Chapter K1 - I Love Onee-sama
Last night was incredible.
Onee-sama touched me in places I didn't know could feel like that. I've fallen in love with her all over again. I think she was lost in thought at first, but when she concentrated on it, it was so good that my mind was blown away. I couldn't form a single thought, other than wanting more. It went on a long time and at the end, my mind went completely blank.
In class I can't really concentrate after what happened. Lenoly asks me what it is, but I don't think I should talk about it. I mean, it's not something other should know about, right? It's something between just Onee-sama and I. Lenoly looks unhappy when I don't tell her, but another girl whispers to her. I think her name was Vitalis? Then Lenoly's face becomes red and she doesn't ask anymore. What happened? What did she tell you? Now I want to know...
At lunch I greet Onee-sama with a little more dignity. Lenoly told me that I shouldn't jump at her every time I see her, because it's really childish. But I still long for her smell, it calms me down. I hug her tightly, but I always have to be careful with my right arm... Ahhh, I love it when she pet my head like this, it gives me a warm feeling all over my body.
After lunch, Onee-sama is called to the back of the library by someone. She tells me to wait around the corner when we get there, but I can't help but want to know who it is. I peek and see that it's that girl with the wings. She was mean to me the first time we met, and she looks at Onee-sama in a way I don't like...
It looks like Onee-sama and her have become friends. But what we did last night has a much deeper meaning than just a hug, I know it.
Last night, the girl with the wings, Hestia, stayed in our room. But Onee-sama and I still slept in the same bed, and she didn't bother us, so everything is alright.
We go to take a bath in the big bathhouse together in the morning. In the changing room we meet that girl we traveled with. I think her name is Luna? They talk about some rumor about Onee-sama, and then about the one named Rolan. I'm not really interested. I want to go and take a bath already.
It's my first time in a place with such a big bathtub! Onee-sama is washing Hestia's back, so I'll wash hers. This cursed arm, I hate it, but Onee-sama said she likes it, so I'm happy... With only one hand it's really difficult, but I have to endure it, for Onee-sama. She seems really fascinated by those wings, though... uhhh... I can't take it anymore! I tickle her to get her attention. Ah, she seems really weak against it. This is great to know~
Onee-sama washes my back before we get in. She takes me in her lap, the place I feel most at ease in. Onee-sama really knows what I like.
"Payback!" Onee-sama tightens her hug, bites my ear and tickles my chest.
"Hwah!" I thought I was safe, but it was an ambush! "Onee-samaaahn!" It begins to feel hot in that place... but Onee-sama stops. Uhhh, you're too cruel.
Hestia and Onee-sama talk about something and the word corruption comes up. You mean like what caused me to be born like this? I look down on my right arm as they talk. It's lighter than it looks, but it's still inconvenient. Onee-sama said that it looks "cool", but I don't really understand what she means. As long as she likes it, everything is fine, but I'm still afraid to hurt her with it. Even if Onee-sama is a demon and has a strong body, I don't ever want to hurt her...
After the bath we each go back to our rooms. In ours, the strange doll named Senka greets us. Sometimes she's not moving at all for a long time, and sometimes she's talking about difficult things with Onee-sama. She has a bad attitude, but Onee-sama seems to like her. She was with Onee-sama first, so I can't complain. Still... our relationship is something special, right?
We wait for Hestia at the dorm entrance for a long time. Onee-sama looks worried and she asks the little girl with the animal ears for where Hestia's room is. I still don't know who she is, and even though she's smaller than I, Onee-sama is realyl respectful around her. What's with that?
When we go to Hestia's room, we find her collapsed with large gray spots on her wings. They were so beautiful and white before, but that looks really ugly. She seems to have a fever, and Onee-sama looks alarmed. I've never seen her like that before... would she do the same if it was me?
No, I shouldn't think like that. Onee-sama is the first person to give me so much warmth... I'm sure she would do the same for me...
Onee-sama was called to the principal's office after telling that girl in front of the dorm about Hestia's state. She tells me to wait for her return, but a teacher tells me to go to classes. I don't listen to him. Onee-sama will come back and I'll be waiting for her. So I wait with the doll girl, who's sitting on the bed and not moving at all. I can't tell what she's thinking.
When Onee-sama returns, she seems to be in a bad mood. When she sees me, she tells me to go to class, since I'll fall behind in studies, but I want to be by her side when she's like this. So Onee-sama lies down in bed and doesn't want to do anything anymore afterwards. I lie next to her, but I know not to bother her while she's thinking. Senka is talking to her and using difficult words I don't understand, but I think it must be something important.
