flowers” in his hand, and caught a glimpse of his other hand holding the all-English “APWorldHistory” that I had knocked out earlier, and said annoyed: “It’s amazing to read all-English books? ”

I took a few steps forward, and without the bookshelf blocking my view, Gao Zhan was standing right in front of me, but in just a few minutes, there was another person beside him, the Xu Jing from the next door. Jing. The two of them were talking happily over the same book. Xu Jingjing’s face was blooming with a smile like a spring flower.

When my father was free, he liked to play some old songs on cassette tapes, and was rated as “The Voices of Extravagance” by my mother. However, in those days when there was no entertainment, these “Music Voices” sang into my young heart like a spring breeze. , deeply impressed. Xu Xiaofeng has a song called “Love in the Heart”, which is very timely and happens to express my mood at this time:

I want to look at him secretly,

Pretend to admire a vase of flowers.

I can only take a peek at him,

It’s like browsing a painting.

I’m afraid to let him know that I’m stupid,

My eyes have to avoid

he.

Although I want to have a word with him,

How could he have her beside him…

I turned my head quickly, not wanting to be tripped by an obstacle behind me, so I dashed straight towards the stack of books in front of me. The obstacle stretched out a hand, intending to grab the person behind me with the schoolbag and hold me, but when I fell down, the hooked foot just caught his calf, so his huge body followed. They threw themselves into the stack of books and smashed into my thin body…

“Ow…” I let out a shrill scream. At that moment, I seemed to hear the bones of my whole body cracking, and being crushed into shining skeletons. Without looking, I also know who this massive obstacle is.

The people around them didn’t know why, and watched everything that happened in front of them in horror. A few good-hearted people who were close to us quickly responded and pulled us.

I was lying on the pile of books, my face, chest, arms… I was knocking on hard books all over my body, and I was in constant pain. Chunky got up from me awkwardly, every movement he made was like someone shoving me hard with a jack.

I was finally pulled from the pile of books. Not only did my right foot hurt, but now my whole body hurts, especially my chest. I felt so wronged in my heart, and I couldn’t help but burst into tears.

“I’m sorry…” Chubby was at a loss, looking at my tears, not knowing what to do.

Lu Xiaobai and Wang Jiayao heard the sound and rushed over, “Jingjing, we were looking for you just now.”

“Oh, what’s the matter with you?”

Gao Zhan and Xu Jingjing also rushed over from the opposite side. Xu Jingjing looked at my embarrassed appearance and asked:

“What’s the matter? Jingjing, why did you fall so well?”

Wei Xue, who had always been close to Xu Jingjing, approached her and whispered in her ear. Even if Wei Xue covered half of her face with her hands, she couldn’t hide the look on her face that she wanted to laugh but was embarrassed to laugh.

Xiong Shuai, Zhou Dapeng and several other boys also appeared in front of them.

The staff also came over and asked about the situation.

Chunky was very nervous and guilty, and kept apologizing: “Xu Jingjing, I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to trip you up… I’ll take you to the hospital.”

I was full of familiar classmates in front of me. Without saying a word, I silently wiped my tears, squatted down, and started sorting out the pile of books that had been overwhelmed by me.

Chunky had been following behind me just now, and suddenly found that his shoelaces were loose, so he squatted down to tie his shoelaces. And I was in a hurry to turn back and didn’t pay attention at all, and was stumbled by him. He wanted to hold me, but he didn’t want to trip and fall together with me. I don’t have any reason to blame him for the whole thing. If I really want to blame one person, I should blame myself. If it wasn’t for me being careless and neglecting to observe, I wouldn’t have tripped over, causing both of them to fall in the end. A dog eats shit. Wang Jiayao is right, my nerves are not ordinary, others will not be affectionate, I will; others will not get stuck on the door, I will; others will not fall on the pile of books in the bookstore, but I will …

The staff at the bookstore saw that I had fallen so badly, and couldn’t bear to say, “Forget it, let’s sort it out.”

I shook my head and continued to organize the stack of books.

Chunky also crouched down and started picking up the books that we both stumbled over with me. Then Lu Xiaobai, Wang Jiayao, Gao Zhan, Xu Jingjing, and in

The classmates in the field helped clean up the mess. After a while, the pile of books returned to its original state.

I offered to pay for the books that were crumpled by me, and Dumpty rushed to say that he would bear all the damage. The staff of the bookstore smiled and just put away the crumpled books without asking us for compensation.

It was good originally, but because of the turmoil that I caused, everyone lost the mood to read and pick books in the bookstore. Lu Xiaobai and Wang Jiayao helped me out of the bookstore, concerned about whether I was hurt or not. I shook my head, and the tears that had stopped before rolled out all of a sudden.

Wang Jiayao hugged me, patted my back, comforted me, and said, “It’s alright, it’s alright, don’t cry, be good.”

Lu Xiaobai also took my hand and said, “Isn’t it just a fall? It’s fine if you’re fine. You’re not hurt, right?”

