Chapter 32 - 32.
Qin Yichuan was about to get back to her, but at this moment, her editor called.
“Yipan, how’s the new writing going?”
Qin Yichuan held the phone, thought about it for a while, and said, “I’m stuck. I wrote several versions, but I’m not satisfied.”
“How could it be? Otherwise, would you send me those versions to see? Sometimes it’s a bystander who doesn’t have a personal intuition.”
“A person who has been writing for several years still can’t tell whether what he has written is good or bad. It’s really not good.” On the contrary, she will know better than anyone else.
The shortcomings they pointed out, she herself knew long ago. Even the shortcomings that they did not find, she had already found very clearly.
Some newbies may be more unable to detect their own shortcomings. When writing something, they are completely indulged in the joy of creating a story by themselves, and they cannot tolerate others’ picks. They may even feel that they will only be discovered by Bole in the next second. , can become a famous writer.
Once someone points out the flaws, you will feel that the other party has eyes and ears.
But Qin Yipuan was not.
It’s just that her problem is that even if she is very clear, sometimes she may not be able to raise the overall level at once. This is the so-called master of the eye.
Some full-time critics will keep pointing out her shortcomings, as if she is afraid that she doesn’t know how **** she is, but in fact, she knows her shortcomings better than anyone else.
Therefore, the one who questioned her the most was actually not the critics who made their voices, but herself.
In fact, many things are like this.
There are some people who know what to do to be liked by everyone, survive in this world with ease, and get the desired harvest from it.
But it’s one thing to be clear, it’s another to really do it.
I know that although I don’t like that person, I should do my best to save face, but I can’t stand it because I can’t do it. It may be because of disdain, or it may be because you want to do it, but you really can’t pretend.
And Qin Yipuan’s current writing problem is that she actively wants to jump out of the circle she has drawn herself over the years to touch and describe new things, but she can’t do it.
Between the ideal and the reality lies a fault zone deeper than the Great Rift Valley.
“Did something happen to you? Or, have you been influenced by those who say you are lately? Leave them alone, one day BB… It’s impossible for everyone’s work to be liked by everyone. The…” After the editor finished speaking, he sighed.
“Okay, I know. I’m not competing with them at all, I’m just competing with myself.” In fact, it’s more or less influential. Even, based on the fact that she was already denying herself, she got another layer of pressure. If she has enough self-confidence and does not deny herself, it will not have any impact.
“Hey, okay. Then you adjust your state and don’t put too much pressure on yourself.” The editor finally said this.
After hanging up the phone, Qin Yipuan looked at the communication dialog with Yan Beiqi in a trance.
“Just kidding. I’m not unhappy now. I’m going to write a manuscript today, so I won’t go out. Have fun.” After Qin Yiquan finished sending it, he turned around to wash up, and then sat down in front of the computer in the study.
“Okay. However, I just received a temporary notice that I’m going on a business trip in the next two days, so maybe you can’t find me. If you have anything, please contact me on WeChat.” Yan Beiqi replied.
Qin Yipuan, who had turned on the computer and was about to concentrate on writing, was slightly stunned when he saw Yan Beiqi’s words.
“On a business trip? Then you… pack up and prepare first.” Qin Yipin replied.
“Well, I’ll pack up at night. Teacher Qin, have you had breakfast?”
Seeing this sentence, Qin Yi looked at the table, there was only a piece of mint chewing gum and a cup of hot water on it.
It was almost ten o’clock now, and she wasn’t hungry, so she ignored breakfast.
“That, eat.” In the end, Qin Yichuan lied casually.
She doesn’t feel hungry now and has no desire to eat.
“What did you eat?” Unexpectedly, Yan Beiqi continued to ask.
Qin Yipun smiled when he saw it, and then stroked his chin again. After thinking for a while, he replied, “Soy milk and a pancake fruit. It’s just sold at the Xu Ji breakfast shop not far from that community. It’s delicious. If you have time, go buy it and try it.”
“Mr. Qin, I happened to see it today. Xu Ji’s breakfast restaurant is closed. So how did you eat?” Yan Beiqi quickly exposed Qin Yipun’s lie.
“Okay, I’ll order takeout now.” Qin Yipour’s ears were burning.
She is a person who seems to be informal, but in fact, she always has red ears because of all kinds of little things in life.
After placing the order, Qin Yipun exhaled and looked at the table.
In the past, I always felt that being nagged was a very annoying thing, including my mother’s nagging, what to eat a little more and wear a little more.
But now I suddenly feel that it is really a very rare and warm thing to have such a person around me who cares about me.
After thinking about it, Qin Yipuan sent another message to Qianzi: “How good is the Xiaoya that Yan Beiqi told you before?”
After a while, Qianzi replied: “You still can’t let Yan Beiqi go? Anyway, it was fine. At that time, the two of them were quite close, alas, it was fine. Later… Xiaoya confessed, she I really turned my face and turned it thoroughly. Seriously, I think… Anyway, you can figure it out for yourself, after all, I can’t tell. “
That’s good, so what kind of good law is that?