I feel Onee-sama's hand on my head, but it feels different than it usually does. It's like she isn't really here. Uhhh, I don't want Onee-sama to be like this... ah, I remember. When she did that, I was really happy, so maybe I can do it for her.
I touch Onee-sama's lips with mine, but I don't really remember how she did it that night so I don't know what to do. But it helped. Her moods seems to get better and she smiles at me. Ahhh, I'm happy when Onee-sama is happy...
Over a week has passed since Hestia was taken away. Onee-sama's mood has improved a lot, but I can feel that she still thinks about her. It's clear that she likes Hestia very much. She hasn't done anything like that night with me since, but I can't blame her. At least she's attending classes normally and when a raven came today to deliver her new schedule, she looked really interested in it.
"Good night, Kamii-chan." She says and switches off the light with a chant. I still don't understand what the chan behind my name means, but she only calls me that way. Just like when I call her Onee-sama. I'm really happy that there's something between us that nobody else seems to have.
When I wake up in the morning, Hestia is in the room. She has changed. Her wings are completely black and her eyes are red. It's a little scary. Her expression when looking at Onee-sama is really scary, too. But it seems Onee-sama knows what happened, since they talk to each other normally. What is this feeling in my chest... it's tight...
We leave the dorm and a lot of people, maybe all teachers, are waiting for us outside. Some are angry and they all look at Onee-sama. The woman with red hair shouts at her in an angry tone. I don't like this... it reminds me of when I was still in that cage...
Hestia stands up to defend Onee-sama. Isn't she scared? She's spreading her wings to cover her, while I'm only hiding behind Onee-sama's back. No, I can't always be the one to be protected. It doesn't matter if I'm scared. If they attack Onee-sama, I won't run or hide. I fought for her under the mountain, even if only for a little. I will do it again, no matter against what kind of enemy.
But the principal comes and stops the teachers. Hestia and he talk to each other, and her attitude is completely different now. She seems like a real adult... Uhhh, I hate to admit it, but I should learn from her. Then she speaks to the woman with the red hair. I think they know each other really well, because when Hestia tells her to go home, the woman is really sad and begins to cry.
I think everything is alright now. The principal tells everyone to go to their classes and the teachers begin to leave. But suddenly the woman shouts and explodes in fire. She turned into a dragon! The dragon looks at Onee-sama, but Hestia steps between them without any fear. I don't think I would've been able to do it...
The dragon flies away without attacking. I'm really relieved, but I can't show it, since I'll appear weak. I don't want to feel so helpless...
On our way to the canteen, Hestia and Onee-sama are talking to each other as if nothing happened. Hestia's attitude is completely different from when she told the dragon woman off. I can see that she really likes Onee-sama... uhhh, I like her more! I grab Onee-sama's sleeve.
"Do not worry, Kamii. Chloe has enough for the both of us." Oh, is she saying Onee-sama will give us equal attention? I hope that's true...
In the canteen everyone stares at us. But it's a strange feeling, because they aren't looking at me. They stare at Hestia's black wings. For the first time, someone else is taking away all the attention from me. This is such a strange feeling.
"All these gazes on us... tell me if anyone dares to do something to you." Onee-sama says during breakfast. She means if someone is bullying us? I was expecting it to happen, but not only has nobody done that to me here, some are even really friendly. Especially Lenoly. Onee-sama has found a great place in this academy, for her and for me.
At lunch, the girl named Luna comes to talk to Onee-sama.
"All of you accepted Kamii into the party, despite the fact that she is a cursed child shunned by everyone else. None of you ever showed any apprehension in her presence. For that I am quite grateful." Onee-sama pets my head when she says this. Yes, the humans in her group were the first to not look at me like I'm a monster or a curiosity. For that I have to thank them, too.
Then Onee-sama tells Luna that she is a demon. Maybe there was no way to hide it anymore. While Luna doesn't show anger or fear, she is nervous... I don't like that attitude. When Onee-sama invites her to eat with us, she makes excuses and quickly leaves. I think she is actually afraid after all...
"Hey, I'm Akyna Requin. I heard you're a demon." At dinner a boy comes to us and speaks to Onee-sama. He looks really strange, with inverted eyes and sharp teeth. He must be a demon. But I don't really care, as long as he's only talking.
Still, I'm listening to what he says on the side. He wants us to become friends with him or something. And then he mentions a Demon Mages Society. A meeting place for demons? Onee-sama seems interested now, so I pay more attention. It's decided that we go there after we finish dinner.
