chapter 889
889. [Western Front] – The Appearance of Sinchang Eustea (164)
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Sreuk!
When I clenched my hand, just as Eustea said, a spear appeared in my hand.
It was also Petelias, a spear I was very familiar with.
“… … .”
And the moment I closed and opened my eyes, the world reflected on my retina was immediately colored with gold. And the window I was holding was no different.
Barr.
My hand suddenly trembled as I held the spear, which was dyed in bright gold.
Rejection.
An intense feeling of rejection filled my heart and I refused to hold the spear.
“Is this really the only way?”
I turned my head and looked at him again.
Do we really have to aim our spears at each other, and is there really no other way?
“It’s the simplest and most reliable way to overcome erosion. “There is nothing better than this.”
“Why on earth should I kill you? “You, who are in front of me right now, seem vividly alive to me.”
“Because it seems that way to you, you will have to overcome me even more. “This is the only way to overcome erosion.”
His extremely calm voice spoke as if it was none of his business.
He tells me to kill myself.
“… … .”
So it was even weirder.
Now, in a way that I cannot even understand, that will clearly exists before me.
Even though his words were the same answer as the truth, I could not bring myself to aim my spear at him.
“… … .”
Even now, it seemed to glimmer before my eyes.
Memories of Eustea that I saw countless times when she was sealed.
Most of those memories were just a moment in time.
A time of suffering for nearly eternity after confronting the Apostle of the beginning.
No matter how many different memories I recall, he lived a life marked by pain for most of his life.
He endured and endured times when an ordinary person would have gone crazy even for a moment.
And after a long time, I finally faced death because of what gave me strength.
“Why are you so hesitant? You have no need to be afraid of anything or any reason to hesitate.”
That was correct.
He was already dead, so just because I could see his will didn’t mean I could see him as alive.
… … And even knowing that was difficult.
If it were other people I wouldn’t know, but I know Eustea’s life.
How much he sacrificed himself and ended his life with dedication.
If by any chance he had been appeased and existed as an apostle among the original apostles, the empire would have been destroyed a long time ago at that moment. Because no one could stop the power he had while he was alive.
However, even by dying like this, he was trying to sacrifice himself again.
By dying by my hands.
Trying to erase the effects of your own erosion.
Deciding that I couldn’t overcome it, I bided my time and left my will to die.
Tight.
I chewed my lips and barely got the words out.
“… “Aren’t you in pain?”
“pain? “Do you think I’m afraid of pain now?”
As he asked me, he even had a faint smile on his face. Even now, in my eyes, he looks like a complete wreck, but it’s as if he doesn’t know pain.
Slurp.
I shook my head as I lowered the spear blade to the surface of the blood-red sea. Let alone the will to fight, I didn’t have the slightest desire to face him.
“I will overcome this.”
“No, you cannot overcome my erosion.”
“… … Aren’t I the one who inherits your power? Then, I will overcome even erosion by demonstrating stronger will.”
I don’t want to kill the will left behind by the already dead person with my own hands.
That was my mind right now.
Because I understand his hard life that no one else can understand.
‘No, I have to understand too.’
No one understands Eustea’s life. The stories about him that are told in old books are probably completely divorced from his life.
But I, who knew that life, couldn’t hold out a window to him.
“under.”
He burst out laughing and a huge spiral appeared in his window, and the blood-red sea around him began to tremble greatly.
Clap la la la rock… … !
As if a huge storm were raging around him, huge waves rose. As the wave naturally began to have its effects on me, I just watched through the fluttering hair.
His brilliant appearance holding a spear.
Although he was clearly displaying his power, the level of spiral he unleashed was on a different level.
I felt it just by looking at it. Even when dealing with spirals, his spiral is far superior. Even though he embodies the same strength as me, he instinctively displays stronger strength.
So it felt more vivid.
The person in front of me is not just a will,
Additionally, he is trying to show me my current limitations with his own body.
“I’m not saying this because I underestimate you. Rather, the growth you have achieved can be said to be rapid growth that even I could not achieve in the past. It is no exaggeration to say that you have surpassed my expectations. Nevertheless, you cannot accept the erosion that you have to accept at your current level. “Your ego will collapse, and your heart will collapse.”