Qin Yijuan frowned when he thought of this. Could it be that he treats her the same way he treats him now?
“Yan Beiqi, I want to ask you a question. Why are you being so kind to me?” After thinking for a while, Qin Yichuan sent Yan Beiqi such a message.
“Aren’t friends supposed to take care of each other?”
After Yan Beiqi sent these words, Qin Yichuan was silent for a long time.
Then she asked, “Really?”
“Yes.” Yan Beiqi replied.
“Ah, that’s true. I’m going to start writing.”
Ok. She got it.
Putting the phone aside, Qin Yipuan stared at the computer desktop for a long time.
Just now I felt like I was in an extremely warm world, but in a blink of an eye I felt like I was in a cold ice cave.
Then Qin Yichuan got up, walked to the bookshelf with his arms in his arms, took out a few books and flipped through them, but couldn’t read them.
Finally, she pulled out a few darts from the drawer, turned around and threw them silently at the target on the wall. Perfectly poked in the center of the target.
So, sure enough, let’s be friends! It’s okay, what are you thinking about!
afternoon.
After Yan Beiqi got together with her friends, when they left, she went to the supermarket with Qiu Yu.
There were couples flirting in the supermarket, so Qiu Yu sighed and said, “I really want to fall in love.”
Yan Beiqi glanced at her, then glanced at the couple lightly, and then went to checkout with something.
When queuing up, Qiu Yu glanced at the condoms on the shelf at the cashier, and suddenly said softly, “I’m so sick of it, I want to go for a one-night affair.”
Yan Beiqi turned to look at her: “Huh?”
After listening to Qiu Yu, he laughed, and then whispered: “They are all adults. How can I solve the physiological problem without a partner, right? Sister, I just want to make a good friend.”
Hearing this, Yan Beiqi turned his head to look at her: “But, didn’t someone say that if you don’t have love, you won’t feel much when you do that kind of thing?”
“Sister, I have already distinguished those. Physiology and psychology are two different things.” When Qiu Yu said this, she looked like a ruffian dressed as a lady.
“Okay.” Yan Beiqi nodded.
“Hey, I’m just joking. But Bei Qi, I’ve always been curious. You said that you haven’t touched a man or a woman for more than 20 years, and that you want to continue being single, just a little bit. Are there any needs in that regard?” Qiu Yu couldn’t help but asked her curiously.
“What can I need?” Yan Beiqi said that he didn’t quite understand what she was talking about.
“Other celibacy I know, they just don’t get married and don’t start a family, but that doesn’t mean they don’t fall in love. There are many celibacy, and they can be active in love. With all due respect, you are not celibacy, you are It’s just incompetent love.” Qiu Yu glanced at her.
“What love is incompetent…” After Yan Beiqi swiped his card to check out, he walked forward with his things.
“Go to Baidu by yourself.” Qiu Yu was too lazy to say any more.
After a while, Yan Beiqi turned to look at Qiu Yu and asked, “So, what does it feel like to like someone?”
After Qiu Yu heard this, she looked at her and thought for a moment: “I can’t tell, I just want to stick to that person anyway.”
“So if you don’t love each other, you don’t want to stick to each other, and you don’t want them to stick to you. Just like my parents, they have different dreams in the same bed. It seems that they are still together on the surface, but in private, they talk to each other for more than a word, which is disgusting. Trouble, isn’t it? Since there is a beginning, there is an end, so what’s the point of this in the end?” Yan Beiqi asked.
“Haha, this is really the most classic way of thinking about incompetent patients.” Qiu Yu shook his head after hearing this.
“Forget it, let’s go.” Yan Beiqi didn’t know what to say, just walked forward.
“Hey, but, I think, you can still try it. You haven’t tried it yet, so how do you know it’s all bad? You just keep repressing yourself and releasing Pikachu!” Qiu Yu stretched out her hand Patted her shoulder.
“That’s my nature. I feel that love has no meaning, so I don’t care. In that case, what’s the point of being depressed?” Yan Beiqi replied after getting off the elevator.
“Really? That woman you posted last night…” At this moment, Qiu Yu suddenly questioned her back.
“She’s really just a friend.” Yan Beiqi opened the car door and put things in.
“Okay. As your friend, I sincerely hope that you can face your true thoughts and stop denying them. Hey, I won’t say more, see you next time, bye.” Qiu Yu waved at her, and then He also walked to his car.
Yan Beiqi nodded and got into the car.
When she got home, she put her things down and started packing her suitcase.
After a while, after tidying up the box, what Qiu Yu said echoed in Yan Beiqi’s mind.
Shaking his head, Yan Beiqi got up and continued to pack other things.
However, after arranging things, Qin Yipuan’s face flashed across Yan Beiqi’s mind again.
Stopping what he was doing, Yan Beiqi sat down against the wall and stared at the ground.
She should just admire Queenie and… the feeling between friends.