We follow this boy called Akyna Requin and go past the dorms, to a place with several warehouses. I don't like it here, I have bad memories with warehouses. I've been left in those for days, all alone or surrounded by cages filled with wild animals and beasts, many times... But we don't go into one. Instead, there is a pile of crates and barrels, and a hidden door opens into a room as big as the one we live in.
Lenoly and that girl called Vitalis are here! And my teacher is here, too. I don't like his voice, but the girls in my class do, so I can't show anything. And I think Onee-sama likes it, too. Her expression changes whenever she hears it.
I don't really understand the introduction, but I think this is a group where you can talk with other demons about your problems at the academy. Since everyone is a demon here, they share similar troubles. But Hestia and I aren't demons, so there isn't much we can say. I'll just chat with Lenoly. Ah, there she comes.
"Um, it is nice to be able to talk to you." Vitalis says to Onee-sama. Hm?
"I really admire you!" Lenoly adds. I told them a lot about Onee-sama, but to think they would begin to feel that way. I never thought that would happen.
"... I may have fallen for you." Vitalis confesses to Onee-sama. What? Does that mean that... she loves Onee-sama? But she never met her before, right? When I look to Lenoly, she doesn't seem the same. So it's only Vitalis?
"Ah, that reminds me. What does Oneh Sama mean?" Lenoly asks. Ah.
"It means big sister in the language from my... hometown. It is used to address someone you look up to like an older sister." Onee-sama explains like it doesn't mean much... I thought it was something between just us two...
"Is it alright if I call you that, too? Onee-sama?" Vitalis immediately begins to use it. No, don't call her that... only I'm allowed to call her that...
Before Onee-sama can say anything, the teacher speaks up and everyone goes quiet. I can't understand anything he says because I'm thinking about the relationship between Vitalis and Onee-sama now...
"I... I think I am in love with Onee-sama." W-what? Vitalis says this in front of everyone. They look confused, but I know who she means... no, stop! My chest hurts...
"Love between two girls? That's unnatural!" One of the boys says and my heart drops. I love Onee-sama, too. Is that unnatural? Is it causing problems for her?
"That is a wonderful thing, Miss Vitalis." And the teacher is encouraging her now. I don't like that he thinks it is a good thing when it's about Vitalis and Onee-sama, but I trust his words over those of a stupid boy at any moment. It is a good thing, right, Onee-sama? You love me, too, don't you? I look down at my cursed arm and I feel my heart wavering...
My mind begins to wander. I can't begin to doubt everything up until now. Onee-sama rescued me and even if she doesn't actually love me, I love her more than anything. I'm happy as long as she doesn't throw me away. I don't care what she does to me, I will always love her...
"C-can we p-please address the f-fact that M-Miss Marcott is a Crawling Chaos?" A gasp running through the room brings me back. What happened? Everyone looks really scared all of a sudden, with some even backing away - and they all stare at Onee-sama. Even the teacher is afraid.
"Are you a scion of the demon lord?" He asks her, and she says she is. Does that mean... Onee-sama is the daughter of the demon lord? People said that the demon lord is the cause of my curse, for my right arm to be like this. But now... I'm confused. Onee-sama says she was exiled by the demon lord because she rebelled against her. No, she doesn't have anything to do with what happened to my arm...
The teacher quickly stops the meeting and sends the others away, leaving only Onee-sama, Hestia and I. Also, the girl who pointed out Onee-sama's identity is still here. I don't like her for causing trouble for Onee-sama...
"From your relationship with these two I can gather that you have absolute trust in them?" The teacher asks. He means Hestia and I.
"Yes, I do." Onee-sama answers without a moment of doubt. My heart skips a beat. She pets my hair and I hug her. I shouldn't have ever doubted Onee-sama. She said that she would never abandon me... how could I ever doubt her? I-
We go back to the dorm after the meeting has ended. When we arrive, Onee-sama suddenly sticks her hand inside her body and pulls out a leather bag. From inside, she takes out a piece of leather, the map she showed Senka and me before. There are words written on it, but I can't read them.
Onee-sama's expression becomes confused, and Senka begins to move even though Hestia is here. But Onee-sama said that she trusts her, so knowing about the doll girl should be no problem. Onee-sama and Senka begin to talk about complicated stuff again. Memories, conspiracy... I don't really understand, but I can see that they are tense. It seems to be something really important, so I don't want to interrupt them.
"We can't let anyone know that we have this information." Onee-sama looks at me and I understand what she means.
"I won't tell anyone, Onee-sama. I promise!" I need to show confidence.
"I understand, Onee-sama." Hestia responds as well and my heart drops again. No, don't you start calling her like that, too... ahhh, but I need to be more like an adult. Jealousy is really childish, they said in class. For Onee-sama's sake, I need to become more mature.
