Dark Seduction

I woke up this morning feeling like crap running to the restroom , I barely managed to squat before the content of my stomach spewed from my lips. I kept throwing up until there was nothing left, even then I continued retching, until I felt the door upon and Diane squatted beside helping me to my feet, flushing down the gruesome content of my stomach I tried not to throw up all over the place, I was then led to the sink where she handed me a minty mouth wash.

I managed to rinse out the remnant of the foul taste from my mouth, unconsciously obeying her silent command, The whole room still spurn such that for an instant there, I couldn't grasp the decoration nor the building I stood in. The intense pounding in my head made me want to just go curl into a ball and die.

Silently, I swore never to touch alcohol anymore but this was the second time breaking my oath , after washing my mouth and splashing my face, I could finally stand steadily on my two feet, seeing this Diana finally gave me the privacy i so desperately sought , I proceeded to strip myself and turn the shower on. The concept of being alone had been ingrained into me such that the concept of standing utterly nude in front of another person made me break out in a cold sweat, due to th fact that I hated my body,Setting the shower such that the intensity was almost blistering and I proceeded to take the much-needed bath.

The bath helped relived the intense pain I was feeling. unfortunately my head still hurt. When I stepped out from the shower , I felt better and my friends were chatting away looking extra chipper and cute as though we didn't just spend the whole of the night partying after getting drunk the night before at my house. Our feet were mercilessly stomped on as we danced and drunk to a stupor each person become as clumsy as their dance partners and giggling stupidly at nothing.

None of them were looking as bad as I did, even Nancy who took an extra swig of whiskey with me that night looked exuberant and happy she didn't look sleep-deprived as I felt. They continued chatting like old friends not paying me any heed to my dark mood which further irritated me, leaving in a huff I went to the kitchen where Maya was preparing breakfast and asked her if she had any aspirin thankfully she did and handed me two pills and a glass of water which I took gratefully quenching my patched lips.

While she fussed over how pale and sleep deprived I looked, my stomach seemed to settle a bit and i decides to have an apple from the fridge and a bar of chocolate, honestly Maya usually frowned at it, because she felt eating in-between meals ruined once appetite but honestly she wasn't my parent and honestly it wasn't her money that was used to stock the fridge. 

She seemed to sense I was not in a good mood and sensible keep her opinions to herself. My stomach miraculously felt better after that and I headed back towards my friend a bit of my earlier temper tantrum completely gone but I was still extremely tired and sleep deprived.

My father didn't take kindly to me messing around. The expected me to keep my head low as always spend as much money as I wanted without bothering them and his daughter taking alcohol would have killed me, maybe I would even become homeless.

Partying was exhilarating although a bit exhausting.you get to dance, the music was amazing and make you not to think. You meet extremely handsome guys you would never would have had the chance of meeting. You got to wear revealing dresses were open minded people would not frown at you.

I felt beautiful that night away from the cares that usually plagued me, I was free because I knew that no one would remember me after the night. A tall dark haired handsome man offered to buy me a drink, I looked at my friends and they winked at me giving me their approval and showing me they had my back. I went to the bar with him, he ordered the drinks, after like three rounds we danced in close proximity.

His hand was around my waist most of the times, but when his hands slid to cup my ass, I allowed him partly because I was drunk and I wanted to feel something, he was not Max but for one night I didn't want to be hung up on Max. I felt nervous because I have never been in such close proximity with a man.

He leaned in to kiss me, giving me a chance to say no and when I didn't he deepened the kiss, I clutched his shirt while he deepened the kiss. I was hot , I wanted more of something I couldn't quite name, his hands fixed more firmly against me as he grinded harder against me. Oh mind you I didn't even know his name, I had this awful habit of not asking people their name and he didn't ask mine either.

It was, we were not expecting anything more than some fun, probably a one night stand or something. "You should come with me". That seemed to clear my head completely and I slowly came back to reality. I realized I didn't want my first time to be a one night stand no matter how hot he was, I wanted something more, something that actually mattered.

I think he noticed a shift in my mood,"I thought you wanted this?" Am sorry, I said pulling away from him and jogged to join my friend, I almost regretted it but oh well that boat has sailed, because few minutes later I saw him leaving with another cute brunette, honestly I felt a bit jealous and bereft, but I was glad I didn't start something i would regret.

Left to me I wanted to call in sick and not attend classes, but I knew better Maya was already suspicious, the quick glances she cast my way said it all and I had to avoid arousing her suspicion any more than it already was, if I skipped school Maya would conclude immediately that the illness was severe which would automatically lead to a blood test and also the discovery that I had been drinking, and all hell would let loose.