“… “So you’re saying I have to kill you?”
“okay.”
The calm voice did not deny my words.
Another death of your own.
He was calm while telling me that.
“… … “What if I don’t kill you?”
So I asked more.
“No, you will have to aim your spear at me.”
As if to assert himself, he raised his spear and aimed it at me.
Cheesy! Saaa… … !!
The huge storm air currents that surrounded the spear blade had suddenly fallen asleep and only enveloped the spear blade.
And that, too, was my strength.
“Surana Dock… … .”
He was even handling the power of my skills.
The airflow of the giant spiral is completely integrated with the spear blade and rotates at high speed.
“I will judge you by your strength, and I will drive you to your death. “It will be an ordeal you won’t be able to overcome without killing me.”
As he spoke glowingly, he slowly lowered his gaze and aimed his spear at me.
His black hair swayed slightly and I had to lift the spear in a daze.
My mind was blank.
There has never been a time when I faced someone like this and didn’t feel this bad about it.
No matter how much I trained, I always did my best, and I had to fight against someone stronger than me. It was a series of situations that forced my heart to burn at every moment.
But now.
… … Even though I was facing perhaps the strongest being I could face, my heart did not stand upright.
Swish!
It was that moment.
“… … !”
My eyes widened in an instant as I looked at Eustea’s hand that immediately thrust out the spear.
That was ‘Ilyeon’ of the Seven Suras that I played before I lost consciousness.
A strange manifestation of power that struck Anastasia by jumping through space and striking her with a spear from a distance.
Shoo!
The sharp anticipation that passed my cheek suddenly filled my heart with horror.
When I absentmindedly raised my hand and caressed my cheek, bright red blood was leaking out.
Even the pain was vivid.
… … I couldn’t understand it.
‘How can this happen?’
This space could never be real.
“Han Tiansheng. I’ll tell you in advance, you can never die in this space. “As the owner of this space, I will not allow that.”
There was a bitter coldness in his voice, which had no pitch or pitch.
“… … “That means.”
“It means that if you don’t kill me, you will never be able to wake up from the boundary of this consciousness.”
“Eusea!”
“Now that’s enough reason for you to kill me, right?”
The corner of his mouth curled up with a grin, and his eyes were still stained gold. He looked into those eyes and his heart sank.
‘The pain is vivid, but there is no death.’
I immediately finished judging the situation I was in.
Additionally, in this space, only Eustea will be killed by my spear.
It was an environment that went beyond common sense.
And that felt awful to me.
Rather than wondering whether I could defeat Eustea, Eustea was forcing another reality on me.
-If you don’t overcome yourself, you will be trapped here indefinitely.
And that contained only one reason.
“… … “If I don’t kill you, there will be greater erosion in reality.”
“I understand. So, I can’t send you back to reality. “You are a being who should never die.”
Seeing him agree without delay, I just let out a hollow laugh.
Eustea was paradoxically trying to save me by pointing her spear at me.
The moment he accepted me into his heart. He had probably known this would happen since the distant past.
So I left this arrangement.
I made a split-second judgment about what level I was in and what level of mind I had, and based on that judgment, I judged myself to be ‘impossible.’
It is impossible to overcome his erosion solely through my own will.
Sreuk!
Then, the hand holding the spear stopped trembling.
Seeing Eustea trying to throw out the spear again, I had to force myself to correct myself.
“… … Yes, let’s compete for sum.”
I once again realized my own shortcomings.
If only I could have had more faith in him, and if my heart had been stronger.
I wouldn’t have had to face him through the window.
‘Then this is also the moment to talk to Eustea.’
I wouldn’t have had to use his death as an excuse to talk about it.
In the end, I still wasn’t good enough.
Sreuk!
I tried to gather myself and faced him right in front of me.
“…….”
His strong-willed eyes made me realize again how great he was.
And he.
I was trying to recommit myself.
By his own death again.
This time, I am trying to save myself, not the empire.
That was a dedication I could never imagine.
…He left behind even the last fragments of his will, not for himself but for others.
That was the only truth I knew at this moment.
ㅡ!
At that moment, he kicked the ground in one go.
ㅡ!
As I was looking at that, I also had to jump off the ground at once.