Because I simply love you

The days went on, and two weeks passed by in the blink of an eye. Yukito only concentrated on his training the best he could while the rest of the time, he and Jing maintained their distance.

Jing sulked, even more, seeing Yukito so busy in the last fifteen days. He thought that Yukito might reduce his workload after their argument, but it was the opposite.

That firmly made Jing believe that maybe Yukito didn't really care at all about him. He complained about not getting time for him, but Yukito got even busier than expected because of the fashion show.

Tomorrow was finally the day for The Platinum Age Fashion Show.

Yukito was in his room, practicing in front of the mirror, when the door knocked.

Nana slipped her head in and smiled. "Can I come in?"

"Nee-chan," Yukito brightened. "Of course! You don't need to ask."

Nana brought a tray with delicious and his favorite food, whose smell immediately spread throughout his room.

"Mmnn yummy!" His mouth started to drool.

"Tomorrow is your big day so take this as your lucky charm," she laughed.

"Yup, yup!"

He already began to dig in the food. "Thank you, Nee-chan. I was feeling so nervous right now, but your food just made it poof in a second."

Nana smiled and pinched his cheek.

"So…"

Yukito popped in a shrimp and looked at her, "Hm?"

"I guess the most excited for tomorrow must be Jing."

His hand froze in mid-air.

"Oh…ah….yes…" he averted his gaze.

Nana asked, "What's wrong?"

"Nothing…Of course! Jing would be the most excited, haha…"

She smiled. "You know, the kids told me everything."

Yukito coughed hard. "What do you mean?"

"About your argument with Jing that almost lead to your breakup."

Damn!

He kept silent.

"Yukito, I know that you are not doing it on purpose, and you might have your own goal to reach to prove something to yourself or him. I have also noticed that you are busier nowadays and I hardly saw you two together even before these two weeks. I know you don't want to hurt Jing by not getting any time for him."

He said nothing.

"But the goal becomes more meaningful when you reach it with your partner, not leaving him behind."

Yukito stiffened.

"Because that way, Jing won't feel that he isn't a part of your life anymore. It's fine if you want to surprise him or keep it a secret from him for some time but let him know that you are doing everything just for him and nobody else. If you don't tell him that, he won't know, and that's when insecurity comes in. You cannot keep everything in your heart. Sometimes, you need words to get your feelings across."

Nana patted his head. "A relationship is more loving and enjoyable when you walk together, not when one person is in front and one in the back waiting for you. Make him a part of your decisions, your choices, and not push him away. Don't do everything on your own, Yukito. That's what our partners are for. They support us, and we support them. We walk together, we face hurdles together, and we reach our destination together. Isn't that more satisfying and enjoyable?"

Yukito's eyes watered, and he finally understood where he went wrong.

Nana said, "Even the times when Jing suspected of Wang Ling or any other fan and your closeness to them, he only did it because of his insecurity, thinking that you are drifting apart from him. Jing really loves you, and he trusts you just as much as he loves you. Do you think that he would ever believe that you will betray him?"

Yukito shook his head.

Nana smiled, satisfied. "En. So I think you know what to do now."

"Yes, Nee-chan," he wiped his eyes, "I know what to do now."

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Jing was sulkily doodling on the bar counter. Tomorrow was a big day for Yukito. He knew that as his lover, he ought to be there for him tomorrow, no matter if they were keeping their distance or not.

But he didn't feel like it to cheer him on. And now he was berating himself for thinking such useless and cruel things for Yukito.

Maybe after this show…he will finally get time for me?

Ahhhh!! I want to go, but I don't want to too. How can I be so heartless?

His shoulders slumped.

"Care for a drink, little bro?"

Jing raised his head and was surprised to see Jinhai beside him. He smiled as he poured some whiskey into two glasses.

"Here."

Jing took a sip.

Silence.

"Bro. Your kids are harsh. But sweet too…"

Jinhai chuckled. "What happened? Did they get annoyed at you for behaving that way to Yukito? But hey. They did console you too."

Jing widened his eyes. "Ugh…"

"Well, they couldn't do anything before Nana questioning them and not letting them go before she knew her answers."

Jing awkwardly smiled. "T-that is really nothing. It's just a small fight."

"That it reached till the point of an almost break up?"

He bit his lip.

Jinhai took a sip and then asked, "Say, Jing. According to you, who is chasing after who in your relationship?"

Jing sadly lowered his head. "Well, it was always me. I mean, I fell in love with him first and confessed to him. After that…well, things were pretty much the same. But sometimes…I really wish that Yukito comes after me too."

Jinhai raised his brow. "Is that what you think? Because from where I am standing and seeing you two, it is clear to me that Yukito is chasing after you for a long time now."

Jing jerked his head towards him in shock. "Huh? How?"

Jinhai thought for a moment before he spoke, "Jing, you are very vocal in your relationship, and that's a good thing. Communication and profession of your love and feelings are always healthy for a relationship."

He nodded.

Jinhai smiled. "But just because your partner isn't that vocal about it doesn't mean that he doesn't love you the same way and with the same intensity. You say that Yukito doesn't have time for you."

"Yes…"

"But did you try to think back and wonder why is that the case? Did you try to understand Yukito?"

"But he is busy because of his modeling work."

"So, try and think back again. Why is Yukito doing modeling in the first place? Yukito never struck me as a guy who would be interested in the entertainment or modeling industry. Did you?"

Jing blinked his eyes. "Ugh, no…"

Now that he thought about it, he was also shocked as hell to know that Yukito chose to become a model.

"So, why is he doing modeling and not anything else?"