As for the feeling of physical contact… Maybe it’s just like Qiu Yu said, it’s just a simple physiological impulse. Although I don’t quite understand what happened. Queenie is a person she admires so much, and herself, actually…
Could it be that as long as it’s an animal, most of them can’t escape that or something? This… absolutely cannot be known by her.
Late one night a week later.
Qin Yichuan tapped the last symbol on the document, then closed the document, rubbed his shoulders and stood up.
As a result, just standing up, she saw darkness in front of her, so frightened that she hurriedly supported the table with both hands, and slowly got rid of the dizziness.
Hypoglycemia? Yes, I ate something at that time of the morning today, and haven’t eaten since then.
Turning on her phone, Qin Yipun searched for takeaways nearby, but found that the restaurants she wanted to eat were basically closed, and the rest were of little interest.
Silently, Qin Yichuan took a screenshot and posted it on his Moments: “I remember that Little Confused Restaurant doesn’t close at 23:00, why does it close so early? Forget it, I’ll make my own food.”
After the circle of friends sent it out, Qin Yipun went to the kitchen. However, today’s cooking is particularly unfeeling. When Qin Yichuan chopped a chicken leg to shreds, but still failed to chop it into pieces, she gave up.
I took a picture, posted it on the Moments, wrote “Forget it, I won’t eat it, I want to be a fairy.” After sending it out, I went to the living room and a Ge You lay down on the sofa.
Nothing to do… Speaking of which, I haven’t seen Yan Beiqi for half a month.
In the past half month, because she was busy writing, and because she wanted to pull herself out of the quagmire, she basically did not send any news to Yan Beiqi.
Occasionally Yan Beiqi sent a message, and she just said a few words and passed.
I feel like I’m making progress. If this continues, after a while, she will definitely have no feelings for Yan Beiqi.
But… thinking about it like this, Qin Yipun opened Weibo and inexplicably went to Yan Beiqi’s homepage.
Under a recent Weibo comment, there was a thread: “I heard that the editor-in-chief Yan has a prosperous beauty, please take a selfie~”
strange.
Later, she also found out that Yan Beiqi had liked a person named “It’s a gray moon, not a gray wolf” two hours ago.
That person’s avatar was a selfie, and the most important thing was Li Ye.
After Qin Yipun saw it, he accidentally entered the Weibo page of “It’s Gray Moon, Not Gray Wolf”. There is no orange V certification, and the personal profile is written: “third-rate writer, BGBLGL all-in-one, witty girl who loves life”.
Yan Beiqi liked Gray Moon’s new book promotion blog. Then after scrolling down, Qin Yipuan saw that Huiyue had also posted a WeChat chat picture, with the text: “Moved!”
When I clicked on the picture, I saw that the content of the conversation between the two was about writing.
Yan Beiqi said: “I personally appreciate your writing. If you stick to it, you will definitely have a bright future.”
Then Gray Moon said, “Really? I’m so nervous, begging for kisses, hugs, and begging to be high!”
So Yan Beiqi replied, “…What?”
The nickname she set for Yan Beiqi was “Editor-in-Chief of Super Warm Heart Yan”.
When Qin Yichuan saw this, he sat up on the sofa with a swipe, and then turned to the comment area with his legs crossed.
Louie’s Kingdom: “Yoyo, this is the editor you often praise on Weibo, the editor who looks better than the stars?”
Xiaohai loves to study: “Greyyue seems to be always mentioning her recently, could it be… hehehe, forgive me for thinking crooked~”
Fly0: “It’s so sweet, when will you be together?! I want to be your CP fan hahaha!”
…
Then, Gray Moon pretended to reply to Fly0: “Why are you so good at brainstorming?! Editor-in-chief Yan and I are clearly pure friendship!”
Yan Beiqi also replied, “It’s just a normal communication between friends, please don’t get me wrong”.
But that Fly0 chased back and said, “Hey, but I still love you so much, Xingxingyan~”
Sweet you old man!
Although Yan Beiqi’s reply is quite a face for CP fans, but I still think… wow, so unpleasant!
Originally thought that he would not care so much for Yan Beiqi, but when he saw that kind of evaluation, Qin Yichuan was so angry that he almost spat out blood.
Finally unable to bear it anymore, Qin Yichuan created a trumpet and named it “Critical Girl 007”, and then went straight to the Weibo comment area of Gray Moon, commenting: “This can also be used by human brains. It’s so much to make up? It’s funny, I really don’t know what’s so good about it, isn’t it just the everyday language that editors use to comfort authors? It’s really amazing.”
After commenting, Qin Yipuan suddenly felt that he was a mentally retarded thing.
Damn it, what about being friends? People are not CP, so it’s none of your business? Weird.
However, he still couldn’t help but want to smash the air.
A few minutes later, Fly0 replied to her: “I’m making up my mind, can I be happy? Aunt, why are you so lenient?”
After Qin Yi looked at it, his whole state was like a ghost running rampant on the street late at night. No, she really wants to kill people.