Onee-sama speaks about Hestia gaining a curse. Does it mean she has become the same as I? They did talk a lot about her becoming corrupted. So that's what those black wings and red eyes mean?
"Now, for you, Kamii-chan." Onee-sama turns to me. Hm? "Regarding that arm of yours."
"This?" I show her my right arm.
"Remember what you did under the mountain? When we were surrounded by trolls and you hit some of them with your claw? I believe that your curse allows the strength in your arm to be increased every time you hit someone with it." Onee-sama says and has a serious expression. She means when I hit those little monsters that attacked her. Yes, it felt like I had more strength in my arm whenever I hit one.
She asked me to hit her before... was it to see if what she just said is true? Then that means I have some power? I can be of help to Onee-sama? I have to test it, learn it and master it, so that I can help her and protect her, like Hestia did this morning. Then Onee-sama will love me the most.
After a while of talking, we prepare to go to sleep. Hestia is staying the night, but she doesn't like Senka, so Onee-sama has to take the doll girl into our bed. Uhhh, she's between us and I can't feel Onee-sama's warmth...
The next day Onee-sama seems really restless during the meals. She finishes quickly and takes several servings so that I can't keep up with her at all. Her body is really mysterious and it's completely different from mine, after all.
After dinner we go to the library. I can't read, but Onee-sama is still taking me along, so I can't be a bother to her while she's reading. But I won't give up my place on her lap to anyone, not even a book! When Onee-sama picks up her books and sits down, I sit in my spot. She pets my hair while reading, and I enjoy the silent time with her.
But it seems Onee-sama doesn't find what she wants in the books she has with her, so she picks me up from her lap to go back to the shelves. I follow her and watch her look over the books restlessly, without finding what she wants even there. She's a little unhappy when we leave the library, but there is a hint of a plan in her eyes. I've seen it before a few times. I think it's when she becomes a little childish.
When we're back at the dorms, Onee-sama suddenly takes off her clothes and hugs Senka. Ahhh, not fair, me too-ohhh no, never mind...
Onee-sama swallowed the doll girl into her body and walks to the bathroom door. She sticks her finger in the keyhole and stops moving for a while. Then, all of a sudden, her body shrivels up and disappears through the keyhole. Onee-samaaaaa!!! What happened to you?!!!
But I hear her and Senka's voice muttering on the other side of the door.
"Onee-sama?" Both Hestia and I ask towards the door. She comes out a moment later with Senka in her arms. They're both fine. But how did she do that? How did they fit through that small keyhole? Is it magic?
"In either case, I'll be going to the library with Senka and stay there for the night." She says. You're going and want to let me sleep alone? I don't want to sleep alone ever again, Onee-sama! Of course I protest, but... I can't beat her in the end, as always. I have to be a good girl and listen to Onee-sama.
Sitting in the room with Hestia is really dull. I don't have anything to do and I don't want to sleep without Onee-sama. I'll wait for her return, even if she only comes back in the morning and I don't get any sleep at all...
"Kamii, what do you say we surprise Onee-sama when she returns?" Hestia suddenly says. "Remember what you did to her in the bath?" The tickling that was very effective? "Let's do that as punishment for leaving us both behind like this." She winks to me. I don't want to do something like "punish" Onee-sama, but I'm a little unhappy that she left me behind. Maybe it's a good idea after all.
A long time goes by until I hear footsteps in the hallway. I have really good ears, so I hear them before Hestia does. We switch off the light in the room and take up our positions at the door. At this time, only Onee-sama could be the one coming down the corridor, towards the very end of the building where this room is. She stops in front of the door for a long time and I hold my breath. Did she see through us? Then she finally opens it.
"Welcome back, Onee-sama~" Hestia and I say at the same time and tackle her. Then we pull her into the room, causing her to drop Senka. Punishment time!
"Ahahahaha, stohohohohop! I don't hahahahave time fohohohor thiiis!" I feel Onee-sama's body hardening under the clothes and see her right hand turning into tentacles. That's her real appearance, which she showed me once on our travels. I watch as she puts it under Hestia's skirt, causing her to make a really strange face and collapse to the ground. Wh-what just happened?
Onee-sama wiggles her hand in front of my face and I recognize the distinct motion. Ahhh my entire body tingles just seeing it and my knees go weak. Uhhh, I think my important place just became wet...
Then I watch Onee-sama reach inside her own body and pull something out. When it falls to the floor, all thoughts of pleasure are blown away. What's this mess... wait, there's a face. Is this... Vitalis? What happened to her?