I choked and said, “No. I just feel ashamed…”

Lu Xiaobai sighed and said, “Is it a matter of one or two days to lose face? You are not ‘Carmen Jingjing’ if you don’t lose face, okay? You actually feel that you fell in front of Gao Zhan and Xu Jingjing, and just happened to be held down by Kang Jiawei. Shame.”

“It’s not because of those two people at all?” It’s okay not to mention these two people, but my tears are even more fierce.

Wang Jiayao held back for a long time, and finally couldn’t help but burst into laughter, “I said, why are you being held down by Kang Jiawei so well? You two are really wronged. Last time Carmen, this time I stacked Arhats. Hahaha… I don’t think it matters. Three, maybe you two have a third ‘cooperation’.”

Lu Xiaobai said, “Have you ‘cooperated’ three times already? Have you forgotten about the basketball court?”

“Yes! Hahaha—” Wang Jiayao slapped his thigh, unable to hold back

Laugh out loud.

“You two are enough! The beasts have the slightest bit of pity, but the two of you don’t have any, you are simply inferior to the beasts!” I said indignantly.

“Hahaha! Jingjing, you are our source of happiness!”

“Without you, our two sessions would be withered. Hahaha!”

Two people went from sincerely comforting me to mocking me brazenly.

With these two friends around, no matter how much sadness I have, it can be turned into a joke in an instant, making me not know whether to laugh or cry, and my tears all shrink back.

At this time, a group of people came out from the door of the bookstore. It was Gao Zhan and the others, and they were short and fat.

Chunky walked up to me and sincerely apologized again: “Xu Jingjing, I’m sorry, I didn’t mean it. Please don’t take it to heart.”

I can’t blame him for this incident today, but the trampling and the “Carmen” incident a few days ago can still be used as a joke today, so why don’t I take it to heart. I turned my head angrily, ignoring him.

Xiong Shuai saw that I was angry and kept silent, so he said: “Hey, Jingjing, I asked Jiawei just now, I really can’t blame him for this, it can only be said that it was a coincidence. He didn’t mean to trip you up and hold you down. Just forgive him.” After speaking, he couldn’t help laughing a few times. Several other boys also laughed.

I knew this was the result, how could this be to persuade and comfort people? It’s obvious to have fun. I gritted my teeth, tightened the straps of my schoolbag with both hands, turned around and left.

At this time, Gao Zhan, who had been silent, suddenly stopped me: “Xu Jingjing, your elbow is bleeding.”

I looked down, and sure enough, there was a shallow incision on the left elbow, with blood oozing out. must have been me

When he fell on the stack of books, he was accidentally scratched by a sharp page. It must be that I have done too many shameful things recently, and I am tired and completely dull and don’t even know the pain.

“Jingjing, I happen to have a Band-Aid here.” Xu Jingjing looked at my wound and immediately took out a small cloth bag from her schoolbag. She took out a Band-Aid and tore it open, carefully sticking it on my elbow. On the wound, “Okay! I’m often prone to injuries when dancing, so my mom told me to carry a Band-Aid with me.”

Xu Jingjing smiled at me, that smile was sweet and lovely. She gestured “OK” to Gao Zhan and the others. I finally understood why so many boys like her? Who doesn’t like such a gentle, considerate, kind and warm-hearted girl?

Jingjing and Jingjing sometimes sound like there is no difference. Because I grew up together, and I was often mentioned by adults as the child of the next door neighbor, I have always hated her in my heart. Saying it is hate is actually more often jealous. I suddenly felt ashamed of my small eyes. The mother-in-law has never criticized anything wrong. It is obviously my own laziness and lack of progress, but I have to try my best to find excuses.

“…Thank you, Jingjing.” I sincerely thank you.

“Thank you. You’ve made me feel embarrassed about your effort.” Xu Jingjing waved her hand.

The boys looked at Xu Jingjing with admiration and approval.

With Xu Jingjing as a comparison, I felt that I couldn’t be a stingy girl, so I turned to the chubby girl and said, “It’s none of your business, it’s my own carelessness. You’re not hurt, are you?”

Chubby was slightly startled, he didn’t expect that I would take the initiative to care about him.

Some foolishly shook his head, “I’m fine.”

“Okay, the misunderstanding is cleared up. Let’s go, let’s go to the Starbucks in front of you to eat something.” Xiong Shuai clapped his hands excitedly, hooked his chubby shoulders, “walk around.”

Lu Xiaobai and Wang Jiayao bumped against my arm, signaling whether to follow me. I wanted to refuse, but unexpectedly, when Gao Zhan passed by me, he smiled lightly and said, “Let’s go together.”

Looking at his warm and infectious smile, my heart was pounding in my chest,

Lu Xiaobai and Wang Jiayao took my hand, bit their ears and said, “Stop being hypocritical! Your hot eyes have betrayed you.”

Alas, I really don’t want a little privacy in front of these two goblins. I pointed at Gao Zhan’s back and said, “Thank you just now…for reminding me.”

Gao Zhan didn’t look back, but I saw the side smile on his face when he was talking with Xiong Shuai and the others, and that smile represented what he wanted to say.