LIGHTNOVELONLINE The day before
I have been here for a few days. Nothing has changed. This atmosphere, this place, this feeling is always the same. But it cannot be anything else. For this is where I was born. Whether it is at the beginning of my whole life or my current life. This place is where I will meet the end. I can see that the ending and beginning of my story will be in this room. As I think by myself, I hear someone knocking on the door.
“Enter.”
Head maid enters the room. There was something that I had already noticed from the beginning but I never understood. Looking at a lot of people, I finally understand what it is. I remain in my current position and do not look towards her.
“Milady, I have come here to inform you that I have informed Sylvia about your order.”
“Good.”
I do not say anything more. I wonder what she will do now?
“Milady.”
“Is there something else?”
“Are you sure?”
I smile. Interesting. I turn towards Head maid and I stare at her eyes. Yes, I finally understand what I felt when I looked at those eyes.
“You would need to explain more than that, head maid.”
“Is it wise to involve Sylvia in the activities this early? She has not broken yet.”
True. Even in the game, Sylvia will only truly break by the end of the first year. It was never shown how but it is easy to understand that she finally breaks after the events of this break.
“So?”
“It would be dangerous for you to bring her with you.”
“Oh, really? If it has worked for my father, why would it not work for me?”
I see her confusion on her face.
“I do not understand, mistress.”
“Well, you have not exactly full broken, right?”
I finally understand. Head maid is broken but there is something more than that. She has fully accepted her fate but continues to pursue what she wants. Whatever it may be. It has become an intense obsession.
“I do not know what you mean, milady.”
“Really? Then, you will not mind me telling my father about it?”
“The master will not believe you.”
“True but that is not important, is it? The very fact that I have doubts would plant those doubts inside him. So, can you achieve what you wish with even a sliver of a doubt?”
I wait for her answer.
“I understand, milady.”
“Good.”
“How did you figure it out?”
“It is all because of Emilia. What is your relationship with her?”
“It is complicated.”
Yes. Emilia has already provided a hint for me. It is all too easy to guess.
“Emilia was too cooperative. She seemed too eager to satisfy me.”
“Is that not normal, mistress?”
“It is but she is the principal. People in a certain position of power tend to be suspicious of new people. But she did not have any suspicions about me.”
“She works for the family. That is normal.”
“Ah. But she is not completely in our control, right?”
Head maid looks away.
“She is not involved in whatever secret activities my father does. She at most is an informant that passes information to us but she is never given private information. Which is why it is a wonder, why does she know about me?”
Head maid does not reply.
“Quite easy to guess, is it not? Father will not share anything about me to her. So, there could only be one person who would have the means and reason to do so.”
I stare head maid in the eyes.
“You, head maid. It can only be you. This complicated relationship of yours, how long has it been going on?”
“Since childhood.”
“Is it one-sided? Have you been stringing her along this whole time? Have you been manipulating her feelings for you all this time?”
“I-“
“Shh. You do not need to answer that question.”
I put my finger on head maid’s mouth.
“But that begs the question, does it not? Since it is complicated, that could mean that it is one-sided but then what does that mean? Do you have someone else you love? Who could it be?”
I move closer to head maid. I smile at her as I talk. I see her eyes shiver as I come closer.
“Who do you love? Who are you doing this for? Who are you waiting for? Who are you enduring all of this for? So many questions but it only has one answer.”
I circle around her.
“Could it be father? Father for all his deeds refuses to bed another woman than his own wife. Do you want him? Are you waiting for something to happen so that you can slide in and take him for yourself? No, right?”
I stand in front of her. I put both of my hands on her shoulders and pull her down. She can easily resist but she does not and falls to her knees. I smile wider and move my face closer to hers.
“It is my mother.”
I see her eyes shiver as I say so.
“HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!”
I laugh as I look at her. Ah, I had an inkling but I still could not stop myself from laughing.
“Do you enjoy it when you tie her? Do you enjoy it when father asks you to do anything for her? Are you enduring all of this just to have a chance to be with her? Is your goal to be with her?”
Head maid looks down and does not look towards me.
“Ah. I am done with you now. You can go.”
I turn away from Head maid and lay down on the bed. I hear some movement.
“Fix yourself. I do not want father to notice whatever may have happened to you.”
I hear her stand up and leave the room. How interesting. I have something planned for you in the future head maid but for now, I need to focus on something else. I wonder if mother is desperate enough? I gave her a choice after all. I am excited to see what choice she makes. Either one will not change anything around this world, after all. Ah, how exciting.