Dark Seduction

FLASHBACK HIGH SCHOOL

(6 Years ago)

LEILA'S POV

I could almost see my stupidly naive self all over again, I had sneaked into the locker room when I thought no one was looking, in there I was in danger of getting caught, but Max was worth all that.

My heart thumped with anticipation, I could almost picture us together, a couple, being that he saved me, he must have been totally attracted to me right and he even took me to his home in his arms, he may just be shy to approach me directly, but if I approached him first he would definitely say yes.

Thankfully I had come in when the guys had all put on their training shirt and were about leaving, they were so loud and engrossed in their numerous conversation about women that they didn't notice me and I rejoiced at that fact this required secrecy, because if it didn't work out i could still save face. 

Their loudness and boisterous attitude stopped them from seeing me on my perch inside one of the lockers my heart stopped in my chest the instant the owner reached in to grab his gym clothes thankfully he was absent-minded, gosh their sweatshirt stunk, I breathed through my mouth in an attempt to prevent the horrible acrid smell that assaulted my senses and prevented me from breathing properly it was either endure the smell and stay still or hold my breath which I can't do for too long and end up hyperventilating drawing undue attention to me, And I doubt I would be able to explain away my reason for being there.

I would automatically be termed a slut and allegation I didn't know existed would be leveled against me. Honestly I wanted to get this over with and get some sleep, I had been so excited about the whole prospect that I didn't get to sleep a wink, i kept turning and tossing on my bed.

You see I have liked max for so long considering he saved me the other day, I bought him a whole box of chocolate and a love confession, I shuddered to think of even revealing such a thing to another soul, I wisely chose the latter waiting for the perfect opportunity. 

I waited in the guys' locker room until it emptied out leaving only my very own heartthrob Max, considering he saved me from my near death experience at the rooftop it was too far assuming that he actually felt something for me, but Nancy had given me the push she asked me to try, gripping the chocolate I bought, I made my presence known by opening the door but the effect that had been quite not what I had expected even if not admiration but not the look of shock and fear I saw on his face.

"Wow hello you're the girl from the rooftop right?you scared me what are you doing here? Are you waiting for someone?".

I looked up at him a bit tongue-tied, embarrassed and completely overwhelmed by the question, As if sensing my distressed, he lifted a brow and a hint of a smile seemed to play at the corner of his lips completely relaxing me.Taking that as a positive sign I rushed to him handing him the chocolate and looking expectantly up at him with all the love and adoration I felt shinning fort from me. Max I like you, no love you if there is any better adjective to describe it, that's what I feel for you. I extended the chocolate if you accept just have the whole box of chocolate.

The smile never left his face, but his next words broke my heart to pieces." 

Have you ever been rejected by the man you really liked and saw as your savior? Well if you haven't you have my congratulations, the shame is nothing you would ever hope to experience again, you would wish the ground would swallow you whole but it wouldn't, you would feel completely like a floundering idiot, regret would come but it would be too late to do anything about bit. Every word the utter in turning you down no matter how mild would seem like thunder clap to your ears.

The room spurn as I leaned against the the locker while max struggled to find the right words to save me from the humiliation, I had even worn my best lipgloss , it was cherry flavoured, how awfully stupid of me. "Thanks I guess but Leila just because I saved you that one time doesn't mean i am interested in you" he said thrusting the chocolate back into my hand," you eat it, I think you would need it more". 

He left in a hurry as if I was the hoard of hounds from hell, I stood their shaking as the tears came and I held into the box and cried, the sob burst out racking my every nerves, and my heart ached the only time I had felt pain like this was when my grandma died. I felt as if my insides were completely shriveling up.

Why me?, why could I never get anything I wanted no matter how hard I worked for it, why was I average, why did my life to out to be like this,I didn't deserve this, I wondered at my existence, I wished Max hadn't saved me that night. 

If his goal was to save me and then crush me, then he won, he had crushed me totally, I wished I could curl into a ball and just die but I knew i couldn't be found here by anyone , i could mourn my rejection later.

I looked at the chocolate in my hands it was looking like a curse, what did he mean by I needed it more, instinctively my intrusive thoughts took over and my hands cradled my fatty belly, and arm it was one of my biggest insecurities, I was completely stupid why did I think a fit handsome man like Max would want me? I was really really stupid and naive, I didn't know when I left the male locker room because my entire world tilted in it's axis, tears rolled down my eyes freely thankfully it was clear because the whole school was out for sport, I hoped Max kept it a secret, I should have begged him to.