Chapter 66: The Mind
"Shut up, you idiot you will awaken the sleeping children and is that all you gathered from my story," she screams at him.
Lex realised just how much of a life the woman before him lived and she is hundreds of years old, but what she said last really struck him and made him reevaluate his life.
He knew that he had mental issues and he was bipolar and unstable, but he felt he was improving and becoming better the more he experienced and he was trying to balance both his sides.
On one hand, there is the bullied Lex who wants to be a hero and wants to be good, while the Originator Eye Demon within him or Evil Lex is unrestrained and doesn't care about anything and wants to do as he pleases.
The mix of the two created a Lex who since integrating with the Eye System has switched aims all the time and the only thing that he was sure about was protecting Angela and Ella and both sides of him agreed they were willing to do anything no matter how evil to do so.
"Thank you, senior," he says respectfully as he stood up and sat in the corner of the large room with many beds.
Streaming his memories within his mind from when he was pushed off the cliff integrated with the Eye System, and when he was in the Mortal Beast Dimension, he realised since he integrated with the Eye System he has been under consistent immense pressure.
Lex wanted to be both good, but be able to commit sins such as killing without guilt. He kept thinking to himself that he was fine and focused on what was in front of him but he realised that he has been all over the place and had broken a space, went into a different reality all in the space of less than two months, and yet he was fine with all of it.
He wanted to be mature and be a man, yet knew he was only 14 and sometimes wanted to relax and not bear responsibility and pressure.
[System is there something wrong with me, am I crazy] he asks within his mind, beginning to doubt his sanity.
{Ding, the host is not crazy but is confused about yourself and keep telling yourself that you have a split personality and are thinking it into existence.
The host must find who he really is, what he is and what he wants to accomplish in his life, because right now you are running around like a headless chicken and before you know it, you will be in another reality due to your recklessness and instability} states the system.
[Who am I, I am Lex Black or so I have been told and was found alone at a crash site alone and have no family, what am I, hmmm, they say I am human, but that is not necessarily true, with such a mysterious Eye System and a Demon inside me I can't be human anymore.
What do I want to accomplish. From the rebel forces and wanting to be a hero, to being controlled by the Eye and massacring tens of thousands, and then breaking through the space to reach the Lower Plains and Lex realised that he had no solid aims in life and was only in the pursuit of Ella.
Lex knew that in this reality despite him being on a secluded continent, he knew in this reality he was in the Lower Plains from the energy in the air and the way people increase in strength, but they are still deluded by the concept of levelling.
[Ella won't love me in this reality unless I prove to her I am worth it and she doesn't know me in this reality, same with Angela who in this reality still sees me as a trash and someone that she pities and if I want her to rely on me I need to prove myself] he thought to himself.
The more Lex was thinking about himself and reality itself he was becoming angry, passionate, sad, all kinds of emotions surged within his body.
Eyes, the centre of emotion and emotion is what fuels your innate ability and can push someone to their limits and sometimes even surpass them.
Lex was being overwhelmed by everything and the more and more he thought about everything he was beginning to realise that the mind was one of the key elements of levelling or cultivation which most dismissed and he began to realise how important the mind was.
As all his emotions clashed and fought over control of his mind, Lex was in a weird state and his he had unconsciously activated the Spacial Eye.
Opening his eyes he looked around and saw he was in the dark and infinite void once again and felt that he was in the ethereal soul form he was in when switching realities.
"Shit" he screams as he closes his eyes again and when he opened them he was back in the orphanage and all the children and the old lady were watching him closely.
Lex was sweating profusely and all the veins in his body were bulging all around his body full of energy.
He had been absorbing energy without knowing the entire time he was in a weird state of understanding his mind and despite the feeling of being about to explode, Lex felt that he had improved massively in terms of his mental control.
Rapidly circulating the large amounts of energy within his body with his eyes closed, he could sense that the energy had a high affinity with his Spacial Eye and streaming it through his eye while circulating it through his body Lex felt his power rise massively.
After settling his energy and storing it within his dantian he felt his entire body rejuvenated.
[System what just happened and how come my energy rose massively and it all was of the spacial element] he asks within his mind, curious about the sensation he felt of being in the void.
{Ding, the host has accidentally unlocked the Mental Void Method} announces the system.
"Amazing" he exclaims as he jumped up.