LIGHTNOVELONLINE Ch 50. A truth between the lines
I corrected my sitting posture and prepared to listen.
While I still have a lot of reasons to distrust the goddess I still am a hostage to her whims and all I can do is to hope that now she will finally tell me the truth.
“Come here, kid.” Normally she tried to look dignified but now she just said that with some detachment from the reality. I even thought that a melancholy got her for a moment.
“There is no deep meaning in this. You are a dumb child who needs to be taught everything. And if you will be closer it will be easier for me to smack you when you keep acting like an imbecile.” Okay, she just gave up trying to make me think and resorted to violence.
“Well, sorry, I am not an omnipotent someone who can guess everything just like [SMACK] AUCH!” Even if I tried explaining myself she just hit me.
“Listen, kid, you don’t get anything so let me be honest. You are a complete idiot. You either brute force your way through, or just try to use your insolence to make the others go out of your way. Even this Akagi-sama thinks you are on the brink of no return.”
[What the hell she means?]
‘SMACK’
“As I said, you should try to reflect on your actions and see what you did wrong. You had some time to think, your answer?” Akagi was sitting in front of me, she went down from the pillows and now we are on the same level, I can see that I am slightly higher.
After her meaningful look I answered.
“I should’ve taken my maids with me? Like friendship, more people, help?”
‘SMACK’
While previously Akagi hit me with her fan, now she hit the top of my head with her little fist. By looking at her one could think that she is fragile and can’t even hurt a fly.
[IT HURTS!]
She almost crushed my skull with that hit.
When I managed to lift my head and look at her with teary eyes, I didn’t find a child. Instead there was a figure of a beautiful lady which radiated majesty and strength. Not to mention that she was much more gifted than me.
“Listen, child, for I am tired of this.” Her deep and strong voice made me shiver in awe. This is what you’d expect from a goddess, not that little brat…
‘SMACK’
“Impudent filth, who let you think badly of My appearance?” Now I was not only in awe but also in fear.
“Khm… Akagi-sama thinks you understood my position.” Suddenly she turned back into her child-like image.
“…” I was still too terrified of her previous actions to raise any voice and obediently sat and was ready to listen.
“You were a human, and now you have to act as somebody else. That is your problem.” Her answers keep being unconnected, as her actions.
“Akagi… sama, why is that my problem?” Pleasedon’tsmackpleasedon’tsmackpleasedon’tsmack.
“You are no longer ‘you’.”
[What a brilliant answer, I am no longer ‘I’. Thank you, that explains a lot.]
‘SMACK’
“Now that your puny brain started working, let me explain the rest. You were a human and had you personality, then an idiot reincarnated you here as a kitsune, whose personality is completely different from your normal. And also the idiot god forced you to act as that person while you know nothing, which made you do stupid things to which you grew accustomed.”
‘Clanging of the brain cogs’
‘Smacking of the part of the head above those brain cogs’
‘Incomprehensible shouting and whine’
After I calmed down and stopped crying I looked at Akagi and waited for her to continue.
“Should I hit you again to make your thought process faster?” After I fervently shook the head the goddess continued.
“You are no longer a human and you had to change your lifestyle. The changes were to the worse and now you are a prideful sloth. You don’t try to use your brain to think and either follow the flow or make use of your brute force. You can’t win against the fog until you understand what you did wrong.”
“And suddenly you know how to fight with the fog when previously you said you know nothing.”
‘SMACK’
“It was naïve to think that you will be thinking by yourself, I acknowledge that mistake… That is why I now sit here and teach you. Akagi-sama wastes her precious time to babysit you and yet you still refuse to listen properly.” My grumbling was silenced by her words. I am so touched, you dou… never mind…
“One day you will have to make the decision, whether to stay like that and remain a d*bag, or to try and change yourself to completely embrace one of the sides. You can’t pass the fog without understanding this. Now get out of my sight and don’t come back until you understand that.” She dismissed me and stood up. She summoned a torii gate out of nowhere and disappeared through it.
[Will I have to throw myself at the wall until I realize what she meant with that nonsense?]
With that thought I returned from the god’s realm.